Wow chapter 7... it's a big deal cause of the word count!
I wanted to add more Kyoya Sora fluff, but ended up making it emo.
And yes I mean for this story to get more and more emo as it goes on.
People are probably going to hate me for the ending though
Lol, the next chapter will come out fast if you REVIEW!
Inspire me with ideas!
I want this fic to end. But not this quickly, at the rate I'm going there will only be three or four more chapters and an epilogue. Then an document to explain the reasoning for my ending, cause some people won't get it. So yeah... all in all I need some ideas unless you want this to end really quickly.
If you could/would, tell me what you like and dislike about the story. If I need to change a certian way I wrote something, or a character is acting. It would help
Lol this is like my second authors note in this whole story... lol
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I throw my bag onto my table in a bit of frustration, I see the cig pack fall out, only one cig missing. I've had the pack for a week or so now but I just can't bring my self to smoke any more. I groan and sit down just staring at the pack. "Why am I letting you get to me Kyoya?" I ask and just decide to rest there, and end up sleeping sitting at the table.
I put my hair up the next day, it was starting to get cold out now, and winter came late this year. I wonder if it will snow, I love snow. Washing away all the dirt with it's flawless surface, white the color of death made me feel more at peace as cynical as it sounds.
I look out the window as the teacher lectures on. Sakura and I are on no speaking terms and glare at each other when ever necessary. I keep going to the host club for dancing lessons before the party and because I chose not to stop going I keep getting beat up by the snotty girls. People are so easy to pawn in life some times... this not being one of those times.
I sit looking out the window during lunch. I was daydreaming about being left alone by the world. I feel so alone in this world, even with some of the students still in the class room. I feel the loneliest while in a crowd of people, is this some kind of sick joke the universe is playing on me? Can I really just die? I want to so badly, but...
Broken Wings ripped from the skyNever meant to fly
I feel a light pull on the back of my head and my eyes land on Kyoya holding my hair tie. "You look better with your hair down." He said sitting in the desk in front of mine. I just stare blankly at him. "What are you doing?" I ask tilting my head to the side. "Giving you some company." He said taking a sip of his soda. "What if I don't want company?" I ask with the same blankness, my voice is a little horsed from the lack of use. "Why be alone your whole life?" he asked back with a smirk. "Do what ever you want." I say looking out the window.
Emotions to painful to realize
Feelings never meant to be experienced
I can hear a light growl, something Kyoya wouldn't be able to cause of his normal sense of hearing. I guess one of the girls is still in the class room and saw this as me advancing on more of the host club. "Aren't you going to eat?" Kyoya asked looking over at me. I shook my head and met his gaze. "I'm not hungry." "You've lost a lot of weight in a short time. It's not healthy, anorexia isn't a diet." He commented slyly. "I'm not anorexic. I'm just not hungry." I say. "Any way, why are you looking at me that way?" I ask with a smirk of my own. Kyoya chuckles lightly. "Here." He said handing me a small sushi plate from his boxed lunch. "Eat it all." He said. I glare. "And if I don't?" "Then I'll tell every one about your lie." He said taking a bite of his own food. I groan not wanting to fight about any thing right now and start to eat as well.
Fallen love
Died far to young
Never meant to be
I think I love him...
Really... love him.
I walk out into the hall when the bell rang, my bag slung over my shoulder. I start to head to the host club though I know their not open yet, they still let me in any way. I'm stopped in the hall, by the group of girls from my year, all from different classes though all customers of the host club. "So you and Kyoya had lunch together." One snorted. "How dare you. Now your trying your seduction on Kyoya-sama!" one yelled angrily. I shrug and sigh, trying to walk through then roughly they grab my hair harshly. "Kyoya pulled your hair down. Where would you be with out your precise locks?" the leader asks pulling out scissors that were from the art class room. Quickly she cut all my hair at once, cutting close to the back of my head. After a few kicks and punches they tired of their crude behavior and left me be, finally.
I stand shakily, maybe the beatings are starting to get to me. I sigh and walk to the host club I open the door slowly with my head bent low. The club looks at me with a questioning look as I stand in the door, a few strands of hair on my uniform. I close the door behind me, and start sobbing as I fall to my knees. They rush over quickly, Tamaki the first to comfort me. "What happened Sora!" he asked holding my shoulders protectively, like a father would hold his distorted child. "Fucking life happened." I sob and he pulls me into a hug, I cry into his chest for a bit while every one stays silent. I calm down eventually and push away from Tamaki, wiping my eyes with my sleeve. "What happened?" Tamaki asked gentler as he led me to a couch. "People say that boys are crueler... but I beg to differ..." I mutter looking at my shortened hair, I'm mad cause I was growing it out, ever since I was young I had short hair. It was a memory to Sasuke, rumor was he liked girls with long hair, but my hair was already long so I would tease him asking if he loved me cause of it. "Who did this?" Kaoru asked handing me an ice pack. "Your pretty little customers." I whimper as the ice sooths my bruised cheek. "Who!?" Tamaki asked sounding disgusted.
