Here is the next chapter finally, I did lose interest in writing this in a way as I didn't think people were interested in it and still unsure, so have a few more chapters that I will publish and probably finish then

The next few chapters I will probably put up quicker as they are all written

Enjoy it

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It was amazing that he had arrived in New York in one piece he had driven non stop even if he only saw her for a few hours it was all he needed.

Calling the hospital the relief he felt hearing her voice, the voice that was tired though and full of exhaustion, he wasn't going to tell her, he would surprise her. The thought of losing her he couldn't think of that he would leave the operation if he had to.

"Bri, I'm fine"

He knew better than to believe her, how often had he heard her say those words after Lewis, when she was anything but fine but didn't want to admit it, wanted to keep people at a distance not to show a weakness.

"Brian I will be okay, I just wanted to hear your voice though. Lewis is dead"

"Liv, I'm so sorry I wasn't there for you, that you are going through this without me"

Closing her eyes his voice was what she needed "It's okay it really is, I understand that you are undercover Brian, Nick has been with me and Fin"

The tightening in his chest that Nick was there instead of him "I just wish it was me babe"

"Brian I know I understand it's okay" even as she said those words she knew it was she didn't want to talk about it, she didn't want to open up about it.

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It had taken a few hours but finally he had arrived at their apartment, pulling up in the first park he could find he hurried up the stairs.

He thought about calling her instead he slightly opened the door, seeing her lying on the lounge

"I can rape you first and Amelia watch or Amelia and you watch"

"Do it, pull the trigger or I'll shoot you in the head do it, it's your turn"

The gun against her head she had to pull the trigger her whole body shaking

"They're not going to believe you now, they're going to believe that you shot me in cold blood execution style"

"Say goodbye Olivia this is the last thing you're going to think about before you die"

His hand holding her chin and head still the gun pointing at her

"the last thing you're going to see"

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Feeling a touch on her arms "Nick I told you to go home I'd be alright"

"Sshhh babe I'm here I've got you I'm here now"

That voice was not Nick not it couldn't be "Bri is that really you" it didn't matter that she had told him not to come all that mattered was he was here holding her

"Liv" he sighed dropping quickly to his knees

'Liv babe, I'm so sorry" he whispered into her ear as he pulled her into a soft embrace

Leaning against him burrowing into his chest wanting the comfort that only he could offer her she didn't want to let go of him, despite thinking she didn't want him there, she did more than anything just to hold onto him.

Putting his hands underneath her, slowly carrying her to the bedroom, looking up at his tear stained face the pain on it "I'm right here Liv, at least for the time being"

"when do you need to go back" she sighed not wanting to admit how much she had wanted him

Looking at his tear stained face his eyes were full of questions, ones she wasn't ready to answer yet but concern there too, but she couldn't bring herself to talk about it, she said a few things to Nick and Fin but she just wasn't ready to talk about it all, she had to face IAB tomorrow.

Kissing her forehead softly "early tomorrow morning but I'll stay longer Liv, I won't leave if you want me to stay"

"I'm sorry Brian" she stuttered a sad smile on her face

Moving onto the bed pulling her shaking body against him "Liv you have nothing to apologise about" he admired her strength endurance, even after everything she had been through she was still the most beautiful women he knew

Tuckering her hair behind her ear "I'll be right here all night, I'm not going anywhere"

"I just want to snuggle into you" sighing against him

Stroking her hair "Liv if I had lost you" he couldn't finish the sentence he didn't want to imagine that she had experienced the same feeling, when she had the gun to her temple the thought that she would never see Brian again, tears welling up in her eyes "I'm here"

A smile coming "Yeah you're here and I am too"

Looking up at him slowly stroking his cheek "thank you for coming back, I didn't want you to feel obligation too"

Shaking his head a sad smile now on his face "You're insane Liv, I never feel obligated to you, damn woman don't you know how totally in love with you I am"

Leaning against his chest feeling safe and secure she did know and at that moment in time it didn't matter about anything in the past he was here for her now and she loved him more now than she did before

"Can you just hold me all night" her voice sad and soft

Kissing the top of her head "I'm not letting go of you Liv"

Her fingers outlining his lips, shaking her head the tears forming in her eyes as she sees Lewis turn her head around kissing her roughly on the lips before his hands move to her buckle. Her body started shaking as the tears started falling down her face.

Holding Olivia tightly all he could imagine what she went through, he wasn't going to push her to open up, all he could hope that in her own time maybe she might tell him part of it.

Through her sobs "the last thing he said to me was this is the last thing you will ever think about, the last thing you will ever see, then he shot himself"

His hand running through her hair tucking the stray bit behind her ear kissing on top of her head choking on his words "I'm so sorry you had to go through all of this babe, especially by yourself"

Burrowed into his chest "you're here now and that is all that matters"

Leaning his chin against her head his hand running down her arm she was the strongest person he knew and she had only started getting her life back again, he could only hope that Lewis being dead would bring her some closure.

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What would I do without your smart mouth? Drawing me in, and you kicking me out

You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down What's going on in that beautiful mind I'm on your magical mystery ride And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright

'Cause all of me Loves all of you Love your curves and all your edges All your perfect imperfections

Give your all to me I'll give my all to you You're my end and my beginning Even when I lose I'm winning 'Cause I give you all of me And you give me all of you, ohoh

How many times do I have to tell you Even when you're crying you're beautiful too The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood You're my downfall, you're my muse

My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you

'Cause all of me Loves all of you Love your curves and all your edges All your perfect imperfections Give your all to me I'll give my all to you You're my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I'm winning 'Cause I give you all of me And you give me all of you, ohoh

All of me, the words are so perfect for this.