Author's note: hey my lovely people hope you had a great week. So someone pointed out that Regina hasn't used the bathroom yet and there's a reason for it seeing this chapter. Here you have some cute DimpleQueen, some snarky OutlawQueen but only cuteness would be boring right? So dear old Leopold will make an appearance and I really hate him ;) So enjoy but please keep in mind that the end will be about marital rape so if this triggers you skip it and take care. I don't own anything and I'm responsible for all mistakes made.
Robin was surprised at her outburst and even more at the tears which were now gathering in her eyes. Those eyes which were now so full of pain that his heart once again broke for her. He didn't know what exactly was happening why she opened up to him and he clearly couldn't explain why this meant so much too him, hearing how she shared parts of her dark past with him. She was the Evil Queen after all a woman who killed without mercy and it hadn't passed a second where his men made clear that they thought he was out of his mind for helping the Queen and kept asking why.
But Robin didn't have an answer for them because he had really no idea himself. There was something about her that he just couldn't shake off. He was telling himself that it was because of his deep need to do the honorable thing and saving an injured woman in need was certainly the honorable thing to do. Then why did it hurt so much hearing her voice trembling as she spoke about what Rumpelstiltskin made her do( god he hated that men with all he was still was wondering what exactly happened between the imp and Regina) how her tears fell down as she talked about her dead love but what made him almost regret that he pushed her to taking was her reaction to bringing up her mother.
His question about her was the one who made her losing control, which let the perfect mask fall and tears she seemed to try so hard to stop from falling were unstoppable. She looked so small and hurt that Robin took the risk and pulled her into his arms. Like he predicted she was tense at first but then slowly Robin could feel how she started to relax and to his surprise Regina let him hold her. He even could swear as he tightened his hold she snuggled closer to him.
Amazed by the feeling of having her in his arms ( why did it feel like she always belonged there in his embrace he barely knew her and he still wasn't sure if he could ever trust her or ever should but still…). Robin didn't know how long they stayed like this, her crying and he offering comfort but he didn't dare to move scared to lose the moment. But then she slowly withdrew from his hold and looked up at him with uncertainty and a bit of shame in her dark eyes. Robin only smiled gently at her trying to have his facial expression as blank as possible not to overwhelm her. Every time she has opened up to him in the last hours it always ended with her pushing him away again. One step forwards and two back and Robin hoped to avoid that this time. But before he could say something Regina opened her mouth, bit her lip and the closed it again seemingly debating about something. Robin patiently waited for her to speak up and she finally did her voice barely more than a whisper sounding almost scared:" Robin I need to use the bathroom." Alright that wasn't really what he was expecting and suddenly he got nervous. She was far too weak to do it by herself and there were no woman in the camp of the Merry Men and this was rather a private moment which clearly troubled her having him with her.
So Robin tried to think about anything that would made the situation easier and less uncomfortable for both parties but there was no other way. There was no other who would help her anyway. So the archer sighted and muttered:" Then let's go Your Majesty." Robin was about to carefully help her up when he saw fear in her eyes which made him swallow hard. He had expected embarrassment maybe even an angry glare but not that so he suddenly felt the urge to assure her that he only had good intension he only was aiming to help her which was what he told her. His words seemed to calm her down a bit but she still was tense.
As Robin tried to help her on her feet she almost sunk with a annoyed groan against him. Robin realized that there was no way she would be able to walk outside. Knowing his next move probably would cost him his head if the Queen ever regained her strength he picked her up and carried her in bride style. Like predicted the Queen started to protest:" What the hell do you think you are doing thief? Put me down immediately or god help me I'm going to kill you and will enjoy every second of it." Even though this could be seen as a real threat Robin only chuckled he knew her by now good enough to see through her defense mechanisms so he only replied:" Well milady unless you have the desire to wet your own bed you have deal with that. Beside that you should feel honored not many woman get the pleasure of being carried by a handsome charming men twice a day." The only answer Robin got was a very angry glare from the Queen but she seemed to accept that this was the only way she could relief herself and keep at least some of her dignity.
They were in silence till they reached the place which the Merry Men used as bathroom and Robin tried to help her as respectful as he could not even peeking a bit. Still the Queen was so tense the entire time and at some point Robin could swear he saw her hand shaking for a moment. He knew that having the need to receive help regarding this matter was uncomfortable but Regina almost seemed like she had trouble keeping it together and Robin was confused and almost a bit offended. He never at no moment showed any sign that his intension towards her were anything but honorable but then he remembered the scars on her body and he became the unpleasant feeling that there were more dark secrets he didn't know yet and he wasn't sure if he ever wanted to.
