Disclaimer: I do not own 90210, all rights go to the CW.

A/N: This chapter is based on the lyrics from different songs. Each paragraph is kind of separate from the previous but they all follow the same sort of theme.

It's been a long day without you, my friend

And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again

We've come a long way from where we began

Oh, I'll tell you about it when I see you again

When I see you again

The Letter:

Annie's hands shook with fear and her eyes went blurred as she opened the envelope that had just arrived by a solemn delivery-man, she briefly looked over the pages; it was the longest hand written letter she had ever seen. It detailed every little thing from the past few months - he must have known.

My beautiful princess,

The day that we met, I held my breath. Right from the start I knew that I had found a place for my heart. Your braveness and beauty got me through anything that could touch me and I walked out with you beside me. I didn't know how to love you the amount you dissevered but watching you stand alone - all of my doubt suddenly went away! I died everyday waiting for you, time stood still and I couldn't take myself away from what was standing in front of me. I am forever thankful for the love that you shared and I will always remember that 1st time we met, our 1st kiss and that very special day!

All those years ago, you took my hand and touched my heart, held me close and were always there by my side. When ever you smiled I could hardly believe that you were mine. My love is unbreakable - where ever we are. We shared the laughter and the tears. We both know we'll go on for eternity together, we are both strong but right in my arms is where you belong. I was touched by the heart of an angel and blessed by the power of your love; whenever you smile I still can't believe that you're mine because every little thing makes us stronger. Through flames and fire, ice and snow when all of this is over, I'll sweep you off your feet because our love will remain.

I was always looking for that something, something that made everything complete. I found it in the strangest place, a place I never knew it could be. I found it in your eyes. I found it sharing every morning with you, and in the quaintest of nights. Your simple voice that could make me laugh or cry. I found it in the strangest friendship; that I cherish with all my life. As impossible as it may seem, I had to fight for every dream. If I let you go I would be incomplete, waking up beside you made me complete. Watching the sunrise on your face; to know that I can say I love you in any given time or place. Little things that only I know - like the way you make your coffee or the way the corner of your eye crinkles when you smile. Those are the things that make you mine and I'm so proud that I can call you my wife! You were the place where my life began and you will be where it ends, that's the joy you bring.

You and I have been at it so long; though we still have the strongest fire, we still don't know how to talk. Sometimes I feel like the world is against me but the sound of your voice, is what saves me. When we're together I feel so invincible because it's us against the world, you and me against them all. If your reading these words know that I am standing strong, I don't ever see the day that I won't catch your fall. There were days where we were on different sides but they didn't last too long, we also found ways to get it back on track because we know how to turn back on. And I know a group of friends very jealous of our love, Ha.

For a while we pretended that nothing was going to change, but we knew we'd have to say goodbye someday. You were crying at the airport and when they finally closed the plane door, I could barely hold it all inside. We were torn in two and I know I shouldn't say this but I just can't stop thinking of you - wherever you are. Every night I almost called you just to say that I love you. I could fly a thousand oceans but there's nothing that compares to what we have, I wish I was there, right beside you. We'll always be together and someday everything will stay the same.

But I say your love, it is a flower and you're it's only seed. If your heart is afraid of breaking just think of me and how I'm so sorry for doing this to you. Your my dream that I'm afraid of waking up from and I know I'll never have another chance. I'm the one who won't be taken from you but also who cannot give ... Don't be afraid or you will never learn to live. When your too lonely and your road has been too long; and you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong. Just remember, in the winter far beneath the bitter snow, lies the seed what with the sun's love, in the spring becomes the rose and life begins again.

I saw you in my dream last night, you had your smile so white and I thought your teeth were the stars. Your eyes were like tiny rivers and you gave me the shivers when I looked right up at you! We never got to say a goodbye, we never sat down and cried and watched each other's tears fall out so I never got a chance to tell you just exactly how well you carved your home in my heart. You can stay here for ever in my heart, I'll never let it get cold, dark or crowed, and I'll never give your spot away to anyone! I bet you think I'm so much different, well I'm the same. My mind is still the chaos of information that it was in High School, but now I can reach out for so much more and you taught me that, to aim for what ever; not matter how strange they may be. Please say you will stay here for a while in my heart because I'll never turn out the light on you, angel.

I like to think that you can still hear me, that your listening to every little thing that I say and all the words I start because I never got a chance to tell you exactly how well you carved your home in my heart.

But, another day had come and gone away, and here the sun is so bright but I want to come home. I'm always surrounded by people but still feel all alone, I just want to come home. I miss you, you know! I've kept all the letters that you wrote to me and the photo of my precious family - I'm fine baby, how are you?

I know that it's just not enough to love, my world is cold and flat and you deserve so much more than that. Another raid, another dead - I'm lucky so far but I want to come home. I'm just too far from where you are, I need you right now. I've had my run - baby I'm done! I feel just like I'm living someone else's life, it's like we just stepped out the normal run when everything was going right. I know why you always felt so insecure, because this was not your dream - but you always believed in me.

