Hey guys, so this chapter is MUCH more M-rated so be warned. I was really nervous about this, so please let me know whether you like it or not. I appreciate your support so much! Special thanks to comments from Cath, Guests, Anaclara, L. B, Zoe and Noblegraces. Zoe, to answer your question, yes, Andy will probably complete her masters before she starts working, I am sorry if the studying part is not really factually correct. I live in South Africa, and although next year is my final year studying law, I'm not well informed about studying law in America. Enjoy this chapter, I look forward to read your comments.
Andy knew that she had to tell Miranda how she felt about her, but just the thought of it was so fucking terrifying. She had never felt this way about anyone before and she could not even bear the thought of Miranda rejecting her made Andy miserable. But she wanted to be with Miranda, wanted to be able to kiss her whenever she wanted, to be there for Miranda when things got tough, she wanted to belong to Miranda.
Miranda had thought about the thing between her and Andrea. She thought that maybe it would be okay if they made sure that is was purely sexual, if there were no feelings involved. But all those thoughts were quickly discarded when she came home late from work the previous day, exhausted and found Andy curled up with the girls on the couch. Her heart ached with love at the scene and she knew that just having fun with Andy was not possible. She could not be with Andy, except for her busy work schedule and coldness at times, she could not subject Andrea to the humiliation of being displayed all over page six, before the girl's career even began. One thing that she didn't worry about was the girls, because even if Andy wanted nothing to do with her, she would still be there for the girls, Miranda knew that she loved the girls as if they were her own. She had to protect Andy.
Andy spent the entire day working up the nerve to approach Miranda, but Miranda worked late and Andy tucked the girls in, showered, did some reading and then went downstairs to make some coffee. While she waited for the kettle to boil, Miranda arrived home and entered the kitchen. "Andrea, we need to talk", she began.
"Yeah, I was hoping to talk to you tonight.", Andy said softly.
"What has been happening between us cannot happen again, it's completely inappropriate and …"
"Miranda, I'm in love with you, I don't want it to stop…", Andy said determined.
Miranda looked shocked, and for a moment Andy saw fear and worry and something flash in her eyes, but she simply said, "Andrea please don't…".
Andy cut her off with a searing kiss, soft and warm and needy. Andy held Miranda's face and Miranda slipped her hands under Andy's sweater to rest on her waist. Miranda swiped her tongue over Andy's bottom lip and when Andy moaned, Miranda harshly pushed Andy away. Andy's eyes flickered to Miranda's, searching for something there, but Miranda had her icy mask over her face and she said in a cold indifferent tone, "This is done, I don't feel the same about you and I don't want you near me."
After what happened Andy barely saw Miranda, she worked late and had meetings scheduled over the weekend. Andy had never felt so hurt and rejected in her life. She would have quit, but she loved the twins too much and they were the only thing keeping her from crumbling and falling apart. As if they could sense her sadness, they showered her with love, made pictures for her, picked her flowers. She tried her best to be as fun and lively around them as always, but it was taking a toll.
Almost two weeks had passed, and Andy called Nigel, she had to talk with someone and Nigel was the only person who understood Miranda. She told Nigel everything, knowing that he could be trusted. He was sad with her and she appreciated his support. Nigel could have told Andy that Miranda was probably just putting up walls to protect herself from getting hurt, but Andy looked so beaten down that he could not bear to give her false hope.
"Six I know that it's the last thing that you would want to do, but maybe you should go on a date, even if its just something to help you forget, I hate seeing you like this and I have someone that I could set you up with.", Nigel said. Andy immediately wanted to say no, but forgetting did sound pretty good so she said, "Okay see if you can set it up for tomorrow, it's Friday and the twins are sleeping over at Miranda's sister, she is visiting and booked a massive hotel room with a home theatre and everything."
It was Friday and Miranda was in a horrible mood, as she had been for almost two weeks. Andy has been avoiding her, which made things easier. She didn't spend much time at home, but when she was there Andy didn't even look her in the eye, which was a good thing, because she did not know what she would do if she saw pain there. Then she heard Nigel telling Emily that he set Andrea up with someone and she was enraged, she did not care what Andy did, but Andy said that she had feelings for Miranda and now she was going out with somebody else. Apparently she was doing okay.
