Okay, I took a while to get this update up but I think it's building up to some drama that will probably be in the next chapter and I have been using Glee itself for muse. I also own both season 1 and season 2 so I will be able to have plenty of muse! Plus for those who may not know (but I'm sure plenty of you do) is season 3 starts Tuesday! Though anyways back to the story, I hope everyone enjoys it and I'm sorry for taking so long.

Blaine headed out of his last class of the day and went next door to wait for Kurt to come out and join him. It was Friday and he knew that Finn had called Kurt and asked him to come home for the weekend so that they could do something as a family. He had yet to actually talk with Kurt about what was going on with Rachel and he knew that he needed to actually talk with him. He just couldn't bring himself to actually tell the young man anything because he was afraid of losing him. Though deep down Blaine knew that he was making that chance increase the longer it took him.
"Hey Blaine." Kurt said, slipping out and grabbing Blaine's hand, pulling the dark-haired young man from his thoughts. Kurt loved being able to hold hands with Blaine in the hallway and no one said anything about it.
"Hey." Blaine told him, giving the slightly taller boy's hand a gentle squeeze before they headed out toward the library. They normally ended up there for a bit to work on some sort of school work before they ended up going their separate ways or to one of their bedrooms. Most people would believe that since they were dating and in their rooms they were doing things but they had yet to go past kissing really. They had made out a little bit but it was more snuggling than anything. "What time are you leaving?" He asked, as they sat down across from each other at a table.
"Finn is going to come get me after Glee and then we're going to meet our parents for dinner." Kurt told him as he set his bag on the floor and leaned over to locate what he needed from it. "Are you going to stay here again?"
"Probably, my parents are normally busy." Blaine told him, though he knew that he would need to actually face his parents so that he could tell them that he was going to be expecting a child. They had been a bit unsure when he came out as gay to them but they had learned to accept it. Though the baby was going to be a different story probably, he was a junior in high school and he had his whole life ahead of him and here he was ruining it because of the fact he'd gotten drunk and things had went to far.
"Blaine." Kurt said, reaching out and turning his head a bit, the dark-haired boy had completely zoned out. "You alright?"
"Yeah, sorry about that." Blaine told him, giving Kurt a reassuring smile as he took his hand and pressed a light kiss to the boy's fingers and lowered his hand. "So…math…what do you have to do for it?" He asked, pushing the conversation toward something else.
"Review for a test on Tuesday."

Blaine nodded his head as he reached out and took the book from Kurt and looked at him for a moment before looking down and opening the book to the chapter. He had wanted to tell Kurt but he had then chickened out. He made a promise that he would tell Kurt by this time next week. That gave him seven days to get up the courage to actually tell him.
"Blaine, I need that." Kurt told him.
"I'm going to give you a problem." Blaine informed him as he picked up a pencil and wrote down a problem and then turned it over toward Kurt. "See if you can solve it." He had given Kurt a random problem from the chapter.
"Are you tutoring or quizzing me now?" Kurt asked as he took the pencil from Blaine.
"Both." Blaine told him. "If you are a smart boy then you can get a reward." He said, smiling at him.
"Oh?"
"Mhm, but…solve it first." Blaine told him as he looked through the chapter for a few other problems that he could use to test Kurt. He had his own homework but he'd work on it this weekend while Kurt was away or at least he hoped that was the case. He was already behind with his work because he couldn't stay focused on his school work. He had to do his homework that was due today as well as the stuff that he was given today.
"Am I right?" Kurt asked, turning the page around for Blaine to look at.
"You are." Blaine told him once he checked over the work and then the answer. "Would you like your reward now?"
"That depends." Kurt said, getting up and slipping around to sit down next to him. "What is the reward?"
"How about this?" Blaine asked resting a hand on Kurt's neck as he brought the boy forward to press their lips together. He was glad when Kurt returned, every time he kissed his boyfriend he was always expecting him to have figured out his secret and push him away. He let the book rest on the table as he rested his hand on Kurt's hip as he let his thumb rub over his hip bone, their lips moving together as one.
"Blaine…I should try to get something done before Finn comes." Kurt told him, pulling away.
"I'll help you when you come back Sunday if you don't get done with everything." Blaine said, pulling Kurt to him. He wasn't ready to go further with Kurt, but he wanted to be close with him for right now. "Let's go back to my room."
"Blaine…" Kurt said hesitantly.
"I won't do anything you don't want too." Blaine assured him, kissing the boy again. "I just want to spend time with you before you leave me again for the weekend."
"Alright." Kurt told him, giving in as he pulled away from Blaine long enough to put his stuff away.

