Hermione was getting out of Sirius's bed early in the morning as she usually Did to sneak back into her room to avoid suspicion when she was struck by The realization that this sinful affair might have not been a good idea after all. It was sex, bloody good sex, but it still remained sex and not making love. She wanted what Mr. and Mrs. Weasley had an enduring passionate life together It would probably never happen, he was older, he was a free spirit, he was a ladies man. However when she was with him he made her feel special and wanted.