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I've been stared atq, glared at, complimented at, introduced at, the list can go on. And during lunch people kept coming up to, and I shut them off, I feel kinda bad but anyways I relistened to Childish Gambino's album Kauai, and it just feels so naked! It just feels weird because it reminds me of Justin Bieber, and Pharrell William. Frustration.
I pretty much wasted my whole lunch time turning down people, and listening to rap songs. Wow. What a great day, and Loke just gave me glances and kept talking to a group of girls, frustration!
I took my last bite of a burger, and someone came up to me.
He has pink hair, and is in the baseball team, guess who he is.
Correct! Its Natsu effin Dragneel.
"Hi," he says gesturing a smile, and I looked up from my phone and found myself locked eyes with him.
"Um... Hi.." I manage to say.
"So how come I never saw you before?" Natsu asks, and I shrug.
"I'm just, anti social I guess," I shrug, and removed my ear buds out of my ears.
"And I guess you were listening to rap songs, eh?" Natsu asks, and I nod ", So now that we're friends-"
I cut him off especially, because we never, and ever will be friends ", excuse me but I never knew that we became acquaintances."
"Well I just said so," Natsu shrugs, and I became a tad bit annoyed.
"I'm sorry, but I never ever heard myself say that you were my friend, so I will excuse myself right now," I say as I get up, and threw away my trash, leaving a very shocked pink headed young man. I thought he was but it was all just an act, this is another reason why I think popular people are narcissistic, arrogant, selfish, full of themselves, and everything else that shall be put into that list.
Loke frowned on what I have done, but I just glared at him, and he went back talking to his new booty calls, and the bell rang, and I went to my next class.
Before I could open the exit door out of the cafeteria, Mr. 'We're Friends' came running back to me.
"Okay stop!" He says and I turn around, my cheeks are all puff from anger, and I hear him chuckle ", Okay I'm sorry if I sounded forceful or whatever, but I really want to be your friend, so can you please accept my apology?"
"I don't know it depends if it works out or not. You're popular, I'm not, I'm an ota- g-geek, and you're not," I say truthfully, and I was about to open the exit door, when he took my wrist.
"Wait, I don't care if you're an otaku," Pinkie says, and I took a deep breath.
"Why are you so anxious to be my friend?" I ask folding my arms.
"Because you caught my eye even when you changed," He says and I stiffen.
"So you knew that I was that otaku in the corner with one friend, who gets ignored, and bullied?" I ask my anxiety kicking up.
"Okay, yes I know,I should have been more friendly towards you before, but you know my reputation come first," He apologises.
"This is why I didn't want to be your friend because your ego comes first before friendship, how low is that?" I finally say before opening the door, and closed it shut. I sigh as I walk to my next class.
"Were you mentally insane during lunch?!" Loke exclaimed, as we enter my house.
"No, I wasn't insane, instead I had courage to face that playboy," I say as I go up the stairs, Loke following behind.
"You're insane!" Loke exclaimed as we enter my room.
"Yeah, I'm loco, maniac, sick bitch, psychopath," I say sarcastically.
"Did you just quote Bebe Rexha?" Loke asks.
"Apparently so," I say rolling my eyes at him.
"Okay, you know what you need to apologise to that poor guy," Loke orders.
"No, he needs to apologise to me first," I sigh.
"Why?"
"Because he knew me before, but he didn't care if I was getting bullied because of the populars stupid reputation!" I exclaimed, and he comes quiet.
"Lucy I'm-"
"I don't want pity from you," I say sounding like an anime character, goals.
"Lucy, its called comforting, and I really am, you want me to beat him up senselessly?"
"You sound like you're about to rape him, but to answer your question, no."
"Why?"
"Why? Because everyone will think I'm even a much scaredy cat, and they'll bully me more!" I replied back.
"That's not true at all Lucy," Loke reassured, and I scoff.
