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He drew me into a hug and rubbed his hands up and down my back. I panted and created a little distance between us.
"No. I don't want Tavros to see me like this with you."
"He'll understand." Gamzee grasped my arms and placed it around him. "You can hug back. I may not know how you motherfuckin feel right now, but you need help and comfort, brother."
I bit my lips. "I don't want to be this weak in front of you. I don't want to be weak in front of anyone. Goddammit." I pushed him gently and brushed my forehead.
The man just smiled at me and patted my shoulders. "Who's responsible for these motherfuckin wounds?"
"Ampora's bodyguards." I crowed. "Why?"
"Nothing. Just curious about who can put much damage to the man which is Sollux Motherfuckin Captor."
"Oh please. I didn't fight back." I bragged... but it would have been pretty much the same whether I fought back or not. It would still end up in me being badly wounded.
"Whoa. Motherfuck. It's already three pm?" Gamzee scratched his head and stood up. "Sorry man, gotta go."
"You have a meeting or something?" I tilted my head upwards while my arms stretched on the couch's back rest.
"I need to take my fucking medicine and prepare for a serious conversation with my father tonight."
I crooked my lips. What the fuck? Medicine? "What? Are you sick?"
"No, bro. Nevermind this motherfucker." He advanced to the door and looked at me. "Take care, man. Say goodbye to Tavros for me."
I grinned at him. "No goodbye kiss?"
"Well, sure motherfuck... I'd be glad to. But not today." He smirked. "I'm off."
God. Why did it turn out that way? I meant goodbye kiss for Tavros. Shit.
I lay down slowly, avoiding some painful reactions from these stupid wounds. After feeling comfortable, I crossed my arms behind my head and propped my legs on the table beside the couch.
And Sollux Captor was alone again. There was nothing but cold air circling around me and the noises of screeching cars from outside. There were no sappy shows to watch, no one to play games with... No one to stare at.
No Karkat Vantas beside me. He's near me yet so far away.
(o: ... :o)
The clicking of the lock rang through the quiet room followed by the door's scraping sound. A lanky shadow walked along the corridor with hands searching for the light switch.
Finally, the cold, slightly calloused hand found them. The light flickered as he covered his sight from the sudden burst of brightness.
He ruffled his messy hair and frowned. Whatever the reason was, it's obvious that it was a big deal for him. But instead, he sat down in front of his laptop filled with clown stickers. He grabbed the bag of chips he had always kept beside him in case he needed it. With the slightest touch of the mouse, his laptop turned on, showing his desktop with Tavros as a wallpaper. Shit. Forgot to motherfucking turn it off. The pressing of keyboards accompanied by the crashing of chips inside his mouth encircled the space around him.
It wasn't clean but it wasn't that cluttered. There were clothes and some empty bottles of soda lying on the floor. The room was badly lighted too. The flourescent bulb he had turned on a while ago illuminated nothing but a small part of the room. Windows were closed and the cold wind only came from the electric fan which was directly in front of him. But he likes it. He loves his room the way it is.
Gamzee began typing in his usual quirky manner.
terminallyCapricious [TC] began pestering caligulasAquarium [CA]
TC: Yo MoThErFuCk! :o)
CA: wwhat is it?
TC: LeAvE cApToR aLoNe :o)
CA: so wwhat are you his knight in shinin armor
TC: No MaN. jUsT a FrIeNd
CA: i knoww you guys wwere in a relationship back then i was one of the vvery feww wwho kneww it
TC: CaN yOu EvEn CaLl ThAt FuCkErY a ReLaTiOnShIp? It LaStEd FoR a DaY, bRo.
CA: youre saying you still havve feelings for him
TC: LeAvE hIm AlOnE. :o)
CA: if he leaves Fef alone then i wwill
TC: He'S nOt EvEn MoTheRfUcKiNg In LoVe WiTh YoUr GiRl.
