Chapter Five: Amnesia Sucks…
A few more hours had passed and after resting the entire time, Meredith felt strong enough to be able to try and remember who she was. James had removed the heat-trapping blankets and had placed her underneath the thick warm sheets on his bed. He had given her some spare women's pyjamas that he had found in a drawer and had instantly walked out of the room before Meredith could ask about them, let alone say thank you to him.
Unfortunately James had to come back in and un-connect the tube from the needle in her hand so she could get her hand and arm through the sleeve.
She had seen the sadness on his face when he glanced at the pyjamas on the bed and she knew that there was more to this attractive man than met the eye.
But she would ask him about it another time.
He had helped her get dressed because she did not have the strength to do it herself, but now he was sitting on a chair next to the bed and was asking her questions. He had propped pillows up behind her back and had formally introduced himself to her and she committed his name to her memory.
But she could not answer any of his questions.
"Can ye remember ye name?"
"No."
"Ye birthday?"
"No."
"Ye address?"
"No."
"Family?"
"No."
"Job?"
"No."
"Ye favourite flavour of ice-cream?"
"What sort of question is that?"
James smiled at her, "Lass, a person's favourite flavour of ice-cream can defy who they are."
Meredith looked at him in confusion, "And how can that help me remember?"
James looked away, thoughtful for a few seconds before looking back at her.
"Well…I love peppermint choc-chip, so that shows that there are many layers to me but I have a nice green personality but I have a bit of chocolate bite."
Meredith stared at him blankly for a few seconds before she suddenly burst out into a fit of giggles.
James stared at her in brief shock, but he just smiled at her, "Well I wasn't expecting that for a reaction."
Meredith slowly stopped her giggling but she felt warmth spread through her entire being but she couldn't help but frown slightly as it felt so…unfamiliar.
As if she was used to being sad and unhappy…that laughter to her must be rare or something.
She looked at James with confused uncertainty and he watched her with concern.
"What is it lass?"
Half biting her lip in thought, she didn't answer for a few seconds, "I think that who ever I am…I must be…dark and twisted or whatever."
James rubbed his chin thoughtfully, studying her face, "Ye don't look like the type to be…'dark and twisted'? Never heard tha' expression before…"
Meredith looked down at the bedspread, thinking.
Dark and twisted…why does that sound so familiar??
Suddenly she looked at James with a slight smile, "Dark and twisted. That's how I described myself I think…"
James smiled, "Ye remember something?"
Meredith clung to the familiarity in her mind but as desperately as she tried, the feeling quickly disappeared and faded into the missing hole that was her memory.
Her face fell into one of disappointment and loss, looking at James with tears rising in her eyes she looked at him helplessly, "I thought I did but…" she hung her head, "it's gone."
James smiled sadly at her and leant forward, placing a hand on top of her left hand.
"Ye will remember it lass. I'll make sure of it."
She slowly turned to look down at their hands and then looked into his comforting face.
"How do you know?' she asked, tears rising again.
He looked away for a second before glancing back at her with a half-smile.
"How about I swear on the MacLean Oath?"
Meredith looked at him sceptically, "Is this a Scottish thing?"
James laughed slightly and smiled at her, his green eyes dancing with humour, "Aye lass, I guess you could say that."
Meredith felt her heart begin to beat slightly faster and her cheeks to suddenly become hot.
She smiled and looked away, feeling the blush creep across her face and she removed her hand from underneath his hand.
James, taking the hint, stood up and began to walk away into another room to allow her to get some rest but a small voice stopped him in his tracks.
"Can I stay here until I remember who I am? I don't think I could handle trying to go into the world at the moment…It seems safe here…If I am making any sense?"
Her voice sounded so quiet, helpless and unsure that James felt his heart beginning to stir, something that had not happened for…a long time.
He smiled at her, the smile travelling all the way up to his eyes and he nodded, "Aye, ye more than welcome to. I miss having company and I will do everything I can to help ye try to remember who ye are. But we have to get ye well again so ye can stand on ye own two feet before we do anything."
Meredith smiled back at him, grateful beyond words, "Thank you James."
James just nodded in reply and winked at her, a habit he had developed over the years, "Ye better get some rest now 'cause ye body needs it. If ye need anything, I'll just be in the next room makin' a cuppa."
"Ok." She said quietly before snuggling down under the covers and getting herself comfortable.
He smiled and walked out of the room and quietly shut the door behind him.
Her body was still extremely sore and felt beyond exhausted, but the warmth and security of the bed she was in seeped through the pain and discomfort and began to ease her body.
Meredith shut her eyes but she suddenly felt a deep part inside her suddenly feel sad. She did not know what it was, but the weight of the sadness began to press on her heart.
Confusion clouded her as the sadness suddenly disappeared and drifted to the back of her brain into the hole of blackness where everything was missing.
Her memories…identity…everything…
I'll remember who I am.
Meredith thought this with such confidence as she thought of the man in the other room, knowing he was going to help her.
Save her when HE would not.
That man whom she could not remember but was there in her mind, hidden beneath a layer of darkness she could not penetrate just yet.
Who is HE? It was HE that had made me feel the disappointment when I first woke up after James had rescued and saved me…
Wondering this in silence, Meredith sighed sadly as she began to contemplate what she was going to do.
She did not know how old she was, her birthday, her name, her family, if she had a job, a boyfriend, nothing.
But at least she was alive and in a safe place, somewhere where she could begin to slowly pull herself back together. She knew deep down that she should really be in a hospital and needed a medical check-up, but she had the strong suspicion that James was a doctor because he knew exactly what he was doing and he seemed to have an endless medical supply that not normal people would have unless they were medical people themselves.
The thought of going to the local hospital and having to be checked out caused her to feel a sudden rush of sadness and slight panic.
Screwing her eyes up tight, Meredith felt tears suddenly begin to rise and begin to flow from under her closed lids.
There was something at the hospital that was bad and even though she had amnesia, she did not want to know what it was because she could not help but feel that it was the cause of all of her unexplainable sadness.
All she knew though was that she would just simply avoid it because whatever it was, she could not deal with any more shocks and emotional pain.
But the thought of James in the next room made a small smile creep onto Meredith's face and her sadness slightly lift off her heavy heart.
James was her angel and Meredith believed that karma had sent them to her so she would not be alone.
Thank god for karma…
A/N: Thank you to every much who has reviewed this story so far! :D It gives me great joy to see that people are reading it and enjoying it. Almost as much as I have been enjoying writing it. And I am also loving the fact that no one is having a problem about how I am being slightly anti-Derek at the moment with this story. Still can't believe he kissed Rose…Grr! Any way, now I am not going to reveal what the pairing for this story is going to be because it could be either Meredith and McScottish James or just MerDer…but we will have to see because I am undecided. Although I added the character of James in because I have a weakness for Scottish men. Lol! :D
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