The Future Is Always Beginning Now: Chapter 7
I'm combining what I had planned to be Chapter 7 and Chapter 8 into just Chapter 7 so if the rest goes according to plan this story should be 16 chapters long. I combined the 2 chapters cuse I felt Chapter 7 and Chapter 8 would be just a touch to small for me to want them out as different chapters. So yeah. Enjoy :D
WARNING: This chapter gets very depressing. You might want to skip some things near the end of the chapter if you don't like sad things.
Special Thanx:
Lliasa - My insane Beta... who left... interesting reviews... yeah... maybe I should call the Happy Farm? She just changed her name from The Sexy Beast because she just posted her first fic. It's an Hetalia fic.
WitheredWings101 - You're smarticle xD
z - I'm really glad you like it so much :)
xSapphirexRosesxFanx - Friendship, love, and in Natsume and Hotaru's case, rivalry xD
Kylee-Cat - Stop it, you're making me blush :3
Yuri no Kimi - You'll have to find the answer to your question in this chapter ;)
akadabra-kaching - more or less, but like I told Yuri no Kimi, you'll just have to find out my reading this chapter ;)
The Twin - I put one scene is here just for you, you'll recognize it when you see it. Unfortunitly it's small but it's the best I could do considering the contents of this chapter. Natsume and Hotaru are just too alike for their own good, and they both want to monopolize Mikan. xD
[NatsumeXMikan]
Lulled in the countless chambers of the brain, our thoughts are linked by many a hidden chain; awake but one, and in, what myriads rise!
-Alexander Pope
[NatsumeXMikan]
-Recap-
"She's shopping for clothes," he continued, shrugging as he looked back at Ruka.
"Oh, there she is," Ruka-pyon said, nodding towards the pink store.
I looked at the store again, cringing a little myself as my eyes were hit with an overdose of pink. Coming out of the light pink door was smiling girl, who looked around thirteen or fourteen. She had the same raven black hair and crimson eyes as Natsume. Was she his little sister?
"Hey! Natsume! Ruka! Look at the cute things I found," the girl yelled happily, skipping over to us.
Then her eyes landed on me, and she stopped dead in her tracks. Her eyes grew wide with surprise. The young girl gasped as her hands flew to her mouth, dropping the pink bags. She was close enough to us that I could hear the soft thump the bags made when they hit the earth. Another emotion joined the surprise in her wide, crimson eyes. Fear? What was she so scared of?
"Mikan."
-Recap Over-
Did that girl just say my name? I couldn't remember Ruka-pyon mentioning anyone besides himself and Natsume that had lost their memories... Did that mean this girl knew what was going on? Or was it just that we had met during the time I can't remember? I glanced at the others, wondering what their reactions were. Ruka-pyon's eyes were wide with surprise, Hotaru's were just narrowed a bit, and Natsume's held confusion. So no one else knew exactly what to make of this new development either, then?
I looked back at the girl, causing something, a memory, or maybe a thought, to float through my mind. It was like a ghost, teasing me, coming close enough to touch and then withdrawing before I could grab hold of it. I stared at the girl, trying to trigger something that would allow me to finally grab it. Aoi. Natsume's younger sister. What was it? All of a sudden, my eyes were met with her crimson eyes. This was the trigger I'd been searching for.
A small wave of pain flashed through my mind, along with an image. Darkness? It looked like a body of darkness with a white half-mask. The figure's shadowy lips seemed to grin almost mockingly.
The pain was gone, along with the image, as quickly has they had come, only to be replaced by fear, raw fear. No. NO! I had to get away! Quickly! I had to run or-
And the fear vanished from my body, leaving only confusion as I tried to figure out what the hell had just happened.
The girl's face was suddenly replaced with the smile she had been wearing out of the store a few seconds ago. The smile looked slightly forced to me, though. She dropped her hands and picked up her pink bags, starting to skip towards us again. She reached us a moment later, holding up the pink bags to Natsume and Ruka.
