Chapter 7-Reaching a conclusion
It was the start of a new semester, and Raven was in a Psychology class, with Pierre, Miroku, and Sango. Miroku and the French guy sat next to each other, and so did the two women. There was a movie on, and Sango was silently talking to her friend. " Hey, guess what happened last night?" "Miroku proposed to me, and then…we made love with each other." Raven almost let out a cry of excitement. "That's so sweet, Miroku sounds like a very affectionate guy." She paused for a minute, then said:" Hey Sango, I have to tell you something. Pierre wasn't the only guy I slept with, there was another guy." Her friend smiled, and motioned her head slightly to a seat cattycornered from them. "You mean that guy? He already told me and Miroku." Raven looks over, and sees a man with the chest and abs of a bodybuilder, his arm muscles were almost solid. Raven's speechless, as she turns back to her friend. She feels color rush to her face, when she says:" Sango, did you see that man? He's totally ripped, his muscles are huge and they practically show through his shirt." She laughs slightly. "Yeah, I saw him." Raven is still blushing. "I would love to get a piece of that." Sango bumps her shoulder, then laughs. "Um Raven, you already did." She's confused. "What do you mean?" Sango says:" That man is Inuyasha, he's been going to the gym with Miroku, and lifting weights." Raven is almost speechless. "His body is nothing compared to Pierre's.. it's built way better." She feels like the heat in the room has been turned up, and a sexual tension overcomes her. Raven can't stop looking at his chest-" It's so ripped, damn he's hot." She whispers this to Sango. Her friend asks:" Anyway, how was it, when you and Pierre were last in bed together?" Raven rolls her eyes, and looks again at the nicely built chest , on this man. She says kind of plainly, with no enthusiasm:" All we did was drink wine, and he got straight to the bedroom part. He was bad at trying to foreplay, the end." Sango laughs." Raven, do you realize that the last few times you were in bed with Pierre, you were drunk?" "That right there isn't love." Raven denies this, and says:" I wasn't drunk, I only had like 4 or 5 glasses.. maybe more, I lost count." Sango looks her friend in the eyes, and says firmly:" Rae, you had much more alcoholic beverage those two nights, than someone your age should have." "To put it lightly, you were drunk. So when you were in bed with Pierre, it technically wasn't you. It was the alcoholic, drunk side of you, and not the sweet Raven that I normally know." "But with Inuyasha, you weren't drunk. When he told me about making love to you, I could tell there was a lot of happiness to his voice." "He said that being able to romance your body, was the best thing that had ever happened to him. He loves you Raven." "And it isn't false love, but a deeper passionate feeling, and attraction that he feels toward you. Inuyasha basically told this to me and Miroku, when Pierre wasn't around." Raven's jaw literally drops, when she barely asks:" When did he tell you this?" Sango sighs, and kind of laughs a little. "He tells me and Miroku this, every time he is around us. The last time he said this about you, was a few days ago." Raven shakes her head. "How can he love me that much? By all rights he should be upset and totally hating me right now, for what I have done to him." Sango says:" Raven, I can tell you are in denial about this, by the tone of your voice. The reason he still cares about you, is because what he feels for you is a deep , burning love." "Raven, this is the way I see it. You had meaningless, empty sex with Pierre. But with Inuyasha, you made love to him. And you weren't drunk." "So that tells me something, about how the two experiences were different from each other." At that moment, Raven feels sick to her stomach. An iciness replaces the warmth in her skin, and she feels like throwing up. She asks herself:" What have I done?" Sango sees the mental, and emotional state of Raven under attack. " Hey, is something wrong?", Sango asks. She nods her head. "What you said really got to me. I'm in denial about what I really want." Raven tastes nothing but hatred for herself, for not realizing earlier who she was truly meant to be with. Again, Sango waves her hand in front of her friend's face. "Rae, it's alright. You didn't mess up, there's still time to get your love life back on track." Raven shakes her head, and feels emotionless at this point. She says in a plain tone of voice, with no real happiness:" I screwed up everything. I'm just a dumb bitch, who screws up everyone's lives. I'm a no good dirty whore, who will never find love. If I do find love, it'll most likely be a series of one night stands." "This fucking sucks. I upset this totally hot man, all because of my own damn stupidity." "I might as well let men take advantage of me, and hope I don't get pregnant." Sango is shocked at what she hears. She says to her friend in a stern tone of voice:" Raven, I want you to hear me out. You didn't screw up anyone's life. And Inuyasha doesn't hate you, he loves you with all his heart. You're not a dumb bitch, don't say that about yourself." She shook her head, and said:" Yes I am. You act like I'm this angel that has a totally sweet personality. Well I don't, because I'm aggressive. I have a tendency to be violent." Sango said:" You do have a sweet side, trust me." Raven was in such a state of denial, that nothing her friend said could calm her down. The bell rang, signaling the end of class. Sango is still trying to talk to her friend, when Raven literally bolts out of the room. Miroku walks over to Sango, and asks in a concerned tone of voice:" Hey, what's wrong with Raven?" She shakes her head. "It's horrible.. Raven thinks she's a stupid whore, all because she upset Inuyasha. I couldn't calm her down." Sango feels tears run down her face, and runs into Miroku's arms. He holds her tightly, when the French guy walks over. "What's all the commotion about?" Sango looks at him , that says she isn't happy with him. "You did this to Raven, you took advantage of her, when she was drunk! You disgust me." Miroku even looks at Pierre , and says:" Hey, I think it would be best if you left Raven's life for good. She's way too pretty for a guy like you. And Sango is right, you shouldn't have taken advantage of her." Pierre is caught off guard, and starts repeating his words. "Well.. Well..it isn't like Raven has another man she loves more." Just as he says this, Pierre hears a man's voice say in an upset , and angry tone:" You disgust me. Using women like that, I wont stand for it." Pierre turns around, and sees a huge muscular man, with solid arms. He almost laughs. "You're the man who Raven loves? Give me a break." Inuyasha is getting pushed to his boiling point, and finally says in a burning rage:" Listen you little asshole, I don't appreciate how you treat Raven. You take advantage of her, and think that's alright?" "Well it's not." "And one more thing, this is from me and Raven." Inuyasha balls his hand up into a tight fist, and punches Pierre right in one of his eyes. He almost falls to the ground, when Sango says smiling:" That was so cool Inuyasha." He just closes his eyes, and laughs a little." No one messes with my woman. Now if this little ass will excuse me, I'm going to go try and find Raven."