Seth: Hidden in Plain Sight

It's been about 1 month since Liana had that incident on her birthday and since then she has been very distant from the rest of us….She hangs out in the woods and is mostly alone, the only one who really talks to her is Nessie and sometimes me. I hate to see her like this but that's the problem. Why is she like this? She should be happy. Roman has been gone for awhile and Nessie is doing great and I gave her my promise-"

Then it hit me.

Liana, she is not happy with me.

Just the thought made me go crazy but then again what else could have made her like this. I needed to talk to someone.

Leah…

I know it's not the best choice but if there is any girl that would have problems and know how to deal with it, it would be my sister. I started walking down to the beach because that's where Leah said she would be all day. As I kept thinking about other things that I could have done to upset Liana a voice interrupted me.

"Oh great, It's Paul."

"What's up Seth? Haven't seen you much lately because you have been hanging around the blood suck-oh I mean vamps so much. Oh and how are things with Liana? I Kinda miss her, last time I saw her she was cracking jokes at Billy's place. Man that girl is something."

it's funny the one person in my pack besides Jake Liana gets along with is Paul. I mean if Paul was a girl I would say they would be BFF's.

Bingo. I could talk to Paul. I told Paul all about Liana's weird behavior and when I was done talking he just sat there for awhile, finally he spoke.

"Hey Seth maybe I could try talking to her and see what I can get out of her. And Dude maybe you're just worried a little too much. You know how girls are, they all change their mood and besides I don't think Liana can ever fall out of love with you or at least not that quick. love is not a switch you don't just turn it off that easily, well our kind of love can't go like that at least."

"Yeah you're right maybe I'm spazing. Thanks Paul."

"No prob, See ya! Oh and tell me how things went ok?"

"Sure! Bye!"

Amazingly talking to Paul made me feel better, well a little but now is the time to talk to Leah. I wandered the beach a good ten minutes until I found her she looked lonely and I wondered if Leah will ever find her other half… it's not like she is ugly but what if she is lonely forever. Just thinking about it makes me sad and depressed, to not have a true love for the rest of your life. Man I am getting way to soft I need to stop watching soap operas with mom. Anyway Leah turned around and saw me and smiled

"Hey Seth what ya doing?"

"Nothing much. Um Leah I need to ask you something."

I looked in her eyes and she looked back at me and nodded.

"what's wrong Seth?"

I spill my guts just like I did with Paul.

"It's Liana, I don't know what's wrong with her! she just isolates herself from the group now and she is always quiet, and- and I am starting to think she does not want me anymore."
I looked away from her eyes not baring the thought that the love of my life is falling out of love with me. (Obviously Paul thing wore off)

Leah sighed " Seth, there is no way Liana would fall out of love with you, you saying that is like saying Edward wont love Bella anymore and everyone knows that would never happen, plus she has been through a lot."

I looked back at her " But it's like she is not here anymore and then one night I found her crying calling her sisters name, she is never smiling and I know she has been through a lot but it's not healthy for her to be like this."

Leah grabbed a hold of my hand "Seth calm down every things going to be ok"

I noticed I was shaking and tried to take deep breaths

But I couldn't help it.

The fact that I can't help her, well its pissing me off.

"Seth maybe you should talk to her, tell her that your worried. Maybe you guys can take a vacation or something."

Just as I was about to say that was a good idea Jake ran up to us looking freaked caring Nessie on her shoulder and I noticed she was crying I shot up

"what's wrong?"

Nessie could not talk but put her hand on my cheek and then the nightmare began.

Book Seventeen Liana: Farewell my love

I know I can't sleep but I am exhausted I cried all night for my dead family even though it's been months since they died but I still morn for them. I keep replaying the scene between me and my sister and I keep seeing Roman face smiling at me with a cold sneer.

And it sends chills down my back.

I know he will come back and I can't let that happen, I would never want him around Nessie or Seth just thinking about it just infuriates me. Plus the more think about it the angrier I get.

I was on the verge of going into my overload hissy fits when I herd Nessie. Quickly I collected myself, I look at Nessie she looks about 8 now. She is so pretty and her hair is growing more its put up in to two pigtails right next to her was Jacob he was tall and really cute (not as cute as Seth though)and he had a big grin on his face.

Nessie walked up to me and swinged my hand back and forth

"Liana! You wanna see grampa Charlie with mommy today?"

Her voice.

It's so much like Zoe's.

And it kills me.

It's so sweet, how can let anything happen to her? I love her as much as I loved Zoe and when I thought about Zoe that awful scene of her last moments came back to me only Nessie was in her place. All of a sudden I heard an awful scream.

Then I realized it was me.

Jake and Nessie were at my sides asking what's wrong and do I need help.

"I'm ok" I managed to say as I was gasping for air. (Um why the heck do I need air? Obviously this vampire thing is not working out, I get tired and I cry….I wanna refund.)

