A/N: Hey there! I'm sorry if it has been a year since I updated this story :( But anyways here's a new chapter :D I hope you like it. Please be warned that there'll be a mature and sensitive flashback scene about Erza. So read at your own risk :) This fanfic is just a short story, so there are only 4-5 chapters left including the epilogue. Please review after reading. I would gladly accept criticisms and opinions as long as it wouldn't be delivered in a rude manner :) No hate, just love XOXO

PS: I repeat, this story has the same concept as the romance film If Only, but has different plot and characters, of course, since this is a Jerza/Fairy Tail fanfic :D

Jellal

I was dreaming?

Whenever I dream every night, it usually takes me an hour or more to remember what I dream about. But this time, I could still remember the last scene of my dream, or most probably my nightmare. If only Erza wasn't here to calm me down, I would have a hard time catching his breath and run down the kitchen to grab a glass of water. Seeing her made the throbbing pain in my chest go away. At least I get to confirm that it was all a dream and she's perfectly fine.

"Hey, Jellal." Erza cupped my cheeks. "I said happy anniversary. Forget about your dream. It's not real." Then, she embraced me, and I wrapped my arms around her as well. Losing her felt like it only happened earlier. Everything happened so fast that it tortured me mentally and emotionally. I can't even dare to imagine it happening for real. To picture our special day to be tragic and painful. But it was all a dream...it's all a dream, I have nothing to worry about. Thank God it's just a dream.

After a few seconds, I forced myself to forget about my nightmare and focus on her. "Erza...I love you. Happy anniversary." I pressed my lips against her, while I could feel her bare torso touching mine. "Happy birthday, too." I added as I pull away from her, but then she starts to act wild like she was last night while we were making love. She planted kisses on my lips, cheeks, jawline and down to my neck where she started biting me. "I'm gonna pound you to death." She whispered in my ear with a seductive voice. Her passionate kisses just make me forget about that dream where I lost her. But, again, it doesn't matter right now. As long as she's alive and kicking I have nothing to worry about.

I could feel her nipples brushing against my bare chest, which suddenly aroused me. We just did it last night, I can't believe she's trying to seduce and arouse me again. We never planned to do it last night, it just happened because she keeps on seducing and arousing me. Even if I have work to finish last night I gave her what she wanted though we were suppose to save it for our anniversary night. Who am I to often refuse making love with her over work? We may bear a child from what we did last night. Speaking of work, I have to get ready now!

I slowly pushed Erza away from sucking my neck. I guess this isn't the right time to have a romantic morning sex. I need to get ready as soon as possible because I have an important presentation at work and have my promotion be officially announced. "Erza, Erza, let's save it for tonight, shall we?" I said as I stop her from sucking on my neck. And, there she goes, pouting her lips and making her eyes look pitiful just to persuade me in giving her what she wants. "It's still early." She told me and wrapped her arms around my nape. "Erza, I have work today, okay? We just made love last night. That's enough." I explained to her while I pinched her nose, but all I get was another pout from her lips. "Stop acting like a child. Okay, fine, we'll do it again tonight. At the hotel, I promise. I'll spread rose petals on the bed, light scented candles, play romantic instrumental music and a bottle of champagne for the two of us." I sighed as I wrapped her legs around me and carried her back in our bed. We were still naked after doing it with each other last night. I took our robes from the clothes stand near our bed. I tossed her robe and wore mine to cover our body. "Go make some breakfast, and I'll take a shower already." I said before making my way towards the bathroom.

Aside from this day being our anniversary and Erza's birthday, our routine remained as it is. I'll cuddle for a few minutes with her in bed before I commit half of my life to work for a day, I'll take a shower while she makes breakfast, we either eat together or she'll pack the food for me and leave for work. But I still feel weird ever since I woke up from that unbearable nightmare, especially when our cuddling earlier was a bit similar to my dream.

I was going to step inside the shower when I received a text from my boss. He wants me at the office in thirty minutes to do something urgent before the presentation and announcing my promotion. Well, I guess I really have to make it fast. I was still stopped during my second attempt in stepping inside the shower when Erza suddenly barged in the bathroom. "Erza? What are you doing?" I raised a brow on her.

"Jellal, can we take a shower together? I just remembered I have an appointment with my OB-gyne." She said and felt a bit weird once again. "So, I just thought…maybe we could take a shower together and you could drop me off the clinic without being late at work. Please?" She pleaded with a seductive voice once again. I seriously have no idea if she really intent to come at her doctor's appointment early or simply seduce me like what she did in our bedroom few minutes ago, but whatever it is, it's making me feel a lot weird and anxious about only God knows what. This scene felt like it already happened. I unconsciously replayed my dream back in my mind. I kind of remember Erza asking me to take a shower with her, which she just did right now.

