Chapter 6: Would Tomorrow Be Another Day?
As night fell upon the sleepy house, I was still sitting at Bonnie's bed side. I knew I had to become a better mom and fast. This new baby needed a mother from the very start. I didn't want to be the kind of mother I had been to Bonnie. Bonnie and this new baby were going to have two loving parents; at least that's what I was saying inside my head. Deep down I knew that's what I wanted. I wanted to be a loving and caring family.
I could feel myself falling asleep as I watched over my daughter. I needed to get some sleep I had been up since six this morning. I could feel my eyes go heavy as sleep began to take over. Shutting my eyes for just a quick second I could feel my head falling. Before I knew it I was asleep. The next thing that happened took me by surprise.
As I opened my eyes I saw myself sitting in my bed with a new born baby in my arms. The baby looked up at me with happiness in it's eyes. Holding the baby close I kissed it's forehead. "Mother, mother," I heard Bonnie's cheerful voice come as I saw her running over to my bed. She looked so happy to have a new sibling. I knew in a way that she was lonely and I also knew having a new brother or sister to play with would make things a little better. Yes, Beau was a good playmate for Bonnie, but at the end of the day Beau couldn't replace someone Bonnie could play with after super or before bedtime.
"Keep your voice down dear," my dream self told her, while I watched from the corner of the room. Coming closer Bonnie peaked at her new sibling. Trying her best she tried to be quiet for the sake of her new sibling. The last thing she wanted to do was make the baby cry.
Walking up Rhett gave me a kiss, then proceeded to pick up Bonnie so she could see better. "Bonnie, you have to stop wiggling," Rhett said with a laugh. Bonnie was being a little jumpy and such as Rhett tried to keep her still.
Getting out of Rhett's arms Bonnie got on the bed with me. Looking down at her new baby sister she smiled. "What are we going to name her?" she asked looking at me than at Rhett with wide eyes. She couldn't wait to name her little sister. By the looks of it Bonnie looked as if she was going to jump off the bed from waiting so long. "What are we going to name her?" Bonnie asked again as she began getting very excited.
I hadn't really thought about names all that much. All I had been able to think about was whose baby it was. Now that I looked down at her she did look like Rhett, but she looked more like me. This made me laugh on the inside. It seemed like who's ever child I carried looked like me. Looking over at Rhett began discussing names. "What about-"I began, but I couldn't hear myself. What was going on? I wanted to scream out loud.
Feeling something around me I jumped as a gasp escaped from my lips. "Scarlett, why don't you go to bed?" Rhett's voice came as I found his arms wrapped around me. "Bonnie will be fine."
Before I stood up I looked at Bonnie once more. She looked like a small china doll lying on the small blue bed. Getting to me feet I yawned as Rhett and I left the room. After Prissy unlaced me I got ready for bed. Lying in the big bed I began to realize that what I had feared all this time wasn't going to happen. The baby was Rhett's after all. While I tried to sleep I felt the sheets pull back. Sitting up I saw Rhett there. Pulling me into his arms he kissed my forehead. I could tell something was different about him. Could he know that it was his baby? Could he be doing this because of what happened earlier? I didn't know, but what I know was that I wouldn't tell him that I loved him.
At the feel of his touch I found tears filling my dark green eyes. Could all of this be getting to me so much that at the touch of Rhett or at the sound of his voice I would start losing it? I hope and prayed not. I couldn't keep doing this to myself. It would tear me apart. Before long I could hear sobs as I put a hand over my mouth. "What's wrong my pet?" he asked as he began rocking me back and forth like a new born baby.
I couldn't tell him, because in a way I really didn't know either. All I knew was that I loved Rhett very much. I just couldn't tell him that. What would he think? He would think I was just saying it because of the baby that was on the way, that's what. "I-I can't." I cried as the tears fell off my face. I could feel my body shake from all the sobs taking over. After the accident this afternoon I realized that life can be short lived rather your ready or not.
Holding on tight to me Rhett's silence told me that he knew something. Something I wasn't sure if I knew it myself. Kissing me one last time I fell asleep as my head rest against his chest. I kept asking myself would tomorrow be another day of sadness or a new day of happiness. Would there be another day to live for?
A/N: I'm back. Sorry it took so long. I'm not done with my children's lit story, but I figured I wouldn't make you guys wait anymore. Hope you liked it. Sorry it wasn't longer. I kind of wrote this chapter in a rush. Review:)