Still having a problem with fanfiction not showing new reviews the easy way. Here are the replies to reviews I could find. PM's also included.

GracieTpie: Thank you for sending me a PM. I'm so glad to add another person to the list of people who have common sense. BBXRAE all the way!

Cecos: Yeah Terra is pretty crazy. Not being resolved this chapter though. No that would just end this much tension way to suddenly. I still have some build up going and Raven hasn't been exposed yet. Next chapter for sure though.

Well I guess I have to get to work on this chapter now. More build up and some lies and secrets will be said and exposed. And Raven will make a choice. Good or bad? What are we waiting for! Onward to chapter six!

Disclaimer: Can someone give me the rights to the Titans so I can shut up the Rob/Rae fans with some BB/Rae please!

-T- Chapter Six: A Lie that Kills

Beast Boy's POV five days later

Pain. Soul wracking, gut clenching, heart breaking, agonizing pain. Everything was just painful to me now. I had stayed in my room for almost five whole days because I was to afraid to come out of it. After the first day, Terra had tried begging me to let her in. But I refused to even acknowledge her presence outside the door as she had been the one to cause this pain in me. Once, she tried forcing her way in. Only, to back away when she was confronted by a very, angry looking, green wolf that was snarling at her. She stopped trying to get in after that forcefully, but had still came by now and then to see if I was still in my room or not. Cy tried to bring me food. Heck he even went as far as bringing me some cooked tofu, which he had sworn to me when we formed the team that he would never, ever, willingly touch it. Ever. Hence the sandpaper. But I still wouldn't come out of my room, because I feared as soon as I would open the door Terra would appear and make the hell I was living in so much worse than what it already was. I know now that it wasn't until the fifth day that I had passed out from lack of nutrition and dehydration. I woke up once very briefly in Cyborg's arms as he carried me out of my room before I passed out again being glad it at least wasn't her.

I finally woke up a few hours later to find myself in the infirmary, which was thankfully empty, and found an IV tube stuck into my left arm feeding me the nutrients I had been missing out on. I was too tired and depressed to really care about my body really at this point though. Without Raven in my life, I just lost the will to and care about anything pertaining to my body in it's weakened state.

That was until I saw Terra come in through the door and entered the room. I finally realized something then. I had someone to be mad at once again.

"Get out." I said in a flat emotionless voice.

She just calmly held her ground as she looked at my stone face. "Why are you doing this to yourself Beast Boy?"

The glare I gave her would have made Trigon cower in fear if he had been there. But she just stood there unfazed and that only seemed to make me even angrier than I was then. "Why? Because thanks to you, I've lost the friendship and trust of the person I loved. Didn't you get it? I loved her Terra. And because of you she doesn't want me to be around her anymore. Do you have any idea how much it's killing me for her to be hurting so much? And the worst part, is it happened because of me neglecting her and the others!"

She started smiling a little. "You don't really love her, Beast Boy. Don't you realize she has you under your spell and that you're trying to kill yourself over nothing."

I stared at her, anger slowly being replaced with confusion as her words clicked in my mind. "What, the, hell, are you talking about Terra. I LOVE RAVEN!"

She just continued on without batting an eyelash at my outburst at the end. "You don't love that stupid, creepy, pale witch Beast Boy, you love me. Don't you remember that?"

I just stared at her silently for a moment. Then I just started laughing my butt off realizing what she had been doing. "Me! Love you! No wonder you've been hanging around me instead of the others this whole freaking time. You wanted to distance me from Raven so you could not only break her heart, but try and steal mine in the process as well. Well guess what Terra? I still don't love you! I've never loved you! I might have a little crush on you back then, but then you betrayed us to Slade and shattered any trust I had in you. I love Raven now! Get that through that earthly thick skull of yours! I love her, and nothing you do will ever change that for me!"

I waited for her response but she just looked calmly at me before she started smiling again as if I had just said nothing. "Don't worry BB, a little more time away from that witch and you'll soon be mine again." After saying that she started skipping out of the room leaving me behind in a state of shock.

"Holy Trigon. What in the hell has she been smoking lately." Pause "I need to get to Raven. I have a feeling Terra's going to do something to her the way she was talking to me. Is this an effect of having been in that stone for so long?"