"Jellal?"

In my dream, I refused to have morning sex and take a shower with her. Now it's kind of creeping me out that the first two scenes in my dream are fresh in my mind and felt like happening for real. Like I said, I hardly remember my dreams after I woke up. I would only remember the most unforgettable parts, then often forget about the first ones. I shook my head to erase those thoughts running inside my head. I need to stop being paranoid just because of the nightmare I had. Maybe it's just a coincidence, after all those are parts of our morning routine.

"Jellal, are you okay? I'm asking if I could take a shower with you and drop me off the clinic before you go to work." She said and waved her hands at me.

I need to go to work early. I know I can't take a shower with her, it'll take us more than fifteen minutes because I know she'll touch me and seduce me like what she always does. I know that I am in a hurry. But do I feel like something is telling me to let her have what she wants just for this day…just for today.

"O-okay…come on, let's take a shower together." I answered in a stuttering voice. It took me almost a minute to respond to her request. What is wrong with me? Why am I so affected with a dream? It's not like it was real. Erza is still here with me, alive and kicking. Nothing would happen to her!

"Yay! I love you so much." She skipped merrily inside the shower first, then I followed her as I refrain from thinking about my dream happening for real.

"But no touching, okay? Let's save it for later, understood? I really need to go to work early." I reminded her.

"Aye, sir!" She gave me a salute before turning on the shower.

I wouldn't lose my job by simply taking a shower with her, right? Nothing would change, right?

I just finished taking a shower with Erza and get dressed in my formal suit and tie for work. Only ten minutes left before the given time my boss gave me, but I was surprised I was able to ask him for another thirty or forty minutes before going to work. I didn't expect him to let me do that. I've always looked at my boss as someone very strict and intimidating. Or maybe it is just because I never asked such things to him before because I was too obedient and workaholic?

As I went downstairs, I saw Erza frying eggs and bacon strips. I suddenly wondered why she took a shower first before cooking. Does she want the smoke of whatever she is cooking replace the scent of her shower gel and perfume? Or maybe she just really want to find a way to spend more time with me?

"So…you took a shower before cooking? Don't you think you wasted your Bulgari perfume?" I told her as I leaned on the counter while watching her cook. She turned around to look at me. She just smiled at me and didn't say anything as she went back to what she's cooking. I knew it. She just wanted to spend more time with me.

"You should be thankful today is your birthday. I guess the extra thirty minutes my boss gave me was actually a gift for you."

"See? I told you your boss is not a Hitler-like for you to be afraid of asking little things. You've always had a good record, attendance and performance at work. So, will you eat breakfast with me for that extra thirty minutes?" She said while putting two sunny-side ups and four strips of bacon in a plate. I nodded as an answer and there she skipped merrily towards me. "Come on, let's eat." She sat on the bar chair on the counter. She had the plates set and made coffee for each of us. She looks a lot happier this morning unlike the previous ones. I sat on the vacant bar chair beside her and started eating.

When was the last time I ate breakfast with her? Usually, I wasn't able to eat with her because of work. I wasn't able to eat breakfast with her because I'm always in a hurry to leave for work and just often ask her to pack the food for me. I wasn't able to eat lunch with her because I'm at work and I'm attending lunch meetings outside the company. As for dinner, sometimes I wasn't able to eat with her because there are times I come home late and exhausted.

We're now on our way to the clinic where Erza will meet with her Gynecologist. Every month she sets an appointment with her Gynecologist to check her reproductive health and see if when or how can we conceive a child. I hope this check up of hers would bring good news to this very special day. Out of the blue while driving, I thought about the dream I had once again. I remember the part where Erza gave me a pregnancy test as her anniversary gift to me. She was pregnant at my dream, and if my memory was correct, the letter said she hid it to me for almost three months just to surprise me in our special day. The saddest part though is that I wasn't able to hear her out because of my problems at work and her…issues with her uncle. But that's not important. I'd rather have a child next month or next year, I could wait, just don't let that dream happen for real.

Just when I was about to reach the roundabout, I suddenly had thoughts whether if I should take the road I usually drive on. The clinic Erza goes to has the same route as the company I am working at. Why do I feel like something is telling me not to take that route this time, just this time? I feel like something unfortunate is bound to happen at that route. Just when I reached the roundabout, I just felt my body automatically controlling the car to take the second route.

