i hope evryone is doing okay.
this chapter was posted before on archive of our own and today i posted a new chapter after a long delay because i was sick and after that i was on vaccation with my family.
late happy new year everybody and may all your wishes come true.
enjoy :)
Since the moment Natasha's conscious woke up, she smelled first thing his warm skin and got aware that the body beside her on the bed is awake and doing his favorite thing according to him; starring at her. Still closing her eyes, she stayed like that for some time enjoying his smell and remembering some past memories. After a while she decided to open her eyes and discover why her super soldier is awake at an early hour even though she was enjoying his hand's touch on her face.
« You never get tired of this habit, do you? » the red head said with a smile before opening her eyes.
« Never » the soldier said while still stroking her hair. « Доброе утро, моя красная роза». Natasha pushed herself up into her elbows and said:
« What time is it ? the sun isn't out yet. »
« It is 5:30 am. »
« It's still early, why are you up at this hour? Did you see a nightmare? » Natasha said caressing her husband's cheek.
« No, not exactly. « he said after lying on his back.
« What do you mean? » Natalia said and put her head on his chest.
« Well, it was kind of a dream. » the soldier said and started moving his fingers on her shoulder « it was a normal dream, after I woke up I just remembering that decades ago on a day like this one; after enduring a lot under Hydra's hands; my life that led me to this future started when I met you my beautiful rose even though this day represents several bad events that happened. »
« The earliest memory I have of this day is a bad one. »
« I know; the memory of your parents' murder and the beginning of your nightmare. »
« Yeah, in some way New Year's Eve will always represent a bad symbol in my life but when I met you; it started representing good events too, our first encounter, the first time we slept together,..»
« Don't make me remember that, when they first told me back then that they are going to give me a gift; I was surprised but when I discovered the nature of that gift I felt repulsed and disgusted of their twisted thinking even though I was a cold assassin.» the ex assassin said with a disgusted face at the reminder of that particular memory and the red room trainers' sadistic facial expressions.
« When they told me the first time that you were to be my personal trainer I cursed my destiny and wished death before meeting you and giving myself to you but my opinion changed after knowing you, so when they told me on our second new year's eve that I will be having my first time with you I was quite happy and so sure that you wouldn't hurt me and you didn't disappoint my trust. » the red head said; leaned and pressed a kiss on his shoulder before joining her fingers with his metal ones.
« You know, now that we mentioned this, I think that even if it was another girl on that night, I wouldn't have been able to be brutal to her. When they told me about that ceremony I decided to be as careful as I can be with you considering I didn't know how you felt toward me or about the whole thing but when you kissed me that morning; I felt assured and decided it wouldn't be only a careful smooth physical relation but it would be love making as weird as that sound coming from me back then. »
« And it was. It was also the best New Year's gift I received and the first time I felt truly happy after so many years of despise toward that particular day. At least in our case, that ceremony went smoothly and fantastic, it turned out to a wonderful memory but I can say confidently that it didn't feel the same for the other girls especially after I returned to the dorms the morning after. Some even started despising the word sex. »Nat said, took his metal hand and kissed it.
« Yeah I can imagine especially after I saw the monstrous and cruel smiles of the other personal trainers and their conversations that revealed they only saw the girls as sex dolls or a tool that gives them just sexual relief. I almost emptied my stomach. » James said with a repulsed tone.
« They had fucking twisted minds but at least we were lucky considering even during your mental state back then but you still had some morals toward certain things and that's why I fell in love with you even when you were just the winter soldier. » Natalia said and pressed a light kiss to the nook of his neck.
« You're right but I'm the luckiest bastard between the two of us. No one can argue with me about this. » James said then got on top of her and started kissing her on her lips. Natalia put her arms around his neck, pulled him toward her to deepen their kiss and wrapped his waist with her legs. They parted their lips to catch some air then James cupped her face and said with a tone filled with lust
« How about a morning round? »
« when did I ever said no to you? » the red head said while passing her hands on his hair still recalling threading her fingers through it several times the night before during and after several rounds of sex. He almost cut it before their wedding but thank god she caught him and made him promise never to do it.
« No, never. » the winter soldier said and started showering her neck with light kisses while their hands were busy roaming each other's body when suddenly they heard light footsteps getting closer to their bedroom's door.
« Someone is very early today. » a smiling Nat said.
« He's probably very excited. At least I didn't start undressing you. » James said then gave her one final deep kiss before pulling from her and settles back into the mattress.
« Hhhh, yeah and it's good that we wore something after our activities yesterday night. »
The door got opened quickly and revealed a little five years old boy who from his looks can't be mistaken not to be the progeny of the winter soldier and the black widow, with his dark chocolate brown hair; eyes and nose shaped liked his father and green eyes like his mother, running to his parents' bed and jumping on it.
« Мамочка, Πапочка, you're awake. »
« Good morning munchkin, come here. » James said, grabbed his son, kissed him on his forehead and put him between him and Nat.
« Why are you up so early my little guy? » Natalia asked, caressing her son's face.
« I am very excited; I can't wait to go back to our other house. »
« But it's still very early.» the smiling mother said.
« I know but can't we return now? I miss everyone. » the pouting boy said. Usually using his pouting and puppy dog eyes got him everything he wants.