"See, look at all the cool stuff I got!" She exclaimed excitedly.
Whoa, what in the world? Was this girl bipolar or something? But either way, I know what I heard. How did this girl know me?
"Um, excuse me. Aoi, was it? How did you know my name?" I asked.
She just blinked, as if she had no idea what I was talking about.
"Ne, Natsume, who is this girl? Is she a friend of yours?" She asked Natsume.
"No," He replied, looking at her accusingly.
I tried to ignore the sting I felt at his answer. Natsume was right, we couldn't even remember each other after all and it's not like we had a fantastic start. Anyway I suppose if I could clearly see that this girl was hiding something. It must completely obvious to her older brother, assuming I was right and they were siblings. Crimson eyes were not your everyday eye color, so siblings seemed the most logical choice. It also just felt right.
"Oh, okay then. Hi there, my name is Aoi. I'm Natsume's little sister. Who are you?" She asked innocently, glancing from me to Hotaru.
"I'm Hotaru Imai," Hotaru said, still watching Aoi through her narrowed amethyst eyes.
Aoi was ignoring all of the accusative stares, looking at me expectantly. Didn't she already know my name though? Hadn't she just said it? Why was she acting like she hadn't said anything?
"M-my name's Mikan Sakura, nice to meet you..." I trailed off uncertainly. Was this really the first time we've met?
"Aoi, what was that all about? Didn't you just say Mikan's name?" Ruka-pyon asked her.
"Hm? No, I've never met Mikan-chan before," She replied innocently, not seeming to realize what she'd just called me.
"Anyway would you both like to join us for dinner? Since you traveled all the way to this town in the suburbs, you probably don't have a lot of money left. And I'm sure my dad will let you stay the night, too," she said, smiling.
I looked at Hotaru and saw her nod at me. Well I guess this solved our food and shelter problem, at least for tonight.
"Sure, that would be great. Thanks, Aoi," I replied, smiling.
"Great! Our house is this way! Follow me!" Aoi yelled, skipping off.
Natsume rolled his eyes before getting up to follow her. I felt my heart skip a beat when he glanced at me, then walked after her. Ruka, still holding his bunny, followed Natsume. Hotaru and I just continued to stand there for a moment.
"Ne, Hotaru? How did Aoi know we traveled a lot?" I asked, watching Natsume hit Aoi's head lightly as she beamed at him, still skipping.
"I don't know, but I intend to find out," she replied.
[NatsumeXMikan]
Aoi led us up a hill to a house at the top. My first impression of it was that it looked rather normal, if not a bit small. There was a man in front of the house with his back to us, holding a watering can as he watered a flowerbed next to the house's wall.
"Hey, Dad! I brought some guests home for dinner!" Aoi called to the man, waving.
The man stopped watering the flowers and turned around, a large smile plastered on his face. He waved back at Aoi. So he's their father? He didn't look a lot like Natsume or Aoi, so maybe they just got their looks from their mother.
"Welcome back, you three. How was your shopping trip?" He yelled.
Suddenly his eyes landed on me. Was it normal for faces to become that pale? The man looked like he had seen a ghost.
Natsume, who was still a few feet in front of me, paused for a second. His eyes narrowed as he looked at his father's face. I take it this wasn't the usual welcome. What was it that made both Natsume's sister and father react like that? I looked at his father again and saw him shoot a questioning look at Aoi. When Aoi reached her father I saw her shake her head a little. He hesitated a moment more before looking back to us, his face returning to a normal color and a grin back on his face. What were he and Aoi hiding? We all reached the house, stopping in front of the man.
"Welcome to our home, ladies. I'm Natsume and Aoi's father. I know our house isn't exactly grand, but please make yourselves comfortable while I go and make dinner," He said, still smiling.
"Oh, thank you very much, sir," I replied politely.
He just nodded and headed inside. After a moment of awkward silence, we all followed.
