Pairing: Allen x Lenalee

Disclaimer: All rights to D-gray-man belong to Katsura Hoshino

VII. This Heart

Life was one thing, war was another. Allen couldn't fathom what, when, where or how he had gotten here. To this place where failure is a possible outcome and God knows that the clown that he is cannot tolerate failure.

Why?

It was simple...there was just too much on the line, too much to gamble. Too much of his heart to lose and the thought terrified him. It skinned his back and tugged on his heart and he didn't know if he could take it any longer.

As if on cue, Lenalee's slender arms wrapped around him tightly and she furthers her head at the nape of his neck. He breathes in her scent and commits it to memory. How long can they stay like this? He pulls her closer and prays to God she won't disappear. He compresses his grip fearing that none of this is real. Allen knows that Lenalee is awake, because like him, she is plagued with nightmares but she is better at handling it than he is. Her mane of dark hair tickles his neck and she begins to hum a tune he has never heard of.

His muscles relax and his eyes begin to shut, listening to the sound of her heart.

I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
that I've fallen down and I can't do this alone.

He muses at the idea of what would happen if her insanely over protective brother found them. Allen distinctly remembers the sound of the drill, the sharpness of its point and the maniacal laughter that is Komui and shudders. He would tell Komui to let this one slide because he needs her. They need each other. The destroyer of time couldn't do this alone.

Stay with me, this is what I need...please?

Allen breathes in and breathes out, all the while wishing endlessly that they could stay like this forever. Naive as he is, he knows forever is nothing more than a far-off dream. But who could ever erase this moment? This moment had to be, this moment is and this moment will continue on from now until forever. All he had to do was look inside his head, where all the thoughts of her stayed safely hidden from those who want to tear his world apart. There is no end to it.

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
we could sing our own but what would it be without you?

So they stayed that way for the remainder of the night, with hearts aflutter. Her humming continued and it eased his soul and he nearly forgot that tomorrow could be their last. Between the humming of her tune she would gently pull herself closer to him and his hold would tighten further.

I am nothing now and it's been so long
since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope

His heart...

It represented everything, it represented nothing. It represented his hopes, dreams, and promises to keep but most importantly, it represented her and the lifeline he had left. Allen decided that no mater how lost he got, no matter how tarnished he would become that he would listen to this tune and think of her...Leading him to the light at the end of the tunnel.

This heart, it beats, beats for (only) you
my heart is yours
It is
It is
It is.

"Lenalee, thank you."

Author's notes:

Why yes, I fail at life and the empty promise I had for trying to update this as frequently as possible. Due to -man's hiatus there is little interaction between our favourite bundles of love therefore inspiration is hard to come by.

But I wish Hoshino-San a steady recovery!

I don't know if anyone still remembers this...*cries*

P.S. The song lyrics are from Paramore's, 'My heart.' It's truly a beautiful song and I don't listen to them very often but it's seriously the most amazing thing I've heard as of late! Go Go Go! I cringe at the 'screamo' parts (it's not my cup of tea), for those who have heard it. I think it takes away from a perfectly breathtaking song, that's just my opinion though.

P.S.S. Thoughts on this are always welcomed so please tell me what you think!

P.S.S. Seeing as this was finished at 3:00 in the morning (and I had to attend class in a couple hours) there were a few things that I skimmed over that I wanted to include. So If you have read this already, you'll notice I added a little something or other.