Shoving the question away I slowly got up and pulled the IV from my arm and tested my body to make sure everything was working okay. I felt a little weak still, but that was what I'd been expecting. Sighing I lifted my legs from the gurney and put them on the ground, I also made sure I was holding onto something before I tried standing up on my legs. This was a good thing as I almost fell back onto the gurney as a wave of dizziness and nausea went through my mind, but I still waited for it to subside before I continued. After a minute I finally felt like I could at least walk, and slowly made my way towards the door. I walked through the hallway to the elevator only to find that it wasn't working for some reason. I instead walked the short distance to the stairs, and slowly started making my way up to the top of the tower where the main ops room was. I figured Cyborg would have told Raven about what happened to me and she'd likely be in the main ops room with Cyborg being comforted by him since I still hadn't seen him. I could only pray that Terra had tried going to Raven's room first and hadn't made the same observation as me.

Finally I reached the top floor and opened the door to enter the hallway. I had just made it to the sliding doors when I heard talking on the other side. Thinking it was Cyborg and Raven, I was curious so I stopped at the edge to hear what they were talking about for a moment. Suddenly I realized it wasn't Cyborg as I heard Terra say the words that made my heart stop as I also realized who she was talking to.

"He never loved you Raven. He's always loved me."

I entered quickly hoping to salvage the situation. But as I entered, I saw Raven running for another doorway to another hallway that led away from where I was standing. 'Running not levitating' Echoed in my mind. "Raven wait, STOP!"

She took one look at me and started crying as she ran away. I tried to follow her but she kept on slamming doors in my way that slowed me down. Finally I lost sight of her and to filled with grief to use my animal senses I stopped. I couldn't take it anymore, I was about to break down again. Not out here though, not where that she devil could be lurking in the shadows.

I ran straight to my room before I let myself break, I did something none of the other Titans knew I could do. I first locked the door to make sure I wouldn't be disturbed, then, I opened up my animal senses. I mainly have them suppressed so I don't accidentally come in on any of my teammates' privacy. But when wide open I can listen and smell everything going on in the tower and on the outside a ways if the weather is good. After a little bit of searching I found Terra in her room moving her stuff into what looked like a big suitcase. I then found Cyborg in the garage working on the T-Car. I still couldn't find Robin and Starfire so I assumed they were out on a date. Finally, I found her on the roof. I felt my pain decrease slightly at finding her.

And then she let out a scream of pain and loss and started crying on the roof of the tower. I felt any relief I'd had be shattered as my heart once again broke. And the pain returned all over again to consume me as I tried to fight it.

-T- Raven's POV

It had been five days since Gar had tried to get me to come out. I had been trying to meditate since he came but found my emotions were in even more turmoil than before. I couldn't access any of my powers anymore and I had hoped against hope that there wouldn't be a mission call. There was no mission call. However, the news I got was far, far worse. I was in the middle of trying to meditate again even though I knew at this point it was pointless as I felt so weak. When suddenly, I heard someone knocking on my door. I couldn't figure out who it was since my empathic abilities weren't working.

"Go away Gar." I said thinking that's who would be knocking on my door at the moment.

The person who opened my door wasn't Gar though. I instantly opened my eyes to yell at the intruder for coming in when I gasped in shock. Cyborg was in front of me, and he was holding a very pale thin green person in his arms. "Raven, I need your help."

I was still shocked but I somehow managed to find my voice. "What's happened to him?" I said trying hard not to cry.

He looked at me sadly. "Ever since you told him that whatever the two of you had had before was over, he locked himself in his room. Every time I came by I could hear him crying his heart out whether it was day or night. Terra tried to force herself inside at one point, but I guess Beast Boy didn't really want her for company after what happened between the two of you. He wouldn't accept any of the food or water I brought for him and the poor dude starved himself. He finally passed out today." He finished in a sad tone.

I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes again. I didn't even think that he'd been affected by what I had told him, and before I could stop them, the tears fell down my face as I started sobbing on the floor of my room. It seemed that Cyborg realized that I wouldn't be any help to him because he turned around to leave. Still holding the person I loved in his arms.

"Rae, I don't want the same thing to happen to you as well. I suggest you come out of here and get something in you. If you want, I can make you something after I make sure that grass stain here is okay." He walked out the door still holding the unconscious Gar in his arms.

