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I had been downstairs reading as I tried to immerse myself in the book so that I would be able to pass the night hours by more quickly. Usually Jasper and Alice or my parents for all intents and purposes would keep me company, but tonight they had wanted to spend time alone as couples and I would never begrudge them that. Just because I know longer had a wife who wanted to be with did not mean that I did not respect my siblings and parents needs to be alone with the ones they loved.

Leah was sleeping in my room since she had spent the night again. Ever since Renesmee had her birthday party a little over a week ago the female shifter had been spending more time at here and I could only assume she was trying to see if she would be comfortable living here. She may never speak about it out loud, yet Leah really was intrigued by the idea of coming to stay here on a permanent basis. My daughter would be delighted and I had to admit that I would be more than thrilled if she finally decided to stay here with us. The only female shifter known to exist had become my saving grace and I was not ashamed to admit this openly to anyone who asked.

With a sigh I realized that I would not be able to get caught up in a good read. As a vampire my brain was almost always working overtime and tonight it seemed to be worse. My brain was overworking itself with thoughts of Bella. God I missed her more than I would have thought possible and yet at the same time I hated her. I hated her for leaving not only me, but our young daughter as well. My family had risked their lives for her because she had told them that there was not anything she would ever want more than she wanted me. Apparently that had been a huge load of bull. She wanted everything more than she wanted me or the life I could give her.

The sad truth was that as much as I may hate Bella for abandoning her family, I still loved her as well. What was wrong with me? I shouldn't want anything to do with her anymore. I should wish her to be dead instead of looking at the front door every few seconds and praying she would come walking in with a smile on her face telling me how she had been wrong and how she wanted to be here with her family where she belonged. I was waiting with anticipation that she would come crawling back and being forgiven even though I know it would most likely never happen. Still, it is one of the only things which gave me any hope for the future. I wasn't sure if I could live with having tasted love only to be without it for the rest of eternity.

"MOMMY!" My head snapped up when my daughter let out a terrifying scream.

I was up the stairs and standing at the side of her bed before she had time to blink. My eyes scanned over her small body as I looked for any signs of injury. Tears were streaming down her face and yet I saw no physical harm to her body. She seemed to be more shaken up than anything else. I finally realized she must have had some sort of nightmare and so I picked her up and cradled her in my arms whispering words of comfort to try and calm her down. Her mind was a jumbled mess of pictures I could not make out properly.

"Ness?" Leah appeared in the doorway with her short hair flying in all directions and her eyes wide with worry. She hurried over to us and grabbed my daughter out of my arms. When all Renesmee would do is cry, the she-wolf began rocking her back and forth as she shot me a look of confusion wanting to know what the hell had happened. "Ness sweetheart what is wrong?"

"Mommy!" My little girl with copper curls clung to Leah as if she were her only life line. "I want my mama!"

"What the hell happened here Edward?" She asked sitting on the bed and tugging Ness under the covers which was a difficult task with the way my daughter was clinging to her desperately.

"She was screaming and now she wants her mother." I said sitting down on the other side of my only child. I stroked her hair as she continued to cry and whimper for her mother. I had no idea what to do in order to help her and I could hear the panic in my voice when I spoke. "I don't know what to do!"

Leah lay down on the small bed and allowed Renesmee to curl up against her. "Renesmee, can you show me what you were dreaming about?"

I sat there trying not to listen in on the thoughts around me because I wanted Renesmee to show me when she wanted to and not because I plucked it out of her head. I watched as a little pale hand rested again the Quilette woman's cheek and I saw Leah nod in understanding.

"I promise that I won't let that happen to you Ness." She said softly, but it did not seem to be working and so I left to find Jasper. He would be able to calm down Renesmee and hopefully put her back to sleep.

We stayed with her as Jasper sat next to her and sent her waves of calm until she was sleeping peacefully once more. Leah left the room to go downstairs and get something to drink. I opted to stay until I was absolutely sure my daughter would be alright. Once I was sure she wouldn't start crying again or wake up screaming I headed down the stairs. I kept glancing in to her mind to make sure nothing was wrong and when I saw her to be dreaming of puppies I felt better and left her mind completely.