Regina was so tired and her limps felt boneless and heavy. There was nothing she liked more than just stay this way in Robin arms forever. As that thought crossed her mind she almost flinched back. Why did she feel so safe with him? It had been ages till she let someone hold her, hell like even touch like that without either trembling in fear or anger. She didn't even like the damn thief right? No she said to herself he was annoying and insufferable.
She was in pain and thanks to those damn dreams emotionally confused. Before Regina could get lost in her own debate about the outlaw something completely different caught her attention. Her very full bladder, she really need to use the bathroom. But they weren't in a castle they were in those gods forsaken woods and there was no way she would be able to go outside and do everything by herself she hadn't even been capable of holding this damn cup of water by herself. Which meant she needed Robin's help something she really despised but it wasn't like she had much of a choice. Even though she knew by now that Robin was a good man she couldn't get rid of the old fear which was creeping up inside her.
That fear was only replaced for a second with anger as Robin picked her up without problems and shot down all of her protest with a smirk, oh she hated that smirk. But the fear was back as soon as they were outside and he helped her getting undressed. Regina knew she was stupid Robin wouldn't but she couldn't stop herself from shaking not matter how many deep breaths she took to calm herself down. She was so relieved when she was finally done and he took her back to the tent. There he carefully put her on her bed and as soon as her head touched the pillow she was out again. Thankfully this time it was only darkness that pulled her back not memories. Regina almost sighted in relief in and then she truly was asleep.
Robin woke up at the voice from his son. The night had been long getting up every three hours for the antidote. The Queen fell asleep after every dose almost immediately which Robin was grateful for. Also her dreams seemed to be not as horrible as those before but Robin knew that Regina probably only got a short break but it was better than nothing. So Robin slowly cracked open his eyes as he felt Roland's tiny hands slightly pulling at his arm:" Papa wake up it is morning! You promised I could make breakfast for Majesty! She must be soooo hungry," the little boy declared his father. Robin smiled loving at his boy and mumbled still sleepy:" Alright my boy but you have to be silent. The Queen had a rough night and maybe isn't up for breakfast yet." Rolands eyes became big and Robin almost chuckled at the huge disbelief from his son that somebody maybe didn't want a breakfast. But to his surprise his lad also seemed to be disappointed, very to be honest. It seemed his son was quite fond with the Queen (well like father like son). Before Robin could make up something to cheer his son up a soft voice, Regina voice sounded from the bed:" Good morning Roland dear. Don't listen to your father it would be an honor for me to eat breakfast with you." Roland like the day before practically beamed at her words and instantly turned away to his father and pulled himself up so he could sit next to Regina.
Robin had to smile at her words but he also tried to get up as fast as he could. He knew his son would never hurt Regina on purpose but he was so excited for his task and still a child. Robin on the contrary had heard Regina's suppressed moan of pain as Roland jumped next to her so he kneeled next to his son and said:" Roland you remember I told you that the Queen is injured. This means you have to be very careful alright?" Those tears which had disappeared as soon as the Queen had spoken to the boy came back as he asked with all seriousness a little boy could manage:" Did I hurt you Majesty? If so I'm so sorry I soo sorry Majesty." Robin was about to lift his son into his lap to comfort him but Regina was faster. She stroke gently about his son's hair and said softly:" No dear you didn't hurt me I'm fine. Do you want to show me what you made for breakfast? And Roland remember you may call me Regian." As fast as it disappeared Roland's grin came back and he nodded eagerly.
Robin threw a concerned glance at her which she only answered with a reassuring smile. As he watched his son and Regina eating breakfast together Robin felt content in a way he hadn't in years. Of course being Roland's father was the best thing that has ever happened to him and he loved every second of it but sometimes it was like something was missing. As his son showed what he had made Robin raised his brows in surprise. Roland had made a plate full of berries all different kind you would be able to find in the near woods arranged carefully. But it wasn't the arrangement what surprised Robin it was the fact that raspberries where on it. Those were Roland's favorites and he usually shared them with no one not even with him. But his son was more than willing to share those with the Queen whose eyes lit up as the told her about the specialty of those berries.
Robin watched happily how his son talked Regina an ear off. No one would've now guessed that Roland was a shy boy as he told the Queen about his adventures excitedly jumping up and down always careful not to hurt her which made Robin proud. His son had a good caring heart, a heart which seemed to be lost to Regina. To Robin's relief his charming guest was able to keep some of the berries in. It was still to less food especially since his son was eating like he hadn't have food in days but at least it was something.