The pair headed picked up their bags and headed to Blaine's room where they let their bags fall to the floor near the door before they ended up kissing again. They hadn't been together long and Blaine had never planned to be like this but since he was sure that when he did tell Kurt the truth he was going to lose him he wanted to make it last.
"I'm not sure what to think of this side of you." Kurt said, breaking the kiss so that they could catch their breathe. His cheeks were pink and his lips swollen but he knew that he couldn't really say that he hated it.
"Do you hate it?" Blaine asked, his hands resting on Kurt's hips.
"It's not so much I hate it, but it's…different." Kurt told him, pulling away so that he could lay down on the bed.
"I've never felt this way with someone before." Blaine told him, that wasn't a lie, he hadn't felt this way with Kurt before.
"I never thought that I'd like someone as much as I like you." Kurt admit softly, as he sat up as Blaine knelt down in front of him. "I…I don't know what I would do without you."
"I don't know what I would do without you either." Blaine told him, and that was when Blaine knew that he needed to tell him. He needed to and he knew that but whenever he looked at Kurt and their eyes met he got lost for words. He needed to think of something but so far the only people that knew was Rachel obviously, Quinn, himself and Rachel's dads. Quinn hadn't told anyone as far as Blaine knew and he hadn't either and he knew that Rachel was worrying about everyone finding out so he wasn't worried about her telling anyone either.
"I think you'd do fine without me." Kurt said, sliding down so that he was in front of Blaine on the floor. "You are sweet, charming, caring, and handsome."
"I think you are describing you. You are a wonderful person Kurt and some days I don't believe that I deserve you." Blaine told him, which was kind of what he was thinking now. He knew that he really didn't deserve Kurt, not when he was lying and hiding things from him.

Kurt had opened his mouth to say something but his phone ringing pulled him from his thoughts. He crawled over to his bag and grabbed his phone from it and looked at the number.
"Finn." He informed Blaine as he answered it. "Hello." Kurt said, sitting on his heels as he spoke with his step-brother on the phone. "Okay, I'll meet you out front. Bye Finn." He said, hanging up the phone and putting it back into his bag. "Finn is on his way and I need to grab things from my room."
"Mind if I join you?" Blaine asked.
"You know you are more than welcome too." Kurt said, getting up and grabbing his bag and putting it onto his shoulder.
"Then let's go." Blaine said as they headed to the other boy's room. Blaine stayed back so that he didn't get into Kurt's way. He knew how his boyfriend could get when it came to clothes and fashion and he wasn't ready to deal with a annoyed Kurt. He didn't mind that Kurt was overly focused on fashion, it was what made him Kurt and right now Blaine couldn't help but smile as he watched him. He could easily stand there and watch Kurt for hours if he was given the chance.
"What are you staring at?" Kurt asked, looking over at Blaine as he gave him a small smile.
"You." Blaine said, not caring if he was blunt about it. "I'm just trying to figure out what I did to deserve such a perfect boyfriend."
"I've been asking myself the same thing….just to think if I hadn't been…bullied none of this would have happened." Kurt said, though Blaine instantly caught the offness of Kurt's voice when he mentioned what happened before he came to Dalton.
"Hey." Blaine said, moving over and wrapping his arms loosely around Kurt's waist. "Don't think about him. Think of us instead." Blaine told him, pressing a kiss to Kurt's head as the thinner boy's head rested on his shoulder as they stood there; just relaxing in each other's arms.
"I need to go and meet Finn. Text me later?" Kurt asked.
"Of course." Blaine told him, capturing Kurt's lips in a final kiss before he released Kurt so that he could grab the bag he was taking home and his school bag. "I'll see you Sunday."
"Okay." Kurt said, giving him a final smile before he headed out of the room and away from Blaine.

Blaine had left the room right after Kurt; making sure the door was shut before he went back tohis own room. It was almost as if he hit a switch because as soon as he had walked into his room his phone had started ringing. He went over thinking that it may be Kurt saying he forgot something but instead it was Rachel. It had been a few days since he last spoke with her and he wondered if something was wrong. He amswered the phone and brought it to his ear.
"Hello." He said, lowering himself to sit on his bed.
"Hey Blaine." Rachel told her. "I…I need to know." She told him, her words confusing the Warbler a bit.
"Know…what?"
"Have you told him?" She asked, and he closed his eyes as he fell back onto his bed as he ran a hand through his hair making it curl as he wiped out some of the gel.
"No." Blaine said as a moment of silence. "I try and…I choke." He told her.
"You should…it's not going to get any better the longer you hold it off. If you wait until it happens…he's going to be heartbroken and I'm not responsible when his brother tries to murder you." She told him.
"Why would you be responsible?" Blaine asked. "Finn is…Finn."
"We're dating again…I…I told him." She said quietly.
"What?" Blaine asked, sitting up sharply. He had to have misheard her. "You told…Finn?"
"Well techincally the doctor did but…I told him that you were the father."
"You told Finn? He doesn't always think before he acts…and Kurt went home this weekend again." Blaine told her, this was bad. What if Finn let slip? Kurt would never speak to him again if he found out from someone else. He couldn't tell Kurt over the phone or in a text, that was just rude.
"I know he did, Finn said he'd have him come home. Why do you think I called right after he left, Finn texted me and told me that Kurt was in the car." Rachel told him. "He's not going to say anything but you need to tell him Blaine. I'm not being pushy but I don't want him to be anymore hurt than needed." She told him.
"I know." Blaine said softly, freezing when he a message came onto his phone. "Hang on a second Rachel." He said, pulling the phone away and pressing the message button on his phone.

