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Eren moaned wearily, his head fuzzy from last night and the taste of beer still on his tongue and lips. He couldn't remember what had happened last night, aside from confronting Jeanne's bullies and then coming home and getting drunk. He had been feeling like shit, Jeanne kept pushing herself further away from him, then she was starting to get bullied and never told him. Then she made him feel insecure by getting a Hickie from another guy, everything had just become so much for him.
He was her fiance and she was still keeping things from him, they were supposed to be a team and work together through their problems. But it still felt like she ran to the arms of other people that weren't him for help. Whose confidence wouldn't be shattered from something like that, he had never been great at showing his feelings but he knew how to attract women. Which made their relationship that much more difficult for him. He had been crushing on Jeanne for years, but she had always been out of his grasp. So he used his influence to finally make Jeanne his lover, to make her his wife so that he would be able to have the woman he loved in his grasp. But after coming home and drowning his conscience in booze, he couldn't really remember much else. Though he had a strong tolerance for liquor, he had overdone it a little last night. So his memories had been somewhat lost later on into the night.
"Well, looks like you finally got your lazy ass off the couch" a familiar voice replied. She had honestly been tempted to drag him off and put him in his own bed. However, he had looked very comfortable sleeping there and she didn't want to hurt him. So she opted to just give him a blanket and clearing up his mess instead. She still didn't know if that kiss had been simply a drunk guy looking for sugar or his repressed feelings being unlocked because of his filter being shut off by his drunken state.
Eren looked up wearily and blushed, even fresh out of bed she was still the most gorgeous thing he had ever seen. He had to say this was a pleasant surprise so early in the morning, a sight he could get used to. Jeanne was sat at the breakfast table with a cup of coffee, her messy undercut and ash blonde hair tumbling over her shoulder. Her long legs folded over the other, her eyes still hazy from sleep. She was wearing an oversized white shirt that looked painfully sexy on her. Outlining the peak of her breasts, her flat stomach and curves. Leaving much to the imagination.
He had seen her mid changing a couple of times but never this up close and personal. Barely clothed, more for the imagination. Part of him wanted to leap across the room and slam her onto the kitchen table. But he knew she wasn't ready for that yet, she wasn't at the stage where she was ready to accept him that much. She seemed to be in a good mood, making him hope that he hadn't tried to do anything weird to her while he was inebriated. However, he had to make sure given she tended to hold grudges when people screwed her over.
He shifted awkwardly "Um… Jeanne, last night…. Did I… we didn't" he replied shamefully. His mind had a lot of blanks and all he knew was threatening her bullies and then coming home to drown his sorrows. When he did finally have sex with her, when she finally consented to sleep with him, he wanted to remember it. To remember ever sound that escaped her lips, every expression, every curse word, every inch of her skin. Not some booze-filled night of meaningless humping, she meant more to him than that.
Jeanne blushed, given how many empty cans were on the table she doubted he would have remembered anything from last night. But for once she wasn't mad at him, this was a personal secret about Eren that she could keep to herself. "Nothing more than usual, me taking care of your drunken ass and then going to bed" she lied. Like hell, she would tell Eren that she kissed him and because she wanted to this time. It was too embarrassing to admit that they had a romantic moment while he was drunk off his ass.
Eren relaxed but still looked ashamed, but then again in the future, she would be taking care of him over and over. But he wasn't going to be drinking again for a while, he didn't want a repeat of last night any time soon. He could do with cutting down on his drinking, I mean yes he was a teenager and they were known for doing stupid shit. But he had a reputation to his dad to uphold and hangovers were not so much fun to deal with.
Jeanne hummed, today was their day off. There was no school to attend, she didn't have police training and Eren didn't have to help his dad out at the hospital. This was their day off and they could do anything they wanted with it. Since their engagement, they hadn't really acted much like a couple. They hadn't really had any moments to act like a couple, most of it had been spent bickering or Eren teasing her with possible signs of affection or desire. "Say, Eren. You got any plans for today?" she asked casually. If he didn't it was his loss, she could just ask Marco or Sasha what they were up to for today.