I Looked at Nessie and closed my eyes

Its time Liana, come to me….

Romans voice floats in my head.

Even though he is my enemy, his voice is so soothing…

I shake my head violently to get the thought out.

I turn towards Nessie and sigh

"Nessie I need to tell you something very important" I said the words slowly so I would not freak out again

Nessie looks at me with big wide eyes and nods

I grab her arm and get to eye level with her. Without looking at Jake I say

"Jake you need to go, this is only for Nessie."

He nods and walks away. When I know he is out of hearing distance I go back to Nessie.

"Nessie were best friends right?"

She nods her head.

"We can keep secrets right?"

She nods her head.

"I am going away to do some very important….work I guess, but I can't let anyone know where I'm going or what I'm doing. But I can be honest with you. I am going to see roman. I probably will not be coming back for a long time. And if I fail with the task I have been given, then I will not be coming back."

It's hard to look at her, especially when she is crying like that.

"why? Liana? We can help, we are a family!"

I hug her tight "I know we are a family, but this job is for me and me only. I guess you can say its pride, or maybe revenge for my previous family. But Only I can do it."

She grabes me tighter "Liana! What if you don't come back? I would die! Seth would die! Did you forget about Seth? He loves you!"

I'm paralyzed.

I have been so selfish, forgetting about Seth's feelings…..I never really thought about what would happen to him after I left, I just thought he would be worried but soon get over it. It's better that way, so he doesn't hurt so much…..so I don't hurt so much….See there I go again thinking of me. It's always been a habit of mine, even when I was human. I can't take it anymore. My head is hurting so much…I can't...

"Nessie, listen to me" I said "I love you guys so much and I know if you guys came with me we would be able to defeat Roman, but like I said before it's a revenge thing. Only I can do it. Please don't make this harder for me than it already is. Goodbye Nessie, don't bother following me because you won't be able to."

I let Nessie go and I walked away, not just from her, but from my new life.

I don't know why I'm so worried about facing Roman and why when I told Nessie I made it sound like I am going to die either way, maybe because deep down…I know my chances are slim. I guess I just was preparing her for the worst, and if she was pre-pared…It made it easier for me to go.

Wham

I fall hard to the ground and look up, I hit a tree. I wasn't even aware that I began running. I was so deep in thought that I didn't notice where I was going. I stood up and looked around, everything seemed so familiar-

La push.

Great I subconsciously ran to the last place I want to be right now. I really need to get out of here-

First I heard his howl, then after a couple of seconds…his voice

"Liana! Liana wait- wait up. Please wait!" he called

Who called? I keep thinking, not wanting to believe he was here right behind me, that Seth was right behind me. Just as I was about to run, I was jerked back.

I was swallowed in his embrace, his scent, him. I moaned as he kissed my neck, as his hands held me firmly and close to his warm body. We were just like fire and ice in perfect harmony. Once he stopped kissing me it was like a spell had broken. Seth looked at me with such pained eyes.

"You were going to leave me, you still plan to."

I nodded my head. Seth shook his head and started to walk away. I don't know what made me do it because it only made what I was trying to do harder. I grabbed his arm and threw myself on him. I began to kiss him and he held me again tighter. If we could just stay like this for the rest of our lives I wouldn't mind. I wouldn't mind having Seth's lips on mine for eternity, I wouldn't mind having his arms locked around me for a thousand years. Along as I had him I was fine.

"Come with me." The words slipped out of my mouth before I had a chance to stop it.

Seth held my face up so I was looking at him. He looked pained.

"I wish I could, but- but the pack comes first. I need to stay with them" He let go of me and looked at the ground.

My temper rose instantly "What do you mean you won't come? You wanted to come with me all those other times! Oh but now the pack comes first! I understand perfectly Seth; you're trying to keep me on a leash! Well guess what Seth! I'm not the dog here!" I was screaming at the top of my lungs now

"It's not like I'm going on a vacation Seth! I'm going to go kill him, and well he has the same plan…I guess I just…I just wanted a little piece of heaven with me into his frozen hell." My voice was almost a whisper "I'm sorry Seth that I lashed out at you, I'm leaving now. Um I always will love you, bye." I kissed him quickly and ran. It was not the ending I wanted to have with Seth; actually I didn't want an ending with him at all. It started off full of lust, went in to longing, anger, and ended in a melancholy of Awkwardness. I feel an ice cold tear slip down the side of my cheek as I'm running. Oh I'm only 16 and I want it all to end.

"You will get your wish soon enough" said a voice in the back of my head. And I sighed because I know it's true.

Ugh! I know I fail at life! It's been like a year since I last posted and if I were you guys I would set up a lynch mob and chase me down! It's not that I don't have the story, it's just I have been writing others and have been too lazy to post them….Well please comment! And hopefully I get a lot and that would give me strength to post faster!