Regina smiled at the moment as she heard Roland's voice even though still between sleeping and awaking. She felt like hell every part of her body was aching her head was about to burst but as she saw the disappointed look of the little boy she couldn't sent him away even if she wasn't sure if she could keep the food in this time. Regina couldn`t stop herself from grinning to the boy but then her grin turned into a grimace as the little lad jumped next to her. Sharp pain flooded through her body but Regina inhaled deeply taking all the strength she had to no scare Roland and to her surprise she succeeded.
Stroking his head gently she calmed him down smiling as he showed her the berries the gathered for her. As Robin told her about the raspberries Regina almost cried again she was so touched and confused. Why was this child so taken by her? Not that she had time paying much attention to that thought Roland talked like there would be no tomorrow and Regina found herself listening to every word the little boy said. Every story, every adventure, every giggle Regina took in like it was some kind of medicine. She couldn't stop smiling even though her stomach already revolted after a few berries still it was probably the best breakfast she had in a very long time. During one of Roland's story's ( about how he and his Papa fought some monster in the woods) Regina throw a glance toward the archer and her heart stopped for a second. The way he looked at her and his son was well breathtaking. Because he looked, and she really had no idea why somewhat happy.
He had looked happy. A thought which stayed with Regina all day. After Roland had left (not without giving her a hug, a very wet kiss and a bye Gina) her day was rather uneventful. She lied in her bed drifted in and out of consciousness only waked up by Robin pouring the antidote on her wound. The thief had tried to have her eaten some bread at lunch but she only got down some bites but at least a full cup of water. She was just happy that the bread stayed where it belonged. Another throwing up session really would've been unpleasant.
The pain was still there lingering everywhere. Her head pounded, her stomach cramped and her limps burnt. Still she was alive and that itself was a miracle. Alive and she had somebody taking care of her. Even though she wasn't sure for how long. Robin had left the tent at the afternoon for some time and Regina was sure he had an argument because of her. A very heated one she might want to add. Not that she was surprised. She was the Evil Queen and those men out there all likely hated her guts. He had been gone for almost an hour and as Regina already tried to make a plan what she would do if the code of honor wouldn't apply for a woman who slaughtered entire villages she needed a plan B. But as Robin came back with dinner he seemed angry but all he did towards her was smiling at her reassuring her everything was alright as she asked if there was a problem. Despite the almost close moments they shared last night there was a distance between them something Regina was glad for. She could deal with a grumpy inpatient snarky thief far better than that one she sobbed her heart out. Still the other men probably really gave him a hard time and Regina once again asked herself why the hell this man fought so persistent for her.
Robin was angry no he was furious. He always thought he had his men undying support but as Little John came this afternoon to ask if they could have a few words he said of course. His friend had said with a concerned frown:" Robin you are my best friend but seriously what are you thinking having her here. Letting Roland be near her. She could kill all of us as soon she is strong enough. She is a monster and not to be trusted. Please Robin come back to your good senses." Robin looked at his friend in pure disbelief as he said:" We swore to protect those in need and you want me to let a woman die? This won't be happening. I promised her I would take care of her. This was my decision a leader and everyone who can't live with that please you are free to leave this camp at any time." These were Robin's only words in the discussion which took almost an hour. At the end he made his opinion clear once again and left with dinner for Regina. As he came into the tent she instantly knew that something was off. He only reassured her that he would fight for like he promised and even though she shut down once again after his words he could see just for a short moment a little smile. But this was all he needed and he had really not a clue why it was enough.
The evening went on and to Robin's displeasure Regina almost eat nothing again. He was worried, the Queen already had been thin when he met her but she would keep losing weight if she wouldn't start eating more. Robin sighted as he sat next to her and asked:" How are you feeling now Your Majesty?" She only gave him a short glance and muttered:" I'm fine outlaw even though your cooking ability's aren't what someone would call delicious or at least eatable." Robin put the bowl of soup he was still holding away and shot back perking his eyebrows up:" Well Your Majesty I'm certain they are better than yours since I cannot believe you ever even peeled a potato by yourself." Regina sat upright as fast as her body was letting her and hissed back at him:" Careful thief I once told you, you have no idea what I'm capable of, this includes cooking." Robin replied only with a low chuckle:" Oh really Your Majesty? Can't wait to see that eventually."" Like I would give a simple thief the honor of eating anything I make," she answered still as smug as the day he met her. "Scared I'll beat you milady?" Robin replied challenging." Scared? Me? Never outlaw and its Your Majesty. I'm not going to tell you this even if it seems to take quite some time to get into your numbskull." Bold as always Robin thought at the Queens answer.
