A/N: MIGHT be spelling errors etc... hope it doesn't suck

Chapter 6: I'll Stand by You

"I'm scared" Kurt said in a low voice as he sat crossed legged across from Blaine on his bed, with the only light source was coming from this side table lamp, he tugged on his long sleeves and pulled them down to cover his now bandaged arms, his lips were trembling as he fought the tears that were threatening to release, he hadn't talked to anyone about this for a year! He didn't know if he could talk now.

Blaine scooted closer placing a gentle hand over Kurt's "you don't have to-"

"you don't know how I am! I am broken, as you can see that already, and this, is going to make you run away" Kurt said looking up at Blaine with fear that if he spoke to Blaine about this, Blaine would just leave him and let him be like the hopeless case he was. He didn't want Blaine to leave him, truth be told, as much as Kurt tried to avoid this; he actually desperately wanted someone to hold him, comfort him, tell him he will never be alone… and just… be there for him, that's all Kurt wanted deep down.

"I promise I won't" Blaine said with complete honesty meeting Kurt's eyes and reassuring Kurt that Blaine wasn't going to leave him like this.

Kurt sighed and looked down at his and Blaine's clasped hands as he said softly "don't make promises you can't keep Blaine"

"look I know it's hard for you and I understand but I'm willing to try for you… please Kurt, I want to help you" Blaine offered, squeezing Kurt's hand then caressing the inside of Kurt's wrist with his thumb.

Kurt took a deep breath, letting go of Blaine's hand as he began telling Blaine from the start of it all "it was start of high school sophomore year and there was a new kid Dave, he wasn't very nice to begin with and when he joined the football team and when I joined glee club, let's just say I was his new target a target to make him seem like some sort of bad ass; at first he used to throw slushies' at me, but after I came out… things were worse than they already were. though my dad accepted me at first but as for Dave it was like he was always there, pushing me into the lockers, threatening me. I tried to ignore it as much as I could but then, my dad started dating Carole and it was like Ii was invisible to him, he didn't see that I was pain and I hated McKinley, even if I wanted to tell him about the bullying he was just too busy for me. Then he got married again, and he was so happy, I didn't want him to worry about the bullying so I tried to fix it myself… I confronted Dave that day in the locker room, and I was yelling at him and he looked like he was about to kill me, but when he grabbed my hair he didn't strangle me or hurt me, instead… he kissed me" Kurt choked holding back his tears as he tried to man up not daring to look into Blaine's eyes thinking he would be disgusted upon hearing this, but instead the bad boy reached out to take Kurt's hand in his.

"t-that was my first kiss, and I was so confused so I pushed him away, Dave was shocked as much as I was, but I expected him to run or r-rape me or something instead he told me he liked and he wanted me , I didn't know what to do and I was so young, I just wanted to have a boyfriend and someone to be with I didn't know what I was getting myself into but I said yes; and I agreed to being his secret boyfriend"

"at first it was a dream come true for me, and I had an actual boyfriend, I thought Dave liked me… I didn't know all he wanted was my body, we kissed but Dave always went too far, he groped me, pined me down with his weight and the kisses weren't passionate, not the things you see in romantic movies; it was just hunger and lust, then when the kisses weren't enough, he t-tried forcing me into things, I obviously let him… and then… he took my v-virginity… at first Dave wasn't to brutal when it came to sex but he changed, he started hitting me and he liked chaining me to the bed and fucking me without preparing me, i-it was too p-painful. But then Dave used to call me over to his house when his parents weren't around, and when I came he wasn't there he used to call his friends who I'd never seen before in school, and he used to make me give them blow jobs and let them fuck me as if I was some p-prostitute" Kurt said his jaw clenched as his face darkened tears fell down Kurt's cheeks as he continued

"I'd had enough of it, I talked to Dave and he threatened me if I left him and didn't do as he says he'll k-kill me, I was so scared so I ran away, telling him to stay away from me" he took a deep breath; taking a minute to regain composure, it was always hard to speak up and especially about the things that had ruined him.