TC: He LiKeS sOmEoNe ElSe, BuT hE dOeSn'T rEaLiSe It YeT. :o)
CA: i dont wwanna wwaste my time on this Makara
TC: :o) ShAlL wE mAkE a DeAl BrOtHeR?
CA: do you still love that heterochromic bastard?
TC: ShUt Up. I jUsT rAn OuT oF mOtHeRfUcKiNg MeDiCiNe. :o(
CA: like i care about you and your mOtHeRfUcKiN medicine.
TC: YoU mOtHeRfUcKiN sHoUlD :o)
CA: wwhatevva im loggin out
TC: I nEeD yOuR aNsWeR bRo.
CA: fine ill leavve him alone
TC: HoNk :o)
CA: /rolls eyes.
terminallyCapricious [TC] ceased pestering caligulasAquarium [CA]
terminallyCapricious [TC] began pestering caligulasAquarium [CA]
TC: i told you about the fact that i have ran out of motherfucking medicine
TC: YOU BETTER KEEP YOUR MOTHERFUCKING WORDS, MOTHERFUCKER
TC: or else i'll come after you
TC: I'LL MOTHERFUCKING COME AFTER YOU AND BATHE IN YOUR MOTHERFUCKING BLOOD. :o)
TC: honk.
TC: HOOOOONK MOTHERFUCKER.
terminallyCapricious [TC] ceased pestering caligulasAquarium [CA]
... ::::D
It's almost a day since Karkat and I exchanged words with each other. Not to mention those were hurtful words. Dammit. No matter how much I want, I can't move a hand to knock on the door. I can't speak behind these walls. I can't bring myself to talk to him.
I stared at the ceiling and thought to myself that maybe time will heal it... But when? When it's too late? When it's possible, you can fix it yourself. With that, I went upstairs slowly with shaking hands inside my pocket. I can feel my heart beating fast as a flying fuck. After a few more steps, I've reached Tavros's room. The door seemed bigger and the hallway was darker than before. I raised a hand and paused for a while. Beads of sweat crawling downwards on my cheeks. I was about to knock then suddenly, the door opened. Black messy locks appeared behind it and was followed by a short figure. I averted my gaze from it while my hand shoved in my pockets again.
God. Fuck this. It's your chance Sollux, grab his arms and say sorry. Do it. Do it. DO IT NOW.
I bit my lips hard and closed my eyes as I gulped.
"Karkat I'm sorry." I felt comfortable, but scared. I looked in front of me only to see nothing but an open door. FUCK. The guy went pass me before I even started thinking about apologising.
I heard the sound of the television being turned on. I ran my fingers through my hair and charged to my room. I slammed the door, not caring if it breaks after being so slammed many times.
Time will fucking heal this shit alright.
... :o)
"Hey, did you go to school today?" Tavros asked as he removed his scarf from his neck.
"Fuck school."
"Where's Sollux?" He walked into the kitchen looking for something to cook. Guess he needs to take care of Karkat now, huh?
"Fuck him more than school." He twitched a brow and frowned.
"Have you eaten yet?" Ignoring the last reply he got, Tavros sat on the couch in failure of finding something to eat or cook.
"Fuck food."
"Karkat, what is your problem? Oh my god." He crossed his arms and crumpled his brows.
"Fuck you."
Without another word being said, Tavros stormed to his room and grabbed everything, well, almost everything that is his. Shirts, pants, boxers, even his pillow. He then grabbed his phone and started dialing numbers.
"Yo."
"Gamzee can I stay at your apartment? Even just for tonight."
"What the motherfuck happened there? Did they explode or something?"
"Fuckity fuck. Shit man, they're helpless. I don't even..."
"Calm, motherfucker. Sadly, you can't stay at my place tonight."
"What? Why?"
"I'm with a girl." A loud cackle followed.
"Shut the fuck up, bro. I'm not kidding around." And yes, god he was fucking serious.
"Sorry man. You really can't."
