I woke up to the twisting feeling in my stomach and immediately threw my blankets off my sweating body and ran to the bathroom. I heaved up all my stomach's contents then queasily made my way back to my bed. The sun shone brightly through the window and directly onto my pillow so I turned to face the opposite direction. I could feel the throbbing in my head as it rested still against the satin fabric of my pillowcase. I closed my eyes and groaned as the pain got worse and worse with every breath I took. I could feel my insides ache and I knew more was coming so again I ran to the bathroom and heaved harshly.
Instead of returning to bed this time I sat on the ground next to the toilet and leaned my pulsing head against the stone wall. I drank way to much last night, I wonder how every one else was feeling. Lily wasn't in the dorm so I assumed she was feeling fine. I closed my eyes and breathed deeply as a wave a nausea passed over me. Thankfully this time nothing came up.
Thoughts of the night previous flooded my mind as I recalled the date and aftermath. I went to Andrew's dorm with him and I was sure people saw. This was going to be fun, I would be called a whore for the next month at least. I pondered what happened in the boys dorm with the handsome quidditch player and touched a sore spot on my neck where I knew he had left a mark. There were aches all over my body from that encounter. Why he had to be so rough, I had no idea. I slightly regretted what I did but all I know is that last night it felt like pure bliss. Sirius wouldn't be happy about this, he hated when I hooked up with guys.
A while passed before I felt safe enough to return to my bed. I sat down and held my still sore head in my hands and wiped my eyes. I obviously hadn't showered before going to bed because my makeup was smudged all over my face. I didn't care enough to wash my face so I swung my school robe over my shoulders and wrapped a scarf around my neck then made my way down to the common room. With a little luck maybe one of the marauders would be willing to fetch me some food, that way I wouldn't have to attempt sitting in a loud, crowded space.
I was overly ecstatic to see Sirius and Remus sitting at a table on one side of the common room and I slowly made my way over to them, not wanting to push myself too far. The marauders and I were close, but puking in front of them took things to a whole new level.
When they noticed me they looked at my appearance with amused expressions on both of their faces. I dropped myself down in a chair at their table and tilted my head back, groaning loudly.
"Have too much to drink last night?" Remus asked, looking at Sirius.
"I feel like my head has been stomped on by a pack of raging hippogriffs." I moaned and they both laughed. "Shhh. Keep it down will you. Some of us are sensitive to sound at the moment."
"I take it your date went well?" Remus added and I shook my head back and forth. The truth was the date went very well, the aftereffects just sucked royally.
"What a gentleman he turned out to be, fills you with alcohol then takes you up to his room. You know how to pick 'em Ana." Sirius remarked but I didn't have the energy to argue with him.
"Actually he was very gentlemanlike, especially in the secluded dorm." I smiled, knowing I had irritated him. Sirius had never been fond of me fooling around with boys, he saw it as his job to protect me from the mean wizards that were only interested in one thing. According to him anyways. He looked at me with a slight bit of annoyance on his face before I stood and left the common room in search of food to fill my now very empty tummy. I knew neither Sirius or Remus would be willing to get food for me so I had to go myself.
I walked through the castle in the direction of the great hall by my lonesome and was surprised to see both Lily and James there eating together. I smiled and sat down across from them and grabbed a slice of toast.
"How are you feeling this morning? Similar to Lily I'd assume since you look like you woke up in the Forbidden Forest." James ginned at me as I shot him a dirty look which was mimicked by Lily.
"I'll take that as my cue to leave then. I'll see you both later." He laughed standing and kissing Lily gently on the lips. I held in my awe as she blushed at him when he pulled away. I waited until he was out of the hall before I engaged Lily in conversation.
"You and James are so cute together, I'm glad you've finally gave him a chance." I said lightly.
"Me too, he's really changed in my opinion. He's actually very sweet."
"I never thought I'd hear those words come out of your mouth about James Potter." I laughed as she smiled sheepishly.
"I do feel awful though, this morning reminds me of why I never drink." She sighed, taking a bite of orange.
"I agree, I don't think I've felt this hung over in all my days of drinking." I nodded and continued to bite into my toast.
