Chapter 7

"OK! Let's say our goodbyes and we can leave." she said struggling to get up. I took the cigarette from her hand and put it out.

"BYE EVERYBODY! HAD A NICE TIME!" I yelled dragging my mom outside.

"Slow down hunny! Why are you in...uh...sucha hurry?" she started to slur her words and she was stumbling as I pulled her outside to the car.

"Mom I knew you would do this! You always do and you always leave me to pick up after you! This is not a game anymore! You're drunk and you can't drive like this!" I took the beer bottle she was about to sip from and threw in on the ground. It shattered kinda like my heart did at the same moment it hit the ground. I took out my phone cause I knew no one else in that house is going to drive me. I called Kevin he would know what to do.

With the Jonas Boys

Kevin, Joe, and Nick were in the tour bus waiting for Tabby. She was supposed to have been there a couple minutes ago. Where is she? I hope nothing has happened. She would probably call us by now, Joe thought. Kevin's phone started to ring. He bother to check who it was he just answered it.

"Hello?" He said.

"It's...Tabby..." It sounded as if she was struggling to speak.

"Hey! You are supposed to be here. Wait...are you crying?" Joe shot up as soon as he said crying.

"WHAT!?! why is she crying Kevin!?!" he said trying to grab the phone from him. He put is hand on the phone and turned to look at Joe.

"Joe she called ME. OK? So I am talking to her. If she wanted to talk to you she would have called your phone. So be quiet please!" he told Joe and he sat back down. He put the phone back to his ear.

"Kevin...I need help. My mom well she can't drive me..." she was definitely crying.

"Whoa whoa whoa. What's wrong? Why are you crying?" he was seriously worried about her. Even if they had all just met her three days ago they felt like they all knew each other for their whole lives. And everybody was confused on as to why they felt like this. Anyway...

"That's not important right now!...what is important is that I am not allowed to drive by the state of Ohio! And she definitely can't drive...and no one else will drive me there. So you have..to come pick me up. My mom needs to stay here...she just has to ok? Just come and get me please Kevin..." she said through her tears. But Kevin understood her perfectly fine.

"Ok ok just calm down. It's no problem we can come and get you. Text Joe the directions and we will be there ok?"

"Ok. Thanks...um I have to go.." and with that she hung up before Kevin could say anything.

Back to Tabby's POV

I had to hang up with Kevin cause of course my mom started to throw up. It was only beer! She shouldn't have even started to drink it. Why does my life have to always go the wrong ways? It always leads me on roads that always end with a dead end...

I took out my phone and texted Joe the directions to my grandma's house. My mom somehow managed to get back into the house to drink some more. And none of the guys in the house noticed it. So no one could do anything. I sat on the cold ground waiting for them to come and help me out of this hell hole. I sat there crying my heart out until I heard a bus. I wiped away all my tears and tried to look as if nothing had happened. Even if I knew they would see right through it. I hopped up and fixed my NASCAR hat and pulled down my tear stained shirt. They pulled in as I was opening the trunk back up to get my stuff out. Kevin was the first one out of that bus.

"Hey Tabby! What's wrong?!" he hugged me protectively. I hugged back with the little strength I had.

"Nothing..just let me go so we can go. Alright?" I let go of him but he didn't let go of me.

"No not alright! We drove down here for a reason. Me and you both know that you are not fine." he let go but then Joe finally came out practically tripping over himself. He ran up to me like I was about to die or something.

"What's wrong? Why did we have to come down here? And why were you crying?" I hugged him back but just like Kevin he didn't let go. Of course they were worried about me but when I am upset I don't need anyone feeling sorry or worrying about me. I am fine on my own. And plus that only makes everything harder on me.

"It doesn't matter. Let's just go." I tried to say without losing my cool. It finally let go of me and I tried to turn back and get my suitcase out but he put is hands on my shoulders and turned me around to look at him. He toke one of his hands to lift my chin up to look him in the eye and placed it back on my shoulder.

"It does matter a lot to me. Can't you get that we care about you?" Joe said.

"Joe let go. You wouldn't understand even if you tried. Even if I ever decide to tell you." I told him with a tone in my voice. I told him twice if he doesn't let go this time there will be hell for him to pay.

"Fine. You don't want help you won't get it. When you decide that you can accept that we care about you call me. But for now we agreed that we would take care of you for these months we are going to be on tour and I can't break a promise." Joe said angrily. It's not like it made me scared of him I looked at him as if he said nothing and that pissed him off even more. He let go and stormed back into the bus.

"Don't worry about him he has anger management problems. He just wants you to accept that we care about you. He could have handled it a lot better though. I don't care what you do or say to me or my brothers I will always care. No matter if you stab me in the back or kill my whole family I will still care. Not that that's realistic at all. That's just the way it goes. When you love someone it's unconditionally that's how it will always be. Don't let Joe get to you. He will come around in about 15 minutes he can't stay mad forever. I'm serious he can't." I chuckled softly and he smiled at me. It made my heart skip a few beats. WHOA! Tabby get a hold of yourself.

