Chapter 7: Give Me A Reason--PLEASE READ MEMO

Ahhh, I win. Make the world a better place to be in by creating half-lemons. XD ^_~ I win. For real, I don't do lemons, they're awful 9 times out of ten. But this is a little...sad...and a bit stirring. However, this is not the main reason this story is rated "M," that was more for violence...anywho! "PAGE 1609"!!! :P That was great. It applies to them, too. Sadly. Anyway, I love the Hikki songs mentioned: Give Me a Reason, For You, and Kettobase!, which is probably one of my favorites. I love the guitarist. Anywho, I won't keep you any longer. Read ahead...IF YOU DARE!! *evil laughter commences*

Your POV

"Heddofon wo shite hitogomi no naka ni kakureru to. Mou jibun wa kiette shimatta n janai ka to omou no. Jibun no oshioto sae keshita kureru you na ongaku. Kenka no koto no kimi wo mo wasureru made odotteitai. Chirakatta heya ni kaeru to kimi no sonzai de jibun no kodoku kakuni n suru. Dare ka no tame ja naku jibun no tame ni dake yasashiku naretara ii noni hitori ja kodoku wo kanjirarenai dakara for you...

"Tsuyoku nareru you ni itsu ka todoku you ni kimi ni mo onaji kodoku wo agetai. Dakara I sing this song for you. Okitakunai iasa mo kimi no kao no tame ni okiru yo. Nemurenai yoru wa kimi ga kureta uta wo kuchi zusamunda. Kanchigai shinai de yo dare mo nani mo kimi ni tayou routo omotteru wake janai kara. Dare ka no tame ja naku jibun no tame ni dake utaeru uta ga aru nara watashi wa sonna no oboetakunai dakara for you...

"Nareteru hazu na no ni sunao ni nareru no ni goukai sareru to harisake sousa. Dakara I sing this song for you. I want to make you cry. Kizutsuke sasete yo oshiete miseru yo. Tobitai toki wa, you always give me a brighter sky. You want to make me cry. Kanashimi de oshiete kureta yorokobi. Kagayakitai toki wa, you always give me a darker sky. Ohhh, ohh!

"Dare ka no tame ja naku jibun no tame ni dake yasashiku naretara ii noni hitori ja kodoku wo kanjirarenai dakara for you... Tsuyoku nareru you ni itsu ka todoku you ni kimi ni mo onaji kodoku wo agetai. Dakara I sing this song for you. Dare ka no tame ja naku jibun no tame ni dake utaeru uta ga aru nara watashi wa sonna no oboetakunai dakara for you... Nareteru hazu na no ni sunao ni nareru no ni goukai sareru to harisake sousa. Dakara I sing this song for you. For you..."

Closing your eyes briefly, you picture King Mickey ordering Sora around and Sora stabbing him with the keyblade.

Oh no, violent thoughts again.

Repulsed by yourself, you set aside your guitar and fall back in bed.

*Mickey has no idea how high he is on my hit list right now.*

Probably Around 10:30

Sora's POV

Slowly you open the door to the house. A huge black thing catches your eye, and it takes you a moment to realize it's a piano. Since when did this happen?

"We got it this afternoon," a voice says as if reading your thoughts.

Whipping your head around, you see Nami grinning happily.

"Roxas bought it for me...aaaand so I could teach him how to play. Maybe Kira could teach you if you would actually stay home for more than a week."

You sigh. "Look, I'm really sorry. I wish I could tell you guys what's going on, but King Mickey...well, it's important that I don't, for her safety. And for everyone's safety."

"Can't you tell us anything?" she asks bitterly, staring you down.

"No, not until after I'm back from the next visit. He wants to make sure. If we make any sort of mistakes, we're done for. Everyone is."

"I find that incredibly hard to believe."

"Just trust me, okay?" you insist, trying to keep your voice low. It seems like almost everyone is asleep. "And don't say it, I know Kira hates me right now-"

"She doesn't hate you, she just doesn't understand why you're keeping something like this from her."

"'Like this'? You act like you know."

"For all you know from being home, I very well might, might'n't I?"

Nami glares at you, and you stare back at her.

"I bet I know more of what's been happening than you do, simply because YOU'RE too worried about whatever the King wants. Does he have any idea what this is doing to you?"

"No, I've tried to talk to him, but he says I don't understand the importance of it."

"Then take that innocence and tell Kira at the LEAST!"

"Don't you get it?! I can't!"

Nami shoots you a dirty look before walking away without another word.

You HATE this. HATE IT. Every ****ing day you hate yourself more and more for it. It as in everything.

Unfortunately, King Mickey has a point, and you have to stick by it. Otherwise you could put everyone in danger, especially Kira. Knowing her, she probably wouldn't care what would happen to her. She'd be so quick to cut out evil.

She's too headstrong. She can't know yet. Not while everything is so unstable.

*Just one more visit,* you tell yourself. *He promised me I could. And if I can't...*

You can imagine the fight that would erupt between you and the King, Donald and Goofy unsure of whose side to take, and Pluto running around, barking. That's all that stupid dog did the last time you argued.

You get the sudden sensation that you're not alone. Turning back towards the way to your room, you see someone sneak out of a bedroom and into a bathroom, holding something small and slender. It looks like a thermometer, but you can't tell since it's so dark. The person doesn't notice you, so you ignore them and head to your room. It was probably Riku or Namine, doing who knows what.

Before you can take the step through the doorway, you hear the person behind you again, going back into the bedroom.

Yup, judging by the room layout, it would have to be one of those two. They're always up to something.

Then again, so are you.

