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Title: Family Author: Serendipity Summary: What's Next Authors Notes: It's a fic, I can play with them as I want lol. I don't own them. Multiple POV story. Dedicated to Kathy Archive: Gateworld, and others.. just let me know where.. I am super busy, if anyone wants to archive for me that would be wonderful.
Daniel's POV
I am not sure what is happening to me. Why I am like this all of a sudden.
Its like I cant stop crying, I can't stop feeling guilty.
Its my fault she's gone. I was right there, and I couldn't save her.
I didn't do anything... maybe my brain was to stunned to figure out what to do... I am not sure.
I wish she was here... all I want to do is tell her that I am sorry.
I would trade with her in a heart beat.
But I guess you would feel that way if said person was someone who you loved.
What am I going to do?
I waited to long once again.
What is wrong with me? Why can't I just have a normal, well as normal as I can, relationship?
I am sick of hiding.
God I miss her, and it's only been what a few hours, a day... I don't know, I have lost track of time.
I have no clue how to move on from here. I barely moved on from Sha're...and I had actually had a life with her.
At least I got to tell her the things I wanted to say. Show her things that I wanted too.
This time I didn't.
And I am scared to face this life without her.
How now, every time I walk into the infirmary, I will have to be greeted by someone new. That she cheerful face won't be there to comfort me. Her gentle hands...
Oh god here I go again...
What kind of man am I?
Teal'c must think I am...well I don't know...crazy, nuts, insane... oh any of the above will do.
As I sit here alone in my apartment, well not alone, I am in my room and Teal'c is in the living room.
He said he was concerned about me, and wanted to accompany me home for the night.
Yeah like I need anyone right now.
Look at everyone I have ever known, they keep getting hurt or dying.
No one should be around me right now.
How could I of let her leave through the gate without letting her know how I felt? How I still feel?
I think that is one of the very reasons we are so open with each other...well as open as we can be.
I am a terrible person. I should of known.
And I didn't, and now its to late.
I am alone.
And there nothing I can do about it.
Life is cruel.
God where do I go from here?
Teal'c POV
DanielJackson has been in his room for a while now. I am very concerned, I know he is taking this very hard.
But we all need to stay together.
I too am upset. I have lost a dear friend today as well.
I should have watched her a little closer since she does not have the same combat skills as MajorCarter or ColonelO'Neill, but I did not.
And now a fine Doctor and warrior has fallen.
I feel I must share in this guilt.
Many things could have been done differently.
I fear that DanielJackson will never be the same again.
MajorCarter has a lot to deal with as well.
She has lot a sister.
So much death in this war.
I hope it is over soon.
I must go check on DanielJackson.
Daniel's POV
I can hear Teal'c now, he's coming down the hall.
I know he wants to check on me, make sure there isn't something I need.
Yeah there is something I need Teal'c, I need to have Janet come back to life.
That's what I need.
Can you do that for me?
I didn't think so.
So just let me wallow in my self pity and guilt.
I have no idea how I am going to make it through the funeral.
I don't know how any of us are.
And with that there is the knock at the door I have been waiting for,
"DanielJackson..."
"Yeah..."
"Are you alright?"
I have to laugh, Am I alright?
No not really.
I don't think I will ever be okay or alright again.
How many times does a man have to have what's most important to him taken away?
"No Teal'c I am not alright."
He walks slowly into the dark room.
"None of us are DanielJackson. We all suffered a great loss today."
"Yeah..."
I don't know what to say after that.
"Teal'c, have you ever lost someone that you had feelings for, strong feelings for, and never once told them?"
"Indeed DanielJackson, it is a most unfortunate thing to live with."
"Yeah. I just wish there was a way to turn back time, just 24 hours."
We sit there in silence for a bit before he makes his move to leave me.
Good I am alone again.
Title: Family Author: Serendipity Summary: What's Next Authors Notes: It's a fic, I can play with them as I want lol. I don't own them. Multiple POV story. Dedicated to Kathy Archive: Gateworld, and others.. just let me know where.. I am super busy, if anyone wants to archive for me that would be wonderful.
Daniel's POV
I am not sure what is happening to me. Why I am like this all of a sudden.
Its like I cant stop crying, I can't stop feeling guilty.
Its my fault she's gone. I was right there, and I couldn't save her.
I didn't do anything... maybe my brain was to stunned to figure out what to do... I am not sure.
I wish she was here... all I want to do is tell her that I am sorry.
I would trade with her in a heart beat.
But I guess you would feel that way if said person was someone who you loved.
What am I going to do?
I waited to long once again.
What is wrong with me? Why can't I just have a normal, well as normal as I can, relationship?
I am sick of hiding.
God I miss her, and it's only been what a few hours, a day... I don't know, I have lost track of time.
I have no clue how to move on from here. I barely moved on from Sha're...and I had actually had a life with her.
At least I got to tell her the things I wanted to say. Show her things that I wanted too.
This time I didn't.
And I am scared to face this life without her.
How now, every time I walk into the infirmary, I will have to be greeted by someone new. That she cheerful face won't be there to comfort me. Her gentle hands...
Oh god here I go again...
What kind of man am I?
Teal'c must think I am...well I don't know...crazy, nuts, insane... oh any of the above will do.
As I sit here alone in my apartment, well not alone, I am in my room and Teal'c is in the living room.
He said he was concerned about me, and wanted to accompany me home for the night.
Yeah like I need anyone right now.
Look at everyone I have ever known, they keep getting hurt or dying.
No one should be around me right now.
How could I of let her leave through the gate without letting her know how I felt? How I still feel?
I think that is one of the very reasons we are so open with each other...well as open as we can be.
I am a terrible person. I should of known.
And I didn't, and now its to late.
I am alone.
And there nothing I can do about it.
Life is cruel.
God where do I go from here?
Teal'c POV
DanielJackson has been in his room for a while now. I am very concerned, I know he is taking this very hard.
But we all need to stay together.
I too am upset. I have lost a dear friend today as well.
I should have watched her a little closer since she does not have the same combat skills as MajorCarter or ColonelO'Neill, but I did not.
And now a fine Doctor and warrior has fallen.
I feel I must share in this guilt.
Many things could have been done differently.
I fear that DanielJackson will never be the same again.
MajorCarter has a lot to deal with as well.
She has lot a sister.
So much death in this war.
I hope it is over soon.
I must go check on DanielJackson.
Daniel's POV
I can hear Teal'c now, he's coming down the hall.
I know he wants to check on me, make sure there isn't something I need.
Yeah there is something I need Teal'c, I need to have Janet come back to life.
That's what I need.
Can you do that for me?
I didn't think so.
So just let me wallow in my self pity and guilt.
I have no idea how I am going to make it through the funeral.
I don't know how any of us are.
And with that there is the knock at the door I have been waiting for,
"DanielJackson..."
"Yeah..."
"Are you alright?"
I have to laugh, Am I alright?
No not really.
I don't think I will ever be okay or alright again.
How many times does a man have to have what's most important to him taken away?
"No Teal'c I am not alright."
He walks slowly into the dark room.
"None of us are DanielJackson. We all suffered a great loss today."
"Yeah..."
I don't know what to say after that.
"Teal'c, have you ever lost someone that you had feelings for, strong feelings for, and never once told them?"
"Indeed DanielJackson, it is a most unfortunate thing to live with."
"Yeah. I just wish there was a way to turn back time, just 24 hours."
We sit there in silence for a bit before he makes his move to leave me.
Good I am alone again.