He really was in the mood to keep playing their little game but it struck him that she really looked tired if not completely exhausted so he only grinned at her winked and said:" It's time for your beauty sleep Your Majesty we can continue this very entertaining argument tomorrow." He only got another glare at her part but before she could come up with a probably not too charming reply her eyes closed and then she was asleep. Robin gently pulled the blanket over her and lied next to her to catch some sleep himself for the next three hours.
Regina had to admit that horrible thief was quick-witted and she did enjoy someone who wasn't afraid to counter her even if he got annoying some time no most of the time. But the little back and forth between them distracted her a bit from her pain and the night which was lying ahead of her and for that she was grateful. She was fighting against sleep the entire evening afraid of what the night might bring to her, which demons of her past would haunt her now. Some were hard to deal with but some well there were just impossible to endure and there was one specific demon who hadn't visited her yet and Regina had the dreadful feeling he will be here tonight. It turned out she had been right.
Today had been Regina's wedding day. For many the most wonderful day in their life but not for the barely eighteen year old newly Queen who was now sitting in her beautiful white gown waiting for her husband. Regina never had been so scared from what was about to come. Sure the day itself had been horrible. After losing Daniel and banishing her mother (it had been the right thing to do but damn why did she still have to miss her mother so much?) she had walked down the aisle trembling ,her legs feeling like jelly. Walking towards the man who from now one would be the person she would share her life with. She said yes to him like it was expected from her. She smiled and danced like it was excepted from her. She did well, mother would be proud.
She endured everything but now sitting on the Kings bed waiting for the last part of her day, her from now on duty as a wife Regina's hands were shaking and tears threatened to fall. She jumped as the old wooden door was opened with a loud bang and her husband walked in. His steps were uncertain too much wine to celebrate his young beautiful Queen. He slowly came towards her and Regina took a deep breath. This was her duty and she could do it, she was strong and it was just sex right? The King was known to be a gentle man he wouldn't hurt her she was sure about it. Well it turned out she was wrong.
Leopold closed the distance between them, whispered "my beautiful Queen" and crashed his lips so fast against Regina's that she didn't have time to prepare herself. He tasted like alcohol and something bitter. Regina almost throw up but she let him push his tongue into her mouth, let his hands grasp behind her to open her gown. He slowly turned them around closer to the bed and started to grope her breast through the fabric of her dress. Regina couldn't breath it was too much she didn't want this, she couldn't do this so she yelled:" My king I'm sorry but I can't do this." Instead of stopping like she hoped he ripped her dress down and threw her on the bed.
Before she could react to this he was on top of her. She struggled against him but he slapped her across the face. Regina was too surprised to say something only felt the burning pain on her cheek as he spit at her:" You are mine now and if you ever say no to your King again you'll pay young lady." As he had spoken those words he ripped away the last remaining clothes Regina had on her and as she fought against it he griped her arms with one hand and held them above her head.
Leopold started to pinch her nipples roughly and crushed his lips once again on her mouth. Regina tried with all her strength to get him off her but she didn't stand a chance. As he bit down hart on her breast she screaming in pain. The screams only went louder as he pushed first one then a second finger inside her. It hurt so much and the tears were now freely falling down. She hoped somebody would hear her screams and come to her aid. Leopold moaned and groaned above her and Regina started to beg:" Please my King stop please you're hurting me." But her pleads only seemed to turn him on even more.
Suddenly he withdrew his fingers and Regina almost sighted in relief only as he forcibly spread her legs. Since he had let go of her wrists for that Regina used that moment to try pushing him off her again but wasn't more successful than the last time. Leopold only hit her hard, griped her wrists again and pushed himself inside her. It was a horrible pain, Regina had the feeling she was ripped apart as her dear husband forcefully stroke in and out of her having his entire weight on her.
Regina struggled once again his hold but as she heard a crack in her wrist followed by a crushing pain she just let it happen. She let her husband taking her virginity always thinking that Daniel her sweet Daniel would've never done this, would've never hurt her. As the king came with one extremely hard push Regina screamed in pain knowing this time no one would come to her rescue. So she only let a silent tear fall down as King Leopold emptied himself inside her.
The real Regina woke up shortly before it was time for the next antidote with a scream on her lips. Robin woke up starring at her and then running towards her trying to comfort her but as soon as he had touched her the Queen lost it completely and the screams and the pleading became louder and more desperate. Robin had no idea what he should do. What in bloody hell was the Queen seeing that it frightened her so much and what should he do to get her out of this nightmare?