I wallowed in my grief for about three hours inside my room. I finally came out and headed to the Main Ops room to follow Cyborg's advice. I hadn't eaten anything for five days since I had pushed Gar away, and I needed something to eat badly. Or else I would risk passing out as well. When I entered the room I found some cold tea and a muffin waiting for me on the table. 'Cy must have made this for me a while ago.' I thought to myself. Nevertheless, I still sat down and tried to get my stomach to accept the meager meal in front of me. About halfway through the muffin I gave up as it was too hard to eat after laying out for so long. I instead focused on my tea since it helped alleviate the pain in my stomach and helped make me feel better with the familiarity of it. An hour later, I still didn't know how Gar was doing.

I felt like I should go and see if he was awake now. And if he was, I was going to apologize to him for what I told him and beg for his forgiveness. And maybe, just maybe, we could at least go back to being friends again. But it seemed as though fate really hated me lately, because as soon as I stood up to exit the room the doors opened up and that stupid blonde bitch walked into the room and faced towards me.

"So the witch finally decides to come out of that creepy room of hers." Terra said while smiling oddly for some weird reason.

"What do you want Terra. I was just about to leave now." I said emotionlessly ignoring the witch part of her comment.

"Oh, nothing really, you know, but I guess since you're around you'd like to hear the wonderful news Raven."

I looked at her confused but still said in my monotone voice, "What news."

"Why that BB's woken up." she said.

I sighed in relief as I started walking for the doors when she stepped in front of me blocking my path.

"What is it Terra. I need to talk to him."

"Well, one small problem there. He actually wanted me to tell you that he never wanted to see your face again." she said with a smirk on her face.

I stopped dead in my path looking at her. "He what?" I said in a shocked voice trying to tell if she was lying or not.

That was when Terra really started smiling big at me. "Yeah, after he told me he loved me, he said he never wanted to see you or the other Titans ever again. And that as soon as he got better he was going to leave for good. He asked me if I wanted to come along with him, and I said yes."

"YOU"RE LYING!" I shouted at her being unable to tell if she really was or not. I started to feel worse then what Malchior had done to me way back then. I slowly started to back away from the blonde devil in front of me trying to stay together.

"Come on Raven, use your powers and prove I'm lying to you." she said mockingly at me.

I instantly froze up and looked at her. "I... can't."

"I'm sorry are you saying you can't even use your powers now Raven. Why is that Raven. Are you actually heartbroken about him. Did you really think that he ever truly loved you?"

I was trying to hold back the tears now. I didn't want to give this person in front of me the satisfaction of seeing me break. "He did love me though." I said rather meekly not really believing what I'd said.

That was when my world came crashing down.

"Loved you. He called you a heartless demonic freak who never showed emotion towards anything or anyone. How could anyone ever love you for that. Just face it."

She paused for a few seconds so I could absorb this. "He never loved you Raven. He's always loved me."

That was when I started to run away. My heart now shattered beyond repair for me to think clearly. I was running for a different hallway then the sliding doors when I heard him. "Raven, wait! STOP!" He who had taken my heart and crushed it all over again and killed it forever before giving it back like it was worth nothing. I started crying and as I ran away I closed every door I could find in his way to stop him from following me. I didn't stop until I made it up to the roof of the tower. I waited a moment to make sure no one was up there as well. Then, I let the whole world know of my despair as I screamed in pain and loss and broke down onto the roof. The weather seemed perfect for the occasion as rain starting beating down on my face and mixed with the tears running down my face. I just laid on the ground and cried and screamed from the pain I was feeling. It felt like my whole body was rebelling against me and the pain was too much to bear.

I did the only thing I could think of to escape from it then at least temporarily. I opened my connection to Nevermore and went in not caring what it may look like figuring it would be way better then out here where everything reminded me of him.

I was proven wrong as soon as I landed in Happy's Forest. Everything looked like it had died and as I watched I saw some of the trees turn to ash right before my eyes. I looked and looked for my happiness when I finally found her in front of one of the remaining trees that hadn't fully decayed. She was lying limply on the ground and when I checked she wasn't breathing and her skin was cold to the touch.

I backed away realizing there was nothing I could do for her and continued on. I walked out of the dying forest only to come upon a decaying house. Inside I heard someone crying and walked in. When I found her, I almost couldn't recognize her. Her hair was a mess, her eyes were unseen as she was crying into something. And her purple cloak and leotard was tattered and torn all over her frail body. Affection. I started backing out, but then I saw a glimpse of what she was crying into. It was a picture of Gar, the day I had first met him. When I had called him as Beast Boy and not Gar.

