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Okay I just wanted to say thank you to my new reader/reviewer bajatadancer thank you so much for making me feel like someone out there likes my story other than V. You guys know the drill Read and Review.
The song that I chose for this chapter is going to be: (drum roll please) I knew I loved you, by Savage Garden. It's kind of cliche and everything but not for me because I used to hate my boyfriend when we were younger, I mean I hated his guts. Now we have been together for 9 years so they need to make a song that goes along the lines of "I used to hate you now I love you never want to let you go" okay well I love music but I can't keep a beat with a tambourine or write lyrics worth a shit. Sorry to bore you, on with it.
Chapter 7: Telling Edward.
On Saturday morning I kissed Edward goodbye and spent the day cleaning the house. Alice showed up around noon because she claimed she couldn't hold in the excitement.
"Oh god Bella I am so glad that Edward is already gone because we have so much to do you wont beleive what I have planned first we need to get you changed, you look like a hood rat." she exclaimed as she drug me by my arm to my room.
"Well Alice, I would of know that you were going to decide to show up so damn early I would of pulled the ballgown out of the closet and put my pearls on." I replied sarcastically.
"Very funny Bells." she glared.
"Here put this on and meet me in your bathroom." she handed me a pile of clothes and closed my bathroom door behind her.
I changed into a pair of black dickies, and my favorite lime green blouse.
"Where are we going Alice?" I asked walking into the bathroom.
"Well, I figured we could go get pedicures in town, then when we get back you can teach me how to bake cookies."
"Okay sounds good, let me get my shoes and we will be off." I grabbed my beat up Van's and slipped them on.
"Hey Bella if your so clumsy, why do you have so many skateboard shoes? Do you skateboard?" she asked me.
"Nope, I just like them they are really comfy." I informed her with a giggle.
We decided to take my car because I haven't drove it much into town to the local beauty parlor. Alice didn't say a word about what was going to take place in the morning and I was extremely thankful for that. We were instructed to roll our pants up and take a seat in the massage chairs, and two older women went to work massaging, and applying creams to our feet.
"This was a really good idea Alice, I needed sometime just to relax."
"Oh me too, you have to be so stressed out, I mean with everything, and school starting the day after tomorrow."
"Yeah, I am really nervous." I let the subject drop and Alice started to make plans for next weekend. Alice wanted to do dinner and a movie as a group, and she got upset with me when I wouldn't put my opinion in.
"Bella don't you want to go to the movies with Edward?"
"I just think tomorrow morning is going to change everything Alice."
"I told you not to worry about anything just relax today." she scolded.
We sat and soaked our feet for a few more minutes before I heard a familiar nasally voice.
"Oh if it isn't shorty and her new hoe bag friend." Lauren said loudly to Jessica as they walked by.
"Oh hi sluts, Rose told me you were already jelous of Bella I just tried to give you the benefit of the doubt." Alice smiled sweetly.
"Why would I be jealous of this f-ugly bitch?" Lauren scoffed pointing a long fake red nail at me.
"Well, seeing as everyone has already told me your obsessed with Edward Cullen, and I am dating him. I would say your jealous of me." I said.
"Sure, your dating Eddie." Jessica laughed.
"Here I will prove it to you two bitches." I said as I pulled out my cell phone and dialed his his number. After the first ring I switched the speakerphone on.
"Hello beautiful, I though I was going to see you tomorrow?" his sexy voice rang loud and clear ,causing the two girls to gasp and turn red.
"Yeah, we are getting our toes done right now and I thought I would call you and tell you I love you." I turned to Lauren and gave her my best cheshire cat smile while she continued to glare.
"Oh baby, I love you too. I can't wait to see you tomorrow. I want to lye in bed and hold you close all day." he replies sweetly.
'I doubt that.' I thought he didn't know what was going to happen tomorrow.
"I can't wait, I will talk to you later tonight." I said as cheerfully as I could.
"Okay babe, I love you."
"I love you too." I hung up the phone and looked up to find that Alice and I were alone.
"Alice, where did the bitches go?"
"Oh well after the first exchange of I love yous Lauren grabbed Jessica's arm and drug her off, I never thought you could really see the whole green with envy thing but if you ask me they both were an amazing shade of jade." Alice laughed.