That night Miranda came home late, the girls were with her sister and she hoped that Andy wasn't still out-she knew the woman that Nigel was setting Andy up with, she worked at Runway and she knew Andy would not like her, Andy is too good for her. Miranda could still feel anger boiling under her surface and she knew it was unjustified, but she felt it nonetheless. Miranda made her way up the stairs and heard the shower, the fact that Andy was home quelled her Anger somewhat and she went to take a shower herself. She blow dried her hair, and when she switched off the hairdryer, she heard a sob come from Andrea's room. Fuck, Andrea is crying, why is she crying? Did something happen to her? Did someone hurt her? Suddenly her anger melted away, page six and getting hurt didn't matter anymore, Andrea was hurt and crying, and Miranda had to make it better.
Miranda knocked softly, Andrea didn't answer, "Andrea, I'm coming in." she said. When Miranda opened the door, Andrea was sitting on the bed, her arms around her knees, "Miranda, please just leave.", Andy said in a small voice. Miranda ignored her, Andrea's tearstained face broke her heart, she awkwardly went to sit on the bed next to Andrea and Andrea hid her face by covering it with her arms and resting her forehead on her knees.
"Andrea, what's wrong, tell me what happened." Miranda said softly, awkwardly trying not to sound frantic.
"Nigel set me up with this girl and she fucking stood me up…", Andrea's voice broke and she started sobbing.
Miranda pulled Andrea into her lap, and stroked Andy's hair while her head rested on Miranda's shoulder. Miranda wore a silk night dress with cotton robe over it, and her body felt warm against Andy. Andy cried some more, she didn't want Miranda to see her like this, Miranda was the fucking reason for this, but it felt so good. Miranda wiped away Andy's tears with her thumb and said, "Andrea, I am sorry, but really, you should be relieved, I know who Nigel set you up with, she is an incompetent, dull girl who only got a job at runway because Nigel wanted to jump her brother."
Andy laughed, she couldn't help but laugh at the anger with which Miranda tore the poor girl apart. Miranda told Andy about some of Nigel's exes, urging her not to trust Nigel to set her up on blind dates. Andrea calmed down, she was no longer crying, she relaxed further into Miranda's embrace. Miranda told her about the time Nigel had the nerve to set her up with a woman who actually wore crocs on the date. Miranda looked down into Andrea's chocolate eyes and her sweet smile and said, "You know Andrea, I am glad that you wanted to go on that date, when I heard you crying I thought it might be my fault and I am glad to see that you are not hung upon me."
Andy sat upright, a stunned expression on her face, "Miranda, I couldn't care less about the date. You broke my fucking heart and the date was just a distraction, her not showing up didn't upset me, it's that all the pain came fully flooding back, Miranda, nothing can hurt me more than your rejection, knowing that you don't want me."
Miranda looked mortified, she paused and look a breath before saying, "Of course I want you, you silly girl! Don't you understand what being with me will do to you, your life will be splashed over page six, I don't have enough time for the people I love, that's why the girls need you and in the end, you will get tired of living like this and you will leave me. There are so many reasons for us not to be together, but me not wanting you is definitely not one of them.", Miranda's words came out shakily and Andy could see the fear and affection in her eyes.
Miranda sat on the bed with her feet tucked beneath her and Andy climbed onto her lap, her legs on either side of Miranda. Miranda let out a shaky breath and Andy looked into her eyes and whispered, "I want you to take me, I want to be yours, I know what the consequences are, and none of that matters, I want you, all of you."
