"Do you want to?" The questioned came out before she could stop it. She closed her eyes and braced herself for Marissa's angry rants. Surprisingly, it didn't come. She slowly opened her eyes. She found herself looking into Marissa's eyes. There was a hint of sadness and hurt to them. She cursed herself for being the reason for them.

Marissa went to sit on the edge of the bed. "I'd never cheat on you. I know that I've lied, but I would never cheat. I wish you'd believe me." The last part was barely a whisper, but Alex heard it.

She went to sit next to Marissa. She kept her eyes focused on the floor. "I'm sorry. I know you wouldn't."

"Do you? Do you really?"

Alex looked up to face Marissa. There were tears forming around the brunette's eyes. They stared at each other for a while. She really didn't think Marissa would cheat on her. However, a part of her wondered if the girl wanted to. If she wanted out. Their stare down was broken when Alex saw a single tear fall down her girlfriend's cheek. She went to wipe it. Cupping her cheek, she said, "I do. I just….I just can't help but feel you want to sometimes. Marissa, if you….if you ever want out-"

"Are you saying you do?" The brunette felt herself starting to panic.

"No." Alex took a breath. "Why are you with me? Why do you stay?" These were questions she wasn't sure she'd want the answer to. Alex barely let herself ponder them, let alone ask them out loud. Yet, she found herself needed to know the answers more than ever now. "Why do continue to say and be with me when-"

"When what?"

"When you don't want to…..when you don't want me." Alex dropped her hands from Marissa's face, but she kept her gaze. Marissa kept silent. The longer she kept silent, the more Alex felt like she was dying. "I love you, Marissa. There's nothing more I want than to be with you, but only if that's what you want also. Be with me because you want to be with me. Any other reason just won't do."

Marissa wanted to reach out to the blonde. She wanted to hold her soothe her worries. Something stopped her though. She replaced the need to soothe Alex with anger. She got up abruptly and quickly. She took a couple of steps and turned to face the blonde. The look shock and sadness on Alex's face almost made her loose her resolve….almost. "Are you trying to get rid of me? Now that the great Jodie is in town, you want me out of the picture so you can do whatever with her?"

"What? No!"

"That's your plan, isn't it? Then, on top of that, you go and try to make me feel guilty. That's rich, Alex." Marissa knew that wasn't Alex's intention. She felt bad for accusing her, but she needed to take the attention off herself. She couldn't trust her actions if she didn't. She needed this conversation to be over and done with, and she knew just how to make it so.

Alex felt like she was going in circles. Nothing she did or said seems to be right. She felt mentally drained. "You know that's not what I'm doing. I've given you no reasons to doubt my love for you."

"And I have, is that it?"

Alex wasn't going to fall into that trap. She didn't have it in her to go another round with Marissa. She needed some air. She got up and made her way towards the door. Her actions were halted by Marissa.

The lanky girl used her body to block Alex's exit. "Where do you think you're going?"

"Marissa, I can't do this right now. Let's just forget I said anything alright? I don't want to fight with you anymore."

The lanky girl was glad that the subject was dropped. However, she noticed that Alex was still trying to get past her. Again, she stopped her. "Let me ask you again: where are you going?"

"I'm just going out for a bit. I need some air." The two stared at each other. Every move Alex made was followed by Marissa mirroring the action. Alex was started to get annoyed.

A smile crept over Marissa's face. Before the blonde could wonder why it was there, she felt Marissa kissing her. Alex was determined not to return it, but then Marissa's hand slid down her side and grabbed her ass. The moan left the blonde's mouth before she could stop it. Marissa took advantage of it and stuck her tongue in the other girl's mouth. Alex's determination was lost after that. The two kissed passionately and hungrily. Alex wasn't too sure how long they were at it before she broke the kiss. "Marissa…"

"If you want air, we'll open a window." Marissa was pushing Alex towards the bed. She kissed the girl's neck and played with the hem of her shirt along the way.

Alex was finding it difficult to breathe. Her body responded instantly to Marissa's touch. Before she knew it, Marissa had rid her of her shirt and was attempting to do the same with her bra. Then that was gone. Her senses seemed to be on overload and the mere feeling of Marissa's hands on her bare skin was almost too much. She needed to touch her, to be in her. She went to unbutton the brunette's jeans. Marissa stopped her and pushed her onto the bed.

The brunette stood there for a bit, taking in the sight of the topless blonde. Alex couldn't stand the separation anymore. She got up to grab her girlfriend. Marissa mistook Alex getting up as a sign of her not wanting to continue. She pushed her onto the bed once more, and crawled on top of her. She stopped when their faces were mere centimeters apart. Alex's breathing was heavy. Marissa moved her head to the side and nibbled on the blonde's earlobe. Alex moaned in response and gripped Marissa's sides. "Don't even think of leaving," whispered Marissa. She left a trail of kisses down Alex's neck and chest. She stopped when she reached the valley between the blonde's breasts. She heard Alex take in sharp breath. Marissa looked into her blue eyes. With a throaty voice she said, "You owe me, remember? It's time to make it up to me." With that, Marissa dipped her head and took one of Alex's breasts into her mouth, robbing Alex of any ability to think or speak clearly. Gone were the memories of the fight they had not five minutes ago. The only thing on the blonde's mind was feeling and tasting Marissa. And that's what she did.

Sorry, it took me a while to get this up. I was having issues writing it. What I had in mind seemed to clash with what actually got written. Sorry if it sucks. Again, thanks for all the feedback.