I found the girly wolf sitting on the couch waiting for me. She still looked as spooked as I felt. We both realized that Renesmee had been scared out of her mind and there had been nothing either of us could do to change that fact. It must the two of us feel like we were not doing our jobs of taking care of her right. "How is she doing?"

"Better now that Jasper calmed her down some." I replied sitting down next to her on the couch and looking at my hands for lack of anything better to do. I felt Leah shift next to me and glanced up to see her looking over at me in concern. Did she think I was going to have a breakdown? To get rid of the awkward silence I asked her a question. "What did she show you?"

"The Volturi." My head snapped up when I heard her words. That is not exactly what I had expected to hear. I had no idea that Renesmee even remembered the Volturi. She had not been very old and yet I should not be too surprised considering her mind was far more advanced than that of a regular child. "She remembers and she remembers Bella and doesn't understand why she left."

"That makes two of us." I mumbled feeling the familiar stabbing in my heart whenever I thought of Bella. My hand automatically flew to my chest where my heart should be beating and I could feel my expression twist in to a grimace of pain.

"I still stick by my she is a skanky ho theory." The she-wolf grinned and I couldn't help, but grin back at her. After a moment the smile fell from her lips as she turned serious. "You do know that Bella leaving isn't your fault right? I mean you have her everything she wanted and there was not really anything you could do that would make her stay. Some people can never have enough and she was obviously one of those people. It wouldn't have mattered what you did to try and please it because it still never would have been enough."

She paused to take a deep breath as her dark eyes filled with pain. On reflex I placed one of my ice cold hands over her warm one. "When Sam left me I tried to do whatever I could to make him come back. I was where you are at this moment in time. I didn't know that nothing I did would achieve the results I wanted so badly. I thought that maybe if I became what he needed or if I acted more like Emily he may come back to me. I thought if I could be more like my cousin then it would be enough. It took me a very long time to realize that it was not my fault he had left. It was just how things had to be. Am I still extremely angry about it? Well yes, of course I am pissed off and I don't think I will ever get over it fully. Do I regret having the time with him I did? Sometimes I wish I could erase those memories and then I realize that I should be happy I have any good memories period. You are going to hurt for a very long time Edward, but remember you have a kid that needs you and you also have friends who are going to be here no matter what and I am one of them."

Before I knew what I was doing I was hugging Leah tightly. She had no idea what her words actually meant to me. She was one of the few people who could actually understand and I knew I never had to worry about her giving me fake pity. She knew what was I going through and she knew exactly what I needed to hear. Sometimes I wished that I had been able to offer her this kind of comfort when Sam left her. If she had someone to be there for her the way she was there for me then maybe it would have been easier for her. Since I did not have the power to rewind time I promised myself to be there for the female Quilette shifter whenever she may need me in the future.

"Thank you." I whispered as I pulled away realized that maybe my scent was causing her discomfort since she was all tensed up. I should not have invaded her personal space in such a way. "Thank you for being there for Renesmee and I. If you ever need anything from us then you know all you need to do is ask. I hope that you know this."

"I do know it Edward and actually there is something you could do for me." Her expression changed to one of mischief. "You need to get that spare bedroom of yours ready for me."

Excitement took over when I realized what she could possibly be saying. "So you have made your choice then?"

"I hope you were serious about me moving in because I have been doing a lot of thinking and I want to take you up on your offer. I think that it would do me good to get away from La Push for a little while. I know that I am annoying to live with, but you offered and so I am taking you up on it. It's still alright isn't it? I mean if you changed your mind that is fine as well I just-"

I placed my hand over her mouth and shook my head. "All you need to do is tell me when I have to have the room ready. My offer never had an expiration date."

TBC…

AN: I hope that you all like this chapter. Today it is very hard for me to move because of the cold due to a blizzard we are having. I thought that the chapter came out alright even if it is not one of my best. Let me know if you all liked it or not. In the next chapter I am going to have Leah moving in.

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