Eren blinked, aside from taking a shower, blessing his sore head with a cup of coffee and trying to enjoy his weekend he had nothing on the cards. He spent his time attending school five days a week and then working part-time at the hospital to prepare for one day taking over for his father. He liked to enjoy the tranquility of free time while he had it because it came far and few inbetween. Sometimes being the son of a famous doctor was a real pain in the ass sometimes.
Jeanne blushed, he really was dense as could be. He was really going to make her say it wasn't he? Most people would have caught on or even asked if she wanted to do something together already. But as smart as he could be at times, most days he was so naïve it hurt. "I… I'm asking you on a date dumbass" she mumbled. How could he not get what she was trying to say? There she had finally asked him, she had tried and she had made a move for once. Whether or not he would accept this proposal she had no idea. At least she could tell herself she had made a move and it was on Eren for anything that may or may not happen. She wasn't confessing her love or anything dramatic like that, but she was repaying him for the kind gestures he had shown her. She may as well reap the benefits of his good side while they lasted before he became a dick again.
Eren stared at her in awe, he wasn't dreaming, was he? Jeanne was finally asking him out on a date. The girl he had been harbouring feelings for finally wanted to pursue him romantically and go out in public acting like a couple. He felt he needed to pinch himself just to prove this wasn't a dream. The little boy inside of him desperate to scream with excitement that the girl he had been in love with since they were in middle school was finally accepting his feelings a little. "This… I'm not dreaming right" he babbled, trying to not act as excited as he felt. The last thing he wanted was to make an ass out of himself so she could hold it against him later. He had to try and make a good impression here.
Jeanne snorted trying not to laugh, he was acting just a little cute here. "Yes Eren, this is a dream. You're actually still drunk and none of this is real, it's your repressed sexuality playing tricks on you" she replied sarcastically. She wasn't sitting here in nothing but a big white shirt and drinking coffee, this was the most skin he was going to see from her for a while so he better enjoy it while he could. She wasn't so easy that she was going to give herself up to him like his other female admirers.
Eren laughed, now he knew this was real. Jeanne couldn't be any more painfully sarcastic if he tried. But that fact made him feel better, knowing that he had something wonderful to look forward to after working so hard. "Don't move, I'll be as quick as I can. Think of anything, anywhere you wanna go. Just…don't make other plans" he babbled at a rapid pace. Part of him wanted to call Mikasa or Armin and tell them the good news. He felt like a kid at Christmas right now. His crush was finally going on a date with him.
Jeanne watched him leave, he was acting like a little kid that had finally broken his parents and gotten his wish. But there was a childlike innocence to him that she couldn't help but smile about. He wasn't so bad when he wanted to be. If only he wasn't such a cocky pain in the ass half the time she would possibly fall for him. But his conflicting personality made it hard for her to even consider falling completely for a guy like him. But she was willing to give him a chance in hopes of seeing his better persona.
Jeanne sat silently on a bench, enjoying the treat she had bought herself. Truthfully she couldn't remember the last time she had been this relaxed, free of the stresses of balancing her school education, engagement to Eren and future as a police officer. Here she was, a girl of seventeen and she already had her life planned out of her. Not many girls could say the same about her position. Marrying the heir to a wealthy corporation while she herself would be a protector of the people.
There was just one conflict about Eren. He may have been annoyingly handsome with such a conflicting personality she found herself either wanting to punch him repetitively in his stupid face, while other times she did find herself falling for his charms. She never knew which side of Eren was the real him, the stubborn suicidal hotheaded idiot she knew. Or this cocky, charming and secretly Tsundere boy that was stealing her heart. It really did leave her confused as to what kind of guy he really was. This wasn't going to be an easy marriage, but then that was a relationship for you. It got complicated, sometimes you fought, sometimes things weren't always good and happy. But that was what made it real, the trials and tribulations you faced.
Eren reached out slowly, his fingers caressing her hair affectionately. Letting his hands roam through her soft messy locks. He loved that wild mane of hers. How she loved to stand out and never tried to make herself look like the other girls at their school. He couldn't wait till she finally fell for him and openly called herself his woman. It would take some time to finally get her to confess her feelings, but he liked a challenge. He liked her wild heart, because she felt with everything she had.
