Genre: Hurt/Comfort/Romance
Chapter VII – 1859
Silly
AKA
The Brooding Thoughts of a Dumped Teenager
Was it silly to think he had a chance?
It is, isn't it?
High school romance don't even last.
It's been proven,
time and again,
with the same people
with different people.
He wasn't a romantic.
He didn't pursue relationships.
He's just not that kind of person.
But was it silly to think,
to want this to work out?
His relationship with Hibari.
It wasn't the ordinary
high school fling.
He didn't really care about
[whatever this thing was with Hibari]
his sorta-boyfriend. At first.
But then he cared.
He ruthlessly cared.
It was annoying.
They were bonding.
And suddenly,
they had something real.
Something special that
Gokudera would fight for.
He cared for Hibari, dammit.
Didn't he care about him too?
And he didn't know how it went down hill
so fast.
So fast, he didn't see it
coming.
Or he sorta did...
but he didn't want to admit it.
Dino and Hibari were close,
but Gokudera didn't think
they were that close.
It irked him that they
spent so much time together
but he didn't question it because...
[Wasn't Dino his mentor?]
So he was like, "whatever,"
But then he was starting to get suspicious.
Hibari never had time for him anymore.
[He made time when he wanted to]
He always had time for Dino.
And Dino always had time for
his student, Hibari.
And as sudden [as painful]
as the blow came,
Hibari never had time for him
anymore.
Like, "what the f*ck."
It wasn't long after that,
on a random school day,
Hibari casually mentions
he's breaking up with him.
Imagine Gokudera's face then.
Dammit, that hurt.
Gokudera didn't want to
admit it, but he cared.
He wanted to stay with Hibari, and
he loses him!
He's such a loser,
he should've seen it coming.
Hibari probably even cheated on him.
The signs were there.
And it was his fault.
He saw them and willfully
ignored them.
Now he's hurt, angry, and...!
Ashamed—
It's been a week
since their break-up,
and there's a rumor
everyone's fixated on:
"Dino-sensei is going out with one of his students."
Furious whispers expand through
the halls to the outside gates.
And these whispers are grating on his nerves.
He doesn't want to listen them;
he doesn't want to listen to the Tenth and the
others talk about them:
These annoying gossiping rumor mills.
[They might be true]
He doesn't think twice,
or he does,
but a million
other things come first.
Now he's on the roof,
alone, mopey, and angry.
He's thinking romance sucks,
jealousy sucks,
cheating sucks,
and breaking up sucks
And Hibari can just duck
the flying pucks of
dynamites thrown into the
not-so-luck filled air.
"I never cheated on you."
Hibari says, ever so casual,
as he shocks the revenge-filled
Gokudera, dynamites ready, but
loose in his hands.
"Wha...?"
Yuck, what is this? Hope?
"I broke up with you,"
Hibari's eyes, betraying nothing.
"So I wouldn't cheat on you."
Gokudera's dumbstruck,
and like lightening,
it strikes and gripes
at his insides.
[Has anything changed?]
"Because you're special."
[Something's changed]
Maybe...
Just maybe,
Gokudera feels
a little bit better.
But this situation still sucks.
Like the wind,
this last whisper
flows and disappears
into near nothingness.
"You've always been special."
Like the silent wind it's
representing,
it never reaches
Gokudera's saddened ears.
High school romance is just silly.