He had seen that the message had been from Kurt and he was a bit afraid of opening it. He was sure that Finn had said something and this was going to be the text to say that he was angry, they needed to talk or that they were over. He swallowed silently as he looked at the message, his eyes reading it twice before it processed.

Miss you already. ):
-Kurt3Blaine

Blaine gave a small sigh of relief, that text message he could handle. It wasn't a break up text, or an angry text it was Kurt saying that he missed him.

Miss you too.
-Blaine3Kurt

He then put the phone back up to his ear so that he could continue his conversation with Rachel. He really needed to get up the courage and tell Kurt. He could act like he had courage but when it came to this and actually having to act with it; he had nothing.
"Blaine…you alright?" Rachel asked, breaking him from his thoughts.
"I'm fine, just trying to figure out how I could tell Kurt all this stuff about courage when I have none myself." He told her. "I know I need to tell him Rachel, I honestly know that but…I'm afraid of losing him." Blaine told her, he was slowly trying to come to terms that he was going to lose him and it was slowly getting easier to accept it.
"You don't know for a fact that you'll lose him." Rachel told him. Though she really could see where he was coming from, she could remember the entire thing between Quinn and Finn when she had gotten pregnant, and the father had been Puck and not him. "Blaine, take it from someone who witnessed this type of thing first hand…you need to tell him. Trust me, he's going to be upset, that's a given and he's going to be angry with you and me but it'll be better if it comes from you." She told him. "Promise me that you'll tell him when he comes back."
"I…I promise to try." Blaine told her. "I can't promise because I may choke but I made myself a goal to make sure I tell him at some point this week."
"I guess that's the best I'm going to get from you." Rachel told him.
"I'm sorry Rachel, I really am but…you have no idea how I feel about Kurt and how guilty I am for everything."
"Do you regret that you're having a baby? Or because I'm the one carrying it?" Rachel asked softly.
"I regret not being honest with Kurt from the start of this relationship." Blaine told her. "None of this with you is why I feel guilty…well mostly…I feel bad because you are giving me something he never can and I'm sure that's bound to get some sort of reaction." He explained.
"I know…though he could be a father to it too." Rachel told him.
"Do we even know what we are going to do after the baby comes?" Blaine asked her.

That was something that had been on both teenagers minds, they had no idea what they were going to do when it came time to actually came and the baby was here.
"Do you want to keep it?" Rachel asked.
"Honestly?" Blaine asked.
"Yeah."
"I do." Blaine told her. "What about you?"
"I don't want to just randomly give my baby away but…my dream…I don't want to be tied down yet." Rachel told him, her voice giving away exactly how she was feeling. "Does that make me an awful person Blaine?"
"Rachel, you're a teenager who's had the same dream for years…just because this happened doesn't mean that dream is going to change." He told her. "I honestly am willing to take care of the baby myself after high school if you wanted to leave….I just don't think it's fair to cut yourself out of the baby's life."
"Would you really?" Rachel asked him. "What about Kurt? What if he doesn't want anything to do with it?"
"I…I care about Kurt deeply Rachel, but this baby is my flesh and blood."
"I think we all need to sit down and discuss this because I know that Finn doesn't want to get close to it if I put it up for adoption…"
"No." Blaine said, cutting her off. "We aren't putting it up for adoption, I told you Rachel, I may not be attractive to you but I do want to be there for you. I want to keep this baby and raise it." He told her. "I'm gay…I'm never going to be able to have another child…not unless I go for a surrogate…I don't want to lose this one."
"Most people would have a custody battle in a situation like this…I'm going to give you sole custody after the baby is born…I love this baby already but…I can't give up on my dream; not after I've worked so hard to get this far." Rachel told him, hoping he didn't think she was being selfish, she knew that she was a bit but Blaine would be a wonderful father.
"Just don't cut yourself out of our child's life…it deserves to know it's mother." Blaine told her.
"I wouldn't dream of it." Rachel said quietly. "Just…tell Kurt…you guys are so great together and I would hate to see things blow up because of this." She told him.
"I'll tell him…I'll work to gain the courage this weekend." He promised her.
"Good, and thank you Blaine." Rachel told him.
"For what?"
"For showing me exactly how great a father you are going to be. I wouldn't want to trust this child with anyone else." Rachel told him. "You'll be a wonderful father and I know that things will work out for you."
"I hope you are right Rachel." Blaine said, before they said goodbye and they hung up the phone.

Well, Rachel has admit that she loves her baby but she loves her dream of going to broadway more. Blaine has told her that he wants the baby and Rachel has already agreed to that...how will Kurt or even Finn take to that? Will Blaine get up the courage to tell Kurt the truth or is he going to continue to hide it? Review and I'll try to get another chapter up tomorrow or this weekend at some point.