So chapter 7, sorry it took so long xxx

i hope you enjoy it and stay tuned for the next chapter! XD

I would like to apologise in advance for any grammar of spelling mistakes ^_^

"Cas hey its Sam, Dean's in trouble"

That is all it took for the sound of wings to announce Cas' instant arrival in Bobby's door way. They put there phones away and Sam went over to Cas,

"You have to find Dean, he just drove of, drunk. He's going to do something stupid"

Cas now had panic all over his face, after a nod he zapped himself away, he was unable to locate dean, but he could sense him, after flying for around 2 minutes he spotted the familiar classic black car speeding along an old dirt road.

-X-

At least dean was right about one thing it did only take a blink for Cas to reappear, but it was so unexpected and sudden, Dean swerved of the road and narrowly missed a tree at the sight of Cas sitting beside him.

"What the fuck Cas!"

"Dean slow down"

"What?"

"Dean. Please."

"Well you see this could all just be in my head, and I can't die in my own head, if I die hear I wake up. That's one way to fine out which world is fucking real!"

Dean let out a desperate laugh, he glanced over to Cas, he was holding the dash board and looking at little scared.

"This world is real dean, I assure you."

"Or it's all in my fucking mind!"

"Dean please stop, you'll hurt yourself."

"Relax Cas."

Dean laughed as he swerved the impala on and off the road, before taking another swig of his whiskey, he gave the bottle to Cas intending for the angel to drink and they could get drunk together, obviously the alcohol has seriously dulled his senses as when Cas had the bottle in his grip he threw it out the window, much to Dean's disappointment and anger.

"What the fuck! You owe me another bottle."

Dean was looking more at Cas then the actual road. Dean took note of how Cas' jaw was tense and eyebrows burrowed firmly together frowning, although Cas was being deadly serious Dean's lips couldn't help but curve into a small smile, even when he was angry and frustrated the angel still looked cute.

"Dean, stop the car."

Cas' voice was suddenly very soft and gentle, his words flowed in a rhythmic sea of song, dean could lose himself completely just listening to the heavenly way Cas spoke.

Dean watched as Cas' eyes were filled with fear for dean, wanting him safe and happy. Dean could feel his foot move pedal and they were slowing. Dean's eyes were locked to Cas'.

"Anything for you baby."

"Dean?"

Cas was confused and slightly embarrassed and Dean went red as he shook it of, it had to be said. Cas had to understand the reasons behind everything;

"Cas, I..."

"Dean!"

Cas shouted he sound sounded very panicked and he pointed ahead, the impala was heading straight for a tree, without thinking Cas zapped them out of the car. And dean had to watch his beloved impala crash into the old oak. Fortunately it would only take around 6 hours work to fix it as Dean was slowing down. But still Tears filled his eyes at the sight of his baby in such a state. Dean wanted hit Cas, but he knew even in his drunken state that if it weren't for Cas something even worse would have happened.

-X-

Unfortunately liquor does not mix well with angel mojo, so Dean's ability to speak went as a lump in his throat got bigger he broke out in a cold sweat and his head buzzed, then he was sick in front of Cas. As Dean was bent over spitting the rest of his vomit out, Cas reached up and stroked Dean's back, making Dean close his eyes soaking in the feel of Cas' touch.

"Come on; I'll take you back to Bobby's."

"No, I'm not going through this again!"

"Well you're not driving."

"I'll stay here then."

Cas nodded unsure of what he was supposed to do.

"Stay with me?"

They silently got in the back seat, Dean on the left and Cas on the right. There was a gap between them, Dean didn't like it but Cas seemed to think it appropriate.

"I'm sorry about, you know kissing you, won't happen again. I didn't even want to do it"

Cas wasn't the best at human emotions or reading situations. But he had became an expert at reading Dean. He wasn't the best liar, well not to Cas, and when he was drunk he was useless at it. Cas thought about Dean's advances and he went red, he secretly loved the idea but knew it wasn't right.

"I will always be here, but you have it stay here too."

Dean nodded he new that he had no choice; Cas needed him that he was sure. He wasn't going to just leave his angel.

"I'll have to tell Jimmy, he going to be heart broken."

Dean tried to joke but ended up, very red as he stopped himself from his over sharing, unfortunately Cas could guess;

"You're lovers?"

"What Cas? No! Is this my fantasy or yours?"

"Well it explains why you kissed me when you woke up."

There was silence between them, for some reason dean became erratic and defensive, probably down to the alcohol, even though his action just spelt, Dean Winchester; emotion dodger.

"Dean."

Cas spoke gently and placed a hand of the tense hunter's knee

"Don't, you said stop Cas, you said stop"

Dean was angry, he was confused and frustrated but mostly he just wanted to kiss Cas and get it over with.

"I know what you want Dean, I can feel it too, but that can never be we can never have that closeness."

"Why? Tell me the truth."

Cas didn't answer he simply lift his hand to Dean's face and stroked a tear from his cheek before leaning in to place a soft kiss on Dean's forehead.

"It wouldn't be right Dean; I am not going to take advantage."

Dean smiled god that angel was cute. Dean lent into his touch and kissed Cas' soft palm. Making Cas close his eyes to keep strength enough to remain seated and not pounce. It was a very tender sweet moment that they suddenly found themselves in.

"Stay with me"

Dean repeated this time in a whispered as he begged and sounded so desperate. His voice was so meek and vulnerable Cas pulled him in for a hug. Dean laid in the angels arms. He placed a hand around Cas' waist and even one leg was draped over one of Cas'. It was very intimate and the whole concept of personal space was lost, something that both hunter and angel were pleased with.

"I want this to be real."

"It is…" Cas answered and moved Dean's hand over his vessels racing heart "everything is."

-X-

"Cas!"

Dean spoke loudly and sounding worried as his voice crackled with pain.

"My head, it hurts, I came feel it coming"

"Fight it Dean stay with me"

"AAAAAAAAHHH!"

"DEAN!"

"Hold me, hold me through it Cas."

Cas did so and Dean whimpered in pain with tears steaming down his face. Cas kissed his forehead as he breathed deep; with each exhale small amount of light came out his mouth and bathed Dean in a shimmering glow.

Dean glance his skin it shimmered and glistened and his head ached decreased to that of a major migraine, it still hurt like a bitch but it wasn't near enough killing him.

"Relax Dean its just temporary it will help."

"Cas what is that?"

"Grace."

"You would do that for me?"

"Dean I would do anything for you."

"Cas I can't fight it, I wish I could. I just want to stay here."

"It's okay, go, but you better come back to me Winchester."

Cas then moved his head down to Dean's ear and prayed soothing words in enochian to Dean as he winced and whimpered from pain. The muscles in his body relaxed as he was in the state between asleep and awake. Cas held Dean in his arms as he felt Dean leave, he felt Dean's mind lesson and body became limp.

Cas got out the phone to called Sam and let him know what happened. Cas was full of guilt as he dialled, he felt ashamed he couldn't stop Dean crashing, couldn't stop him from leaving. Cas was powerless to stop any of this; it was up the Dean now.

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