« I know baby boy but it's still the night there. » Nat said with a wide smile because she knows what her baby boy is doing.
« How about you sleep here with us for more couple of hours so when you wake up you won't wait for too long until we take the quinjet and return? » James said to the little boy.
« Mmmm, okay then. » their angel said and covered himself with the covers.
The two proud parents stayed starring at their little ray of sunshine sleeping soundly between them. Suddenly James kissed her and said:
« Thank you, thank you for everything. »
« For what? » a surprised Natasha asked.
« For entering my life, for being the ray of light that enlightened my dark world, for being my salvation, for loving me with all my flaws and wrongs, for being my lover and my wife and for giving me Alexei. » he declared and kissed her again.
« Don't be ridiculous, it takes two to have one. »
« You know, before Alexei was born or even conceived, I viewed our life together perfect. Sometimes I remembered and mourned our first child and imagined how our lives would have been but that didn't haunt me, I still saw our life as perfect because I was content with having you in my life but when Alexei was born and held him for the first time; in that moment I felt like our life really became perfect and complete. »
« I will confess something, you know on the day Alexei was born, I was breastfeeding him and you were asleep with your head on the bed, until that moment I couldn't believe that we were given a second chance to be parents, I could feel him sucking milk but it was like being trapped between reality and dream. I pinched myself really hard for goodness 'sake. In that moment, I believed that there's really some higher being that is watching over us and giving us second chances in life. »
« Yeah, I know what you mean, I felt the same like you when I heard his first scream and held him for the first time. It was like a religious experience. »
« The best experience ever, so thank you too. And as said; it takes two to have one. » she leaned on and kissed him a light kiss.
As they were watching over their beautiful creature; their ray of sunshine who enlightened their world and made them believe in second chances especially for Natalia as he was the realization of her deepest wish, something she thought she would never have; they were remembering how they reached this beautiful moment.
Six years ago, she was severely injured during a mission in Africa, the bomb exploded near her; she was on blink of death, barely alive. They were near Wakanda so she was taken there and to her luck; Dr Cho was there with her cradle of life, whoever gave that machine that name was right because that cradle combined with Wakandan medical technology have done miracles to her body. At first the only miracle they thought that happened to her was healing her from her mortal injuries that no any kind of operation or doctor would have been able to cure her. In two months she was back new and better than before. They discovered the other miracle after 5 months from that accident. She was nauseous all the time, her mood swings were the worst; she would be calm and in a minute her mood would change, she was dizzy too.
At first, they thought that there was something that went wrong during her healing or that she was sick. They decided to go to a doctor where they received the chocking cause for all those symptoms; off course they couldn't believe the results so they went to Wakanda. Dr Cho, the doctors and Shuri confirmed the validity of those results, they re-analyzed again but the results were the same.
« You are really pregnant, we re-analyzed and tested you a few times; the results are the same. » Dr Cho confirmed to the worried and confused couple. They were sitting on the sofa intertwining their hands.
« But how is that possible! The red room… the red room made sure to take that ability from me, I.. I did…I didn't even have a normal cycle. » the chocked red head said, her tone was full of confusion.
« We have done a comparison between your pelvic x ray tests before your accident and after it, it is true that you were unable to have children before that fateful mission but it seems that the cradle and Wakandan technology treated that also besides your injuries from the explosion or the scares that you got from your previous missions. Due to your sexual routine not to use protection, your body took his time to heal that area and the first egg that your body produced was fertilized immediately, it didn't have the chance to transform to a cycle. » Dr Cho explained to the perplexed couple not being able to say a letter let alone a word.
« We are really sorry for not notifying you of this after the accident, we are truly sorry, we didn't mean not to tell you and cause you this uncomfortable situation. » Shuri said.
« No, No. don't be sorry, I'm really confused and shocked right now but this is not… an uncomfortable situation, it's, h… it's quite the opposite actually. » the red head stuttered as she was trying to process what was said to her. She put her hands on her abdomen and for the first time she couldn't hold her tears and let them out. Then she turned her head and said to her husband:
« I'm really pregnant, I can't believe it. We're going to be parents; I'm going to be a mother. » the soon to be mother exulted.
« Yes you are Дорогой, we're going to be parents, you will be a magnificent mother, I'm sure of that Возлюбленная. »the soldier assured his shocked and confused wife while shedding a tear also. Then he put his hands on top of hers which were still covering her abdominal area.
That night, they slept like they were in a cocoon with her hands covering her abdominal area in a fetus position and James using his body like a shield protecting her and their precious baby.
During the following seven months, they were on egg shells, they felt like they were trapped in some kind of a dream or a hallucination, especially Natasha who was not able to properly process that she was really pregnant after living for many years with the fact that being a mother was not a possibility for her to the point that it became engraved in her mind; like someone who is sterile from birth, even with all the ultra sound photos. The first time she felt the baby's kicks and movement, she cried a river, from that moment it started to feel real for her, that day she and James spent the whole day feeling their baby boy's kicks. It became like a hobby or a routine for them, each night Natasha would lie back between her soldier's legs with their hands on her baby bump to monitor the kicks until Alexei Lakovovitch Romanova Barnes was born on November the 16 ͭʰ.
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