(A/N) OK first I want to say I am so sorry for the delay on the last chapter but I had it written other than a few things here and there and then something happened with FF and I couldn't upload the chapter. But Obviously I finally figures it out. Also I want to apologize for the grammar/spelling errors in the last chapter. I write the chapters and then when I go to publish them I re-read and check for errors but because FF was acting weird I was in a hurry to get it out. So I hope it still made sense ;) Thank you to everyone again for taking interest in my story.
Katie's going to LA...?
Chapter 7
I was packing and trying not to talk myself out of this at the same time. Cooper was sitting next to the suit cases on the bed while I packed. "Coop, this is going to be one crazy adventure for the both of us OK. Things might get a little crazy but you and I will face it together. Mommy's got you baby boy. We are going to see your father tomorrow and who knows how its going to go but just know, Mommy loves you, OK?" He just giggled and continued to try to reach the thing I was putting into the suit cases.
After an hour and half of packing, Cooper and I went down to the kitchen to get lunch when my cell phone rang in my pocket. "Hey big brother! How are ya?" I said as I answered. "Good. How are you? You ready to come to LA?" My stomach turned as soon as the words came out of his mouth. "As ready as I'll ever be I guess. Does he know I'm coming?" "James? No, no clue. But that's what you wanted right? You don't want him to know?" "Kendal I don't want to come there at all." "Katie listen to me OK, things will be just fine. I promise. Yes, at first he will be shocked and then he's gonna be mad and then he's gonna have questions and then he will probably be mad again. But I think what you are doing is the right thing. Cooper is going to be a year old in what, a week?" "Yeah." "OK so James has missed a year of his life, the first year but it's not too late. He can and will be involved in his life from now on. He deserves that." "I know Kendall I know. I am coming but it doesn't mean I'm not shitting myself over here. I'm beyond nervous." "I know baby sister but it will all be worth it in the end. I promise. Now you go get you and that beautiful little boy ready to come see uncle Kendall. I miss him already." Hearing that made me smile. "Yeah I have to feed him and then back to packing it is. I'll see you at the airport bright and early." "Love you!" "I love you too!"
"Oh Coopy Coop Mommy's not ready for this." I said as I give him a spoon full of his smashed squash. "But we have too. I have to tell him." I have pictures of James and I show them to Cooper and tell him that it's his daddy and he just points to them and says "Daddy?" So I wonder if when Cooper sees him if he will recognize him. I doubt it but who knows how baby brains work.
The next morning came way too fast. I didn't sleep a wink. I tossed and turned and my head was going a million miles an hour. I got myself out of bed and got myself ready before I woke Cooper. After we were both awake and ready Grandma was waiting for us to take us to the airport. I loaded our stuff and we set off to the airport. I hoped Cooper was going to be OK on the flight. He has never flown before and its a three-hour and twenty-minute flight so who knows how he's going to be. Lets just hope for the best. We said goodbye to my grandmother when she grabbed me by both side of my face and said, "Katie Honey I know you are scared to death and you have every right to be but it will all be OK. I promise. You will be fine. You have your mom and your brother there. You wont be alone. OK?" I felt tears well up in my eyes but I refuse to let them fall. "I know Grandma." I hugged her and told her I would be back soon and Cooper and I were off.
Cooper was great on the plane, he slept almost the whole time. Thank God. When we went to baggage claim my mother and my brother were standing there waiting for us. Kendall ran to us, "Hi Coop, I missed you buddy." He hugged him as tight as he could without hurting him then he looked to me. "Im so glad your here baby sister." Then he hugged me. My mom finally caught up to Kendall and hugged us then told Kendall he had to hand over the baby because he had to help me with our bags which i know was only so she could get Cooper from him. We made it to Kendall and my mom's house. About a year ago the guys and my mom decided that it was time to leave The Palm woods and get their own places. Kendall said that James, Carlos and Logan all have separate houses while my mom and him live together.
I got Cooper and I settled in while Kendall had Cooper downstairs. I went down when I was done. Kendall and my mom were sitting in the living room. "So, have you thought about how you're gonna tell James?" Kendall asked while playing with the baby on the floor. "Can I just relax for a minute before we start on that. I was just on a plane for three and a half hours with a baby." "You said Cooper slept the whole time so it couldn't have been that bad." My mother responded matter of factly. I groaned, "No, well I mean I have thought about how he is going to react but not how I'm going to tell him." "Are you going to take Cooper with you? You know when you go over there?" Kendall asked. "I was thinking maybe you could have him come here. I don't want to do this alone." I answered. "Katie I think this is something you and James need to talk about alone and not with an audience." My mom said putting her arm around me. Kendall then spoke "Yeah Katie, it's not like we will be far. James lives on the next street and he is home because I just talked to him." I'm not ready to do this but you know what I have to do it now or never. "Can I walk there or should I take a car?" I asked looking from my mom to Kendall and then back to my mother, "I have to do this now or I will never do it." "I'd take a car. I'll give you the house number." Kendall said getting up to get his keys. I looked to my mother. I honestly thought I was going to throw up. "Im not taking him." I said pointing to Cooper. "OK baby, we'll watch him.