"Well, are you about ready to blow this popcicle stand?" I asked her.
"Yep, we're off like a prom dress." she replied causing me to laugh. "What?"
"Alice, does everything have to be about clothes with you?" I giggled.
"Well, if you must know yes, yes it does." she glared.
"Okay, just making sure."
We went to the Stop and Shop to get the ingredients to bake cookies. Even though it was just us two, Alice decided we needed to make peanut butter, white chocolate chip macadamia, and chocolate chip cookies.
"Alice, do you plan on having cookies for every meal for the next two weeks there is no reason for us to make three different kinds of cookies." I pointed out.
"God Bella you are so selfish. We are going to make all of these cookies and take them to Esme so that we can see our boyfriends." Alice informed me.
"It's not like we aren't going to see them tomorrow. But I guess your right it would be nice to see Edward happy one more time." I said sadly.
"Alright Bella, you are starting to piss me off. When you asked me to come over today and be there for you in the morning I thought we were going to have fun. But no here we are, Alice says something happy, Bella kills my buzz. You know what we are going to go see the boys you need to get laid." she said matter of factly.
"Okay, fine I will be happy. I want to see Edward again. And maybe your right." I figured that since I was already in a lot of shit, I might as well get the release I had been craving the past few days.
"Oh goody I am exited." she jumped up and down the rest of the drive back to my house. We sat up the dry ingredients, into three separate bowls.
"Why do you have to mix the dry ingredients apart from the wet ingredients?" Alice asked in a serious manner. I giggle at the thought of her with a pen and tablet taking notes.
"Well, if you don't mix them separately the cookies come out gritty, like sand or something." I laughed as she carefully measure out vanilla extract.
We preheated the oven and continued making the cookie dough. Alice kept me in high spirits the whole time with the most ridiculous questions.
"Okay so instead of placing them on a pan in little balls why don't we just pour it into a pan and bake it like a pan of brownies?"
"Well, because the cookie wont cook all the way through and if you roll them into balls the cookies will come out nice and round." I laughed as I licked the spoon off before putting it in the sink.
"Hmmm, well how you know how you get salmonella from chicken?" I nodded.
"And eggs are technically chickens?" again I nodded.
"Well how come you can eat yummy things like cookie dough, and brownie batter and not get salmonella?"she asked before sticking a large spoonful of cookie dough in her mouth and sighing in contentment.
"I have no idea, body builders eat raw eggs all the time and they don't get sick. I guess as long as you don't do it a lot you will be okay. So that means stop eating all the damn cookie dough, don't you want to take cookies to Esme?" I asked as she dropped the spoon back into the bowl with a huff.
We put the pans into the oven and started cleaning up. My mother got home from hanging out with Hal and Phil.
"Good afternoon ladies, oh your baking me cookies?" her eyes lit up.
"Yep, we thought we would make a lot and take some to Esme as well." I answered her.
"Well save me a few would you, I am going to go take a nap Hal got a new game called Dance Dance Intrusion or something, and I am wiped out." she said.
"Mom, it's Dance Dance Revolution, and you played that?" I asked her incredulously.
"Bella, I am only 35 years old, I am a young hip cool chick and I can hang with my homies in their crib if I want." she joked, causing Alice to look at me strangely.
"Excuse my mother please, she thinks that she is 16 and prefers to speak like a gangster when I question her age. I am starting to think its her sanity I should question." I explained.
"Well, I will see you two later. I cant handle all of the love I am feeling from my wonderful daughter at the moment, I have to get out of here." Renee joked.
"I think I want your mom to adopt me." Alice laughed once my mother was gone.
"You say that now but think about having to stay home from a date with Jasper because she has a head cold, I have taken care of my mother ever since I could. I love her and everything I just kind of wish I could of been a kid, instead of the parental figure. Even when my dad was alive, I always took care of her."
"Well, you can look at it this way, you just got a lot of practice to build yourself up to this moment in time."
I knew she was right, but I didn't want her to know that so I kept my mouth shut. We waited for the cookies to cool before placing them on plates. I left my mom a note to tell her we were going to Edward's house and I didn't know when we would be home.
Esme welcomed us into her home with open arms gushing about the cookies.