"Thanks Kevin. And when I do accept that I will mean it. I'm not ready that's all okay? There are things that aren't easy for me that may be easy for you." I hugged him and he hugged back.

"Your welcome. I guess that's how it is you know? I'm understanding like that I know. I'm here if you ever need anything. Anytime any place. It doesn't matter where ever you are I promise I will be there when you need me ok?" he stroked my hair to comfort me. I inhaled his scent, took in his warmth. It felt so right. His embrace made me feel protected. Like there was nothing that could harm me. He rubbed my back and we let go.

"Let's get this show on the road then!" I smiled up at him and he smiled back. Then Joe and Nick came out cheering and yelling.

"Let's go people we don't have all day!" Joe said taking my suitcase out of the trunk. It was super big so I only had one. Plus I'm not like all those girls that can't wear the same things a million times and still love wearing it. I took my back pack out and Kevin closed it. We all got on to the bus and I wasn't really amazed at it. It's not like I haven't been on a bus before. Like when I used to go to church back when my grandma brung me. There was this gospel band called The Dove Brothers. They eventually were getting bigger by the second and they started touring to churches across the US. Johnny the lead was like an uncle to me and of course he thought of me as the daughter he never had. Of course they would stay in the tour bus that was parked in the lot so I would go and play there. But then I wouldn't see them only when they would come back. Then they broke up kind of because they were getting to old so they still play in our church and I see them when I go there. I normally go like once a week to see them and pray to God for things that I know can't happen. Well it wasn't a long drive back to the venue they were playing at tonight. They already had sound check so we had an hour and a half before lock down.

"So what are we going to do for the next hour and a half?" I asked the boys. They were just sitting there staring at the blank TV screen. "BOYS!" I yelled that made them all jump and they all fell on to the ground.

"Ow why did you have to do that?!"Nick said rubbing his head.

"Well staring at a blank TV screen is not exactly what people call entertaining. Sitting around here isn't fun either."

"It was for that five minutes I got lost in thought." Kevin said laughing. Realizing what all three of them were just doing. They laughed and got off their butts. All they did was get up to sit back on the couch.

"Wow this is going to be this boring the whole time?" I asked. It was boring so far cause uh duh we haven't done anything.

-Billy made a promise but didn't end though
Carrie had a dream but she threw it out the window
Kevin met a nice girl who broke his heart and
His friends never told him but they knew it from the start and...
These are the things we go through
Let's take control and be ourselves
Let's not waste time wondering about
How we're gonna make it out-

my phone rang. I jumped it scared me it was so loud breaking the comfortable silence.

"When did I meet a nice girl? Oh and how come my friends never told me they knew it from the start that she was going to break my heart." Kevin laughed I mocked his laugh.

"That was a song but my favorite band ever. Never heard of them? Didn't think so cause you're not cool like me!" I joked.

"Seriously though that's a great song what I heard of it. Who's this favorite band of yours?" Joe said.

"They just happen to be someone cooler than you'll ever be!" I still joked. They knew I was.

"Who is it?" Kevin asked again for Joe.

"I already answered that question and Joe never send me a stupid text when you are like 2 feet away from me that says I'm hungry!" I laughed at him. That's what he did. Seriously he's a goof ball.

"So you're saying that we basically suck?" Nick said.

"Ah finally catching on boys. You're exactly right Nicola." ah I so love messing with them. It's so fun you should try it! Ha-ha.

"Ok that's it." Joe said as they all walked towards me.

"Oh-no. uh..I'm sorry you know I was just joking right? Come on I'm sure we can settle this another way. Please?" I begged.

"Kevin hold her!" Joe said and I screamed laughing. They were all tickling me. It was only a minor no sorry MAJOR weakness. Kinda like the MAJOR weakness in my knees when I had hugged Kevin out at the car. OH MY GOSH. I can not be falling for guys I just met. I'm sorry but I know that his can not be happening. Cause you know what I'm going to wake up from this big dream and I will wake up in my bed at home regretting going to sleep in the first place. Yeah as Kevin held me down giving me goosebumps on my arms. That I hope no one saw especially Kevin and Joe and Nick were tickling me. I was laughing so hard I was turning red. I finally caught enough breath to say. "Uncle! Mercy! Please stop. Dudes I will so bash your faces in!" after I finished that last sentence they immediately stopped and let go of me. I sat back up on the couch.

"You guys are so mean!" I punched Kevin playfully on the arm and whacked Nick and Joe upside the heads while they were all still in reach. "That was a nice way too spend uh let's see 3 minutes. What else is there to do in this stupid bus?"

"Us mean? Who just beat us up?!" Joe said rubbing the back of his head.

