Author's Note: While it's not graphic, there is a trigger warning for sexual assault.

I woke up dreading today. It didn't matter that I had amazing sex last night with Jonas. It didn't matter that I woke up with Jonas hand entwined with mine. It didn't matter that I was surrounded by my loving family.

Today I chose what fraction I will be a part of for the rest of my life. Over a week ago, I wouldn't have been sweating this. Today? It's bothering me. A traumatic event from two days ago has altered my plans of what I was going to do. A traumatic event has altered who I was. It has made me feel like I don't belong in the fraction that I was born and raised in. And it angered me severely

I decided I would wear a dress again today. If I went with my back up plan at the Choosing Ceremony, it would be the last time I wore a dress. I went with another dark green dress. It was short sleeve and it only went to my knees. I put on a light orange sweater over it. I would wear my usual brown leather boots.

I let my mom brush out my hair. I wanted my hair down today rather than up. My sister did my make up because she wanted to do something for me. She was sweet, but my mom redid it because I looked like a clown. I received a chorus of "Oohs" when I emerged from the bath room. Jonas whistled in approval.

"If Nature had a human form, you would be it sweet heart." He said smiling, giving me a hug and a peck on the lips.

"Thank you, love" I said, kissing him back.

"You look absolutely beautiful, Gem." My dad said, kissing my forehead. "You're the spinning image of your mother."

I blushed. "Thank you, dad" I hugged him hard.

"What a charmer." My mom remarked about my father. "You do look gorgeous, sweetie."

"I helped with the make up!" My sister announced.

"Yes, you did!" I said, scooping her up and holding her. I gave her a hug. "Thank you and mom for helping me get ready."

My mom hugged me. "We were happy to help."

"I'm reluctant to admit it, but you look amazing sis." Sol said to me.

"Thank you, bro" I said, giving him a hug.

"Are we ready?" My dad asked us curiously. There was a chorus of "yes" as a response. While I had say "yes" too, I was very tempted to say no. You see...if I went with my back up plan, today would be the very last time I was with my family and Jonas. I felt tears sting my eyes.

"What's wrong, baby?" My mom asked me with concern.

"Nothing, I'm just nervous."

"It's okay, baby." She said, giving me a huge hug. "Just relax"

"Your mother and I will love you regardless what you do." My dad reassured me.

"Me too!" My sister added

"I can't guarantee you the same thing." Sol remarked. I couldn't tell if he was joking or not.

"Sol!" My mom protested.

My brother blinked. "Mother, you know I'm kidding"

"Yes, because it was that apparent you were kidding." I said sarcastically.

"Of course, I will always love my sister."

"I will always love you too." Jonas put in.

"Alright...let's do this." My dad said as we left the house. I looked back and mentally said good bye just in case.

We eventually made our way to the ceremony. There was a table on stage with five bowls that represented the five fractions. Dauntless had burning coals. Abnegation had small round stones. Erudite had water. Amity had soil. Candor had glass. We walked to where the Amity fraction sat, which was next to the Abnegation fraction. I sat between Jonas and my father with my dad sitting next to the aisle. My mom sat next to Jonas. My sister sat between my mom and Sol.

Johanna, walked past us. "How are you all doing today?"

"We're doing fine today, Johanna." My dad said.

"You're choosing today, aren't you Gemma?" Johanna asked me.

"Yes"

"How are you feeling?"

"Extremely nervous"

Johanna chuckled. "I recall feeling the same way." She reached out to me. I took her hand. "Just follow your heart, child."

"I will."

She squeezed my hand gently before walking away.

Everyone took their seats soon in the fraction they belong to.

Johanna stood up and went up to the stage. It was Amity's turn to host the Choosing Ceremony. "When you all make your decision today, do it from the heart. Don't do it because of what your parents want. Don't do it because of what the test results say. Do it because you honestly believe you belong to that fraction. The future is yours to take. May you go with light"

The room applauded as she took her seat in the front row of Amity while Marcus Eaton took the stage. He was our leader and the leader of Abnegation.

"When we leave this room, you will no longer be dependents but full fledged members of society." He said. "Fraction before blood"

"Fraction before blood" Everyone in the room repeated in an unanimous chorus.

Marcus read the names on a list. I didn't pay attention while each person went up to choose their new fraction. The applause and the cheers were silent as my mind pondered what the hell I was going to do. My hand grasped Jonas' really hard.

"I love you." I whispered. "No matter what happens"

As if on cue..."Gemma Mason" Marcus called out my name.

My breath caught in my throat. Oh, hell! What the hell was I going to do? Maybe if I pass out, I can put off choosing a fraction for another year. Ha! That was wishful thinking. Sol's story from the night before about the guy fainting during his Choosing Ceremony rang in my ears as that poor soul still had to choose a fraction after he fainted.

On shaky legs, I stood up. I gave Jonas a big hug. I hugged him as I have never hugged him before. I made sure it counted just in case I went with Plan B. I felt my mom squeeze my shoulder, and I touched her hand gently as I made my way to the aisle. My dad gave me another hug. I walked down the stairs slowly, afraid I would fall since it seemed my legs wouldn't stop shaking.

I made my way up the stairs to the stage, and got on. I glanced at Johanna, who gave me a nod. I took a deep breath as I walked to the five bowls in the center of the stage. A knife lay on a piece of white cloth. Oh shit, I forgot I had to cut myself.

I took another deep breath. I picked up the knife. I closed my eyes, and slit the side line on my palm. I sucked in a breath as pain hit me. However, gritting my teeth, I carried on. Now, what do I choose? I began to move my hand towards Amity.

However, I stopped myself and I thought as quickly as I could before the drop of blood would fall. After all, I didn't want to accidentally choose a fraction like Candor or Erudite.

I had wanted to choose Amity originally. Despite what happened, Amity was my test result. I was kind. I was peaceful...for the most part. I didn't like violence, except when hunting apparently. I was forgiv-. I stopped myself there. I wasn't forgiving. If I was forgiving, I would've forgiven Adam for what he did and I just can't do that. If that wasn't bad enough, I couldn't stomach returning to a fraction where I run the risk of being assaulted more by Adam. It made me feel sick thinking about it.

On the other hand...if I would join Dauntless, I would learn ways on how to defend myself. On how I could defend others like my little sister, my mother, Jonas' mother, and Jonas' sister. I could learn how to kill because if I killed Adam, I wouldn't have to worry about the asshole killing my family and Jonas.

Vengeance and the need to protect my family won out over peace and forgiveness. I put my hand over the bowl that had the hot coals in it. My blood dropped into it and it sizzled when it came into contact with the coals.

Marcus announced, "Dauntless"