"Mind telling me why?"
"Family shit and all. I'm going at my dad's just a little later."
"Oh. Snap. Why?"
"Said he needed to tell me something. I don't motherfucking know, man."
"Oh I see. Damn."
"Don't worry man. Just motherfucking deal with those two."
"I can't do it anymore. "
"Call Vriska?"
"Hell no. Fuck. What the shit?" Tavros sat on the bed and clenched his fists. Vriska was his previous roomate and probably his ex. God, he doesn't know. He doesn't know what to call her. They kissed, they cuddled, they had sex and he made her scream his name. But no eyes told them it was love. He liked her, but it seemed like it was a game for the woman. But then again, he saw a soft side of Vriska. A soft side that wasn't meant for him, but for another man she truly wanted. Vriska would usually hang out with him, they would laugh together, eat together and just... They just feel comfortable with each other. Tavros wasn't hit by jealousy. Not even once. He wanted to let go of her, but seeing her cry alone in the darkness every night tells him he still needs to take care of her until she herself is ready to move on. Tavros Nitram is that much of an idiot, as he said to himself. He knew... He knew John would never see that side of Vriska. That side where she's too fucking weak and just starts bawling over her little love life.
"Tavbro. Tavbrooooo" the man on the other line called his name annoyingly.
"What?"
"I should be asking you that. The fuck happened to you? You were motherfucking silent for a minute or so."
"I guess I'll call Vriska."
"Wooooah. Motherfuck. I was just kidding. No need to take it seriously."
"Nah, man. I wanted to check on her." He rubbed his temples and smiled. "Then maybe we can start some sick beats once you get back."
"Motherfucking yes. I can't wait." As far as they are from one another, Tavros felt the happiness from his lover's tone. And damn, it made him feel good. "You take care huh."
"I will. I guess our conversation ends here. I might run out of load."
"Yeah. Good night, Tavros."
"Good night, Gamzee" hearing his boyfriend call him by his name made it a lot better. God, how he loves this man.
Tavros then proceeded onto calling Vriska.
"Umm.. Hey."
"What's up?" She still has it. That sexy, enticing voice.
"Just wondering if I.. Uh... can stay at your place tonight?"
She laughed. "What's the problem, Nitram?"
"It's hard to explain. It's about my two roommates."
"I thought you shitted in your pants again."
"This is serious, Vriska. You don't know what I'm going through."
"Well. Okay, but I'm with a friend so you'll sleep in the guest room."
"I'll even treat it as my own." Tavros smiled in relief. But he couldn't hide the fact that he's pretty scared about staying with this woman. She's cruel at times. She wouldn't let him sleep, she would bother him, heck, even pull personal jokes on him. But he wanted to see her. To see how much she had changed after that incident.
Because of Tavros being silent for a moment, again, their little talk ended. Vriska doesn't like that side of him. That side where he'll just shut up and think about deep shits and all.
With his things completely packed, he made a fucking grand exit. Making sure those two regret everything they did.
He closed the door gently and dragged his bag along the stairs. Karkat saw him, but he was ignored.
"I'm going. I hope you solve your own problems, you little fucks." Tavros said with furrowed eyebrows.
"Like I care." again, he was answered in a monotonous tone, but it didn't annoy him. He was happy he can take a break from these two.
"Adios bitches." He waved a hand and walked out, slamming the door.
Well, that was fucking weird. It didn't seem like Nitram at all.
Karkat, like always, ignored it again like a motherfucking boss.
... :o)
I sat alone in this cold room while playing some games which I have finished a long time ago. Well, heck, I wouldn't dare get my xbox at a situation like this. Karkat usually stays up late more than I do.
I enjoyed myself with the shit tons of fuckery installed in my laptop. But when I was about to get to the interesting part, for the hundreth time... I don't even know, my pesterchum alerted me. What the hell? It couldn't be Terezi. It's eight pm and it's a Monday. She's probably watching... So I'm guessing it's Gamzee... or...
caligulasAquarium [CA] began pestering twinArmageddons [TA]
CA: your boyfriend talked to me a wwhile ago
CA: oh my god
CA: howw wwere you able to be in a relationship wwith that man?