Namine's POV, back track just a little, please and thanks ^_^

After Nami's voice disappears, you exhale slowly. Now or never to sneak it out of the bag and into a safer place.

Sliding off of your bed, you crawl across the room to the bag lying innocently on the floor. Innocent. Psh, right. Luckily for you, Riku sleeps through anything.

Digging through the bag as quietly as you can, you open the box and pull it out. You stand slowly, then make your way silently towards the door.

The moment you leave the room you know you've moved too soon. Sora is still standing out in the front room. He's looking at you, but he looks a little confused. He probably can't tell who it is, since you're hunched over. Heart pounding in fear, you go into the bathroom and close the door. Only then do you turn on a light.

This is ridiculous. You're stupid. You're stupid stupid stupid. You're most definitely the stupidest person you know.

No, that's not quite right. Sora is the stupidest person you know right now. But that could change in a few months.

Biting your bottom lip, you hold your future close. Oh gosh. OH GOSH. It's too soon to tell anything but...

What if it happens? What'll you do?!

Maybe you're worrying too much. After all, it only happened once. What are the chances?

Too many to count, really.

Hiding it under some of your more private stuff, you turn off the light and exit the bathroom, only to see Sora standing right at the door to his and Kira's room.

Many swear words run through your head as you run back to the safety of your room.

Ugh.

You could probably vomit about now.

HOLYHALFLEMON

Sora's POV

You open the door quietly to see Kira lying in bed, listening to her Ipod. She looks like she's asleep. Silently, you close the door behind you. Taking a deep breath, you walk over to her. Her eyes are closed.

"What do you want?"

You jump. She's a good faker. You should've known better, though.

Kira opens her eyes and shoots you a look.

"Well?!" she demands, turning off her Ipod. She plucks the earbuds out so hard it looks painful and makes you cringe. "Spit it out."

"I..." You sigh a little.

"If you don't have anything to say, go away."

"C'mon, this isn't fair," you insist. Why can't she just listen?

"Isn't FAIR? Jiminy Christmas™, don't even say it. Why should I listen to you? Give me a reason."

"Because-"

She cuts you off, looking infuriated. "How can you even be here? Aren't you afraid to talk to me? Can't you tell I'm mad at you?!"

"Yeah," you mumble.

"Well, geez, don't blame me. You're the one..." She stops herself, sighing hard. You can see tears brimming on the edges of her eyes. She sits upright. "Sometimes...it feels like...you don't even love me anymore...that you care more about..."

"No, that's not true," you say quickly, taking her hands. She manages to wrench one away, but you tightly grip the other one. "It's not true! King Mickey is only trying to protect us! You know you're all I care about!"

"Then prove it! How am I supposed to believe you now? Do you love me? Give me a reason to believe you, then!"

OMGEE. HERE IT IS PEOPLE. THE ONLY SECTION OF NLB/THWRY THAT IS IN [[dramatic pause]] THIRD PERSON!!!

Kira stared Sora down for a few moments, waiting for his response. She really wasn't expecting to get one. She wasn't getting one, either.

*Then this is it...?* she thought, feeling ready to cry. She didn't want to lose him!! As much as she wanted to hate him, she couldn't really, and that made her hate herself for TRYING to hate him. ...It was really complicated.

Suddenly Sora shoved her back a little, kissing her passionately on the lips. She kissed him back, wondering if this would be enough for her. It hadn't been before...?

But as her head fell back on the pillow, and his lips pressed further into her own, she thought against her better judgement. Maybe there's more to this than meets the eye, she thought so innocently. Was this really what they needed, though? Neither one was sure of that.

But who needs a mind when you've got a heart?

Her mind was a whirlwind of different thoughts. Then it seemed to fixate itself on one:

*I want your baby,* she sang in her mind, Kettobase! running through her internal jukebox. *I want your baby. Machigai darake no kono yoru nya ai niku kasa ga niau. Nakittsura wo kakushite kureru yo. Chikagoro aitsu nya yarareppanashi de hara ga tatsu. Kono sai seichou shite miseru yo. I want your baby. I want your baby. Dareka no sei ni surya, sore wa mada sore de tsurai daro? Jibun no tame ni naite miyou. I want your baby. I want your baby. Machibuse shinaide; yomigaeru kinou wo kettobase~! Another day has passed me by; doushitara todoku no anata e? Ushirometasa de mune ga nodo made mitasarechau. Warugi no nasa ga tama ni kizu. Konna ni daiji na sonzai de nakerya, ki ni shinai. Akarui seikaku ga urame ni deru. I want your baby. I want your baby. Machibuse shikakete; furikaeru jibun wo kettobase~! Another day has passed me by; saki ikasete morau yo warui ne. Kankei aru kara, yomigaeru kinou wo kettobase~! Another day has changed my life; katte na toshigoro de gomen ne.*

And while she was singing that song in her head, she wasn't paying any attention to what was happening on the outside, where things were really starting to get out of control. If she had snapped back to reality soon enough to answer the unheard question Sora asked ("Are you...sure about this?"), she might've save herself a lot of grief.

But she didn't. And she made the biggest mistake of her life.

But she's only human. And humans are wired to make stupid mistakes.

This was definitely stupid.

Sora, luckily, to some degree, wasn't completely mindless, and he stopped, a sick feeling overwhelming him.

"...I can't do this to you," he told her, looking her straight in the eye. She refused to do the same.

"I don't care," she muttered. "It doesn't even matter anymore."

"But I won't hurt you like this."

"It's too late to say that." Suddenly Kira began to cry, tears streaming down her cheeks. "It's too late..."

Pursing his lips, Sora lowered his head slightly. A single tear escaped and trickled down, landing on the one person he loved more than anything. And she couldn't realize it.