"Why create more problems for me? They would only get more rash if you banished them from the club because of me." I say looking up at them all. They truly looked worried. "I'll protect you So-ra-chan." Honey-sempai said cuddling up next to me. "Thanks." I say with a bit of a smile. "But I can take care of my self." "A lot of good it's done you so far." Hikaru said harshly. "Look at you, you're a mess. Just let us keep you safe." He said with a meaningful glare. I sigh, "Why trouble your selves?" I ask. "Cause we care about you Sora. Whether you see it or not, you are an important person to us all." Haruhi said with a smile. I shook my head and stood up. "I quit then." I say sighing. "Quit what?" Kaoru asked. "School." I say with a fake smile, it was getting harder and harder to smile when I didn't mean it. "it doesn't matter to me any way. School is only a ... distraction to my mission to any account. So to be more productive I might as well drop out. It's not like my career depends on any knowledge what so ever that these people can teach me. What I need to know is learned through the actions and trials of my life." I say starting to feel a bit happier. "Idiot." Mori said deeply. I look over at him and tilted my head. "Huh?" I ask. "It's not simply for the knowledge." He said. "It's for the people." Honey said softly with teary eyes. "You don't want to leave us do you So-ra-chan?" he asked. I sigh and laugh. "People, in my life, are a burden more than a blessing." I say and walk from the room. That day the host club was closed, due to my emotional brake down. They pulled me back into the music room and I confessed to the shattered pieces of my heart and told them of my childhood, minus the ninja part. I told them that I was an outcast of my home, told them of pranks that were pulled on me, then of the pranks I started to pull just for the attention. They listened to me with sympathetic eyes. And gave me some sweets and advise to not let them get to me.
Shattered hearts Forever lost in darkness The sharp pieces driven deep in the soul
So painful
Death would be a relief
At home I look in the mirror at my messed up hair. I take out a kunai and trim the hair down so it was at least some what suitable. It was a slant from the short back to the slightly longer bangs in the front. The longest part being around my voice box, and the back looking some what like a guys. But I was okay with this. I stole a boy's uniform from one of the offices and decided, why not wear it. People would still be able to tell I'm a girl, I mean I only have big boobs and all. When getting ready for school in the morning I unbuttoned the top five on the shirt to show off my well sized assets. A sure way to get any male staff member to bleed from the nose, that plus my suggestive behavior.
The next day in class I twitch ever so slightly. When I suggested the drop out to Sakura, who was the only one home at the time, she FLIPPED! I mean I though the hokage was scary when mad but MANN that girl can really lecture her head off! My ears almost bleed.
After school I left the class room, to head to the main office to quiet officially, but yet again I'm stopped in the hall by some of the girls. "You were with the host club yesterday! I saw you go into their room before they put the closed sign up!" one accused. I shook my head and walk past them. They grab me by the collar and push me against the window. Sadly for me the window was weak and I shattered it easily. Their faces are shocked when I start to fall from the second floor. I'm too stunned to do anything to stop the fall or save my self.
The host club was enjoying the change in season with a slightly chilled picnic in the gardens when they hear a shrill scream. They look to where people are looking up to Sora falling from the second floor window. "Sora!" they yell in a panic. Mori is the first to act of them, catching Sora in air.
I look up at Mori-sempai after feeling the strong embrace I fell into. "Thanks." I breath out as we land on the ground. I look up to the window and see the girls have run away. "Their gone..." I mutter. "Are you okay?" Mori asks not yet putting me down. I nod slowly, "Yeah, funny I was on my way to quit school." I sigh and let a few tears fall from my eyes.
"Sora-chan fell from the window." "Did some one push her?" "Did she jump?" "Who would do something like that?" "I heard she cuts her self." "Isn't she the slut?" "I heard she's pregnant." "She's poor, right?" "Maybe she pissed some one off." "Why is she wearing the guys uniform?" "She isn't serious, right?!" "Poser, Sora-sempai is a loser." "What a waste of Mori-sempai's energy." "She and Mori aren't a cute couple at all!" "She would be cute with the twins." "No I think she would be cute with Haruhi." "What about her and Renge?" "She's really pretty in any thing she wears." "I can't believe she's wearing the guys uniform." "Isn't she going out with Ritsu Kasanoda." "No way, that scary guy!"
"Sora, are you alright?!" Kyoya yelled running over, when Mori put me down he hugged me tightly. "Don't tell me you did this on your own." He asked sounding fearful. My eyes widen, it's not like Kyoya to be so emotional in public, and I didn't think he would ever do something so leading to our relationship. "No I didn't jump." I whisper wrapping my arms around him, burring my face in his chest. The whole school stood there surprised by our affection for one another.
I was escorted to the office by the host club. They yet again, at fault because of me, were closed another day. "I'm sorry for being a bother." I say softly. "You are of no bother to us dear Sora-chan." Tamaki said with one of his trademark smiles. I sigh and walk into the office to drop out of the school, my reason? "Fear for my life?" I lie, I could survive any thing they throw at me, but did I want to? Fuck no. The principle nods, agreeing that it was dangerous for me to continue here.