Chapter 7

*At five months*

I was doing some light jogging in one of the treadmills in Abe's gym. The mansion's basement was made into a huge gym for his guardians. It has 5 machines of every piece of gym equipment you can imagine needed to work out and condtion yourself. It even has a separate room for massages when desired, a designated section to spar equipped with mats, and it even has a space to train with dummies also equipped with various weapons. Abe really takes care of his guardians, not only does he have the gym just for them, he also provided a firing range and made an entertainment room designated for guardians when they are off and don't want to leave the mansion. I visited the entertainment room a couple of times and it's exactly what any man would want their man cave to look like. It has a pool table, an eight person octagonal poker table, a foosball table, an air hockey table, a basketball arcade game, he even set a section to play video games or watch movies with movie theatre-like seats and, of course. a bar. He once told me he likes to keep his guardians well taken care of, and let me tell you that Abe's guardians are more well taken care of than guardians that serve with some Royals.

Dr. Kuznetsov gave me the all clear to do some exercises as long as I don't over do it, and jogging apparently fits the description of 'not over doing it'. So it's going to be light jogging from now on, and a lot of meditation, even if I suck at it. I get distracted too often. A fly is more interesting than concentrating on your energy flow and having your mind blank. Oksana and Mark are helping me get the hand of meditating. I have to get rid off Lissa's darkness some how that doesn't involve extraneous physical activity. That's how Oksana and her husband came on board into helping Rose and her miracle pregnancy train. But if you ask me, I think what drew them here was the pregnancy fact. I think they want to find out exactly how I got pregnant, it's a miracle and it gives Oksana more information about spirit. I don't care. They are good people and if I can help then so be it.

"Kizim?"

"No Abe, not yet."

"She needs to know Rosemarie."

"Not right now Baba." Abe has been trying to get me to tell my mom about my current situation, but I can't seem to find the courage. See! This pregnancy has me turned into something I thought I would never become. The old Rose would never fear her mother, but the new Rose does. I know she didn't want me to fall pregnant, but in my defense how would I have I could fall pregnant from Dimitri?

"Well…Rose, you see I might have slipped something about finding you and she might be on her way."

I stopped the treadmill and ran to him.

"What do you mean you kind of slipped up?" I asked, pointing my index finger at him. I know its rude. "You don't just slip up. I can't believe you after I told you that I needed time. I can't just pop the surprise on mom 'hey mom by the way I'm pregnant and Dimitri's the father which he still doesn't know' are you trying to get me to go into labor already, Old man?"

"Calm down Kizim. You know you need to calm down for the twins and yourself."

"Don't tell me to calm down, Old man! I told you multiple times why I didn't want people to know about my pregnancy. The less people know the better. The twins aren't even here yet and I'm already making sacrifices for them. I've been stuck in this mansion since I got here. I don't want people to know that I'm here." People will believe I was lying about the parentage of the twins, or that I was too ashamed about falling pregnant, so making up a lie was better for me.

"It's been months Kizim, don't you want to see your friends? I know you've been couped up here, but you need to tell them about the twins. What's going to happen after the twins are born. What are you going to do? Are you planning on being stuck here with them forever?"

I'm not going to lie, I've missed my friends so much, especially now that my hormones are out of wack. Adrian visited my dreams a couple of nights. Thank God he chooses the place and how I look because he would start questioning me if I appeared pregnant in one of the dreams. We always talk about everyone except Dimitri. He tells me how Christian is still mad about the Queen's plans for Adrian to marry Lissa. How Lissa is doing, and how Tatiana is trying to mold her and make her an apprentice so to speak. Adrian thinks his Great-Aunt has Lissa so close because she wants her to be the next Queen. I wouldn't be surprised. She's an excellent candidate.

Lissa has gotten into the habit of talking to me, even though she knows I can't respond. She says she feels my presence now, and when she does she talks to me about her desire to see me. She knows I take away the darkness from her, and every time I do she thanks me for it. I don't stay long in her mind because she is always surrounded with Guardians, and in that line of protection she has Dimitri. I don't hate him. He just did the one thing that I thought no one could ever do. He broke me, and I don't think I'll be able to recover.

I broke out of my thoughts when Abe said something alarming.

"What did you say?"

"I said that your mother is to arrive in 2 days."

"Two days!"

"Yes. Also I suggest you get cleaned up because the doctor is coming, remember today we find out what you are having!"

That's right. Today I find out the sex of the twins. The doctor tried to determine the sex, but the little rascals are always in an embrace making it hard to see. The doctor says that as they grow I will be able to feel their movements. I feel little movements here and there but nothing major like a kick. They are developing at a normal rate and they are doing just fine, according to doc.

After I showered and changed I went to the room that Abe set up for my delivery. He said it was an examining room/laboratory room/delivery room. To me it just looks like a big maternity hospital room. Its equipped with a hospital looking bed that I'm pretty sure it wasn't cheap, two baby warmers machinery, an external fetal monitor, and two 'crash carts' one for an adult and one for newborn. He says the crash carts are equipped for emergency situations only. My plan is to have them naturally if I can but if I can't I will go to a private hospital and have a C-section.

