I was sitting in the small living room I have in my room (we don't have beds because we don't sleep) reading a psychology book

It's interesting how you could read a human been and see if they're lying by their micro expressions and thier body.

I was reading when I heard music in the end of the hall, it was coming from Edward's room I could tell so I focused there, I could hear a heart beat, Bella's presence known in his room. I kept my eyes in the book while my hearing the song playing, Clare of moon, it was mine and Edward's favorite

I smiled closing my eyes while listening. There was a small silence from Edward and Bella but I enjoyed the song, Edward's music always relaxed me or when he's playing piano it's relaxing and helps me with my self control, especially with Bella around here.

I opened my gold eyes set my book aside and left my room to Alice's not before hearing Edward's and Bella's conversation about her not knowing how to dance

"I can't dance" she said, I chuckled shaking my head, I looked to his room seeing the door opened, I smiled in amusement, it was obvious Edward sensed me because of what he said.

"Hmm" he made a thoughtful sound before answer "Well, I could always tell Eliza make you" I smirked amused, I could tell he heard my thoughts because he looked behind his shoulder at me smirking, Bella followed his gaze and looked at me curiously, I left her with the doubt about me as I walked to Alice's bedroom

~8~

Bella's POV

Edward's bedroom had no bed I pointed it out at him and told me he didn't sleep, I was surprised, I mean, I knew being a vampire you didn't need nothing, but I was still surprised he didn't sleep. I guess i'm still getting use to him being no human

I just met his family today, they all are kind, except Rosalie, who seems to hate me but apart from her all of them welcomed me kindly

I looked at Edward's room, he had a lot of music, I played the one he was listening before or the one in the stereo, it was Clare of moon

Edward walked towards me and grabbed my hand, I looked at him uncomfortable, I hope he doesn't make me to dance because I don't know. Looks like faith doesn't hear me, because he placed his hand on my waist, the other one holding my hand, I looked at his eyes while trying to dance, he spun me and me being the one who doesn't know how to dance finished the turn weirdly looking at him apologetically and embarrassed, he looked at me curious

"What?" He asked me amused, I was embarrassed of this, he wanted to dance with me, for crying out loud!

"I can't dance" I answered shaking a little my head, he took a deep breath and tilted his head to the opened door and smiled at me in amusement

"Hmm" he made a thoughtful sound before talking "Well, I could always tell Eliza make you" he looked behind him to the door smirking, I curiously followed his gaze to the door where Eliza, Edward's sister stood in the stairs smirking, her golden eyes showing amusement. She was looking at Edward but not at me, which told me Edward was listening to her thoughts about something and she knew it

I wanted to know what Edward meant of telling Eliza to make me, but before I could ask she left to another room

Edward looked back at me smiling, but I was curious

"What do you mean by 'tell your sister to make me'?" He chuckled but turned serious, Eliza looked like a good person but with self control issues as Jasper, Edward's brother. According to him, they both are new to their animal diet, I could tell she was uncomfortable with me when we were in the kitchen, maybe the others didn't notice it but I did, she was tense at the moment I entered the kitchen, I could see how tight she was holding the knife, how she looked at Dr. Cullen, Edward's father pleadingly and when she was near Jasper far away from me, she was struggling along with Jasper their thirst, their control

So when Edward looked at me like that when I mentioned Eliza, I knew I had to be careful with how I ask this

"Remember what I told you, about how some of us have different talents? Mine being I can read others thoughts and Alice see the future?" He asked me, I nodded knowing where this was going

"Eliza also has a talent, but for her, it's a curse" I looked at him questionably, he sighed "That's how she sees it, she can compel people" he explained, I raised an eyebrow not understanding, he hesitated

"She... Can order people and vampires to do what she wants" he finished, I could note he was sad about his sister and how he cared for her, "But her 'gift' it's complicated, she has to be careful on what she says all the time, everything it comes from her mouth it's an order" he said quietly looking at me and I finally understood...