Baby with the sad eyes, don't be discouraged - I realise it's hard to take courage in a world full of torture, but you can live in everything, the darkness; it will make you feel so small but I have seen your true colours and that was why I loved you and still love you, so don't be afraid to let them show because they are beautiful just like you.

I wrote this in the lonely cold barracks just to say that I love you, one more time. But I hear sounds of the guns firing in the background and I had to wipe away the tear from my eye. Little voices came over my mind, they said 'Daddy when are you coming home?'. You need to tell them the 1st thing that came to my head:

I'm already there, take a look around.

I'm the sunshine in your hair, I'm the shadow on the ground.

I'm the whisper in the wind, I'm your imaginary friend and I know I'm in your prayers.

I'm already there.

I really miss you darling, don't worry about the kids they'll be alright. I wish I was in your arms, lying right there beside you but I know that I'll be in your dreams tonight.

I'm already there, don't make a sound.

I'm the beat in your heart, I'm the moonlight shinning down.

I'm the whisper in the wind and I'll be there until the end.

Can you feel the love that we share? I'm already there.

This is it, my last words to you! I just want you to know that I love you, always have and always will. At the moment I am cold and hungry but I know they are coming for us all, there are only 10 left now - this place is brutal. From the very 1st time we met on a double date, to us getting engaged and every thing in between I have been completely and utterly under your spell of love and devotion. Just know that I will always be watching you from above and will always have a huge smile on my face, because I will be immensely proud of you. My wife.

My babies, I hardly know you which makes this even tougher than it already is. I couldn't wait to be your dad and watch you grow into beautiful people. The 1st time I heard your heart beats, I always knew that I would love you conditionally and that you will all make me the proudest dad to walk on this earth!

Little lady, Mia - Your little heart already glows love and I can see in your eyes that you will be a doctor; the best doctor ever! You'll make me and mommy so proud with anything and everything you do. The little brain box, Your light brown hair is exactly mine and keep it that way so you forever have a part of me. Always talk to mommy, never keep your feelings about anything inside, particularly when the sadness of not having a daddy comes to your mind. When you are older my red t-shirt with the black sleeves will be yours to cuddle each night. Uncle Dixon got daddy that many years ago, my 1st Birthday as mommy's special friend. Keep your head high and know that I'll be watching you like everyone else and will be cheering you on through out your amazing life to come. Never aim for second best, always strive to be the best you can, even if people make fun of you; if they do just say to yourself 'my daddy is watching me constantly and loves everything I'm doing'. Make me so proud! I love you more than double the amounts of stars in the sky.

Sweat pea, Eliza - Your identical eyes to your sister and mother just remind me everyday of your bubbly personality and one day with that you will soar. I hope you become an athlete, I can just see your crazy waves flowing on the performance floor of dance. Always keep your mind free and be the leader, show your true personality and never give up on the task in front. Learn to trust those who trust you and confide in them - especially mommy, cuddle her for me when she's sad ok? Like Mia, when you are older take my green patterned t-shirt, the one that mommy gave me! Cuddle or wear it to keep me close and always think about me before you jump into the world. Your a little firecracker, never let that go no matter how much mommy complains about you! I will watch you become what ever is your passion but I have a feeling it will be some sort of dramatic arts, follow your talent and of course I will watch you over come every hurdle, big or small. I love you so much more than you can imagine.

My son, Harvey - I always loved your small brown curls and my matching blue eyes. Your tiny body is already prepped for football, don't make the mistake I did and never make time to play. I couldn't wait to watch you grow up into a moody teenager and redecorate your bedroom without asking us first, it now seems I will never get that chance. Promise me this: Never shut yourself down; even if your life gets hard or you make the wrong decisions. Your wisdom and heart exceed your minimal years and I want nothing more for me to be so proud and say, 'that is MY son'. When your a teenager, never take out your feelings on someone else and always trust the ones who mean the most to you; never let that special girl out of our arms because I nearly did and my life would never have been the same nor would you my wonderful son have been born. Pursue whatever makes you happy in life and remember I will always love and cherish you and hold you in my arms at night when the going gets tough. Make my proud big man. I love you.

Finally, my precious family you kept the tears at night flowing and my will power to continue fighting, all for you. I will always watch over you and follow your every move and keep you safe. Never feel down or upset when someone mentions 'dad' because I will be with you everywhere you go, and when that difficult time of year comes around don't think about me being gone - think about what I did and what I achieved in my life (how little they all seem), how you are the only people to say 'he was my dad' or 'he was my husband'; those rights belong to you and you guys only.

I will love you forever and ever - just give me an eternity to show just how much!

Now I exist only in your memories, and please, always smile at my memory.

A billion years of love and happiness,

Daddy Liam. xxxxxxx

She fell to the floor in sobs.

It's been a long day without you, my friend

And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again

We've come a long way from where we began

Oh, I'll tell you about it when I see you again

When I see you again