"It's good to see you again Bella, Alice. Would you like a glass of milk?" she asked as we made our way into the kitchen.
"The boys will be home in a little while, they went to the gym about two hours ago so they should be here any minute now." she informed us.
"Esme can't we just come see you what makes you think that we are here to see the boys?" Alice pouted.
"Because Alice Brandon you and Jasper have been together too long, I know your tricks, and now that you have Bella you can use her food as a excuse too." Esme laughed.
"Would you two stay for dinner?" she added.
"Of course." I answered her.
We helped her pan up the lasagna, and Alice started her questions. Esme didn't understand the whole cookie dough eggs thing either.
"Okay, so why do you have to boil the noodles before you layer it with stuff in the pan?" Alice asked.
"Well honey, if you don't there isn't enough water in the sauce to cook the noodles thoroughly. We cant have crunchy noodles can we?" Esme laughed as the front door slammed shut.
"Mom, is Alice here she was supposed to be at Bella's today?" Edward called from the living room.
"They are both here for dinner, they brought me homemade cookies." Esme replied.
Edward walked into the kitchen with his shirt off, he was sweaty and his hair was even more disarray than usual. God he was so sexy. He walked over and kissed me, the only skin touching were our lips.
"Hey beautiful." he whispered against my lips.
"Hi." I blushed. He grabbed my hand and led me out of the kitchen leaving Esme and Alice to make fun of Jasper's exhausted form. He took me to his bedroom and sat me on the bed.
"I am going to take a shower, will you stay here I just want to hold you for a little while before dinner?" he asked.
"Well, how about you come give me a proper hello, and we take a shower after? Then we can cuddle?" I bit my lip.
"I thought you couldn't?" he asked walking over to me.
"Well, I can." I took my shirt off and threw it on the floor, followed by my bra. He stood me up and unbuttoned my dickies and lowered them down with my panties.
"God, your so beautiful." he whispered against my neck. I pulled away to lock the door while he took his gym shorts off. He pulled me into his arms tightly, so that our bodies were flush against another. Even though he was sweaty, this was my home. He kissed me tenderly before I twisted my fingers into his hair and demanded more.
He picked by my thighs and I wrapped my legs around his hips. He walked us over to the bed and layed me down.
"I love you Bella." he kissed my neck.
I didn't need the test to tell me otherwise, so I didn't bother asking him to use protection.
I grazed his chest lightly with my fingernails as he sucked on my neck.
"I love you too." I whispered.
He pushed my legs apart entered me tenderly. We moved in synchronization slowly, making the most beautiful form of love that almost brought me to tears. If this was our last night together, I wanted it to be something to remember for the rest of my life.
Too soon, I felt the familiar tightning in my stomach and knew I was close to release. I moaned as Edward quickened the pace.
"Oh Bella, come for me baby please." he panted in my ear.
"I'm close, so-uNGOD!" I yelled loudly forgetting that his mother, brother, and my best friend were downstairs. I came quickly followed by Edward. He pulled me close to him as we caught our breath. I kept my head turned away from him as soundless hot tears rolled down my cheeks.
"Bella, what's wrong?" he asked his voice full of alarm.
"Edward, that was so, beautiful I'm just sad that it's over." I answered him in all honesty.
"It might be over but we have the rest of our lives to be together and there will be more times like that than you can count, I promise." he whispered. His words only made it worse, I started to tremble.
"Bella, is there something your not telling me?" he asked.
I could do two things: I could tell him the truth, and have him possibly hate me, ruining our beautiful moment. Or I could play it off eat dinner with his family and ruin it tomorrow. I chose the latter.
"Why don't you just go take a shower, I am going to go help your mother." I said standing up to find my clothes.
"Okay." he walked into the bathroom and shut the door. I heard the water turn on as I left the bedroom, I found Esme alone in the kitchen.
"Hey Esme, can I help you with anything?" I asked.
"Oh no darling, I'm just waiting for the cheese to brown and it will be done. Would you mind finding everyone, and telling them dinner is ready?" she asked.
"Sure." I found Jasper in the living room with a smile on his face, 'someone got some'.
"Hey Jasper your mom wanted me to tell you dinner is ready, where is Alice?"
