AN Oh my goodness! An update. Please leave a review and thanks so much for the reviews up to now! It's really short but hey it's a chapter. Grammer - I KNOW - but I wrote this on wordpad so meh.
Disclaimer Don't own it. I own my own ideas, and my own reasons for a Paige/Cole shipping, but that's it! Oh and I own the computer this has been written on. I used the lyrics "Cold" by Crossfade.
Cold
The raindrops hit the window in hard, repetitive patterns. Slowly drifting down the window, leaving small patterns behind only to be wiped away as another raindrop fell and drew it to the bottom of the windowsill. Paige held her knees close to her chin and watched from her sitting position at the grey clouds dropping their cold, demanding water onto passersby and the freshly cut lawns of her neighbours. Rain, wasn't Paige's favourite weather but it was better than wind. The howling cold of it would keep her awake at night, and when she was awake her mind replayed the day, four months ago, that she longed to forget. She lent her chin on her knees, the sound of Ben in the background playing with the car-game he had received for Christmas interrupting her thoughts several times, but each time she went back to her own, living nightmare.
She ran after him, her dress becoming dirty from the floor followed closely by Cole and Jenny. Her mascara was down her face and her hair was becoming increasingly wild with the strong wind that was blowing through the church yard.
"John please…don't give up. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry" Paige watched as he stopped at the front of the gates and turned to look at her, he took a few steps forward before stopping again,
"You're sorry Paige, yet you're in love with someone else. I can't be with someone, who dreams of another man at night, or who wishes they were with him rather than you" He glanced at Cole who stood several feet behind Paige. Paige bit back some tears and watched as John walked away without another word, he opened the gates and they let out an agonizing groan. She turned and saw Cole and Jenny behind her,
"You deserve each other" Jenny spat, causing Cole to spin on his heels and stare at her regret swamped his eyes.
"No, baby. It's you I love" He walked towards her, "Me and Paige - last night - I was going to tell you. Jenny it was a mistake I swear" Jenny looked past him and saw Paige, obviously overcome with jealousy and grief.
"I don't know Cole" Following the same pattern as John, she walked past Cole and shot a glare at Paige before walking out of the church yard. Cole and Paige stole a glance at one another before Cole walked back into the church without uttering a word.
"Mom!" Bens cry pulled Paige back from her memories and she looked at over at her son, sat cross legged on the floor. "My controller wont work! Can you fix it?" Paige stared at him for a moment before moving herself off of the windowsill and going to him,
"Later sweetie, time to get ready though. Your dad and…" She trailed off as she heard the car pull up outside, before she had a chance to finish it even if she wanted to, Ben was off the floor in a shot and grabbing his coat in a rush and holding it in his hands, coming to the conclusion it would take longer to put on and he'd rather hold it. There was a knock at the door which was answered by the young boy,
"Dad, you're here. Are you staying?" He jumped excitedly, Cole smiled slightly and walked into the house. He was greeted in the hallway by Paige who stood at the doorway, leaning slightly and she had her arms crossed. Cole gave her a solemn look at Paige felt herself stiffen, Ben continued to jump around his legs "-And we can go to the zoo, and paint pictures and even we can get pudding. You let me eat pudding before dinner don't you dad?" Cole put a hand on Bens head and he calmed down quickly, the wide grin still on his face, Cole glanced at Paige before kneeling in front of Ben
"Buddy I'm sorry. I can't spend the day with you today" Paige walked forward. This had been the first time Cole had done this, it was bound to be something to do with Jenny. Ever since they had gotten back together she had him wrapped around her little finger, he had given up his powers and had taken a job in a lawyers office - just so he could be with her, and gain her trust. Cole felt his heart tighten as he saw the disappointment on his sons face,
"But why. You promised me I could sleep at your house and we could watch X-Men and…why?" Ben grabbed his fathers arms desperately.
"I have something to do today buddy, and you would just be bored. I promise though I'll come by next week and you can sleep over" Ben didn't look entirely convinced "And we can watch X-Men and get popcorn and sweets. We can even stay up all night if you want and you can jump on my bed" Ben folded his arms and looked at his mum before turning back to Cole,
"Aunt Jenny hates it when I do that"
"She wont be there" Ben shook his head hard and took a small step away from Cole, gingerly he stood up and looked at his son whose eyes were ablaze with disappointment and anger,
"It doesn't matter because I'm not coming. She doesn't even like my mom you know? I heard her talking when you were in bed. But I love my mom and I want to stay with her next week" he walked towards Paige and wrapped his arms around her leg.
"Ben…" Instead of answering Cole the young boy shook his head once more and walked off throwing his small jacket to the floor. Cole sighed and walked to the jacket, picking it up slowly and looking down at the blue material,
"Cole, what's so important you can't spend a few hours with your son?" Paige walked towards him and he turned around to face her, his hand still clutching the jacket in his right hand. He looked at the floor then at Paige, locking his eyes with hers finding everything good, he had tried to forget about her, in the depths of them, and remembering clearly what had made him love her to start with. It was different now though and he knew that,
"I have to go to the hospital" She looked at him in shock and put her hand on his chest, beneath her fragile fingers she could feel his heart beating.
"Why? Cole, what's wrong? Are you ill? Injured? Oh God, your not dying are you?" her voice was filled with worry only to be replaced with anger when Cole laughed, "Don't laugh at me, I'm seriously worried. What's wrong?" Cole put his hand on hers and held it lightly,
"I need to go because…" He sighed "Jenny's pregnant"
/ Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high /
In that moment Paige felt her heart stop, the room span and she knew if she didn't sit down she would fall over. She took a few steps back and let her hand fall out of his, placing her hand on the cabinet at the side she kept herself upright. Jenny was pregnant. For a second she felt like slapping Cole, to shout at him that she wasn't worth him in the slightest. She couldn't though and she knew it, so she did the next best thing in her mind,
"Congratulations"
Cole smiled at her, though it wasn't genuine and they both knew it. "Thank you" he watched as she distracted her attention away from him by cleaning the surface of the cabinet with a tissue she had taken out of the drawer.
