I'm done. I'm done with all this shit from Selena. She's my best friend, I mean this whole thing is messing with my head so bad.
I know I'm not the most emotionally stable person in the world, and I don't show how I feel too well, but I think I need to show a little of my feelings. Whether she likes what I say or not.
Ever since we started making Princess Protection Program Selena has been acting weird, I mean she's always a little weird, but its this lovable weird. But how she's acting now is like a damn roller coaster.
Every day I try to call her and if her mom picks up she's either out or in the shower. I know Selena and for how much she loves to just stay in and watch movies, she's sure as hell going out a lot. At least from what I can tell about her tweets she's been putting up.
Today's the day I'm going to let all my emotions out.
I drive to Selena's and I'm on her front porch, I'm afraid of what I'll say to Selena. It might hurt her and I'm scared of losing her even more, but who knows at this point.
I finally get the courage to knock on her door, and I want to book it back to my car, but my feet won't let me move.
I see the door start to open and I feel like I'm about to have a heart attack, but to my surprise its not a petite girl standing in front of me, it's Selena's friend David.
"Can I help you?" He asks as if we've never been introduced.
"Is S-Selena home?" I stutter out.
"No," He says quick and angry, but I hear Selena's giggle coming from the living room and his face is emotionless. "Demi, just give it up, obviously she doesn't want to be friends."
I nod agreeing with him and say, "I know, that's what I'm talking to her about."
He rubs his hand against his forehead as if I'm the most annoying person he's ever met. "Demi, you're not getting what I'm saying. She doesn't want to be near you, you just need to stop."
I feel my heart drop and tears welling up, but I will not let them shed in front of him. Him and Selena don't deserve to see me cry or my pain.
"Okay, th-thanks" I say holding back sobs.
I turn around and get back in my car. I see him go back inside and I let the tears drown me.
I don't know what I did. I'm so lost as of right now and it's taking me to a dark place. I hate this dark place of mine, usually Selena takes me out of it and can make me smile. This is the first time she is the person to get me into this dark place.
All that keeps running through my head is if I crashed this car would she be by my side to see if I got better or would she be okay with knowing I was hurt. Not even a care or worry in her mind.
Before I can even decide to crash my car somehow my subconscious has driven me home into my drive way. Even though I'm safe from a car crash doesn't mean I'll be safe from myself.
I make bad decisions sometimes and I know I'll make some more tonight. Something to take me away from my thoughts and worries. Something where I can control my pain. Knowing that I'm the only one hurting me at that moment. Not David and definitely not Selena.
I go in my bathroom and search the drawers for my way to fix things. It doesn't fix them for long, but it helps for that second. Leaving me content for not long, but I'll take it. It's the only way for me, right Now.
- Selena-
David comes back from answering the door and sits next to me watching our movie.
He's been a great friend about helping me with Demi. I know I've probably been a party pooper, but my feelings are so strong at this moment that sometimes I can barely take it.
"Who was at the door?" I ask still focused mainly on the movie.
He shrugs his shoulders and says, "Oh just some girl scouts selling cookies."
I shrug my shoulders trying to show how badly it hurts that it's not Demi.
I know lately I've been ignoring her texts and calls, but in reality I would give anything to see her outside of work. I do miss her, but I need to know she misses me too.
David leans back in the couch and puts his arm around me, pulling me away from my thoughts.
Normally David putting his arm around me is no big deal, I mean it's usually like an older brother taking care of a sibling kind of thing, but this time it feels weird. I don't know how or why I'm getting this weird vibe from him, but something feels off.
I decide that maybe it's my thoughts, that it's telling me how much I really miss Demi. How badly I need her by me.
All those thoughts stop going through my head when I feel David's hand twitch on my shoulder, as if he wants to go further. I tense up and I'm a little drawn back.
His hand finally starts moving, but in a direction I don't want it to go, to my breast.
His finger tips brush against my bra and I grab his wrist and look over at him. "David, what are you doing?" I ask.
I look into his eyes and I see the lust in them. I don't like it, it's scaring me.
He pushes my back against the couch and I feel his lips pressed against mine. They're hungry and full of emptiness. My mind is freaking out and I don't know what to do.
A.N.: sorry it took me so long to update this story, i get busy. Lol so here it is, i hope its good. Let me know what you think. I'm open to criticism. I'll take good, bad, and even the ugly! Thanks for reading!:)3