[NatsumeXMikan]
Dinner was delicious. We all ate the food, talking about trivial things. No one brought up why we were here, or anything else having to do with our memory loss. Mr. Hyuuga told us a few fun stories, the weirdest one having to do with a flower that had just died. Apparently it had been beautiful and alive a lot longer then it should've been, but suddenly the other day it just withered and died. The story sounded vaguely familiar but I ignored the feeling, knowing that that was impossible. After we finished dinner, Mr. Hyuuga disappeared again into the kitchen, claiming he would be out in a few minutes with dessert.
"I have to go make a phone call, I'll be right back," Aoi told us cheerfully, standing up from her chair and walking out of the room. She looked a little tense, or was that just my imagination?
I looked at Natsume, trying to see if he noticed Aoi looking tense. My heart wasn't prepared for him to be watching me. I held his crimson gaze for a moment before I looked down at my lap, my face hot. What in world...?
I looked over to Hotaru, who was watching something on the floor. I shifted my gaze, following hers. I saw Ruka sitting on the floor, holding a carrot out to Usagi-chan. Usagi-chan's nose twitched, hopping forward to take a bite of the carrot. I watched it eat the entire carrot from Ruka's hand, not daring to see if Natsume was still looking at me.
Mr. Hyuuga came out right as Usagi-chan took the last bite of the carrot. He was carrying plates of what looked like chocolate cake. The cake looked incredible. Mr. Hyuuga put a piece in front of Hotaru, Natsume, and me before going back into the kitchen to get the rest of the pieces. I noticed Aoi still wasn't back.
"Hey, I'm going to go get Aoi. She wouldn't want to miss this. Something tells me that she's the type that loves sweets," I said before quickly getting up and following where she had left the room earlier.
I walked down the hallway, looking for Aoi, when I heard her voice from around the corner. Was Aoi still on the phone? Should I go back and eat my cake, or should I wait for her to finish? Still undecided, I stopped, still out of her sight. I was about to go back and eat my cake when I accidentally heard part of Aoi's conversation. What I heard made me stop in my tracks and made my blood freeze.
"So what do I do? Mikan-chan and Hotaru are both in the kitchen with Natsume and Ruka! I asked them to come here because I know they traveled a long way from where they live and probably don't have enough money for a hotel, but what if something happens? What if something triggers their memories?" I heard Aoi say frantically.
There was a pause as the person on the other end of the line replied. Who exactly was Aoi talking to about our memory loss?
"Who are you sending? Wouldn't Koko be better, so that he could read their minds? Oh, he's on another mission with Sumire? So when are they going to be here?"
Pause.
"What should I do until then, keep them as separate as possible?"
Another pause.
"But what if-"
Yet another pause.
"Okay, Yuka, I understand. Bye," Aoi said. I heard her put the phone down. I heard her sigh.
I may have heard the sounds, but they didn't mean anything to me. I couldn't even tell if my brain was in overdrive or frozen as it tried to process everything.
What just happened? Who was Yuka? Yuka. Why did that name sound so familiar? Koko and Sumire. They also sounded somewhat familiar. So people were coming? Who? Who was coming? Why were they coming? What just happened?
I didn't even notice Aoi had turned the corner until I was looking right at her. She looked at me, wide eyed with shock. I'm sure my expression mirrored hers. She must have gotten the ability to turn an unnatural pale from her father. It was such an odd color for a face to turn. We just continued to stare at each other. I wonder who was in more shock?
"Oi, stop staring at each other like a couple of dolls! What's taking so long?" Came a voice and footsteps from behind me.
Natsume. That was Natsume's voice. What was he doing here? What was going on?
It was only then that I became suddenly aware of how much my head was hurting. The pain caused my knees to buckle underneath me. I fell to the floor. I squeezed my eyes shut, holding my head in my hands, wishing the pain would stop. Why wouldn't it stop?
"Oi! Little girl! What's wrong?" I heard Natsume say.