"You know you just admitted that you just got beat up by a girl." Kevin stated the obvious.

"What? Oh yeah man! You suck. And Bertha is not stupid!" Joe said protecting his precious bus. I wonder what he would do if I wrecked it? Muahahahaha!

"This bus IS boring. And Joe why name a bus? I mean it's not like you can drive it! And it's not like being cooped up in here is exactly FUN." Nick said.

"Fine be that way. I'm not the one who is obsessed with who uses his SOCKS!" Joe said.

"Dude what are you gonna marry the bus or something!?" I said.

"Yeah go outside and make out with it why don't you!?" Kevin backed me up.

"Gah you guys are so mean. I mean you can't even accept that I love a bus but you can't do anything about it!" Joe like totally pretended to be upset and sat on top on me. Like he was totally crushing my lap dude!

"Joe get off me!" I yelled.

"Why should I do what you want me too? I mean you're the one who started making fun of my love for Bertha!" Joe said.

"Get off her dude can't you just get over it! It's bus man. It doesn't kiss or talk back!" Nick said. We all laughed. Well except me cause of course I was getting my legs crushed.

"Joe please get off before I use force!" I yelled in his ear and he dropped dead silence. He pretended too die right then and there and fell off me and on too the floor faking dead.

"YAY you killed him with your eyes! Dude can you teach me how too do that?" Kevin said and Joe's head shot up.

"What you're happy!? You're officially the worst big brother on the planet!" Joe got up having a fake mad face on. It was quite a funny sight.

"Haha good job Kev your little brother hates you. Eh you have two others that love you so who cares?" I admit what I just said was a little mean but I mean it was so funny to mess with Joe like this.

"You guys are so mean!" Joe whined crossing his arms after he got up off the ground.

"Yeah we know." Me and Kev said in unison. It's like he read my mind or something. Weird.

"Well that was really weird. Are you sure you guys aren't like physic?" Nick joked.

"Well I'm done being mad at you people. It's not even worth it anymore. It only benefits you. Feeds you horrible souls with happiness cause you were so mean you got me close to tears!" Joe joked. Gah it was so sweet how funny he is. I just had to laugh. Not obnoxiously loud and for a long time or whatever. Just slightly. Just looking at him made me smile.

"We all know you were joking anyway Jo-E." I still have too call him that all the time. I don't know why.

We talked and laughing a bunch and then before me knew it was actually lock down time. I never knew it would come so fast. That bus wasn't boring with me there that's for sure. I always have some way to make some amount of fun. We did a prayer and of course the campfire. Wow they just take me in and treat e as if I were family. I didn't feel like I was out of place like I do all the time. I feel like this was the right place for me to be. Here goes the music

"We're the kids, we're the kids, we're the kids of the future!"

THE CONCERT WAS GREAT! Except when they picked this girl named Nadia to sing Hello Beautiful too and she cried. I mean she was BALLIN'. Haha I had to say that. Crazy impulse that I have of course. Haha. My favorite song they didn't play. Which was Move On the song Joe put on my phone. I love it it's funny too. And they just walked off the stage.

"That was a great show! So Tabby how was it for you?" Kevin said as all the boys walked closer to me. I stepped back a few steps.

"It was awesome. And you guys are sweaty and gross!" I said plugging my nose. This was all fun but they seriously were like really sweaty and gross!

"Well in that case give me a hug!" Joe said and they all walked toward me.

"Ew no hug for you guys until you have a shower!" I tried to back up but I hit a wall. GREAT ew. I got a huge wet smelly sweaty hug from all of them. GROUP HUG. I had the weirdest face on. Total Kodak moment. Even if they were all sweaty and gross they still give the best hugs. And it it still good to be in their arms. Now the only thing that was different was goosebumps. I didn't have any. Well of course it was kinda gross here! "You know you guys could let go anytime now!"

"Ok guys I think that's enough torture for her!" Nick said releasing me. And finally after another couple of seconds Kevin and Joe let me go.

"YAY is it safe for me to breath air now?"

"Of course it is Tabitha.."Kevin started.

"Lillian.." Nick started. They are about this close to getting a butt whoopin'

"Farce!" Joe shrieked like a little girl. It made my ears want to bleed. I just started to walk to the exit. This time I couldn't hold it in. I toke it ok the other day but today it was just too much on top of my mom getting drunk again. Good it was raining. I walked out. Now no one will know I'm crying cause the rain hides it all with raindrops. That's why I love the rain. I sat on the sidewalk. I would have ran but I have no idea where I am. And if I run away I don't know what will happen to me. I was drenched in rain already. It was raining down hard. My blonde/black hair was sticking to my face. I had took my pony tail holder out and let it hang down under my hat before the concert. I suddenly heard the exit door I just came from close shut as I sat on the curb. I felt a hand on my shoulder. I could tell by his touch that it was...

END OF CHAPTER!