Jeanne shifted, she wasn't used to Eren touching her in this manner. Showing affection to her like this, the times he did show her a softer side was very rare indeed. So when he did, she didn't know how to feel about it. "You… want some?" she offered. Maybe he wanted a bite and was just trying to coax her into letting him have a taste. It was like he was affectionate or loyal when it was on his terms, when he wanted to spend time with her. But when it was on her terms half the time, he liked to avoid the hell out of her.
Eren smirked, what he wouldn't give for a taste of what he most desired "Of you or the dessert?" he teased. He knew she hated to be teased but he couldn't help himself. He loved it when she got all flustered and red in the face, it was just so adorable. She was like a cat, she wanted attention she never wanted to admit it. She acted sulky and jealous but when he acted like her lover she got embarrassed, awkward and childish. She was so hard to understand, but that only made him want to understand her more.
Jeanne flinched her face colouring bright red as a response. How the hell could he say things so casually? No wonder he was so popular with the girls at their school, he was such a smooth talker he could get into any girls bed with just a couple of words if he so wished. "Fine, you don't get any then" she mumbled. There he goes again, ruining the moment by acting like a pervert. Why couldn't he just be nice to her like he was last night?
Eren pouted, what he didn't understand was why was she always so stubborn and difficult? I mean she was cute but sometimes it could really be a pain in the ass. There was playing hard to get and then there was being bitchy and rude. It did get a little tiring sometimes. "Not like you ever do anyway" he growled. The most she had done was tease him with the possibility or let him kiss her. Admittedly he held back because he loved her, but she really did know how to ruin the mood sometimes. He didn't even know if she liked him back or was just teasing him.
Jeanne felt a sharp pain in her heart, was he really being serious? After how he got rid of those bullies for her then got all upset about her secrets last night. Now he was back to being a douche again? Was he just fucking with her all along? Why did she think this date was a good idea? All they were doing was arguing again, this was not what she had wanted. Why did he have to ruin everything with his attitude? She then got to her feet and stormed off, she didn't know where she was going but she just needed headspace. He better not follow her or she would punch his lights out. She didn't want to look at him right now, it just made her feel worse.
All she had wanted was a day out together, to forget about school, to forget about their problems and spend a day bonding with each other. To have some fun, to make some memories and try to be nice to each other. Hoping to see a different side of Eren away from school and his parade of fangirls. What a disappointment this had turned out to be, why didn't she just call her friends and make plans with them instead, it would have been a better idea.
Eren watched her leave, the air of anger lifting off her like smoke. He sighed heavily, he knew he had fucked up again. Somehow he always seemed to say the wrong thing, but then again they were similar in that sense. "Damn it all" he muttered, he had to apologize again. Why did he have to act like such a child and spite her, but then again his emotions in particular his anger were something that he had trouble controlling. He was just that kind of guy.
Jeanne stood by a stand at a desk quietly, browsing over the games curiously as she allowed her mind to wonder. She had been considering buying some new games for her system to vent her anger towards Eren. I mean it was healthier than punching his lights out. Sometimes she wondered if she should just break off the engagement, tell her father that she hated him. That Eren was being a dick to her and cheating on her despite engagement, really it would look worse for her than it would him. Typical rich boy, he could get any woman he wanted and simply saw her as his ball and chain. A girl who was available as an outlet when nobody else was making a better offer, someone who benefited him in a business sense.
The times she could be free of him were blessed, finally some peace and quiet to enjoy the quiet of her own mind. Free of the crap she had to deal with on a near daily basis of all things. Sometimes she really wished she could free her wings and fly away from her situation. She was so invested in what she was doing, she forgot that anyone else but Eren would even give her a second glance. "Hey now, what's a pretty face like you looking so gloomy for?" a voice asked flirtatiously. She looked lonely, it was rare someone as cute as she showed up in a shop like this. Usually, it was creepy sweaty dudes or teenage boys, but today she was striking some luck.