I opened my eyes enough to see Natsume crouching down in front of me, looking worried. Worried? For me? I felt his hands grab my shoulders, shaking me slightly. With him this close to me, I noticed something I hadn't before. Around Natsume's neck was a chain, much like the one I'd spotted on Hotaru's neck last night. But instead of Hotaru's white stone, Natsume's necklace sported a light orange stone. Something about the orange stone called to me. I reached one of my hands out, slowly reaching towards the stone. I saw Natsume flinch, probably not sure what I was doing, but then immediately relax. It was almost like Natsume's instinct told him that people suddenly reaching out towards your chest was dangerous, so why had he relaxed so quickly? The amount of time between the flinch and the relaxation was too short for his brain to have fought the instinct. It didn't matter, anyway. All that mattered now was the light orange stone, which was now not even an inch from my fingertips. It was like I was under some kind of spell.
Finally my fingertips touched the strangely smooth stone, and then froze. Something was wrong. I was scared. My head tilted up and my eyes sought crimson ones, my body acting all on its own. He looked back at me, his eyes panicked and desperate.
"Natsume?" I asked. I wanted to ask him why he was looking at me like that and why he cared about me so much, but my lips froze just like my fingertips on the stone. Memories were teasing me again, several of them. Just like last time they were swimming through my thoughts, close enough to touch but when I grabbed for them they slipped away. My whole body seemed to lock down, and it took a minute for my brain to process what my body already had.
Pain.
Searing, agonizing pain ripped through my head. I tried to scream, but my mouth refused to open. And suddenly it was like I was trapped inside my own head, my eyes no longer seeing what was actually in front of me. The memories were attacking me, demanding that I remember them.
And remember I did.
-Flashbacks-
I was in a hospital, looking through a pane of glass at something on the other side. I saw a bed and a bunch of machines. It took me a minute to realize there was a person in the bed, buried under all the machines. It was a boy with blond hair, his eyes closed as he slept. I felt something move in my arms, so I looked down and saw a teddy bear. The teddy bear was also looking through the pane of glass to the person inside. I looked up again at the boy, or at least what little I could see of him under all the machines, and I felt myself start to cry. I knew that those machines had a reason for being there. They were what was keeping the boy inside the room alive. I could see the boy's breath in a machine mask placed over his mouth and nose. Without that machine the boy couldn't breathe. A bunch of wires that came out from under covers were attached to a monitor with a red number and a red line that kept spiking at a regular beat. That machine was to monitor the boy's heart, to alert the doctors if his heart started to fail or he had a seizure. I saw a tube leading into the boy's arm, attached to something that looked like a stand where several bags of different kinds of liquids were hanging. That IV Drip was the only way the boy could now receive the needed nutrients that most people get from food, and it was the only reason the boy wasn't severely dehydrated, no longer having enough strength to drink water himself. The IV Drip was also one of the many ways the doctors were administering the boy's medicine. His body was pumped full of all sorts of drugs, but those drugs were keeping him from the pain his body was currently in, and they were keeping him alive.
I turned the bear in my arms around and hugged him to me. The tears that had threatened earlier were now overflowing. I wasn't crying for myself. I was crying for the bear in my arms who wasn't capable of it, and for the boy in the room, who would never cry, not because he couldn't but because he didn't want the people who cared for him to see just how pain he was really in or just how scared he was.
"It'll be okay, Mr. Bear. Kaname's strong, he'll pull through this," I murmured between sobs.
We both knew I was lying. All the machines and all the drugs were keeping him in this world a little longer, but there was nothing the doctors could do to actually cure him.
Someday soon his breathing would become so bad the not even the machine could help.
Someday soon he would have a seizure or heart failure that the doctors couldn't bring him back from.
Someday soon his body would stop accepting all the drugs and other liquids, no longer able to accept them.
Someday soon he was going to die.
I felt the bear in my arms tremble as my tears continued to flow.
[NatsumeXMikan]
The floor under my feet gave way, sending me spiraling downwards. I accidentally let go of what was in my arms, grabbing hold of a bit of floor that hadn't given way yet. My friend's all called out my name. I looked down. I had to find what I'd dropped earlier!