"Good Afternoon, Rosemarie, you look radiant, how are you feeling?"

"I'm doing great. I don't know why women complain about pregnancies I mean I haven't experienced any pain or anything. I haven't been able to feel a kick but I do feel little movement here and there but I think its just gas," and she laughs.

"You're young and still too early on the pregnancy, that's why. As the babies grow they have less space. The less space there is, the more you feel. And having twins will speed up the process. Trust me you will feel it, especially against your ribs. Don't try to rush into things. Enjoy this time, because from six months until delivery you'll start feeling the pain. And it will only get worse as the time passes."

My mind went straight to imagining two little fighters hitting the shit out of my insides. I unconsciously rubbed my stomach.

"Ok."

"Ok let's start by checking you physically, and then we can do the ultrasound in the end since that's the best part. You know what to do."

The doctor gave me a cup I have to pee every time she comes. She brings her portable lab machines to check whatever there is in my urine. I guess my pee is ok since she never comments about it. After she checks my urine, she checks my blood pressure, my weight, my temperature, my stomach, and she even pinches my nipples. I once asked her why she squeezes them, but she just said she was checking for discharge. She asked if I was going to breastfeed or bottlefeed. I personally did not know the difference, but everyone that has known about my pregnancy says that breastfed is better than bottlefed. There's a lot I don't know about having a baby and I hate it. I'm a straight forward person, but having the responsibility of taking care of someone without knowing what you're up against is insane. Pregnancy and motherhood is harder than killing strigoi.

"Ok Rose, everything is doing just fine. You're in your sixteenth week. Next month you'll be on your twentieth week and we'll repeat the tests from when I first saw you. Remember?"

Yes, how can I forget that sugar test? Bleh!

"Yes."

"OK let's get to the ultrasound machine. You want to get Abe?"

I was about to answer when he came in. Huh, I guess he was listening by the door.

"No need, I'm here."

"Aren't you a little too old for eavesdrop Old man?"

"Never!"

The first thing I heard when the doctor put the wand on my stomach was my baby's heart beats. I loved those sounds. I saw them on the screen. They look more like babies already. I can't believe they are my babies. That I'm carrying two little half-vampire beings inside me. After she did her check ups she turned to me.

"Now are you sure you want to know the sex of the babies?"

"Yes!" My father and I yelled excitedly and the doctor laughed.

"Ok, then baby A is a…Boy!"

A boy! Wow! I'm having a boy.

"Baby B is a…..boy too! Congratulations Rose!"

Two boys. I'm having two boys!

"That is excellent news Kizim two healthy boys! I have to tell Yeva and the others. They wanted to know the sex of the twins as soon as possible."

"Here you go Rose and Abe, this is for you to keep."

She printed the pictures of my two boys. I held the printed sheet and looked at them. My two boys were so close to each other, like if they were hugging. I felt a move inside of me. I guess it was a kick or they were just repositioning. I'm pretty sure they are starting to feel cramped. I looked back at the picture and vowed that my sons would not know rejection or have the fear of rejection. I want them to have as normal a life as possible. A life full of joy, but at the same time discipline. They will train to be the best fighters, just like their parents. Fighting would be second nature to them, like it is to their father and I. I can just imagine the trouble these two will give me and if they share half my DNA I won't be surprised how terrible they come out.

I was picturing the boys grown up when unexpectedly was sucked into Lissa's mind.

"Christian please!"

"No Lissa, enough is enough, you have to stop, you've become obsessed. If Rose wanted to be found, she would've appeared already! Don't you get it, she wants to be left alone."

"No she wouldn't leave me like that, she knows how much I need her, she's my best friend!"

"Best friend! How much do you really know her? How much do you know your best friend?"

"We've been together since we were four, I know her more than you know."

"Then why did she leave then if you know her so well?"

"Be- Because she was frustrated."

"Frustrated with who?"

"I know she was not taking Dimitri's avoidance too well, but you know how she is. She won't stop pushing until she gets her point across and makes that person change their views."

"Oh Lissa you claim you know your best friend but you are so clueless about her. Adrian, who hasn't known her for so long, knows what she's going through. Hell even I know what she's going through."

"What do you mean 'going through'?"

"Lissa her love of her life rejected her after everything she went through to get him back."

"Yes, I know that, but she needs to understand that Dimitri's mental state is on the mend. It's hard for him to accept and have closure after what he did when he was strigoi."

"Yes, I can't begin to imagine what he is going through. But you never try to help Rose with Dimitri. Dimitri worships you. He literally kisses the path you walk on. Instead of helping Rose, you kept her away by telling her to be patient and that Dimitri needed time. Since when have you seen Rose be patient? Particularly when it involves a person she loved, thought she lost, and came back from the dead? Put yourself in her shoes, would you have been patient?"

I couldn't see Lissa's face, but her silence said it all. Guilt is what she was feeling. That's when I pulled myself out. She was mentally preoccupied, so it gave me the strength to get the hell out. But not before I heard her said "Oh God."

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