Jeanne snapped out of her daze, that voice wasn't Eren's but they were being very flirty. Could it be? Had her prayers been answered and was she finally getting a break from her crappy life? Thank you, god, for this blessing. She turned her head shyly to see a very pretty woman talking to her, maybe a couple of years older. Early twenties or late teens at least, but very much her type. She didn't get much attention nowadays so she wasn't going to turn this offer down. Besides, Eren was always talking with other girls as it was anyway. She was taller than Jeanne, curvier and bigger bust size. She had pale blue eyes that resembled jewels, her skin was lightly tanned meaning she had to be mixed race. She had silky black hair with a short fringe that reached her chest. She had feline-like eyes with long black lashes and pouty lips.
Jeanne smiled playfully "Guess I'm just having a bad day, but you seem to be just the cure to make my gloomy fade away" she teased. It wasn't often she got so much attention from a beautiful girl so why not go with the flow? She was only doing what came naturally. She had wanted a date but Eren was being an asshole as per usual. So why not forget about him and simply enjoy the weekend with this lovely ladies company instead. Sounded like a much better way to spend her time.
"Hmm, I get off soon so maybe I can show you around? I know a couple of good places to take a cutie such as yourself" the girl replied. She'd love to get to know her more, spend some time with her and hopefully get this catch. Everyone was prone to a bad day, but perhaps she could change her mood and help her forget her problems. She had such a pretty smile it was a shame to see her with any other expression aside from a smile that she couldn't help but want to change that.
"You sure you won't get into trouble with your boss?" Jeanne chuckled. This girl was ballsy and she liked that. She knew what she wanted but was also semi respective. She was very flirty but unlike Eren wasn't being an ass. In fact, she seemed a lot friendlier to boot. If only she could have been engaged to this girl or better yet met her before she ended up in this damn engagement, how much happier she could have been if things turned out differently. But she could only imagine an alternative life instead.
"You'd be worth it" the girl replied. Though she had a couple of hours until her break she would happily have her co-worker cover for her in hopes of getting this girl. It was the best part of her day so far, like hell she would let her go. Before Jeanne could reply, there was some heavy breathing, yelling and loud footsteps coming her way. She didn't even have to say it before she knew who was coming to find her, way to ruin the mood Eren, as per freaking usual. Eren stood in the doorway out of breath, red-faced and looking annoyed. How long had he been running around looking for her like some kind of idiot? On top of that, he had now made a scene to show her up.
Jeanne pouted, she was annoyed that her time with this girl was cut short but she would make the most of it. Give Eren a taste of his own medicine for once since he loved to annoy the hell out of her. She then scribbled down her number onto some paper and gave it to the girl. "If you ever get too bored at work, give me a call" she reassured her with a wink. Like hell, she was going to let this opportunity pass. I mean Eren was always talking to other girls so why couldn't she? The girl pouted at her leaving but looked hopeful at being given Jeanne's contact details meaning there was still some hope. Maybe the guy was just a friend or her little brother, or maybe they were one of those poly couples or whatever.
"You didn't have to storm off like that damn it, I was just joking about" Eren growled. She took everything so seriously, it was such a pain in the ass. She could learn to take a joke like a normal girl. Why did he have to have such a difficult fiancé? It was like she loved to get under his skin and leave him in a bad mood, she seemed to hate arguing with him but loved to get into a fight.
Jeanne scoffed, he was the one acting like a child and ruining their date, yet she was the one who as per got the blame. Why did he have to ruin her chances of getting with a cute girl like that? But at least she was able to give her contact details out. "At least she was into me, I could tell she liked me. Not like some spoiled brat rich boy who only cares about status" she grumbled. Just when her day was getting better, Eren had to ruin it with his bad temper and sulking, it was more like she was his babysitter and not his fiancé.
