The eyes of his brother haunt his dreams, even after all these years since that night. In the dreams he always sees the same, Loki being with Jane, sometimes in new and more cruel ways then the first. And always the eyes of Loki is on him instead of Jane, cruel smile in place.
When he wakes he turns to Jane, using her body to convince himself that it is not Loki who is in her bed. It is him, he is the one who shares her bed. It is him who is making love to her.
But he still sees his brothers eyes where ever he goes.
Almost is if Loki knew that he would return to earth, somehow finding a way to remind him of the past, to remind him to always look out for danger.
But ever since he reunited with Jane there have been nothing, not even a sighting of his brother anywhere on earth.
But he is sure he sees Loki's eyes at odd times, seeing them for a moment in windows. But the rest of the Avengers are not worried about his brother, always telling him not to not think about it and just relax.
Jane does not worry, but when ever he mentions Loki she always looks around for Olivia, fearing that she hears her real fathers name. And one nigh in bed she tells him why.
"I don't want her asking questions I am not ready to answer, I don't want her to know that her father just used me to get revenge at you, and that she is the aftermath of that"
"Are you planning on telling her one day"
Jane looks up from his chest, a sad smile on her face.
"If I could chose, I would never tell her who her real father is"
And that is enough to make Thor stop seeing the eyes of his brother, to not dream and make him relax for the time being.
So a year passes and all is well. He moves in with Jane and Olivia just after her fifth birthday, the two asking if Olivia is okay with it. To their surprise she is more then ok, hugging Thor and proclaiming that this is the best gift ever. It is when she looks up into his eyes that chills run down his spine.
For a moment he sees the eyes of his brother, but then Olivia blinks and her eyes seem normal once more.
He starts keeping and eye on her from time to time, just to make sure nothing is wrong, to assure himself that nothing will happen to her.
And it is then he notices that it is not Jane's eyes the little girl ended up with, it is the eyes of her father, the only reason he notices now because Jane took her to get her hair cut, the hair no longer hiding her eyes from view.
When he puts the little girl to bed it is the sleepy eyes of his brother that looks up. When she is smiling it is the eyes of his smiling brother.
He starts to see more of Loki then Jane in Olivia, her eyes being the first thing to notice. Her looks may be Jane, but her personality is that of Loki, sharing his laugh as well.
She talks, she walks, sits, draws and reads the same way as Loki. And Thor is reminded every time that Olivia is not his child, that she is the child of Loki.
When she does not get her way it is in the same way she loses her temper as he remembers Loki did when they were children, storming out of the room and shutting the door with more force then a five year old should be able to.
But there is also Jane mixed in with the Loki. She is not cruel, not evil or seeking revenge. She have friends and loves animals, loves to explore and tell riddles.
When she starts school there is less time for him to worry about these things, less time with Olivia and seeing Loki in the little girl. There is more time spent with Jane as she works at home, him sometimes writing reports from missions while she works.
It is always either him or Jane that picks her up from school, coming home with a tired little girl. Happy and full of all the new things she have learned and friends she have meet.
Her sixth birthday is a blast, friends from her school coming over and ending in a sugar come, their parents smiling as they arrive to pick them up. When the last child leaves Jane and Thor crash on the couch, both tired after a full day of a house filled with kids. Olivia is falling asleep in Thor's lap.
"Time for bed little one" Thor stands up, Jane's hand slipping from his as he walks to the bathroom, making sure Olivia brushes her teeth. He helps her put on a pajamas when they get to her bedroom.
She is tucked in a and ready to sleep, but a tiny hand in his keeps him by her bedside, a final question of the day before she sleeps.
"Thor?"
"Yes little one"
"One of my friends told me that if your real father cant be there, then you can find someone you would like to be your father instead"
Thor looks down at her, her eyes slowly dropping.
"Do you want to be my father" she mumbles
"Of course Olivia, I would love that"
A tiny smile is all he gets in return, Olivia falling asleep in her bed.
When Thor goes to bed himself that night it is with a smile on his face. Olivia may have gotten the eyes of his brother, but now it is not Loki who she calls father, instead it is Thor she wants to call her father.
And that is all Thor wants. If he gets to be a father then he can ignore the eyes of his brother, looking back at him from the head of the girl who now calls him father.
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And I am back from vacation. Ireland was awesome, but being home is always good as well.
Hope the chapter was alright.