"Pengy!" I yelled, seeing him holding on to another ledge of floor that was just below me.
Ruka-pyon called out my name again, telling me to grab on as he reached me, helping me up.
"W-wait! Over there...! Pengy's-!" I tried to tell Ruka-pyon. I couldn't leave without Pengy!
Tsubasa-sempai told Ruka-pyon and Natsume to hold open our only way out of here.
"Tsubasa-sempai!" I shouted, surprised as he took Ruka-pyon's place beside me.
"'Cause right now you won't leave here no matter what I say. I'll climb down there somehow and get Pengy out, so you go back over there," he explained.
As I started to protest, some of the ceiling above us collapsed, sending a shower of ruble down on us.
"Look out!" Tsubasa-sempai shouted at me, hovering over me, shielding me.
Tsubasa-sempai was hurt, badly. He shouted at the others to go ahead and leave, that it was too dangerous. What do I do?
"Mikan, I've got you. Can you stretch down there and pull Pengy out?" He asked.
"I'll try!" I responded, uncertain but determined.
The whole place shook again. The quakes are stronger than they were just a minute ago!
"Pengy... Can you reach me?" I asked Pengy, lowering my hand down to him.
The place where we're standing could crumble any second! I'm scared! But I had to help Pengy!
"I won't let go no matter what. So reach out and take my hand, Pengy!" I shouted desperately.
I could hear Ruka-pyon shout something at us, but blocked it out, my single focus being to reach Pengy. I let out a scream as some of the floor beneath me crumbled away, lurching me forward. Tsubasa held on to me, not letting me fall. Pain laced through my arm as one of the falling rocks smashed into it. Tsubasa asked if it was okay. I didn't bother to answer, I only yelled for Pengy to hold on.
"We're gonna lower my coat to you, so grab on to it... Pengy?" I heard Tsubasa-sempai shout.
I opened my eyes and looked at Pengy. There were tears in his eyes, but... Why was Pengy smiling?
I couldn't, no, wouldn't believe what I was seeing. Pengy let go of the ledge, his small body falling into the darkness until I could no longer see it.
"PENGY!" I shouted.
No. No! NO! This couldn't be happening! I couldn't go down and save Pengy, Tsubasa-sempai was forcing me towards the portal as more of the ceiling fell down around us. I just clutched to him, crying, as we stepped into the portal. There was a bright light, and then everything went black.
[NatsumeXMikan]
I was running from something, something bad had just happened.
"You guys can't be serious!" I heard a familiar voice shout.
I stopped running, coming across a group of people gathered in front of me.
"That girl is definitely an idiot, but she's not so big an idiot that she'd mess with a life and death matter just to stand out and be a bother to people!" I heard the same voice shout.
Permy? I could see the dark green permed hair from where I was standing.
"That's not it! Where did that poisonous Koizumi fungus go? Say something, Natsume! Give those guys in the Koizumi clique a piece of your mind!" Perm shouted angrily.
Now I noticed that in the middle of the group was a bench, which was currently being occupied by a certain crimson-eyed boy. I also saw Ruka-pyon standing behind him. I noticed Nonoko and Anna standing in the group as well, their bubblegum pink and blue hair hard to miss. Natsume just sat there for a moment, not saying anything. Then he finally spoke, and I wished he hadn't.
"I won't concern myself with Sakura Mikan anymore. Neither will I with her story. If there are any of you who oppose me in this then get out of my sight this instant. She is not worth your protection," He said coldly.
Natsume had noticed me, had said those things while looking at me with cold, crimson eyes. I stood there for a moment, thinking, wishing I'd misheard him. That Natsume of all people hadn't uttered those cruel words. A lot of people, including Ruka-pyon, Nonoko, Anna, and Permy, looked shocked like they thought the same thing.
"Natsume... What are you saying?" Ruka-pyon asked, horrified.
"You heard me. Get lost. You are an eye sore," He said, this time aiming the words directly at me.
