Chapter 7

The next two weeks wasn't completely easy. I knew it was driving Dean insane not knowing if he was going to be a dad or not, but he tried not to dwell on it knowing there was nothing he could do about it anyways, but sometimes when we were together I would see his eyes glaze over and I knew he was thinking about it. Since we left Lisa's she had only texted him the date, time and place for the appointment and what he would need to do, and it just didn't sit with him very well.

Not that we exactly announced us being together, the people we actually cared about, my dad, Dean's parents, Sam and Jess, well they knew. Not everyone was exactly thrilled but it didn't matter to us. We were together and happy so we didn't care. Before Dean and Lisa broke up, they had been living together, then when he decided he couldn't forgive her for what she had done, he had temporarily moved back in with his parents and was looking for a place and I had asked if he just wanted to stay with me since he was staying with me pretty much all the time anyways, it just made sense and he didn't' have to keep telling Mary that he wouldn't be coming home.

We told the Winchesters and we packed up the few boxes of stuff Dean had, it wasn't much. His dad was furious, and started yelling at id came to blows before Mary stopped it. John had punched me right across the jaw and knocked me down. "We let you stay here for years! How could you do that to us Castiel?" John spat at me, and I hung my head in shame. I wasn't going to fight him and did feel guilty that this was the way it came about, but Dean pushed him away from me and helped me up. John stormed out muttering about his disgrace of a son. Mary was much more understanding, I had a feeling she knew before we told her, but Dean kept the information about Lisa quiet for now since we didn't know for sure yet, and why worry her with something that might not even pan out? Jess and Sam pretty much followed the same path as Mary, though Sam seemed more surprised, but he didn't make a big deal over it, and we went on like nothing changed.

Dean and I still had our regular lives, despite the fact that we couldn't keep our hands off each other when we were alone. He would go to work, just like I did, then we would spend the whole night just being together. I had never had a relationship like this before. Dean and I already knew each other so well that there was no need for the get to know you phase, that had been years in the making, the only things we needed to get familiar was with our bodies, and we lost no time in doing just that.

Then the morning came, we would hear a yes or a no, and I found myself just as nervous as Dean was. Typically I would make breakfast for the two of us, and Dean would make dinner, though we usually just went out, that morning I had burnt the eggs because my mind was elsewhere but I don't think Dean could have eaten anyways, I know I couldn't and I dropped the skillet into the sink to deal with later, then we were both off. I went to work and Dean had to go and give his DNA sample. I got a text from him telling me it would take 24 to 48 hours for the DNA to process.

The clock never moved so slow as it did that day, and finally it was time to go home, even just getting home took ages, but I made it and found Dean just sitting staring blankly at the T.V. a beer in his hand, but it doesn't look as if he had actually drank any of it just yet. The next two days were going to be really rough on him, so naturally it would be for me too, what affected Dean, affected me now.

As much as I wanted to call in the next morning I didn't, we might not even find out today, Lisa said between 24 to 48 hours, and it would be our luck for us to wait the 48 hours instead of 24, so I wasn't surprised when I didn't get word from Dean during the day, I had just assumed we haven't found out anything yet. I felt like my mind was going through the wringer and my stress level was so high I felt like I was going slowly insane, so when I got home that night I was surprised when the apartment was completely dark.

"Dean?" I called out into the seemingly empty place and got no response, so I started to panic slightly. He was always home before me, even if he brought takeout home, so I decided to call him even though I had seen his car out front. His phone buzzed to life on the table next to the door, so I hung up and panic swelled even more in my chest now. I could drive around looking for him, but what would be the point? It was obvious he needed space to clear his head.

With a sigh I thought taking a hot shower would help and I could get lost in the steam and fog letting the hot water unkink the knots in my back and neck, but I almost yelled out because Dean was in the tub, in the dark, his head tilted back and eyes closed.

"Jesus, you scared me." I whispered trying to get my heart to stop jumping so rapidly in my chest.

"It's mine." Dean uttered, no emotion showing on his face.