"What are you talking about?! Everyone thinks I'm pussy! Except for Levy, the only thing that's keeping me alive is anime! And people ask me why do I watch anime? Because ever since Mama I had this huge gap in my heart that I can't fill in, and that's where anime comes in!" I say as tears slowly go down my flushed cheeks.
"Don't you see? People have their ways on dealing with something like this, I had to take therapy. But nothing worked, but anime did. Why can't you accept that Loke? I can't change until something fills into that gap. But anime can be temporary or permanent to me."
"I just want people to see that I'm not doing this so I can cosplay, and all that fun stuff, it makes me realise that the whole world is unfair! That you can't get anything you want, even if you're rich. This is my way of grieving over Mama's death that still traumatize me till today..."
I say as I break down into tears, the secret has been told, and I felt like a whole weight is lifted off my shoulders. I never felt relieved in my whole entire life.
Loke watched as I cry, but the gap in my heart is still there, I know it will never be filled.
Love, is the word that I never heard someone say to me, and it's going to stay like that, because I'm only human.
Nothing can stay the same.
You eventually will die even today, in the next second, tomorrow, anytime of day, month, or even years.
I crouched down as I break into more mournful sobs, and Loke stands there in complete shock, I could see worriedness in his eyes. It's all over his face, guilt,& worriedness.
I'm crying from sadness, but also from joyfulness, weird, I know but that's how I feel.
I finally stop, and wipe my tears away, and the makeup on my face totally all other my clothes, and face, and I made an awkward chuckle.
"Lucy..." Loke began and I look up at him "... I'm just gonna apologise, and you should've told me and I could've helped, but since I can't do anything else, I'll support you."
I smile at him "... Thank you Loke..."
"No problem, but I'm still making you wear those type of clothing, so people will think that they can't mess with you," He jokes, and I smile, giving him a small chuckle.
"I feel great."
The next day, Loke says it would be best if I wore skinny jeans, a white bustier crop top, a black blazer, and black pumps.
I do not know what I have done to myself, but I look like I just got out of a teen magazine what to wear catalog.
Loke ordered me to put on mascara, and some blush, he says light makeup is great on me.
Wow gee, great.
I don't understand how men like pretty girls with a rotten mind, I mean like, what the hell.
And they just judge people by their appearances, when someone wears glasses they're all like 'OMG you're a nerd!' Like wtf, not every single nerd wears glasses, and also some of us who wears glasses are not even nerds.
Get your facts straight.
So that's why people wear contacts, I think... Actually I don't have any idea, but that's what I am suppose to do today. Wear effin contacts.
Oh how they irritate my eyes!
I get in my car, and found Loke sitting in the passenger seat already.
"You know you could've of drove yourself there, right?" I told him as I get inside.
"Wow, you sound like a real popular already," He teases, and puts on his seatbelt.
"Nah," I tell him as I put on my seatbelt.
"So what songs will you be playing today?" He asks me.
"Songs that I can't stop listening too," I tell him ", I have playlist on it on my Spotify, play it."
And I unlock my phone and gave it to him,and I start the engine, and drove out of my driveway.
"Really, you were listening to Bridgit Mendler?" He asks chuckling "Omg this song is so old!"
He starts laughing, and I smack him playfully.
"Just shuffle the playlist," I command, and he listens, and the song Talking Body, by Tove Lo, Gryffin remix, comes up.
"So, what's been up lately?" He asks me.
"Okay I guess, but have you seen the new anime's lately?" I ask him as we put up into a turn.
"Yeah, its been commercialising multiple times now," He says checking his phone.
"Yeah, well you know what, the anime genre we have now is filled with crap, all I see now is harem, and so much ecchi, like I'm trying to watch an action anime, but the male protagonist has to see panties and then he gets power," I complain, and he just chuckles.
"Sounds oddly like the anime Punchline," he says fixing his hair.
"It is!" I tell him, it was true ", and they're just short anime shows now, they're all trying to fit as much anime in and it's all being rushed."
"Okay, now that's true," He says.
"Exactly."
A/N: I have the worst migraine ever, but I finished this! Yaya!
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