Okay, so i only got like ONE review...thank you Ink-Writer...*sniff sniff* god..to reply to your question... the reason is because i abondoned you guys for like a year! i never updated again...i'm soooo sorryyy. but im updating now! obviously..

disclaimer: i dont own Twilight..everybody knows that Stephanie Meyer owns them...

enjoyyy. im gonna start writing the Cullens POV now.

EDWARD POV

It's been years since my love died...my world came crashing down the moment I heard those words escape Alice's mouth along with her sobs through the phone.

Flashback:

"What Alice? Can't you tell that I am NOT in the mood to freaking talk to you right now? STOP CALLING ME! I just want to be left alone!" I growled at her. Why couldn't she just let me suffer in my own corner. I just needed to get away from everything. Couldn't she understand that? Was she always this ignorant?

"E-Edward..."

My thoughts were interrupted when I heard her voice through the phone. It was completely not like her. It was quivering little, like she was trying desperately not to sob.

Then, I was frightened. My thoughts immidiately went to Bella.

"Alice, what's wrong? Did something happen to Bella?" I was frantic now. It's the only reason why Alice would sound like this. After a few silence she began to sob through the phone. I think my face got paler if that was even possible for a vampire. But I was definitely sure I got paler. I froze completely.

"W-w-what happened to Bella!? Tell Me Alice!!"

"Oh god..oh god, oh god...Edward. I'm SO sorry. You know she was a family to us. We loved her so much. She was like a daughter to Esme and Carsile, sister and best friend to me and Rosalie. you know she was secretly starting to warm up to her and and..Emmet loved her so much and-" I interrupted her babbling between her sobs. I couldn't take this anymore.

"Alice. WHAT. HAPPENED. TO. BELLA. What do you mean by 'was'!?" But I already though of a guess but I just didn't want to believe it. No. She wouldn't. My Bella. She would never do something stupid like this..She wouldn't. But I guess I was wrong. The minute I heard Alice's reply..

"I'm sorry Edward. S-she..shot herself with Charlie's gun..wrote..us a letter..oh god.." Alice was back to her sobbing now. I can't believe this. My angel. It's all my fault. I should've just listened to Alice and Emmet and the rest of them(except for Rosalie and Jasper). But because I was too selfish to even care about them. I pleaded them to leave because of her own safety..now she's gone. GONE. I felt a sob break through my burning throat. Thirst and grief. It was the most painful, yet riht sensation. This is what I get for stealing my love's life. This is what I get for causing everyone's grief because she died. Because she was everything to us...and I just made the MOST dumbest, awful, undescribably(A.N. i dont know if thats a word..) selfish decision I ever came up with.

My dead heart felt like it cracked into millions of pieces and in the dark room, I could almost hear it. Then I noticed to the sound coming from my phone. I picked up the phone, thinking all these thoughts, ways, to kill myself. Maybe I could go to the Volturis and ask them to take my immortal life...

I heard a gasp from Alice through the phone and I was definitely sure that she had the vision of me asking for my second death to the Volturis.

"Don't you dare, Edward Cullen. I know how much she meant for you and I know that you are blaming everything on yourself. IT. IS. NOT. YOUR. FAULT. No one is blaming this on you, Edward. And if you really deny that fact, then think of you not killing yourself an apology." i can almost see her quirking one of her eyebrows, but I can tell she was dying inside and desperate.

"Fine. Alice. I'm coming home now. Does..Jasper know?" I am definitely sure that this is eating him up inside and out. Because of all the emotions in the house(plus me, who is going to add more weight on him) and the event that lead everything...but I don't blame him. At all. It's still all my fault. I almost rolled my eyes at the fact that Alice is somewhat right. Right about the apology deal. But I think I'm just going through shock right now. It's like I'm numb. I heard a sigh from the other end of the line which snapped me back from my thoughts.

"Yes. He was actually the first one to know besides myself because I needed a back up to go to Forks to save her..but it was too late. Hey, Edward, there are still more information about Bella's death that I want to tell you guys all at once. We are waiting for you. Again, Edward, it's not your fault. You tried to protect her, Edward. See you."

My angel died. My whole existence. The only reason I was born and became an immortal was to live and protect her. I ruined it. I questioned her love towards me. It was the worst, ultimate wrong thing to do. She loved me as much as I loved her. I could never forgive myself. And I'm not planning to. Ever. From this day, I vowed to myself, to every existence in this world that I would never forgive myself for causing the death of love of my life.

End of Flashback.

Alice answered the door before I was barely out of the woods. She smiled weakly at me when I came up the steps.

Welcome back. We are all sorry, Edward. That kind of irritated me, but I was also sorry for her too, and it was my fault all this happened in the first place. I sighed and nodded.

Everyone was seated with their love ones except for Jasper obviously because Alice was standing next to me. I looked at everyone and I can't even explain how ashamed I felt, knowing that the depressed state my family was in was all my fault. But before I could even go further with my mental breakdown, Jasper shouted in his mind, Edward! Please, stop. I feel like killing myself." I felt more ashamed but quickly composed myself. But not before I heard his last thought that was deep inside his mind I didn't even think he knew he was thinking it ...not that I already feel like killing myself... It wasn't his fault. But I guess I will have to talk to him later about that.

Alice POV

I cleared my throat, not that I needed to, but obviously because all of them were pretty much distracted in their own thoughts.

"Getting to the point of this meeting, you all now know that I went to go have a little visit to Forks because of..the vision. Well, I went there and I digged out some information from Charlie. I found out that her body was never found." I heard everyone in their room gasp.

"But, there was a lot of blood on the floor when Charlie came in, that could cause blood loss and die from it. Again, but, I happened to catch a tiny remaining scent of a vampire in the house, leading to the forest." They all tensed after I said this last sentence.

"S-so it is possible that she was kidnapped by a vampire by the last minute!?" Emmet boomed, now standing up from the couch. I shook my head, about to reply but as on cue, Carsile replied.

"If a vampire came in at last minute to drink her blood, there wouldn't be that much blood on the floor..." Trailing off to his thought.

"So, there might be the slightest chance that the vampire turned her? I mean that's the only conclusion I can come up with if a vampire went there and snatched up Bella right after she..." Rosalie trailed off looking down at the ground. I brightened my face up to try to get back to the point. I think jasper caught that.

"Yes. So, I am thinking let's not loose our hope and try to find her." I said finishing off with my famous smile.

Everyone brightened up a little bit at the thought. Edward was deep in thought. really deep in thought. I guess for now, we should leave him be it. At least he's not going to plan on killing himself for a while...

Carsile's POV

hmm...Rosalie is right. That could only be the reason why a vampire would snatch up Bella.

"Well, I guess we would be planning on moving..wait, Alice, if Bella was turned to a vampire, wouldn't you see her?" Then we would know where to go..?

Alice shook her head slightly with a frown on her face. "I-I can't see her somehow. But I am pretty sure she was changed. Or let's keep it that way.." Hmm.. that's interesting. It would make finding her much difficult for us though.

Edward's POV

My Bella. A vampire..I can't believe it. Although it's not officially confirmed..though why can't Alice see her? This is frustrating. But if there's slightest chance that my Bella is alive, I don't care in what form, if she still exists, I have to find her and ask for her forgiveness and protect her. I would do anything to get her to forgive me and love me again. I don't deserve her love after all I've done to her but I have to try.

okay. it is 2 am in Japan. i just finished it. yay. hope more ppl review this time! pleaaase.

i dont know if this was a crappy chapter or not...and should i do a Garret's POV? let me know!