What Hurts The Most
Author's Note: I am so sorry that it has taken so long to write but I had to turn my computer in to get some stuff wiped off of it. I will update regularly now. I think I will switch to Jacob's POV for this chapter. ENJOY! Also thank you for your wonderful reviews and adding this story to your alerts and favorites, I really appreciate it.
Disclaimer: The characters are not mine nor are any song lyrics or titles and this story is only for fun!
Chapter 6
Jacob's POV
Bella Swan had definitely left her mark on me because ever since the bonfire she was the only thing that I could think about. I saw her in my dreams. I talked about her to my friends to the point where they were somewhat annoyed. The only person that I could TRULY confide in was my best friend Embry. I mean yeah, I could talk to Quil too but he was dealing with his own thing with Claire.
Monday at school I floated through the day with the beautiful angel on my mind. Embry came up to me at lunch and said that he wanted to talk to me after school so I agreed to meet up at his house after. I finished up the rest of my classes and headed to his house, which was like 2 doors down from here.
"Jake, come in man. You want something to drink?" Embry asked when I got to his house.
"Sure Sure" I said and Embry walked in with two sodas and we headed up to his room. When we got there I asked him why he needed to talk to me.
"OK So I get this text message from my cousin, Angela, right and she was like 'Does Jake have a girlfriend?' and I was like no but he's been talking nonstop about that Bella girl since Friday' right? So yeah, turns out that Angie is friends with Bella." Embry said.
"Did Bella say anything about me?" I asked.
"She wanted Angela to find out if you liked her, man." Embry said.
"Really?" I asked.
"Yeah dude, don't get too excited there." Embry said with a laugh and I punched him in the arm playfully.
"Did she say anything else?" I asked.
"No that's it. She said they were talking about you and Bella was wondering if you had a girlfriend and if you liked her. Well Bella didn't come straight out and ask but Angie read between the lines." Embry said.
"Well what did you tell her?" I asked.
"That I would talk to you." he said "Dude you so need to take a trip to the Cullen's house." Embry said. "They are throwing a party for her this weekend, kind of a welcome to the neighborhood thing."
"How come I don't know about this?" I asked.
"Angie heard them planning it, I don't think anyone knows yet." Embry said "Wanna go?"
"Um yeah. Tell Angela that I will tell Bella personally, all she has to do is ask. But between us I do." I said and Embry texted that word for word to his cousin. The fact that Bella was asking and talking about me made me think that she liked me just as much as I did and that made me smile.
The entire week I thought about my conversation with Embry and couldn't wait to hear from the Cullens about their party for Bella. I finally got the call on Thursday that Friday night they were throwing a party and that the guys and I were invited, I was stoked. All day Friday at school I couldn't think about anything but the party and Bella. I went home from school, showered, sprayed on some cologne and threw on a black t shirt and a pair of jeans before heading out to my car to pick up Embry and Quil.
"Someone's all decked out and early." Quil joked.
"Can it man!" I said punching him playfully.
"Yeah, don't you know he's visiting his girl?" Embry joked and I shot him a look.
"Oh you and that Bella girl huh? When were you going to tell me?" Quil said.
"I figured you would have figured out that I liked her because of the fact that I haven't stopped talking about her since a week ago." I said.
"Yeah but when did you get together?" he asked.
"Well we aren't yet…but maybe after tonight we will be." I said wishfully thinking. We drove the 30 minutes to Forks and took a right onto the road where the Cullens lived. We got out of the car and walked through the house, stopping to say Hello to Carlisle and Esme before heading to the backyard where they had a luau type set up. This was going to be fun.
The guys and I mingled with the crowd for a bit but I was searching for Bella. I met up with Emmett and Rosalie and chatted with them for a bit while I waited.
"What's up guys?" I said.
"Nothing much, what's up with you?" Emmett said.
"Chillin' man, you know how I do." I said "Um where's the guest of honor?"
"Ali is playing Bella Barbie right now. She said something about making her a Polynesian Goddess or something, I dunno." Rosalie said with a shrug.
"There she is now." Emmett pointed toward the door. I followed his finger and saw her standing there in long blue strapless dress with white hibiscus flowers all over it. Her hair was hanging loose and curled and she had a white hibiscus flower in her hair. She looked absolutely BEAUTIFUL, as if she could get any better. She and Alice, followed by Jasper, Peter and Charlotte, all walked over to where Emmett, Rosalie and I were standing.