"Oh she is in my room, do you want me to get her?" he offered.
"No, it's fine I need to talk to her anyways." I was walking up the stairs when I heard whispering. I crept up to the top and looked around the corner.
"Alice, there is something wrong with her, your supossed to be one of my best friends I know you know. Is she going to break up with me? I cant lose her." Edward's voice cracked.
"Edward, I do know what it is but her friendship means a lot to me you will find out soon enough so calm down okay?" Alice patted him on the shoulder and he pulled her into a hug.
"I can't lose her Alice." he whispered, his voice was husky.
'Oh god I made him cry again, I am such a bitch.'
I turned around and made my way back down the stairs and into the bathroom. I'm not sure how long I sat on the edge of the bathroom crying my eyes out, until someone knocked on the door.
"Hey Bells? Are you okay?" Alice said through the door.
I stood up opened the door and pulled her inside. "Oh Bella, what's wrong?" she whispered.
"I heard you two talking, I am already destroying him and I haven't even said anything. This is the second time I have made him cry. Alice, I have to go home. Do you think you could cover for me?" I asked turning to the towards the mirror. My eyes were red and puffy, and my cheeks were covered in dry tears.
"Yeah, I will tell them that your not feeling well and we'll go back to your house okay?" she said slipping back out the door. A few minutes later the door opened and she handed me my coat. As we were walking out the door Esme handed Alice a plate of lasagna for us and wished me well. Edward was nowhere to be seen. I fell asleep on the ride home, and Alice helped me up to my room. We changed into our pajamas, and laid down.
"If you want I can go stay in the guest bedroom." she asked as she tucked me in.
"No, will you just stay with me please?" I asked tears streaming down.
"Of course Bells." she got on the bed and pulled me into a hug, as I cried into her neck she started to sing her own version of lullaby's.
"Hush my Bella-baby don't you cry, Alice is going to buy you a new silk tie, and you don't wear ties so I will go and buy you a nice pair of shoes, even though your clumsy I still love you." it continued for a while as she went through different articles of clothing she could buy me and reasons why I would never wear it or she would make me. Eventually I fell asleep.
I slept well partially because I spent half the night crying like a baby. I dreamt that I told Edward about the baby and he got down on one knee talking about how it was meant to be- we were meant to be. I dreamt about our wedding my stomach round with our baby, and he was looking at me with so much love. The last dream I remember was of me telling Edward and he walked out of the house, out of my life, and out of my heart. Alice woke me up gently.
"Bella wake up please, you've been crying and clutching your heart for fifteen minutes." she cried.
"I'm so sorry, Alice, I just had a bad dream." I choked out.
"Well, it is 7 in the am so why don't you do both of us a favor, and pee on the damn stick so we can figure out what we are going to do?" she asked.
I nodded and we huddled up to read the directions. "Okay so it says that if its too early it will be inconclusive." Alice said.
"You just need to pee straight onto the end and put the cap on it, then we wait the five minutes and wa-lah." she smiled weakly.
I felt like I was going to throw up, with shaky hands I took the test from her and walked into the bathroom. Before I closed the door I heard her whisper good luck and it will be alright.
After doing what needed to be done on the godforsaken test, I capped it and put it in the top drawer because I didn't want to look at it. I washed my hands and brushed my teeth. I walked back into my bedroom to find Alice pacing.
"Okay I set the alarm on my cell phone as soon as I heard the toilet flush. What should we do to kill the time? We should do something to kill the time, I mean the suspense it ki-"
"Alice, calm down it's five minutes just chill. You can help me figure out how I am going to tell Edward now that I will have proof." I offered.
"Okay, you could call him over, your mom wont be here because she is doing some yoga class with her new best friends." Alice said.
"Okay, but I mean I don't think I can do it alone, will you please stay with me Alice?" I begged.
"Of course B what are friends for? Have you talked to Coley, is that her real name because it sounds like a cute baby horse?" she laughed.
"You ask the weirdest questions. Her real name is Nicole but when we were younger I couldn't say it so I called her Coley it just stuck. She called me B, but some people do it now so I guess that stuck to." I replied.
Alice opened her mouth to say something but her phone started going off. I think my heart fell out of my butt.