I couldn't take it anymore and went to another part of my mind where I was sure that I would still be functioning. I decided to go to the library thinking that Wisdom and Knowledge would be unaffected by this emotional trouble. But when I arrived I saw the building resembled an old ruin. I found in the middle of it two emoticlones I had been seeking with dirtied capes on crying over a torn book. When I looked closely I found that it really was Knowledge and Wisdom, although I could only tell from the colors of the pupils in their bloodshot eyes as the rest of their bodies was covered in muck and other stuff. Looking down at the book I saw the title "Memories of Gar Volume 1." Lightheaded, I raced from the ruin and ran until I came to the lake in my mind, not wanting to be reminded of why I was in such turmoil over and over again and begging for it to stop.

But as I got there I was met with another shock. Brave, and Rage, my two complete opposite personalities, who hated each other more than anyone I ever knew of, were crying into each other's shoulders in pain and agony. Both of them.

Occasionally one of them lifted their heads to the heavens, and shouted "GAR!" before resuming her sobs into the other's shoulder. I was so shocked that as I backed up I tripped over something on the ground. On closer inspection I found that it had been Sloth, who was also crying on the ground and softly whispering his name over and over again. I ran away again, trying to distance myself from my grieving emoticlones. I felt myself tearing up all over again but I didn't want to cry in here. Here I was supposed to be in control. I'd know for sure I was broken if I cried in here. After awhile, I thought I finally I'd finally put enough distance between me and my emoticlones when I heard a wail in the distance. I wanted to run away but it seemed like something was calling me towards it. I slowly walked in that direction. Finally I saw Timid crying into her hands as a orange cloaked emotion stood next to her trying to comfort my fear.

I tried to turn around to run away when I saw Rude look up at me, tears streaming from her eyes. And then she started shouting at me. "It's all your fault you know! If you had never pushed Gar away then, we wouldn't be where we're at right now! We would've at least been happy again! But you just had to kill her too, hadn't you!"

She walked up to me at this point pointing an accusatory finger at me leaving me to shocked to reply as she continued. "It's all because of you Raven! You've always worked on suppressing us so you wouldn't feel any emotion! Well I hope you're happy now, because I know we'll never be happy again!"

"B-but I d-didn't m-m-mean t-to-"

"YOU DIDN'T MEAN TO WHAT RAVEN! BECAUSE OF YOUR STUPIDITY, WE'VE LOST OUR LOVE FOREVER TO HER! HAPPY'S ALREADY DEAD! AFFECTIONS JUST GETTING READY TO JOIN HER AS WELL! I HOPE YOU LIKED SUPPRESSING THEM SO MUCH BECAUSE WE'RE (commas for jabs from Rude) NEVER, GOING, TO, BE, HAPPY, OR, IN, LOVE, AGAIN!"

I couldn't take it anymore and felt my mind withdraw from the hateful, yet truthful words of my emoticlone. I jumped right out of Nevermore back to my body in the outside world. Hearing Rude's words echo in my mind over and over again. I started crying even harder now than ever. 'The only one who hadn't been crying in my mind had been Happy, and that was only because she was dead. My Happiness is dead. My Happiness is gone. And my love will soon follow in her footsteps.'

Pause 'I am broken.'

I quietly pulled myself off the cold, wet roof. "I can't do this anymore." Starts walking toward the edge of the roof.

"I'm sorry Robin."

Pause "I'm sorry Starfire."

Pause "I'm sorry Cyborg."

"I can't live this life anymore. My powers are gone, my heart is broken, and I can't live without him knowing he loves her. I might as well save everyone the trouble."

Edge of the roof. I looked back towards the door seeing it was still shut. I'd been secretly hoping he'd appear in the doorway. Saying Terra had been lying, that he did love her at least. But who could really love a half-demon who had destroyed the world once already. Who had I been kidding, it'd have been better if I had done this long ago. Sigh "I don't know if you can hear me Gar. But in case you can there's something I want to say before I leave this life behind."

Pause for a few seconds "I loved you."

Steps off the roof as the door crashes onto the ground behind her.

Author's Notes:

It would be evil of me to just post this chapter now with that sort of cliffhanger. Fortunately I'm not that evil and will be posting the next chapter with this one as well when I'm done with it. Nothing else really to say. Just review what you think about this and read on. No flames yet please wait until after the next chapter.