The others noticed me now, staring at me with horrified expressions. Well, most people did. I noticed Koizumi and a few of the kids around her were smirking.
What was Natsume saying? Why was my chest hurting so much? I couldn't understand what just happened, this didn't make any sense at all. I couldn't take it anymore. I turned my back and ran as fast as my legs could take me. I heard my friends calling out my name, but I didn't stop. I just continued to run through the trees, not exactly sure what I was hoping to accomplish, just knowing I had to get as far away as possible from the Natsume that would tell me such cruel things.
I'm gonna cry. This kind of thing is the worst. I don't understand why... Damnit Natsume! When I cursed him my tears started to flow. My only thought, 'Why? Why him?'
My heart felt like it was breaking.
[NatsumeXMikan]
It was raining. I stood in it, feeling neither the drops against my skin nor the cold wind. Actually I wasn't feeling much at all. I felt completely numb. I felt nothing. I knew my eyes were red and swollen. I'd cried a lot. It was like crying had worn me out so much that I was now to tired to feel any emotion or touch. Almost everyone else had gone inside by now. The only ones who were out here now besides me were Tsubasa-sempai, Misaki-sempai, and Natsume.
I stared down at the grave in front of me. The tombstone said, 'Kaname, who brought life to many'.
We'd all known it was going to happen, but somehow that didn't make the pain any better.
Mr. Bear was sitting lifelessly on the ground in front of the grave, the rain sliding harmlessly off his slicker. He hadn't moved at all since they buried Kaname many hours ago.
Tsubasa-sempai was crumpled on the ground, his face hidden in Misaki-sempai's stomach. Misaki-sempai kneeled there, holding him to her, biting her lip as she tried to fight her own tears. I know that this had to be hard for them; they were the people closest to Kaname.
I knew Natsume wasn't here out of grief for Kaname. He was here for me. I couldn't see him, but I could feel his eyes on me. He was behind me, just under the shelter of the trees. He didn't dare approach after I'd yelled at him earlier, wrongly taking out my frustration for Kaname's death out on him. I knew I should apologize to him, this wasn't his fault, but somehow I just couldn't. It was too much effort. It was so much easier to continue to stand here, numb to the world.
I thought how appropriate the cliché of a funeral in the rain was. It was like the rain was crying because now I was the one who couldn't.
[NatsumeXMikan]
Natsume and I were returning from our mission, jumping from tree to tree. I felt my heart stop when Natsume did, leaning against the trunk of the tree branch he was standing on. If Natsume stopped then something must be very wrong. I jumped to his side, watching him anxiously. I didn't comment, he wouldn't want me too. He was pale, his breathing hard and shallow. I knew what was happening, just as I knew there wasn't anything I could do but be next to him. He would fight going to the hospital, just telling me to give him a second, that it was nothing, that it would pass shortly. I felt so powerless as I watched him, bringing his hand up to his mouth as he tried to hold back a coughing fit. It didn't help. When the fit passed he brought his hand away from his mouth. I knew what was going to be on that hand, I'd been with him through enough of these fits to know, but somehow that didn't stop my heart from shattering each time.
Scarlet blood covered his hand, a bit more then usual. He wobbled, I caught him. I nearly cried out as he mumbled an apology before collapsing. I sat down on the branch, laying Natsume down, his head in my lap. I looked down at his unconscious face that was still scrunched up in pain.
I cried. I only cried now when I was alone, or in cases like this, I was the only one conscious. Natsume hated it when I cried, knowing that usually he was the one who caused it. Even though I never cried in front of him anymore, somehow he still always knew.
The fits were getting worse, his condition moving to the next stage. He refused to stop taking missions, no matter how many times I pleaded for him too. And it was slowly but surely killing him.
I realized a few months after Kaname's funeral that I hadn't only cried because he'd died, I'd also cried because I'd seen Natsume's future. Unless something changed, I would someday soon be standing in front of his grave. The very thought of Natsume's grave sent a great wave of pain through my entire system.
It was killing me too, watching him have these fits, getting worse and worse, slowly dying in front of me, knowing that there was nothing I could do.