"Why did we go here? Isn't the clinic and your office that way?" She wondered.

"Well, I uh…I know a shortcut in this route." I just said. It's not easy to tell her I've been feeling weird since I woke up from that dream. It's not easy to tell her that I feel like I could sense and avoid those unfortunate events that are bound to come for us.

"Jellal…" She spoke once again as we are almost reaching our destination.

"Hmm?"

"Thank you for, uh- driving me." She said in a shy tone. She sounds like the Erza I first met at the Fencing Competition.

"No problem. It's my duty." I told her.

"Really? Duty, huh?" She scoffed at me like what I said was just a joke. "Tell me all of these are not only because today is our anniversary and my birthday."

I wish I could tell you that I feel like all of these are because of the dream I had.

"No. I really want to do this for you. I uh- want to make up with you for all the times I was always busy at work."

"Aww, I love you." She wrapped her arms around mine.

If only we have a child, there's nothing else I would ask for. I am financially stable already and I'm an inch closer in achieving my dream career. I have the best wife in the whole wide world. Just a child to officially make us a complete family. If it wasn't for her uncle, it wouldn't be difficult for us to conceive a child.

Her uncle…I despise that man. If only it isn't a crime to kill for revenge, I would have killed that man already. He wasn't just the reason why Erza couldn't get pregnant, but he was the one who treated Erza like a pig and ravished her womanhood. Erza was so young and innocent when he ravished her. I always wished I could turn back the time and meet Erza when she was eighteen years old instead so I would have been able to take her away from that man. Erza had a dark past, but I don't care. I still love her even if I wasn't the first man to in her life. But I am very glad to be the first man, aside from her father, who respected and loved her. I remember meeting her for the first time. I fell for her at first sight, not knowing what she is going through at home. I thought she was genuinely cheerful, pure and innocent. I didn't know her life has been at stake since she was eighteen under the hands of her own family - her uncle who had an insane sexual obsession at her.

"Jellal, you have to see this!" My colleague called me while we were in a drinking in a bar. "She's your girlfriend, right?" Then, he showed me his phone with a sensitive video playing.

It was a video of Erza with six men, including her uncle. All of them were at early 60's already. There were illegal drugs and alcohol on the table beside the bed where Erza is laying, naked and crying. Those filthy old men were touching and kissing her body, including her private parts. The other one kept inserting foreign objects inside her. They would touch her womanhood and force her to scream in pleasure, which I know she never wanted. Later on, those men forced each of themselves inside her. Erza just kept crying and screaming in pain.

"So it is true, you are indeed a Goddess…" A man grinned at her while touching her.

"Uncle, please, stop…" I saw Erza begging that man.

"They already paid you, so quit being a drama queen. Now spread your legs, you whore!" My hand gripped on phone tight as I felt my blood boiling inside me already. They forced her to take drugs that would make her give in to whatever they want to do.

"Dad, please help me! Noo…Jellal! Help me! Jellal…"

"Fuck!" I unconsciously threw the phone out of anger. I wanted to kill that bastard that time. I wanted to beat the shit out of him. I wasn't even there to save her from those devils. I feel so useless. I promised to protect her, but I just broke that promise.

"Hey, Jellal. Are you okay? What are you thinking about?" I was awakened when Erza spoke to me.

"Oh, right. J-just about my presentation later, honey." I lied. Of course, I don't want to suddenly open up the topic about her past. It took her a long and hard time before she fixed the broken pieces of herself.

Why am I like this anyway? Why was I thinking about her than work this day? Its not like me, to be honest. I am guilty for being work-minded at all times. But this morning just really feels different.

"Jellal!" Erza suddenly exclaimed and pouted her lips.

"W-what? You startled me. What's the matter?"

"Why is there a huge crack on your watch?" She asked and lifted my wrist in front of my face to show me the crack on the glass of the Techno Marine watch she gave me during our last anniversary.

I stared at the glass of the watch. There's really a crack. My heart started beating fast. I knew I've seen this before. My watch having a crack, which I have no idea why and how. Things are really creeping me out since I opened my eyes this day. Erza cuddling with me, Erza asking me to take a shower with her, Erza asking me to drive her to the clinic, Erza asking me to eat breakfast with her, and my watch having a crack without knowing the reason why. Now this is one creepy morning for me. I started asking myself certain questions…

Is it really just a coincidence?

Is it because of the unusual choices I make when it comes to Erza?

Is my dream happening for real?