"How long" She asked, Cole folded his arms and shrugged though it was obvious she couldn't see, he thought for a moment back to the conversation he and Jenny had,
"Cole, I'm pregnant" Jenny announced, her blonde hair pulled back and her eyes sparkled happily. Cole swallowed hard and pushed away the thoughts in his mind wishing it was Paige saying those words to him. She waited for his response and he gave her a wide smile, his eyes showing their excitement. Lying wasn't hard.
"Baby, that's great" he enveloped her in a hug "How long?"
"Two months"
"Two months" He replied to her, Paige nodded and began to rub the table faster with the tissue, beating the wood with her pent up jealousy.
"Working in a bar wont help the babies health though" She dusted down the lamp, not that it ever worked. John always took care of that, he was a perfectionist. If Paige wanted light she would turn on the living room light, she didn't understand why she had bought that lamp in the first place if she was honest.
"She isn't there anymore. She took the job to pay for her nursing education, now she's working full time she doesn't need to work there" Paige nodded and moved a picture frame.
More like she was sick of lying on her back, so punters could get free drinks is the more honest answer. She bit her lip hard at the thought, that was mean. But probably true. She smiled, her inner thoughts were a bitch sometimes but they did say things she couldn't.
"Good for her" Shit, she thought, that wasn't meant to come out so bitchy.
"You don't like her do you?" Cole asked, Paige turned around slowly new found confidence to confront Cole emerging. She threw the tissue in the bin and put her hands on her hips,
"No actually." Cole blinked,
"Why?" he looked her in the eyes, awaiting her answer. Paige rolled her eyes, wasn't it obvious? She hated her because she was with Cole, and she was rubbing it in Paige's face.
"I just don't it's not illegal to hate someone" She had a point and she knew it, Cole shook his head determined to stick up for Jenny.
"That's not a reason. Is it because she's with me?" Yes Paige shushed her inner voice as he continued "I mean Paige, get over it" She felt her mouth drop slightly,
"What do you mean I should get over it? Cole, I'm not the only one here who can't face their feelings" She cursed herself inwardly, that wasn't meant to come out.
"What do you mean face our feelings I don't have any feelings for you but that of mutual friendship" He pushed his hand through his hair,
"I meant about everything. Cole think about it, Jenny wouldn't give you a second chance if it wasn't in her interests to hurt me. She was all for kicking you out of her life until I told her it was true that I loved you still" Cole bit his lip gently,
"Do you still love me?" Paige rolled her eyes, they had been over this months ago. Sure she still loved him now but it was obvious he loved Jenny more than anyone,
"No" She looked him in the eyes "That was a long time ago" Cole drew in a deep breath quietly, hitting himself inside for even thinking she would say yes. He had blown his chance by being so distant from her and now she had moved on and was probably ready, or would be soon, to form a new relationship with somebody else.
"Fine" He replied bitterly "I have to go. Tell Ben I'll see him next week" He didn't give Paige a chance to reply and walked out of house slamming the door behind him, unintentionally. Paige looked at the door a moment longer before shaking her head and walking into the kitchen.
/ What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold to you
And I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now I can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high
I never meant to be so cold /
Cole drove quickly, his foot on the peddle pushing down further when he saw no other cars around. The rain shot down like bullets on the top of his car and a crack of lightening lit up the grey sky above him. She didn't love him. That was good right? Now he had a chance to be with Jenny without any feelings towards Paige. He still loved her in a way though, probably would never stop. She was the one that opened him to so much more after Phoebe, and though Phoebe was the one that taught him how to love it was Paige that taught him there was more to life that what meets the eye. She was, still is, fun loving and funny. She shook his head getting her smile out of his head, her smile and her eyes were what had struck him almost instantly with her. They always seemed to hold more than what they suggested. He smiled slightly before he let his thoughts drift to Jenny, she was a lot more serious than Paige and she was very intelligent at times, other times she could be a complete ditz. He laughed as he remembered telling her a joke and the moment being ruined by her saying the simple words of 'I don't get it'. The two women he wanted the most fought inside his mind to be the winner. Paige, the once person he loved battled with Jenny the woman he would probably end up marrying and having the family he always wanted with. Cole, snapped out of his reverie the same moment he heard his phone ringing, he glanced down and saw the caller ID was Paige, slowly he picked it up, his eyes glancing to the road then back at the phone, his finger pushed the small green button and he put it to his ear,
"Hey" He held the steering wheel tighter with his free hand,
"Hi, Cole I wanted to apologize for being so - Well you know. I'm happy for you and Jenny, I really am" Cole smiled.
"Thank you" He opened his mouth to say something else but instead let out a yell as he saw the tree in front of him becoming engulfed with lightening,
"Cole!" Paige's panicked voice screamed down the phone as she heard Cole. Cole let the phone drop to the floor and grabbed the wheel with both hands in an effort to swerve the car, his actions were a failure and his car collided with the tree. "Cole! Answer me!" Paige screamed, terrified at what she had heard.
Cole lay in the car his eyes closed, his face covered with blood and the rain that soaked his face through the broken window. "Cole! Dammit please…"
/ I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me there's just no hope
I never meant to be so cold /
AN Tada! Done! What did ya all think? Tell me in a review you sexy people and I'll reply to you as soon as I can. Merry Christmas, not that the chapter you have just read was very merry (hehe rhyme),