It's a plus sign. I'm pregnant.

In the bathroom standing, staring at this test like it's some sick joke; it doesn't seem real, I expected tears or maybe to freak out but I'm emotionless perhaps I'm in shock. I am 16 years old I can't have a baby, I'm in high school how can I be someone's mother? Am I even old enough to be pregnant? Apparently this test says I am but it surely doesn't feel that way. Then something else occurs to me

Oh god; who's the father.

My eyes widen at the thought and air gets caught in my throat; Cece's words I had long forgotten instantly shooting back to my memory. It feels surreal how right she was; I should have listened but, I decided to ignore her warning like a typical teenager I thought I was invincible. I remember thinking "that won't happen to me" yet here I sit in the position she predicted; the webs we weave; I say to myself shaking my head at my own stupidity. Just as I think this couldn't get worse it does.

Eli and I just agreed to work on things; How can I tell him I'm pregnant. As if that wouldn't be awful enough adding that I think there is a good chance it's not his baby would certainly be earth shattering. I've put him through enough I can't expect him to be there if he's not the father.

What if he is the father? What will my parents say? What will the whole entire school say! As far as everyone knows aside from Allie and Adam I have been with K.C faithfully for nearly two years until the discovery of his infidelity at prom; if the truth of my relationship with Eli were to come out that would cause enough controversy but if I'm carrying his baby and that gets out my whole reputation will be ruined by such a scandal.

If that isn't overwhelming enough the option of K.C being the father isn't exactly ideal either; sure I'd keep my reputation for the most part but, he's not father of the year material all he cares about is himself, football,basketball having sex with Jenna and of course his popularity he's certainly not going to welcome a baby into his life that's doesn't benefit him. Of course it doesn't help that if in fact this is his baby not only do I lose Eli I'm connected to K.C for 18 years; no strike that I'm connected to him for the rest of my life.

Regardless I'm fucked there is no good ending to this situation and all I know is I need to figure out who the father is by myself. I'm not going through the embarrassment of having to tell both Eli and K.C that I'm pregnant and that I don't know who's baby I'm carrying which would end up in me getting a DNA test after the baby is born. Everyone would find out what I had done; it would be social suicide.

I can feel myself starting to shake, my breath speeding up rapidly as I come to terms with the monumental situation I've gotten myself in. I take slow steady breaths trying to calm myself tears finally falling for the first time since I read the positive result. My heart is racing i'm completely alone to deal with this; it's too much for me to handle then I thought of something or should I say someone; There is one person who may be able to help me i pick up my phone and dial a familiar number.

"hey Clare, finally decide to stop being miserable over Eli?" Allie's voice answers.

"Eli and I made up but that's not why I'm calling I-I have a big problem Allie" my voice cracking against my will.

"are you okay? Never mind I'll be right over" she says I hear her open a door before hanging up the phone.

I clutch my phone tightly, my head falling to my knees as I suffocate in my thoughts waiting for Allie to get here the one person who I can count on no matter what. It doesn't take her long she arrives in a flash just as I knew she would. She steps into my room cautiously; I look up at her tears in my eyes, I'm sure she can see the devastation in them. Before I have time to blink she takes action running over to me her arms wrapping me in a loving embrace the kind of comfort only a best friend can give. In this moment as bad as everything seems I'm truly grateful for this girl; she has seen me at my highest point and my lowest loving me through the smiles and the tears. I know she's going to do the same thing now without judgement. I look at her noticing the distress on her face; it's filled with fear over what could have me in this distraught start. I take a deep breath preparing to tell her just how bad I've messed up.

"Allie" I sob "I can't believe I'm about to say this, I've messed up so bad" I look her straight in the eyes trembling as I utter the words for the first time "I'm pregnant" her face turns to shock at that confession alone little does she know I'm not finished yet "I don't know who the father is Allie" I say in a whisper her face paled her eyes widened, she looks just as aghast over it as I am. I can see her trying to process the information I just gave her accessing my face for any sign that this is a horrible joke; once she doesn't find any sign of anything other than seriousness and devastation she begins speak.

"Okay, stay calm we can handle this Clare we'll get through this together" her voice was firm but gentle.

"What am I going to do Allie" I look at her with hope that she can tell me what to do.

"that's up to you; do you want to keep that baby?"

"how can I be a mom Allie I'm 16?"

"you have other options" she said carefully

"I can't get an abortion and I'm not sure if I can go through with adoption, how can I grow a life inside me for months and then give him or her away like nothing." I feel more tears coming to my eyes just considering that and suddenly I realize I've already made up my mind "I'm keeping the baby" I tell her with certainty.

"alright, now we just need to figure out who the lucky daddy is" she was trying to lighten the mood but it failed miserably.

We immediately get to work, writing down when I remember having sex with K.C and Eli; one thing that was on my side was there was a decent time period between the times I was intimate with the two. The last time I had sex with Eli other than prom and yesterday of course was two weeks before the first time I had sex with K.C. I should have had a period in between but, I wasn't sure if I gotten it or not; if I didn't the baby could be Eli's if I did it is without a shadow of a doubt K.C who is the father of my baby. We continue going back and forth and end up deciding that sense my symptoms didn't start until recently the baby was most likely K.C's.

"so it's decided then K.C is the baby's father?" Allie says

"That's what makes the most sense" I say my voice low I put my head in my hands letting it set in; I'm having K.C's baby.

"What do you want to do now?" Allie puts her hand on mine comfortingly but it's not much help.

"Eli's going to hate me" is all I can say before I start sobbing again.

Allie pulls me into another hug rubbing up and down my back gently whispering softly to calm down, that everything would be okay as much as I want to believe her I can't it doesn't seem possible that everything could be okay. 24 hours ago Eli was holding me and after this I doubt he's ever going to do that again. That thought feels like a weight crushing me. I know it's unrealistic but I can see my future in his eyes so how can I have one without him. It's like we have this incredible connection, as if we were made to love each other the kind of love you only see in movies never believing it exist until you experience it first hand. I shake my head thinking back to the project that ended in the first time we made love. If only this was a movie; but it's not.

"I should just forget Eli. Not tell him, he doesn't deserve to be dragged into this" I say once I calm down

"Don't you think that's his decision to make?"

"it's not like he'd still want me anyway, I'd rather just end it now and get it over with"

Perhaps Allie is right and I should let him make a decision but I can't handle telling him, I've decided I'm just going to break off contact with him; he's in New York at NYU he'll never know. It'll be easier this way.

"Well what about K.C?"

"might as well get it over with right?" I say picking up my phone. Allie gives me a look of shock as I dial his number on my phone.

"Hello?" K.C answers seemingly surprised I'm calling him.

"I have something to tell you it's important that is the only reason I'm calling you, you need to listen and don't freak out" my voice stern.

"o-okay?" he stutters nervously

I take a deep breath looking over at Allie, she grabs my hand tightly before nodding her head.

"I'm pregnant" I say pensively

Silence is all I got from the other end I'm assuming he's in shock or hung up not wanting deal with the situation at hand.

"You're going to get an abortion right?" he said coldly

"No I'm keeping the baby" I say bluntly

"Well you are doing it by yourself I'm not going to be involved in anyway you can ruin your life with that mistake if you want but I'm not going to let you ruin mine Clare so don't expect it" his voice was tight

"no problem I won't bother you again you can sign over your rights and it'll be done"

I hung up. soon after Allie got a phone call from her parents saying she needed to come home, I was left with nothing but my thoughts I was going to be a mom not just a mom but a single mom in high school this is not what I had planned for my senior year.

Buzz Buzz Buzz

I hear my phone going off I pick it up and read the name on the caller I.d

...Eli