CA: shit shit shit
TA: what? what the fuck? What are you 2ayiing?
Ca: don't play games wwith me Captor you obvviously knoww wwho I am talkin about
TA: Gamzee? The hell diid he do two you?
CA: nothin okay
CA: by the wway
CA: i need to talk to you in person
TA: 2ure. 2o II can punch you my2elf.
CA: makara told me you don't like Fef i guess im cool wwith that
CA: but you almost kissed her you dickhead
TA: he told you that? II don't even under2tand. II liike Feferi but II don't and II don't know that II actually don't liike her but II thiink II do?
CA: yeah wwhatevva Ill meet you tomorrow at the park beside your cheap school.
TA: Can't. My father'2 vii2iitiing me tomorrow. And how do you expect me two go that far? II can't even walk around my CHEAP apartment liike a normal per2on.
CA: fuck you
CA: wwe'll meet on thursday then captor fuckin sollux i believve ivve givven you enough time to rest
TA: lol. Be 2ure to briing back up2. II miight not be able to hold my2elf and end up kiilliing your 2orry a22.
CA: no i am not plannin to fight you little shit You wwont stand a chance
CA: i just need to talk to you
caligulasAquarium [CA] ceased pestering twinArmageddons [TA]
I slapped my forehead. "What the ever loving fuck does he want?"
The knock on the door startled me. I was surprised to see Karkat coming inside my room. I almost screamed. Whether it's anger or joy, I do not know. But I was fucking petrified. Why would he come? And his cheeks were slightly red. He was also carrying a small tray which he soon placed on the table beside my bed before throwing some bandages on me.
"You haven't eaten yet, right? I cooked this so you better eat it or I'll shove it in your ass. Change your bandages too. They're soaked in blood. Tavros left by the way. The guy swore a lot too. I dunno what happened to him." He didn't look at me. He kept on staring at the window, but I was pretty sure he wanted to get even a small glimpse of my awesome face.
Shit Sollux. This is your chance. Don't ruin it again!
"Kk, my dad's coming here tomorrow for a visit, and since you said that Tavros left, I was wondering if you can-"
"Take care of your own visitors, you douche. And don't think we're already okay just because I brought you some food and shit." He turned back and walked away.
But I stopped him. Stopped him with these stupid words of mine.
"Oh yeah. We're not okay. Because you haven't apologised yet." I snickered. "Maybe I'll forgive you by waking up early on your own because you won't be able to rely on me for the coming days."
"Shut the fuck up. I'm not in the mood." I saw him tighten his fist. But damn. I couldn't stop being such a dickhead.
"Get out of my room you shit." I seriously wanted to bludgeon myself to death.
"Oh don't worry, this will be the last time I'll go in here. I hope you enjoy your meal. I should have slipped some poison there."
"Like hell I'd eat it. Probably taste like crap." Sollux no. Stop. Will you fucking stop? Oh my god.
Without looking back, he went out and closed the door violently, like he always did.
But really, he annoyed me again. Still, this... painful feeling crept on my veins.
He's stupid. He's awful. He irritates me to the core.
But he's beautiful.
Holy shit. By the way, about Vriska, there's really nothing much of JohnVris, it's just a pair I ship a little. I kinda ship more VrisTav, but I am definite that I pair Vriska with Terezi hard as my female boner. LoL. But, back from digression, I just ran out of characters for Tavros to stay with. I was like... He'll stay with Jade, but then I was like 'no'. And for those who ship EriSol, I am saying in advance that there will be no sex scene, no kisses, no hugs or whatever. They are simply rivals. I don't ship them sorry. I EriFef hard.
Yet, I hope you enjoyed. :)