It only took about four minutes to get there. I pulled up to his house. It looked a lot like Kendall and my moms house. It was nice, very homey. "Ugh, well here it goes." I got out of the car and walked slowly to the front door. As I knocked on the door I realized I was shaking like a leaf. "Calm yourself Katie, calm yourself." I knocked again when I heard him from the other side of the door, "I'm coming, gee." He swung open the door. "Katie!?" "Hi James." "What are you doing here?" "Can I come in." "Sure, yeah." He moved to the side to let me in. "Nice place." I said looking around, "Better the the Palm woods, I guess." "Katie what are you doing here?" "We have to talk." My heart was beating a million miles an hour. I was afraid he was going to be able to see it. "Katie, I'm sorry but there isn't anything to talk about. NOTHING." "James please just hear me out please." "Katie we have nothing to say to each other." "I have something I really have to tell you. It's about why I left." "Katie I don't care anymore. I stopped caring a long time ago. You left, you left me hanging high and dry without even a 'Hey screw you, I'm out." He was hurt and I knew he was but to SEE it was another thing. I felt the tears burn the back of my eyes. "James No I have to tell you. I really need to tell you this." "God Katie what are you doing here? It has taken me a long time to get over this whole thing and you. Why would you come back here and turn it all inside out." "You really don't want to know why I left not even a small part of you? Huh?" He didn't respond to my question. "ANSWER THE FUCKING QUESTION JAMES." "FINE YES I WANT TO KNOW KATIE. I WANT TO KNOW WHY YOU RIPPED MY HEART OUT OF MY CHEST AND JUST CRUMBLED IT TO PIECES. YES PLEASE TELL ME." He screamed to me with tear filled eyes that threatened to fall down his face. "Because I was pregnant, because I was having your baby." It was like someone had knocked him flat on his ass, like the wind had been knocked out of him. "What?" He said so low I almost didn't hear him. "Yeah I didn't want you to have to deal with it. With everything you had going on I figured it was what was best for you so I left." I began to sob, "Im so sorry James I really am." He still had a sad look on his face mixed with shock and anger. "Your sorry? Your sorry? ARE YOU SERIOUS KATIE?" I flinched as that last part came out of his mouth. "Yes James Im sorry. I thought at the time that was what was best for you. I thought that it was the right thing to do." "Get out." He said looking me straight in the eyes. "James please..." "GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!" I turned and walked out the door. As soon as I heard the door slam behind me I began to hysterically cry. What the hell was I thinking. I should have never came here.
I made my way back to the house and slammed the door behind me and ran up the steps. I heard my mother yell from the other room "Katie? Honey?..." I went to the room Cooper and I would have stayed in but I was not staying here I was getting me and My son the hell out of this place. We would be on the next flight home and I was never coming back. EVER. "Katie? Are you in there? Is everything OK?" It was my mother. I didn't say anything. She knocked again and then walked in. She saw I was crying and then saw that I was packing. "Your leaving?" I nodded. "Katie what happened?" I froze and then turned to her. " I told him and he told me to get out of his house. Mom, he wants nothing to do with him." "Oh honey I'm sure that's not the truth. You just hit him with the biggest shock of his life." "No mom he doesn't want anything to do with him." I started to cry harder, "he didn't even ask me what his name was." "Katie, you need to give him a minute to possess all of this." " Mom I just want to go home." "OK look stay here tonight and then you can go tomorrow. Just stay with us tonight." I nodded my head and turned to her grabbed her into a hug and cried harder than I think i have ever cried in my hwole life. Then the door bell rang, and a few seconds later I heard Kendall "Katie can you come here a minute?" I let go of my mother and wiped my eyes and made my was downstairs and when I rounded the corner to the door I noticed James standing in the door way. "Can we talk?" I didn't say anything, instead I wondered where Cooper was. He must be napping because I couldn't hear him. "Yeah, let me grab my jacket."
(A/N) This is my way of making it up to all of you...hope you like it.