I'll Never Let Them Hurt You

The Old Room.

So many memories in this room. Not just because it's where I fell for Gerard, but because me and my dad had spent hours in here. He taught me how to play guitar and what trees were the best types to climb and how to identify different species of animals and fish along with other things. I remember sitting on my window seat with him looking out at Belleville in the dark and making up stories about the people we saw walking about. They're nice memories, ones i'll never forget.

"Frank? You okay?" Gerard asked me.

"Uh yeah, just thinking." I replied, cuddling up to him on the bed.

"About what? Anything in particular?"

"Just this room, everything connected to it."

"Hm," We both went silent for a moment before Gerard said, "it's where I first acknowledged that I had feelings for you."

A warm sensation filled my body and I got butterflies, I stared at the ceiling in an attempt to distract myself. "Really?" I asked simply after fixing on a spot.

"Yeah. At the time I was really worried because you were so young but you can't help your feelings right?" he said.

"No you can't. I should know, it's where I fell for you." I said it slowly, still staring at the ceiling.

I felt Gerard's weight shift on the bed as he turned on his side to face me. He put his mouth near my ear and whispered those infamous words, "Nothing can get you here. I'll never let them hurt you."

The warm feeling came back. I turned around and looked at him. He smiled and kissed me delicately. I don't think i've ever felt more in love with him. I pushed my lips back onto Gerards, eager to show him how much I love him. He put a hand on the back of my head and pulled me in closer, looks like we're thinking the same thing.

"Gee?" I asked after pulling away.

"Yeah?" He replied.

"I love you."

Gerard directed my face back towards his lips again. Why didn't he say it back? I started feeling nervous, what if i'd said it too early? He pulled away from the kiss and put his hand on my cheek, gently sweeping his thumb back and forth on my cheekbone. He could see the worry on my face and I could see tears welling in his eyes.

"I love you too. So much." The last part was barely a whisper but I heard it. The feelings that surged through me were phenomenal. I don't think I could have been more in love with him if I tried.

Our lips met again. Gerard's hand went from my cheek to my back and he pulled me in closer. Somehow I managed to twist myself around and get on top of him, he knew what I wanted. I didn't want this to be like all the other times. In fact I wanted it to be more like our first time together because it was like our first proper connection if that makes sense? We somehow managed to get our boxers off and I positioned myself over him, taking the bottle of lube from the side before I did. As I got myself ready, Gerard repositioned the pillows behind his head.

He reached his hand down between his legs and helped to guide my dick. He let out a sharp breath and screwed his eyes shut.

"You okay?" I asked.

"Yeah, you know what it's like."

I smiled at him and started moving slowly. He wrapped his arms around me and I leant down to kiss him. I wanted to take this slow. With every movement, Gerard let out deep breaths in my ear and the occasional small moan.

"Shh," I smiled and kissed him again. When I pulled away his eyes lingered on mine. I stared back into them, talking in the odd glints and the different shades of brown and green that flashed across them, taking in his dilated pupils that wavered ever so slightly after he blinked. God I love this man. After kissing him again, my pace quickened. His breathing sped up and the moans started escaping more frequently from both of us.

"Frank, slow down." Gerard said eventually, grabbing my arse and dragging what was left of his chewed nails across it. The ripple of electricity that went through me made me calm down and I reminded myself that I wanted to do this unhurriedly. That sudden sexual urge had pushed me too far though and I was close to coming.

"Gee, I think I'm gonna..." Gerard cut me off.

"Don't, I wanna cum with you." He grabbed his own dick and started working on it. His breathing became shallow and rapid again. I knew he was close. I put my hands on his hips and pushed myself deep inside him, stopping for a few seconds before pulling out again.

"Fuck, Frank. Frank." His hips bucked and I was forced to let go. We both came making a ridiculous amount of noise. When my breathing slowed down and my heart stopped pounding I pulled out of Gee, kissed him on the forehead and collapsed down next to him.

"I love you."

"I love you too, Gee. We should go clean up."

"When I can stand." Gerard laughed.