[NatsumeXMikan]
There were cuts and bruises all over my body, I'm pretty sure I had a broken arm as well. What happened? Where was I? I looked around me and saw bodies, lots of bodies. I was confused for a moment, what I was seeing now computing in my brain. Then something in my mind clicked. The battle. I was in a battle... and then? What? What had happened? I couldn't remember anything.
-Flashback Within The Flashback-
When I got here, the battle had been in full swing. Alices were fighting alices, people dying everywhere. My target was Persona, seeing as I was the only one who stood a chance against him. I mentally kicked myself for not being here sooner; not knowing how many people Persona had managed to kill in that time. How many of those people could I have saved? My eyes searched among all the chaos, searching for my target. I found him.
I raced over noticing the blackened bodies I had to avoid stepping on. I felt a surge of anger. I raced forward.
Persona's back was turned to me, not even aware of my presence yet. I heard his insane laughter as he threw two more blackened bodies to the ground. It was over before he even knew what had happened, a knife now protruding from his back. Despite how angry I was with him, I couldn't help but feel a lot of pity for him. He'd been an innocent kid once, but the people after his alice were not kind. They mentally twisted the young boy into what most people call a monster. And the thing that sent him over the edge of insanity...
I shook my head to clear my thoughts. Persona was now gone but that didn't mean the battle still wasn't over. I glanced at the two blackened bodies I'd just seen Persona throw to the floor. If I had just gotten here a few moments earlier...
I let lose a cry as I realized I knew whom the two blackened bodies belonged to. Their facial features were impossible recognize through the heavy black staining, but I didn't need them to know who these two were.
I stared at their hair. One had bubblegum pink, the other dark blue.
My world went black.
-Flashback Within The Flashback Over-
That's right... The last thing I remember... Anna... Nonoko...
Where were they? They weren't in front of me, like when I'd blacked out.
The sound of people whispering made me snap my head up. A group of Gakuen Alice kids that were in the battle were whispering to each other, staring at me. They looked scared. No, they looked terrified.
I stood up, about to ask them what was wrong.
"Stay away from us! You're a monster!" I heard one shout.
I didn't get it. Why was I a monster? Why did they look so terrified of me? I looked around the clearing again. There was at least double the amount of bodies now as there had been when I killed Persona...
The new bodies were cut, slashed, and mangled. It looked like they had been dead but someone had continued to attack them. I looked at the other kids again, taking in their petrified looks and their words a few moments ago.
Sudden realization dawned on me.
I looked down at my hands.
They were scarlet with blood.
I screamed.
-Flashbacks Over-
I curled myself into fetal position. It felt like I was sinking, sinking into the darkness, into nothing. I welcomed it, hoping these memories, thoughts, emotions, and pain would become nothing as well.
Before the nothingness took over me completely, I felt a warm body holding mine, and a voice, Natsume's, calling out my name. My real name.
Then I felt nothing.
Wow okay... um I thing I probably could've just kept this as 2 seperate chapters... They looked shorter on my plan then they did when I actually wrote them out... I think this might be the longest chapter I've ever written for anything. Anyway I know this chapter had a lot of incredibly depressing parts but... well I won't spoil but I swear the worst is over, in fact I don't think there will be many more sad moments in this story. I actually usually hate tragedy and other sad stuff but in this case I needed to include it for my plot.
Oh I'm really interested since this is my first time writing tragic stuff but which flashback did you find the saddest?
Oh and I know it's been 2 weeks since the last update but a few things happened and well you guys don't care right? Not after this length of chapter right? Was it well worth the wait?
Did any of you guys read the most recent Gakuen Alice chapter of Mangafox? I won't spoil but I have to say it was the best chapter I've seen in a long time! So much awesome stuff happened! If anyone wants to chat about it then please feel free to PM me! I also have some predictions about up coming events so if any one wants to hear or discuss then feel free as well :)
Anyway please review! I deserve it after this, don't you think? ;)