We have professed our love but even that didn't stop us from getting onto a big argument two weeks after. We were at the club and I was up on stage. She was in her usual place, I turn around for a second to take my bra off and keep dancing when I turn back around some chick was dancing all over her. It's a new girl that most of us don't like. I can't help the boiling anger that curses through my body. Her boys are cheering and roaring, she hasn't touched her yet but she shouldn't let her dance on her at all! My turn is over so I get off stage and go to the dressing room.

"Hey you okay?" asks Regina.

I nod first and then shake my head.

"What's wrong?"

"Fucking Candy was dancing all over Jane and she didn't do anything! She just let it happened!"

I put my face in my hands and I feel Regina rub my back.

"What's wrong blondie?" I hear Emma ask.

"Did I tell you about the new stripper crushing over my girlfriend?"

"Don't worry Jane isn't into that" she says and me and Regina raise our eyebrows. "Anymore" she adds.

"It's a slutty stripper; I was the slutty stripper of course she's into that."

"Yes but she has grown out of it since she met you" says Emma.

"Grown out of what? Girls who shave their legs and laugh at her jokes sure she has grown out of that" says Regina.

"Hey I shave my legs!" I say.

I shake my head because I realize just how stupid this conversation is. I stand and change into my next outfit.

"So what are you going to tell her?" asks Regina.

I simply shrug because the anger I feel right now is too big to fathom. If Jane can let things like this happened then so can I right? I make my way out there and start to round the place. One of her guys calls me. They don't know we are dating – my decision I don't know why- so I make my way to him. He slips 100 in my thong and I smile seductively at him. I put my hand on his chest and push.

"Relax baby and let me do all the work" I husk in his ear.

"Hell yeah!" he roars and I roll my eyes. I straddle him and start to grind myself on his lap. His cock starts to grow hard –ugh man! They can't control themselves. The whole table starts to cheer him on. I look to the end of the table where Jane is. I see range in her eyes and her breathing is hard. I turn to his ear and whisper.

"Good grief you feel so big."

Suddenly I am being lifted off his lap. I turn around only to be greeted by dark brown eyes.

"Aw come on boss!" says the guy I was just dancing on.

She gives them one look and they all coward away. God damn it if it wasn't for the anger I felt I would rip her clothes of right there. Her power is such a turn on. She drags me to the back of the club outside. Once outside she steps in front of me.

"What the hell was that?" she hisses

"I was just giving somebody the lap dance they paid for" I say shrugging.

She is furious I can tell but so am I. She clenches her jaw.

"You dance for everybody like that!? Whispering shit in their ear, grinding your damn pussy against their fucking cock!?"

"Why the fuck do you care?" I hiss.

"Why do I- are you fucking serious because you are my girlfriend."

"Well that didn't seem to stop you did it?" I ask.

This is just so fucked up. It's unbelievable how angry I feel just because some was giving her a lap dance but it wasn't just a lap dance, it was thelap dance like the ones only I give to her. She nits her brows in confusion and for a second I just want to kiss that confusion away.

"Oh don't play coy Jane I was up there when Candy was all over you!"

"That's what this is all about!?" she asks. "Jesus Maura it was just a fucking lap dance that they boys order her to do."

"And you just let it happen!" I say with sharpness in my voice.

"Since they think I'm single and they would've taken it offensive, yes I let it happen."

"She was all over you! Just like I was all over your damn boy!"

"Isn't that what strippers do! They dance on people like that? Whispering shit in their ear is probably a bonus right? All about the money no matter how you get it, kind of like prostitution."

I slap her because I'm pretty sure she just compared me to a whore. I guess in some level I did deserve that because I was all over that guy but I was –I'm still angry.

"Fuck you! How about we make it less complicated we are over!" I yell and turn to walk away.

I make it inside and go straight to the dressing room. I can feel the tears going down my face. I start to get my stuff ready so I can get the fuck out of this damn place and go home. I'm throwing everything inside my bag when Regina and Emma walk in.

"Hey, wow! Calm your balls blondie what the fuck happened?" asks Emma.

"Jane and I just got into this big fight and I ended things but I didn't want to I'm just so angry at her!"

They just come and comfort me. After a few minutes I say goodbye. I leave the club and take the bus home. When I get there I see Jesus sitting on the steps. I get off the bus and walk towards my apartment but stop to chat because I haven't seen him in a while. I put my bag down and smile.

"Hey" I say.

"Hey" he replies back smiling. "How you been?"

"Better" I answer.

He nods as if he can understand what I mean. He understands nothing, I just had an argument with the person I love and broke things off. I robbed a bang with her for Christ sakes I never thought it would end like this.

"Marianna tells me that you have been seeing someone."

"That's over" I say lowly.

He stands up and I look up at him. One of his hands goes to my waists and the other to my cheek.

"What a shame" he says and then he kisses me.

We have kissed before, matter of fact in one occasion we actually fucked –Marianna knows nothing about that- but it was a onetime thing. We were both a little drunk and lonely and we agreed that it would never happened again. He turns me and crashes me against the wall. It feels wrong, his touch isn't the same as hers but I'm still allowing it to happen. He starts to kiss down my neck and when I open my eyes I gasp.

"Jane!" I say pushing him away.

"I guess I should've known it was that easy to get over me."

She starts to walk away and I run after her. I catch up to her and hold her arm.

"Jane please just let me explain."

"What's there to explain? I think that what I just saw was pretty self-explanatory."

"No that back there meant nothing I was just hurt and sad and he was there" I say lowly.

"If I wouldn't have come would that have turned more than just a kiss?"

There's a silence. I bite my lip and look down.

"Probably" I say in a choke voice.

"Damn it Maura!" she yells and I jump a little. "I wish I didn't love you this damn much!"

She pushes me roughly against the brick wall of a nearby building. The kiss she gives me is beyond this world. I feel all the emotions in it, the anger, sadness, jealousy but most of all love. I moan as her body presses against mine and I tangle my hands in her hair not letting her go. Now this feels right so, so right. Her hands go to my shorts and while she is undoing them she starts to kiss down my neck. She sucks on my pulse point and I moan. I can feel her leaving a mark. We are outside and I should be worry about someone seeing us but I am not, besides the streets are empty at this hour. Her hand meets my dampness and I whimper. She grabs one of my legs and hooks it to her hip, opening me more. Her fingers trace my entrance and then enter me.

"Fuck!" I moan in her ear.

She start to pump in and out, hard and fast, going deeper ever time. I grip her shoulders and bury my face in the crook of her neck. She rotates her arm so that her palm brushes my clit. I let my head fall back against the wall. Her teeth scrape my flesh, her other hand lowering my shirt. She kisses the top of my breasts and then bites them. I feel her everywhere; I feel tears behind my eyelids. I can't believe I almost lost her, almost made a huge mistake.

"I love you" I moan and choke at the same time.

This makes her go even harder if that's even possible.

"Oh god Jane! I love you…I love you so much" I cry out as I come.

We stay press against each other, catching our breaths. I kiss the side of her face repeatedly and with every kiss I whisper an 'I love you'.

"I love you too but let's not fight like that again" she mumbles against my neck.

"Deal."