Eliza never made eye contact with anybody and when I first saw the Cullen's at the cafeteria, she never talked to the others and Jessica and Angela told me she never spoke to anyone, 'She doesn't talk to anybody, she's kind of a loner', I knew now, she was protecting the others from her power. If everything is an order from her, I wouldn't be surprised if she didn't talk to me at all

"That's ..." I trailed off, not knowing what to say about her, I thought at first she was like Rosalie, that she didn't talk to me because she hated me but it wasn't like that at all

Now I would like to now if she really does hate me or not

"I know" he smiled at sadly. He stayed quiet for a couple of seconds, I wanted to change the subject from Eliza, it was obvious he didn't want to talk about her powers, it was as uncomfortable for him as I could imagine for her

Oh" He smiled and said "And if she doesn't want to make you, I could"

"I'm not scared of you" I said quickly and I wasn't, I knew he wasn't going to hurt me, he smiled smugly and amused

"Oh you shouldn't of said that" he grabbed my arms and hold me to his back and sped out of his bedroom

~8~

Eliza's POV

Hearing Edward talk about my curse wasn't something I was keen to do but I wanted to know how he explained it. Everything he said of what I thought of my 'talent' as other vampires could classified it, it was true I saw it as a curse, I still remember the first time when I met Carlisle, I was still a newborn technically, because I couldn't control my thirst, never could, it was like my third or fourth month as vampire, I was considered as a newbie... And a dangerous one...

~8~

FLASHBACK

Eliza's first months as vampire

The thirst was uncontrollable, I was afraid of what I could do, no one was here with me to teach me how to control myself except for who turned me

He was a monster as I am now, he told me when I first turned, that being like this was a gift, that I was superior to the humans, that I could do whatever I wanted, when I wanted and I believed it at first...

My strength was better than others, I was faster than others. While humans had tan skin, dark skin, olive color, my skin was pale, deadly and beautiful pale, people envy me, my posture, my equilibrium was better than before

I was more elegant, my pace was like a queen's from my point of view, all of me was perfect, my dirty brown hair turned beautiful, it never knot itself again

I was perfect, but there were only two things I didn't like from this new me:

1. My red blood eyes

2. The thirst

Being thirsty was the worst, especially when I never learned how to control it. I had to hide in the shadows, it wasn't normal to see a 17 year old girl alone in the streets at night with red eyes. The guy who changed me was nice at me at first, he bought me pretty dresses. After all it was the 1920's, I had to dress nicely

I was used to the routine. It was my fourth month, I think, he turned me, whn everything chnaged for me. I never used my 'gift' on him, he didn't even knew it existed

When I discovered I had one was in the end of my first week of being a vampire when I was feeding from someone. I was hungry and that woman was alone as I was but it was more dangerous for her.

I approached her silently until I appeared in front of her, I was shaking I didn't want to kill her but I knew I wouldn't be able to stop once I started. When she jumped startled for my sudden apparition in front of her, her heart beat increased, it was the only thing I could hear.

I looked at her neck and I noticed her backing away from me slowly, there was a glint of fear in her eyes when she met my red ones, she opened her mouth to scream and I panicked

"Don't scream" I didn't now what I was doing at the moment so I was startled when her eyes clouded gray and when she closed her mouth the gray disappeared and she had a dazed look in her eyes. She kept backing away looking as if she wanted to scream but couldn't, I was confused and saw she was near the street, where I could lose her and I tried to do it again.

"Don't move and come closer" I told her again trying to see if it could work

I was surprised when she obeyed me as when I told her not to scream and I wanted to know if she would obey me again and to my surprise she did, her eyes clouded again while she did what I told her and when she stopped in front of me, the grey left her eyes and turned to their blue color with still a dazed look on them

I was to hungry too be surprised and bite her neck and again I was surprised she didn't make a sound...

That's when I found out my power. At first it was a gift for me, it was useful at the time to feed, I had fun with the people I killed even if I still had the remorse but having fun with them made it a little easier, I never abused them and tried to compel them to not feel the pain. I was a monster but I've tried to give them not painful deaths.
I never told him of my gift and he never asked me if I had one becuase he said that if I didn't show signs of an ability in my first three days, i wouldn't develop any. He was wrong. I kept it on secret for the next 4 months.

When people started to take everything and I mean EVERYTHING I said as an order was when my gift turned a curse, at first I had to make eye contact to order them but then even the smallest word I said they took it as an order. All went bad when I made unwillingly two people kill each other.

There was a group of people with me, two men and three women it was horrible, the worst I could've done.

That's when Carlisle found me he wasn't alone I remember, but he found me alone.