Eren stiffened, wait what the hell? What was he missing out here? Jeanne seemed to return some of his affections towards him, but what if they were forced? She did seem awfully confident and familiar with that girl. But he had no idea that they were actually flirting with each other. How long had she liked women? Did she have any crushes on the girls in their school? Did she have a secret lover behind his back? Is that who had left that hickey on her? He didn't know what to say about this. If she was lying to herself about this relationship and forcing herself to like him. He wouldn't keep her chained to him despite his feelings for her, he would rather set her free so she could be happy. He looked at her in shock and hesitation "Are… are you… gay?" he asked curiously.
Jeanne pouted, quick to assume, wasn't he? She kicked his leg defiantly, just because she liked girls didn't mean she was a lesbian. "I'm bisexual Eren, it is known sexuality to like both genders y' know" she growled. She already got enough shit from society she didn't need it from him too. She had always known she had liked girls from a young age, her mother knew it and her best friends knew it too. But she also liked boys, and everyone she loved knew that too. They loved her as she was and accepted her sexuality. Though they did have trouble keeping up with whom she had a crush on or was dating. She hadn't told Eren because it was none of his business and until now, it seemed he only saw her as a toy or amusement. So why would she tell him something so personal if he didn't actually give a shit about her, to begin with? But now the cat was out of the bag.
Eren felt his cheeks darkening, so that girl she was speaking to. Jeanne had wanted to have sex with her? Meaning some of the girls at their school, Jeanne may have a crush on too. The mental picture of Jeanne kissing a girl, of being interested in girls sexually. He had to stop himself from having a nosebleed or at the very least getting a boner. He had no idea she liked women in that way, he had to admit it sounded rather sexy. But he was happy that Jeanne had told him something so personal. He wondered if he was the first to know about this or if any of her other friends knew about her interest in other women as well, he hoped not as it would be a wonderful secret to have.
Jeanne saw his expression and sighed, she was more than used to this reaction from guys. But at least he wasn't being a creep about it. She smirked at him in amusement, too much to handle? "Pervert" she muttered, but her tone carried no venom. She was never going to hide from Eren that he wasn't the only person she was attracted to. But unlike the stereotypes of bisexuals she was no cheater, she would never sleep with anyone else behind his back. But that didn't mean she couldn't flirt the same way he did with other women.
Eren smiled back, sensing her calmer mood. He was relieved to know she was no longer angry at him. It was nice to simply have a more playful conversation without the bite. "Excuse me for appreciating a good thing" he argued defiantly. Jeanne in the arms of another cute girl sounded pretty awesome to him. Her amber eyes filled with lust for another woman, how confident she had acted around that girl compared to how stubborn she acted around him. It was like she was a completely different person entirely. He had to admit he was a little jealous that she couldn't act like that around him.
Jeanne reached out to yank his ear playfully, he was awfully cocky thinking he would ever see it. Maybe she could get him to behave by using it to her advantage, I mean she remembered how he had acted when Marco gave her that fake hickey as payback. "Well if you keep acting like a jerk all the time you won't get any" she huffed. She would just enjoy them all to herself, then he could sit and be lonely for once.
Eren perked up, what did she just say? There were plenty of girls he knew had a crush on him but there was also a few who probably liked her too. Hell, probably even some guys too. "Wait, what do you mean? Are you serious?" he babbled eagerly. No fair keeping secrets after spouting something like that. Jeanne simply walked ahead, but there was a playful smirk on her face. Maybe she would be calling that girl in the future after all. That was, depending on if Eren behaved himself in the future that is.
Eren sat in silence on stone steps, gazing into the distance. He still couldn't remember what happened between himself and Jeanne last night. But he knew she was hiding something from him but he didn't know what. However, part of him was glad she told him something so personal as her sexuality. He knew the crap that bisexuals got on a daily basis, being turned into a fetish by other guys than being isolated from the gay community to boot. But Jeanne was a tough cookie before he even knew she also liked women he was attracted to her. She was just so different from other women, she stood out, she was unique and that was what he loved about her. She never tried to impress him, she never kissed his ass, she lacked a filter, she was a tomboy. She spoke her mind and she never held back her opinion. But she was also bashful, stubborn, awkward and had a very kind heart.
