I'm sorry for the person I became, who I am hates who I've been"-Relient K
She needed a drink. She couldn't take the feeling throughout her body. The broken glass of the seven broken whiskey bottle still lay on the floor around the bed, but there contents had long since dried up leaving her with nothing.
She slid off the bed and walked towards the door while avoiding the little shards of glass that were all over the place. She placed her ear on the door and listened but there was nothing. She got down on her knees and peeked under the door. But there was nothing. She began to panic. "He wouldn't just leave me alone would he? Nobody knows I'm locked in here!"
She called out to him, "Spot!" But there was no answer. She tried again, "Spot, are you out there?" Once again, there was no answer. The panic inside of her began to rise and she called out again, "Conlon! This isn't funny, where the hell are you?" This time though, she was greeted with the sound of footsteps coming down the hallway, and Lanie sighed in relief.
"What Lanie?" Spot asked through the door.
"Nothing, just wanted to make sure you didn't forget I was in here."
"No, I was reading the paper."
"Oh. Are you going to let me out anytime soon?" She asked through the door to the other side.
A quick "no" answered her.
She sighed and leaned against the door, sliding down and sitting on the floor.
She needed a drink. She needed to get out. Her entire body was screaming from withdrawal. She hated it.
"Are you going to let me know why I'm trapped in here?" She yelled through the door again.
"You drink," was the response. "You gotta stop drinking."
"If I promise to stop drinking, will you let me out?"
"No."
Lanie stood up quickly and pounded her fist against the door. "Damn it Spot, let me out!"
"No."
She pounded again. "How long are you going to keep me in here?"
"Three days," came the nonchalant answer through the door.
"THREE DAYS! No, let me out now!"
This time there was no response, just the sound of the key being slid into the lock and the click of the door knob as it opened. Spot stepped through the door and closed it behind him.
"You can't keep me in here Conlon. It's like kidnapping or something."
Spot stared at her and then leaned against the closed door, crossing his arms across his chest.
"Listen Gem, you gotta stay in here. I can't let you out."
"Why, give me one reason why?" She yelled at him.
"Cuz you're an alcoholic. You're too good to be like that. Just listen to me for once."
Lanie sighed and moved towards the bed, falling into it.
"What is locking me in my room going to prove?"
Spot just shook his head, "Don't you get it Lane? You need a drink now I'm sure. Am I right?"
An answering silence followed.
"If I let you out Lanie, you're just gonna drink. You can't get out till you don't wanna drink anymore
Lanie snorted a laugh, and sat up to stare at him, "You really think three days is enough. I'm not going to be magically cured Spot. Just let me go about my business."
Spot stepped closer to the bed. "I'll let you out in three days. That's the best I can do. After that, you can leave this room but not your apartment. Jack will have one of his boys here all the time to make sure you don't leave…"
Lanie jumped into the conversation, "I can't leave my own apartment! Are you kidding me Spot! I'm 18 years old; I can do what I want!"
"Not when you're hurting yourself you can't."
Lanie stared at Spot dumbfounded. "He's right," she thought to himself.
They sat in silence for a few more minutes before either spoke.
"How hard this is going to be Spot?"
Spot shrugged, "Pends on the person. My father took a long time, but he didn't really want to quit drinking. But you know that story. My mom had a hard time dealing with him. You're only starting this thing Lane. You gotta hard couple of days ahead of you."
Lanie stared straight ahead of her. "I'm going to be mean to you aren't I?" She questioned. Spot smiled back at her.
"I'm sure you are, but then again, it ain't gonna be anything new."
The pair was now grinning at one another.
"I'll be okay with whatever we have to do," Spot continued. "You are the one that's gonna be at her worst."
Lanie shook her head, "But I'm fine now."
"Wait a few more hours," Spot said while turning back towards the door. As he opened it he turned backs toward her. "I'm going to get some food. I'll be back in a few minutes," then he walked through the doorway and shut the door behind him.
Lanie fell back onto the bed and sighed. "It's not going to be as bad as he thinks," she thought to herself. She looked up to the ceiling and thoughts of her sister began to cloud her mind.
"Spot's right, Lissy would be mad if she ever saw me like this. This was something that would have disappointed her." Lanie sighed once again and rolled over on her side. Already the withdrawal symptoms were beginning to get to her. Replacing the thoughts of her sister were the thoughts of being drunk. All she needed was a sip; just a sip and she would be fine. But there was nothing left. Anger slowly began to bubble inside of as she mentally kicked herself for breaking every bottle she had hidden in her room in the heat of the moment.
She couldn't get the thought of liquor out of her head not matter how hard she tried. She wanted to taste it and the burning sensation it gave her. She knew that it was the only thing that could make her feel better. Then suddenly Spot crossed into her mind. She knew that he wanted her to do this. He needed her to do this. Actually, she was beginning to wonder where he found this strength to help someone that she had been so mean to over the past few years. How he had any patience with her at all.
Suddenly tears began to fall from her eyes as she thought back to when she had first become a newsie. How Spot had acted around her, how their relationship had bloomed. She watched all of it on the back of her eye lids, while the tears streamed down her cheeks. She hated herself, and who she had become. She wanted, and needed, and not only that, but knew, she had to set things right.
Not really sure where I was going with this. I started to type it and then I had to stop and now I am all confused.. Ha-ha... anyway READ AND REVIEW! Love ya all!