"when I went home… I cried so much that Finn came into my room, and I told him everything, he wanted to tell Dad I didn't let him… I couldn't face seeing my dad disgusted by me… I promised him not to tell Dad, and told him I left Dave s it wouldn't be a big problem. I wish I'd known better… it was Friday and I was leaving school after glee club, I had just reached my car when someone covered my mouth with a cloth and sleeping medicine, knocking me out cold. W-when I woke up… i-I was tied to h-his bed… he had me chained down to his bed with shackles and when I tried to scream Dave came inside with a couple of his so called friends, he told me i-if I y-yelled he'll hurt me… I didn't listen I screamed and he covered my mouth and then I saw a knife in his hand… he sliced my arm o-open and pulled my hair while his friends laughed"

"i-I couldn't s-stop crying and he g-gagged m-me! I-I tried to scream but nothing happened, a-after t-that since I couldn't s-stop fighting… Dave… he… I don't know… injected me with something and after that all I could see was h-his friends and t-the pain… they took turns… f-fucking me… hitting me… a-and I felt s-so disgusted! I d-dint know how long the pain w-went on by the time I was about to faint I s-saw my d-dad and Dave's parents coming in and… then everything went black" Kurt paused for a bit before he said

"I woke up after a week, in the hospital, and the doctor told me I g-got raped by four guys at once, and they had h-hit me, and c-cut me when I struggled… m-my whole f-fucking life was ruined! Everyone at school found out and blamed me, they called me a slut! A whore! And I accepted that, because who else would want me! I'm disgusting, ugly, and all I'm good for is a fuck! My fucking first boyfriend raped me! He never loved me! And why would he! All he wanted was to fuck me and throw me away like a piece of worthless shit I am! I can't even be close to any fucking person without panicking! Of course he w-went to jail and so did his friends… but even then A whole year of counseling was shit! I quit glee because I couldn't bear seeing my friends faces after what happened to me; I joined the skanks because that's all I ever will be, because apparently all of the shit in my life is my fault!" Kurt yelled, his chest heaving feeling like he couldn't breathe he felt as if he was about to have a panic attack.

"I-I just wa-want to b-be K-Kurt again! I want this to end!" Kurt cried out and broke into sobs as he buried his face in his hands and starting crying feeling like all he could do was cry and wait for death to come to him, and to leave all this pain behind and just live for once.

Blaine was not only shocked but he felt anger boil in him, how could anyone do this to Kurt? yeah Lima wasn't gay friendly… and all this time he has been nothing but shit to Kurt, and didn't thin for once about the broken boy's feelings he wished he could take that back and just be there for Kurt.

He didn't know how to fix this, he just wanted to find that asshole who fucked up the beautiful blue eyed boy's life and make Kurt be happy again. He just looked at Kurt, his skinny fragile body the way he was curled into a ball as he sobbed, his shoulders shook and he looked so … broken.

Blaine felt his own tears in his eyes as he took a deep breath and shuffled closer to Kurt he wrapped his arms around Kurt's shoulders and waited until Kurt let himself lean against Blaine searching for comfort that he desperately needed. And Blaine gave it to him; he ran his fingers through Kurt's hair as he rocked him whispering soothing words to him.

"p-please don't hate me… e-everyone hates me!" Kurt cried into Blaine's neck holding on to Blaine and begging the bad boy not to let him go.

"ssh, I don't hate you… and I'm not going to let you go… I'm going to help you Kurt… and don't you ever think everyone hates you… your friends in glee love you trust me on this"

"some friends did they ever try to stop me from leaving? No they didn't!" Kurt said in between his sobs

"hey look at me" Blaine whispered gently lifting Kurt's chin up to meet his eyes, and taking Kurt's hands in his, looking deep into those blue crystal eyes as he whispered to the crying boy

"don't ever think less of yourself… just because that jackass didn't see how beautiful and perfect you are and that you deserve to be loved and cared for doesn't mean that no one would be there for you, you will always have someone there… even though you think you don' but you will"

"who's going to be there for some shit ass broken kid like me"

"first don't ever call yourself that!" Blaine said sharply, making Kurt gulp at the force of Blaine's voice, but didn't move away from the warmth and comfort he got from Blaine's touch "you are worth it, okay! And your dad is there, and your step-mom, you're crazy ass tall brother, that big nose and black girls from glee… and me, i know I can't just change the past for you Kurt; but I can try making you feel loved and cared for"

"y-you m-mean it?" Kurt stuttered as tears began rolling down his cheeks.

"yes" Blaine said in a heartbeat.

"I thought you didn't do love crappy stuff"

"I don't… but I can't help myself around you… you may be broken but that doesn't mean I can't heal you… I know I've been an ass and that you don't need a guy in your life especially someone like me. But I'm willing to do whatever it takes to make you happy and loved, Kurt"

"j-just… don't let me g-go, Blaine… T-that's all I want"

A/N: so no Blaine's past mentioned in this chapter mainly because sometimes Kurt needs to know people love him…

Anyway… I hope it was okay, I did my best considering my tiring busy schedule and long hours with Architecture.

For the TUF readers, TUF update will be on Monday.

Have a good weekend and to those who cried during 'The Quarterback' hugs for you… I miss Finn, and he'll ALWAYS be the best brother and friend.

R.I.P Cory