Jeanne peered at him, she knew he was thinking about something and she could guess about what. "So, you have questions right, just spill it already". It was best to lay everything out on the table then try to dodge the bullet. She wasn't ashamed of her attraction to women, she was always going to be attracted to both genders, regardless of if she was dating a man or a woman. However a lot of people had a hard time understanding that and often did the stereotypical debate of bisexuality.
"How did you know you liked girls?" he asked bluntly. All girls were different, but the way he looked at women and the way she did were two completely different things. Appreciating women from the male gaze was different the way other girls looked at them. He couldn't help but he a little curious about the inside workings of the mind of a bisexual, in this case a woman who happened to be his fiance and current girlfriend.
Jeanne hummed, that was a question she got from a lot of people but it was generally in a sexist tone. Trying to convert her from liking girls too into solely liking men, but she knew Eren was being sincere when he was asking her now. "I guess…. I was still a kid when I realized, I saw girls differently. But… when I was a kid in junior high, about 13. I just saw them differently, angelic, soft, alluring. Then over time I realised, oh shit, I'm bi". She knew some bisexuals did lean over to one gender over the other, some preferred men and some preferred women. However she was not one of them, but respected that some members in her community did.
Eren tried not to laugh at her analogy of describing her bisexuality and her interest in women. She was so blunt about it that he couldn't help but smile. But then she was being honest and he appreciated that. "So, that girl. She was your type?" he asked. She was rather pretty. A little older, busty and mixed race but very sexy. They had really seemed to be hitting it off before she showed up. Wondering if they would see each other again in the future. I mean she did seem very happy talking to her and all.
Jeanne blushed, remembering how she got that girls number. It had felt nice to get the attention of someone else for a change, given she was thrown into this engagement by her parents. It was a sense of freedom she had felt she had lost somehow. "I admit, a small part of me did it to get back at you. But I was genuinely happy to have a cute girl show interest in me. Maybe I could have dated her had things been different" she admitted. To have a cute girl on her arm instead of Eren.
Eren winced, but he understood, at school, he was rarely seen without girls around him and they had harassed Jeanne more than once. It wasn't exactly surprising that Jeanne would imagine her life being less complicated with all she had been put through. He wanted so badly to touch her hair again but he worried now was not the time given she got annoyed before. She was weird about when she wanted affection, it had to be on her own terms or when she showed a signal. She was like a cat in that sense while he was like a dog. But he felt like that may ruin the moment, so he opted to do something else instead. To create a precious memory that he could look back on fondly. He reached into his pocket to grab his phone to take a picture of Jeanne, making sure the flash was off.
She looked so lovely as she was, her cheeks lightly dusted with a blush that she so badly tried to hide from him. Her golden amber brown eyes that gleamed in the sun like honey. She was such a pretty girl and it hurt him that she had such low confidence in herself, unable to appreciate her own beauty. He raised the phone and took a quick snap while she wasn't looking, her gaze wandering into the distance, endless possible thoughts wandering through his mind. This photo was going to become his lock screen to treasure.
Eren and Jeanne walked down the street, having decided to see what good movies were in and what sounded good. It wasn't often they went out together and it would be a waste to simply head back home already. The day had been bumpy, awkward and they had carried a lot of tension towards each other. But things were improving which was good, but they still had a lot of things to work through, it was still early days after all. But that was what dating someone meant, a lot of hard work.
Eren had his hands in his pockets and whistled to himself as they walked along down the street. His mood was better and he had to say, he had forgotten all about their argument earlier on. Jeanne peered at his hand occasionally, trying to be subtle about her desire to hold his hand. She didn't know why, but she had an urge to reach out and claim his hand for herself. Longing to touch him, wanting to feel more intimate. Until now she had felt neglected and distanced herself from Eren as to not get herself hurt. But in recent time she had become more conflicted about why she was so eager to receive his affections.
Eren was a jerk, he was hot-headed, impulsive, stubborn, he never listened to anyone, he was thick headed and a pain in the ass. But he was also gentle, protective, fiercely loyal and a good guy deep down. He was just really bad at showing it. In his own weird way of showing it, he did like her. She knew that, but she just wished he was less of a dick about it, it would make their relationship less complicated. But then again, he wasn't known for his maturity so she would just have to take it as a bittersweet pill.