"Time to face the music Bells, you ready?" she whispered standing up and holding out her hand to me. We walked hand in hand into the bathroom, and I opened the drawer.
I turned it over and looked at it. A small little red plus sign laughed wickedly in my face and I fell apart.
"Oh god Alice, what in the hell am I going to do? I haven't even graduated high school, I don't have a job, I-I-." I turned into a blubbering baby in about two point five seconds.
I cried harder than I ever had before, until tremors racked my body and my neck hurt from hyperventilating. Alice wrapped her arms around me trying to soothe me. She told me to calm down before I made myself sick right before I turned to the toilet and dry heaved, until my knees gave out from exhaustion.
Eventually Alice coaxed me back into my bed. "Alice I need you to call Edward." I whispered my voice was hoarse.
"Bells its a little early."
"If I don't do it now I never will, please Alice just call him." I begged.
She picked up her phone and left the room. I could still hear her voice.
"Hey Edward I'm sorry to wake you up, yeah Bella told me to call you and ask you to come over, yes right now, no Edward I don't think so, just calm down it will be fine, alright see you in a few." she walked back into the room.
"He thinks your breaking up with him." she whispered as she walked into the bathroom, and came back out with a brush and a wet wash cloth. I let her brush my hair and I wiped my face trying to soothe my burning eyes.
"Thank you Alice for being here for me and everythi-" the doorbell rang and I had to fight the urge to throw up, have a heart attack and jump off the nearest building immediatly. Alice left the room and seconds later Edward was running into the room.
"Oh god Bella are you okay? Are you sick? What's wrong?" he rambled.
Alice had made it back to my room but instead of coming in she stood by the door. Tears were streaming down my face as I tried to find the strength to tell him. 'Suck it up Bella' I told myself before I began.
"Edward, you remember how I told you I'm on the depo?" he nodded.
"Well, it's only effective for three months before you need to go back for another one. With losing my father and the move and everything I forgot that a couple of weeks ago I needed to got to the doctor." his eyes got wide and I knew that he realized what I was saying. He still hadn't touched me so I mentally prepared myself for yelling and cussing and him leaving me.
"I-I took a test this morning and it's I mean I-I'm pregnant." my voice was shaky I turned away from him to try to calm myself down.
A few minutes passed, the only think I could hear was my own heart beat in my ears. I knew I had to do something.
"All I want is for you to be happy Edward, I do love you. I don't want you to ever think that I tried to trap you I seriously just forgot with all that's happened lately." tears continued to stream down my face.
"Like I said I just want you to be happy, so if you want to leave you can." my voice broke and I started to sob loudly. I felt two arms wrap around my shaking ones, and before I could realize who it was they spoke.
"Bella, I love you too, how could you ever doubt that? I would never think that you tried to trap me, I have equal responsibility in the protection department. I could never be happy without you. I knew from the moment I first saw you that I wanted to be with you forever, your my life Bella." he whispered into my hair before turning me around. My eyes met his glassy green orbs, I reached up and caught a tear just as it brimmed over.
"This is the third time I have made you cry." my voice was still shaky, I was still waiting for him to call me a whore and leave me.
"I thought you were going to leave me." he whispered.
"I love you, your my everything. Yeah I wish we would of waited a few years to start a family but I am so happy right now." he bent down and kissed me.
I heard Alice clear her throat but I ignored her. All of my fears disappeared I had Edward, and I knew together we would be okay.
I pulled away from him. "Your not afraid?"
"Of course I am, but worrying isn't going to change anything whats done is done. We are going to have a baby." he kissed my nose. "We are going to have to tell our parents soon, though." he said.
"Well that shouldn't be a problem." someone said from the doorway.... My heart stopped beating as I looked up and met my mothers eyes.
Oh shit what a cliffy I am such a be-atch. I hope you guys like it, it was the plan from the beginning for Bella to have a bun in the oven. I kind of need some feed back, let me know what you think. Was Edward's reaction to par or did I suck? hmmmm how will I ever find out what you guys think? Oh wait I know if you push the little button below and jot down a few words for me it would work out perfectly. I will try to update soon, and if I get some reviews I will try to get it out even sooner... hint hint wink wink. Review please. Love your faces
-Ashley