"JAKE!" Alice shouted "I'm glad you came! Aren't you glad Jacob came Bella?"
Bella blushed ten shades of red before shaking her head, yeah she liked me.
"You look beautiful tonight Bells." I said and yet again she blushed and smiled.
"Thank you, Jacob." she replied. Some slow music began playing in the background and I offered my hand. "Would you like to dance?"
"Um I don't know if that's a good idea, I'm such a klutz." she said.
"I'll catch you if you fall, I promise" I said and she nodded following me out to the center of the yard where there were couples dancing around us. I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her close as we danced, it felt so right with her in my arms. "I couldn't stop thinking about you all week." I blurted out without thinking and she looked up at me and smiled.
"I haven't been able to either." she said with a slight blush.
"Bells, I don't know what it is about you but it's like I am drawn to you." I said.
"I know the feeling" she said quietly.
"So um what is this between us?" I said.
"Um. What do you want it to be?" she asked.
"Well I really like you, more than any girl I have ever met. Um let's see how the night plays out and we will go from there ok?" I said.
"Yeah, let's do that and I really like you too Jacob." she said with a smile laying her head on my shoulder as we danced. When the song ended I never wanted her to leave my arms. When we finally separated I followed her back to our group where Alice was avidly talking about random stuff when we walked up.
"Yeah, you should have seen the look on Lauren's face when they were out there dancing. It was priceless." we heard her say and we both stopped dead in our tracks to see how this conversation played out.
"I know right. And poor Bella has been SPRUNG since the night of the bonfire. She has done nothing but Harp on Jake since then. She told Angie that she wanted to be his girl and whatever else he wanted if he actually liked her but I think he's just as hooked as her." Rosalie said.
"Oh HE IS!" Embry added "Totally hooked, all he could talk or think about was his 'Bells' and how he wanted to just ask her out but was too much of a chicken shit to call one of you to get the number."
I felt Bella tense up beside me and I looked over at her to find her staring at me with her mouth open.
"Is that true?" she whispered and I nodded.
"I want to be with you Bells. Friend, Lover, boyfriend, whatever you need me to be." I whispered back.
"Well um I was hoping…"she was cut off by Emmett's booming voice. DAMN! Emmett could fuck up even the wettest of dreams.
"Come on over eavesdroppers. We see you over there." he said and we walked over, Bella blushing redder than I had ever seen and it looked so damn sexy on her.
"Enjoy your dance?" Embry joked and I playfully shoved him.
We all sat around talking for a while and I danced with Bella a couple more times before we all called it a night and I volunteered to take Bella come. When we got to her house she stopped me before we got to the front door.
"I don't want our night to end and if we go to that door, it will. Follow me." she said taking my hand. I followed her to the backyard and up a rope ladder to her old tree house.
"This is where I used to like to go to get away as a kid. I've come here a lot since I moved here just to think." she said when we got up there with her hand still in mine. "I wanted to share it with you."
"I like it. We could make a lot of memories in here." I said with a smile and she giggled.
"I'd like that, I have a lot of memories in here but none with anyone but myself. It's time to make new ones." she said. I pulled her into my arms as we sat there looking out the little window at the stars.
"It's so peaceful and beautiful out here." she whispered.
"Not as beautiful as you are." I whispered back and she smiled up at me.
"This feels so right." she said snuggling deeper into me.
"It really does." I said. She sat up and turned to look at me.
"Jake, I really like you and I don't want you to think that um…I mean…oh never mind I don't know what I…"she rambled and I cut her off by pressing my lips to hers. I felt her loosen up a bit and start getting into the kiss. I lightly licked her bottom lip for permission and her mouth opened ever so slightly to allow access to her mouth. We laid back continuing to explore each other's mouths as I held her close to me. It had to be one of the most amazing kisses I had ever had. When things started to get a bit hotter I broke it off not wanting to rush what we had.
"Why'd you stop?" she asked.
"Bells, I want more TRUST ME! But I don't want to rush this." I said pointing between the two of us.
"What IS this exactly?" she asked using the same gesture.
"What do you want it to be?" I asked hoping she had the same idea I did.
"Jake, I think it's obvious I want to be with you." she said.
"Then will you?" I asked.
"Will I what?" she said confused.
"Will you be with me…as my girlfriend?" I said holding my breath. She responded by kissing me passionately.
"I will." she said. We sat up in the tree house for a while longer just making out and holding each other before Bella had to go inside. It was a wonderful night!