"A few sessions ago, you mentioned that you don't like to remember your life, do you think you're finally ready to tell me why?" Archie asked in a calm voice and he pushed his glasses further up on his nose.

Regina cocked her head to the side and kept quiet for a moment. She didn't really know how to answer such a question, how are you supposed to answer that question? Because most of my life I wished it would just stop.. all the pain, all the suffering. But I'm not the suicidal type? No, a little too dramatic for Regina's liking. And even though she was starting to trust the man, it was still a hard topic to talk about.

"It wasn't so much a life as it was torture." Oh well, there wasn't really a good way to describe her life anyway.

She could see that the doctor was slightly taken aback by her direct and truthful answer. His eyes went a little wider and his eyebrows shot up. Regina noticed because her mother had taught her how to read people, because, well, Cora Mills always liked to know everything there was to know about her enemies. 'Bring them down before they bring you down'. It had surprised Regina that her mother hadn't embroidered it on a fucking cushion.

"Would you like to tell me about it?"

She thought about it, did she want to share her horrid excuse of a life with the shrink of the prison she was trapped in because she had shot and killed her husband with his own service gun. The first answer that came up was a 'no!' but of course it was then that she remembered the words of that annoyingly charming blonde officer. 'You need to talk to someone or it'll keep haunting you.' Goddammit, she hated it when Swan was right!

"It all started on a Friday night." She started and Dr. Hopper was immediately alert, it was the first time she was really sharing something about her life. "Leo was out for some trainings camp in Boston for three days. It was the first time I was actually alone, since we got married 6 years prior.

I was so happy that I had three days free of the fear that was such a constant factor in my life, the fear of what Leo would do to me. As I said it was a Friday night and I just couldn't stand staying in that horrible cage that I called home, so I went to the local bar. And as I was sitting there, kind of drunk, a man came walking towards me and he sat down next to me."

Regina smiled at the memory. "I looked up at him and immediately thought that he was extremely attractive. He said his name was Daniel and that I should stop drinking because there were some sleezy men over there staring at me. I got angry and told him that he shouldn't tell me what to do. Then one of those sleezy men got over to our table and asked my if this man was harassing me, and if that was the case that he would gladly volunteer to bring me home. Daniel got outraged and hit him square in the face, that was when the man's friends came over and it turned into a fight. I don't know how, but Daniel got us both out of the bar unharmed.

He volunteered to walk me home and I asked him if he was trying to take advantage of me. He just laughed and told me that he got me out if a bar fight alive and said that that was proof enough.

That night was the start of our affair. I still don't know how we've managed to pull it off. But I took every opportunity I could to be with him. Being with him was so different, he didn't hurt me like my husband did, he didn't force me. It all went great for a couple months." She stopped talking and closed her eyes to keep the tears at bay. This was the hardest part, but like Emma said, she needed to get it off of her chest.

"I got pregnant. And it wasn't Leo's. It was Daniel's, and I totally freaked out. But when I told him he was so happy. He asked me to run away with him, to a place far away from there. He suggested Canada, because he said the maple syrup there was the best. We planned to run away a month later, because we still needed to arrange bank accounts and stuff like that. But what happened next only proofed that I could never escape my husband. A few days after Daniel and I made our plans, Leo came home late and he was expecting his dinner. But I was asleep on the couch, because I was exhausted. He got furious when he found me and he yanked me off the couch by my hair."

A tear made it's way down Regina's cheek, but she didn't care to wipe it away, she was lost in her memories. "He started beating me and all I could think of was my baby, I snapped. I yelled at him to stop, that I was pregnant, and the bastard stopped immediately. He was happy and he started kissing me, like he didn't just beat the crap out of his own goddamn wife!" Regina spat the words with as much venom as she could.

"I was too afraid to tell him that the baby was not his. I called Daniel and told him everything. We were devastated and I was to scared to follow through with our plan but we kept seeing each other. I was about five months pregnant when it happened, Leo found out that I was having an affair. He came home and he was enraged, he started yelling at me, screaming I was a whore and that I wasn't worth anything and that Daniel was crazy for wanting to have anything to do with me. He got completely crazy and he locked me up in the garage for a whole night.

4 days later Leo told me with a grin that Daniel had died, he had been in a car accident, his brakes didn't work. I was devastated and a few nights later Leo came home drunk. He screamed at me and said that this baby probably wasn't even his. He grabbed the gun from his holster and pointed it at my stomach. He demanded an answer and I was terrified so I lied and said that the baby was his. He walked over to me and shoved me on the ground, he accused me of being a liar and started beating me. He left after that and didn't come home for the night. I woke up the next morning with a stabbing pain in my stomach and there was blood running down my thighs, in panic I called my father and he took me to the hospital."

A loud sob left Regina's lips, it was a heartbreaking sound and dr. Hopper was shocked to the core by the horrors this woman has gone through. "I lost my baby. He had killed my daughter! So no, I do not feel any remorse for killing that monster."

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The walk back to Regina's cell was very quiet in Emma's opinion. The brunette's eyes were red and glazed over, there were some dried up tear tracks on her unusually pale cheeks.

Emma had the sudden urge to comfort the brunette. Even though the blonde didn't know what had been said in that room, she still felt horrible for Regina. Before she thought clearly she pulled the brunette to the side of the hallway and hugged her tight. Regina stiffened at first but then let her muscles relax. "I'm sorry for what has happened to you, Regina." She said in a soft whisper while the brunette started sobbing and she burried her face in Emma's shoulder.

"I want her back. I want my daughter back." She whimpered softly.

Emma's heart broke and she held the brunette tighter.

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