Eren saw her peering at him, he could tell she wanted something but he didn't know what. Jeanne was often so stubborn she was bad at telling the truth, but sometimes they were alike in that sense. He sighed in relent and reached out to take her wrist, stopping her from walking. In all honesty, there was something he wanted to get off of his chest too. It had been bugging him all day. If he didn't do something about it now, he would only get mad at himself for passing up the opportunity.
Jeanne stopped abruptly, looking back at him in confusion. If he was trying to take her hand he had messed up there. His green eyes so full of conflict it was hard to know what he was thinking. They had made up and had a good heart to heart which honestly had helped her vent a little. Their mood was better and she felt comfortable beside him. If only things could be that calm and comfortable all the time, don't say he was in another bad mood again. Way to ruin the moment Eren.
Eren stared at her in silence, for years he had found himself unable to commit to anyone. Most girls only wanted to sleep with him to get the position of dating a wealthy doctors son. Nobody really wanted him for the guy he was, which is why he chose Jeanne to begin with. His eyes smouldering as he gazed upon the girl that would become his future wife. They had a long way to go but they were making progress, building their bridges together.
He then pulled Jeanne a little closer to him, closing the gap between them. Gently capturing her lips in a tender kiss, he did love her. But he was bad at showing it, but this felt right. He wanted to taste her sweet lips. Placing a his free hand behind her head to caress her gently, his hand slightly cupping her cheek as he did so. This kiss more gentle and personal than ones that they had shared in the past. Wanting this to be a more memorable kiss in a positive light.
Jeanne blushed but didn't pull away, this was her first time kissing Eren where they both consented and they were both sober. First, he kissed her by force to prove a point, then he kissed her while drunk. Now, this was how their first kiss should have been. His lips were so soft, they carried a new taste she couldn't put her finger on. If only he could kiss her like this, hell act like this as a boyfriend half the time she wouldn't mind so much. To treat her with love, not like a childish possessive brat all the time.
Eventually, Eren pulled away, his gaze still locked on her. He wanted her to feel special, for her to know that today really had meant the world to him. To have a day to themselves without any interference, it was honestly a wonderful feeling. "Es tut mir lied until now I've made you feel like shit or like a pet. I didn't treat you like an equal, I'm sorry" he apologized. He really needed to treat her better if she was going to be his wife one day. His mother would scold him for the way he had been acting.
Jeanne blushed, what the hell was he going on about? Was this guy even Eren? What had happened to his stubborn personality from earlier? He really knew how to change his moods at the drop of a hat. He wondered why she was confused all the time. She swallowed anxiously, if she tried to run away he may take it wrong. But god damn it, she was never any good under awkward situations, she always just bloody panicked. "Just… just forget it ok. Water under the bridge" she babbled anxiously.
Eren fingered the ends of her hair again, the way he did when he was trying to be affectionate. She had guessed this was his way of saying I love you. She was so cute when she was embarrassed. "Ich Liebe Dich, Jeanne" he stated casually. She was the only woman he would ever want, the only girl who had ever captured his feelings. Why would be want another carbon copy woman who went out of her way to please him or only wanted his money. When he could have a genuine woman like her.
Jeanne felt her heart stop and her cheeks turn beetroot, did he know what he was saying so bloody casually? You don't just say I love you so easily, hell they had been barely together a month and a half now. Yet he was confessing his love so easily to her. "Eren… I….merde" she mumbled under her breath. How was she supposed to respond to that? Her feelings towards him were still so bloody complicated right now.
Eren smiled, seeing her struggle to say the right thing. He chuckled, still playing with her hair "You don't have to say it yet, I just want you to know I'm serious about you" he teased. How could he resist her charms after all? He then pulled away, leading her down the street hand in hand. He felt good having made his feelings clear. Hopefully, she wouldn't leave him waiting too long and figure out how she felt soon. He didn't know how much longer he could keep waiting for her.