I was covering my red eyes with my hands, I had them closed thinking if I had them closed and covered it wouldn't turn real what I had done, if could've cried in that moment if I could, but no tear came not even a sob. That was another reminder that I wasn't normal but a monster

That night I was in the corner of the alley hidden in the shadows of the wall where no one would see my guilt form their deaths when I felt a hand in my shoulder, I tensed not wanting to look up to the person that was going to judge me

"It's okay, don't be afraid, I won't hurt you" I heard a kind voice belonging to man

Oh! How wrong he was

He was telling me to not be afraid of him that he wouldn't hurt me when I easily could order his own death

"It's you who should be afraid, from me" I said it as quietly as I could not wanting to be an order "I'm a monster, just leave before you end like them" I raised my head to but never opened my eyes, I didn't want to look at his face and make him do something he wouldn't do

"Open your eyes, child" he said kindly, I shook my head knowing I would freak him out

He took my hands in him, his hands were cold as mine I furrowed my eyebrows, not feeling him differently from those humans, his body temperature was like mine

He was like me

I looked down his hands in mine opening my red eyes slowly, his hands were pale not a difference from mine. One of his hands traveled to my chin and lifted it so he could see my face, I wanted to turn my face down again, but his grip was strong almost like mine

I looked at his eyes, expecting them to be a blue, brown or green color, but they were golden, an unnatural golden like my unnatural red. He was blond his skin was pale like mine, his beauty was notorious like mine he was like me

I couldn't hear his heart beat, he was an undead too like me, a Vampire.

But unlike me, his eyes that was the difference.

He looked down at me smiling kindly, but he was still alert. I flickered my eyes away from his face, I didn't want to compel him

"I won't hurt ..." He started talking but I cut him off

"I'm not worried about me, but about you, if you won't hurt me thank you, but I will, even if I don't want to" the last was whisper expecting him not to hear it, I wanted to scare him, to leave me alone, but seeing his face I notifed he did

"How are you gonna hurt me?" I closed my eyes knowing if I kept talking I would hurt him

"If I keep talking" he looked confused, he stood grabbing my arms making me stand too

"Would you explain that?" He asked me, I bit my lip and shook my head not wanting to order him, I saw him nod

"Are you a newborn?" He asked me again, I looked at him confusion written in my face "When were you changed?" He rephrase his question, I looked down trying to remember

"Four months ago" I answered looking down.

"No one has teach you?" He asked me with surprised tone

"What?" I asked looking up

"Control your thirst" he said sternly but kind at the same time, I shook my head looking at the bodies, guilt tugging at me strongly, the man put himself in front of me hiding the bodies from my sight

"I can't, I've tried, but I can't" I said sadly, the man placed his strong hand in my shoulder making me look up at his kind golden eyes

"Alone?" I nodded my head

"You won't be able to do it alone, you need someone to help you" he offered me his hand, I looked at it surprised and looked at him hesitant "Do you see my eyes? The golden?" I nodded my head and he smiled

"I have this diet, I don't drink human blood" my eyes widened at his statement, how it's that possible?

he smiled at my reaction

"It's possible, dear, I drink from animals, animal blood" it made sense, it was blood after all "I could teach you how if you come with me" I looked up startled, not seeing his invitation coming

I mean he said he would help me, but he never mentioned me to go with him

"If I...?" I trailed off

"If you come with me, you look like you don't have a place to live, you could live with me and my wife"

There were more like me, his wife? Could she be a vampire too?

"Her name is Esme, she would love to have a girl with us" I looked confused

"Us?"

"Me and my son, Edward" he had a family.

"Uh..." I trailed off awkwardly

"They are not my real family if that's what you are wondering, like I said, I can help you"

I accepted and met Edward and Esme, they weren't too close with me because I was new in their clan and besides technically a newborn who couldn't control her thirst and even if they supported me they were afraid of me, even now...

I always had a trouble with human blood

~8~

Remembering that day always made me happy, it was when I met my family well a part of it, Rosalie, Emmett, Alice and Jasper came in a near future where I had always struggled with human blood

I remember being surprise when Carlisle suggested me and Jasper to go to school in this town. We are the only ones in the family that had fed more than a couple of days human blood when we were turned, me having 4 months of human blood while Jasper who knows, maybe more than a year or maybe more

I'm grateful that Carlisle helped me when he found me, otherwise I don't know what would have been of me this days.