I walked over to the tub and knelt down next to him. "So what now?" I asked quietly.

"Lisa wanted to know how involved I wanted to be." Dean finally opened his eyes, they were red. "I told her I needed to think about it, but either way, I'm still going to be a dad from now on." A tear fell down his cheek. "What do I do Cas?"

I grabbed his hand in mine. "What does your gut tell you?"

"That I want this kid in my life." Dean admitted.

"Then there you go."

Without warning Dean wrapped his arms around my neck and pulled me into the water fully clothed. Water spilled out onto the floor, but neither of us cared and we just held onto each other for a long time. The water started to get cool so I climbed out and Dean let me take care of him, he was almost a zombie as he crawled in bed curling up next to me resting on my chest. We didn't need words, just comfort.

"You're sure she knows I'm coming this time?" I asked for the third time since we left the apartment.

"Yes, she wasn't thrilled, but that's not up to her." Dean replied with a sigh and grabbed my jittery hand in his. How did he manage to calm my very soul just by one touch? "Alex is gonna be there, so I want you there with me." Dean said as we pulled up to Lisa's house.

Walking up to the door felt so much different this time, this was not going to be a friendly get together, problems needed to be solved and the future of his child was being decided upon. Tension had built up to a point where Lisa was holding information back and Dean had had enough, it was time to sort this out and set the path straight once more. Hopefully things would get to a point where we were at least cordial with each other. I didn't expect her to be best friends with us, but Dean was the father of her child and he had rights too.

Once seated at the dining room table Lisa got started. "So you want at least joint custody?" Lisa repeated.

"I want to be a part of this kids' life from the start, he is mine after all." Dean pointed out. "You need to stop holding back information I deserve to know."

"And how would that work, living arrangements, child care, and things like that? I head you two are living together now, I'm not okay with that."

Dean turned slightly looking at me, we thought this might be something she would bring up. "Yes, we do live together, we do have more than 1 room in our apartment you know, what do you object to exactly?"

"Just this." Lisa indicated her hand pointing between us, and Dean just raised his eyebrow.

"Does he stay here?" Dean asked pointing at Alex and Lisa rolled her eyes.

"That's different Dean."

"How so? I don't know this guy, who knows how he would treat my kid, you at least know Cas."

Lisa remained silent. "Look, Sam has given me some free advice, I know everything needs to be legal and I'm find with that, but don't take things away from me just because of who I'm in a relationship with. Would you feel this way if I was with another girl instead of Cas? No, you wouldn't. If I have to I will take this to court, but I want us on good terms, it would make things a lot easier, especially on the kid."

Dean and I had gone over what to say, and above all, stay calm. Under the table his grip on my hand was like a vice. Lisa took a deep breath, "You're right, I do want things to go smoothly. I don't want to have to drag this out in the courts, maybe we can come up with something."

His hand eased up the pressure slightly. "Now what about everything you're keeping from me?" Dean asked.

"Like what?"

"Like if you know the sex of the baby, when are you due, did anything else show up on the amnio…thing." Dean listed.

"It's a boy, I'm due on March 19th, and he is perfectly healthy."

A sigh escaped Dean's lips. A boy and he's healthy, he let out a nervous laugh.

"If you were going to keep things at least civil, I'll keep you updated on appointments and anything else you need to know regarding the baby."

"Can I be there when he's born?"

"I can't stop you from being at the hospital, and I'll think about if you can be in the room during labor, but not the delivery." Lisa said firmly.

"Okay, well Sam said we could use him to make everything legal, and we won't have to pay expensive fees that usually comes from this." Dean said.

"Let me think about it." Lisa replied nodding her head. The conversation came to a close, we accomplished what we set out to do, now we only had to wait. The next 6 months seemed so far away, but hopefully they wouldn't be as rough as the last few weeks.

On the way home Dean called his mom and finally told her the news. I could hear her happy shouts about her becoming a grandmother, Dean didn't ask about his dad. Things had finally seemed to be on track once more, and Dean was more like himself again, I actually saw hope in his eyes once more.

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