Andy leaned in and kissed Miranda softly, it was a sweet kiss, but it was full of emotion and need. Mint mixed with chocolate and when Miranda broke the kiss, Andrea whimpered, and the sound was like fuel on the fire that Miranda felt burning inside of her. Miranda pushed Andy down onto the bed and swallowed her gasp with her lips as she settled on top of Andy between her legs. Miranda invaded Andrea's mouth with her tongue and the delicious weight of Miranda on top of her set her whole body on fire, her core aching to be touched. Miranda's hand slid up and down Andy's thigh and Andy hooked that thigh around Miranda, bunching up Miranda's nightdress and slipping her own hands underneath, dragging her fingertips to Miranda's waist. Miranda broke the kiss and started hungrily kissing a line from Andrea's jaw, to her neck, to her collarbone. She could see Andrea's nipples through the satin and she sucked them through the material, causing Andrea to arch into her, seeking relief for her throbbing clit. Andrea's moans were driving her wild with want. She needed to feel Andrea against her. Miranda sat up and quickly ripped the dress off Andy as she sat up. Miranda paused to take in an almost naked Andy, her beautifully pale skin, her long legs, her small rosy budded nipples and her dark chocolate eyes. Miranda pulled her own dress over her head Andrea immediately leaned forward and took Miranda's nipples into her mouth, one by one, licking and sucking, Miranda's hands tangled in her hair and she let out breathy moans. When Andy let one hand slide down Miranda's toned body and stared to pull down Miranda's black lace panties, Miranda pushed her down to the bed and nibbled her ear before whispering, "I want you now and I'm not waiting.". Miranda slipped one thigh between Andrea's legs and let Andrea buck and arch against it until she was sure the girl's panties were ruined. She kissed her way Andrea's body and licked her core through soaked cotton panties. Andrea let out a strangled moan and said, "Please, Miranda, I can't wait any more, please…". Miranda smiled wickedly before removing Andrea's panties and throwing them over her shoulder. She bent down and licked Andrea's clit firmly, causing a string of profanities to fall over Andrea's lips. She moved up, kissed Andrea and slipped two fingers through Andrea's folds, "Fuck, you are so wet naughty girl", Miranda whispered and Andrea's moan and accompanying phrase, "Please Miranda fuck me" caused Miranda to swiftly enter Andrea with two fingers, Andy moaned deliciously Miranda moaned at how tight Andy was around her fingers, she would not add another finger. Miranda began pumping into her, stroking her clit with every thrust. It wasn't long before Andy screamed, "Miranda, I'm coming!" and her body spasmed erratically, she let out raw moans as she rode out the last of her orgasm. She opened her eyes after a few moments and found Miranda looking at her. Miranda kissed her and withdrew her fingers, and Andy let out a soft whimper at the loss. "You are breath-taking when you come undone" Miranda said, and Andy smiled shyly up at her. They laid across the bed Andy pushed Miranda down to lay with her head on Andy's pillow. Andy look Miranda's lips and kissed her while rubbing a thumb over Miranda's left nipple. She took the right nipple in her mouth nipping and sucking while dragging her finger over the other. Miranda moaned, and Andy knew that Miranda must be ready to explode. Andy kissed and nipped her way down Miranda's body before settling between her thighs. Andrea blew over Miranda's core and she whimpered. Andrea kissed the inside of Miranda's thighs before slipping her tongue between Miranda's folds. Miranda's scent was deliciously musky and Andy moaned as she tasted her, which sent tremors up Miranda's core causing her to arch up, needing friction. Andy began licking small circles around Miranda's clit, "Andrea, Fuck! Please don't stop", Miranda gripped her hair and Andy began flicking her clit with the tip of her tongue, Miranda moaned bucking against Andy's face. "Andrea, I'm so close…", Andy heard, and she applied more pressure to Miranda's clit and drawing circular patterns, Miranda's hands held onto the headboard and her thighs tightened around Andrea's head, Andy could feel her tremble and arch as she came, and Andy flicked her tongue in softer stokes, letting Miranda ride out the last of her orgasm. Andy wiped her face and kissed Miranda, who was still letting out small whimpers. When Miranda opened her eyes she smiled and said, "God Andrea, that was earth-shattering, I'm not sure that I can get up", Andy had a wicked grin on her face and she said, "Well you pretty much rocked my world, so I had to return the favour.". Miranda smiled and blushed before pulling Andrea down for another kiss.