Ye Have Little Faith

by EmrysIsInTheTARDISWithSherlock

After defeating a magical beast that wandered into Camelot's borders, Arthur and the newly made knights head to the tavern to celebrate where they are thrown into an adventure like no other. They will have to face their future selves and try to crack the mystery on who is this Court Sorcerer? Disarster and hilarity is sure to ensue... Rated T because im paraniod, No Slash!

7. Understandings

HEY SO I'M BACK LOL STILL DON'T OWN MERLIN (IF I DID I WOULDN'T BE HERE) AND HERE IS CHAPTER FIIIIIVVVVVVEEEEE! DO HOPE YOU ENJOY!

CHAPTER 5

Arthur felt like he had been physically stabbed. He was hurting badly and he didn't even know why. Well he knew why but he didn't know why he had to feel like this in the first place!

He and the knights had stiffly shuffled to their room, enthusiasm lost in that blazing conversation. They had sat around the magical fire silently, not ushering a single sound other than the deep breaths everyone was taking. No one mentioned that after that particular conversation, none of them could stand to look at the dancing flames again.

Although he might not look it on the outside, Arthur was an absolute raging mess on the inside. What had he done? He had killed his best friend and he didn't even know how he did it! Did Arthur hunt him down like an animal, like he does his prey when he goes hunting? Judging by the hate in older Arthur's eyes, it wouldn't surprise him. Or did he surrender the body of his fried to flames like Arthur had said.

Arthur was so confused and furious and sad that he thought he might explode from the tension withering inside his limbs. He wanted to disappear, to be alone with no one but himself but mostly he wanted to go home. He wanted to be back in his own time where everything isn't as complicated and Merlin is alive and waking Arthur up with his annoying grin and the same repeated phrase. Then Arthur thought of how it would be for Older-Him. He couldn't go back in time to a place where Merlin was because his home was here and not in a Camelot long forgotten. He had to wake up every morning knowing that he can't look forward to going back home like Arthur because he had no home to go back to. This was his time, this was his Camelot and this was his unwanted life.

Arthur finally got it. He understood why his older self is so bitter when someone opens his wounds, he understands why he has to fake a smile and laugh along with the others when all he wanted to do was go to a place where his best friend was still alive and Arthur felt his gut wrench in fear because one day he would be the same. One day, he'd have to live through each and every day hoping that no one would know what's wrong, praying that everyone would think he's still the same strong king. He didn't want to have that future.

He wanted to know what happened, he needed to know what to avert and prevent this from ever happening. He stood up, mind clear and focused, strode towards the door and when Elyan called after him, he replied with a quick nod and,
"Stay here."

He was going to find answers.

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