"So what did you and Andrew do, when you left I mean?" She looked at me with her brows raised.
"Oh you know, went to sleep." I smiled.
"We both know that's not true Ana, now tell me." She ordered in a non threatening tone.
"We went to his dorm, fooled around a bit." I shrugged.
"Did you guys... you know?" She pressed and I laughed at her immature way of asking if I'd had sex.
"Well-" I began but was cut off by an exploding bowl of grapes in front of a few people down the Gryffindor table. I laughed as Professor McGonagall disciplined a group of second years for the disturbance.
The toast helped cure my hangover amazingly well and Lily and I both made our way to the common room to grab our outstanding assignments and take them to the library. It took us ages but we finally finished the forgotten potions assignment with little to no help from Sirius and James who were busy working on something else entirely.
The rest of the afternoon was spent lounging around the castle and Lily even gave me the password to the prefects bathroom so I was able to have a long luxurious bath before dinner. After the night before it was much needed.
I made my way solo to the bathroom on the fifth floor and when I spoke the password and made my way through the portrait hole I was greeted with the glittering sunlight passing through the stained glass windows, reflecting off the empty white marble bathtub. I turned on the desired taps, wanting extremely warm water with the scent of lavender then began to strip out of my clothes as the tub filled.
I submerged into the perfect water and sank lower while resting the back of my head on the edge of the tub. I stretched myself out completely, still being surrounded by nothing but water. The bathtub was massive, almost pool size. It was almost double the size of the one in my parents bathroom with much more depth. It was soothing as I felt the water surround me so I closed my eyes and thought back to last night once more.
Being with Andrew last night was the most amazing I've ever felt with a boy. He knew exactly what to do and knew expertly what would please me. My body still ached from our act but thinking it over, I didn't regret it. I was told Andrew liked me and I was willing to give him a shot, after all why push something that felt so right away?
I thought about the way his muscular body felt against mine as we moved under his soft bed sheets and the way his hands touched every right spot while pleasuring me. He seemed to enjoy it just as much as I had and I couldn't seem to get the sound of his masculine growls of satisfaction out of my head. My reminiscing of being with him started to effect the rest of my soaked body as I could feel myself tingling with warmth and arousal so I ran my hands gently up and down my stomach, moaning quietly at my own touch.
I sighed as I caressed between my legs. I was still much to tender to pleasure myself so I pushed myself up and out of the tub to grab my towel. I wrapped it around my body and stepped carefully down the stairs and onto the floor next to the large filled tub. I turned the tap to drain the water and proceeded to dry myself off completely before putting my clothes back on. I couldn't shake the lustful feeling that filled me as I disappointedly made my way to the great hall for dinner. Maybe Andrew would be there and he would be willing to please me with his gentle touch.
I sat down next to Lily and Remus with James, Peter and Sirius across from us and stared at the food in front of me.
"What's on your mind Ana?" Sirius asked as he bumped his shoulder with mine.
"Nothing Sirius." I said and attempted a smile but I know he could tell something was on my mind. There was no way I was going to tell my best friend that I was horny but too sensitive from my date the night before to touch myself. That wouldn't go over well.
"Ana had a late night." James smirked at the boys and Lily who looked at him curiously. "Andrew and her left Lily and I to have a little alone time in the dorm. How was it Ana?"
I glared at him as he smiled in amusement.
"What did you guys do?" Peter asked stupidly.
"What do you think they did Peter." Remus shook his head and looked down at his plate, not wanting to get involved in the others pressing me for information on my personal life.
"Did you sleep with him Ana?" Sirius asked, looking slightly discouraged.
"It's none of your business." I answered and busied myself with a mouthful of potatoes.
"She so did." Peter answered and both Sirius and I looked at him with wide eyes. Did Peter just say that?
"Peter." Remus scolded.
"What? Look at how she's avoiding the question, it means she obviously did but she just doesn't know how to answer it without us all thinking she's a dirty whore or something." He replied.
Why do I even hang out with him?
Andrew approached the table where we were seated and scooted Lily over so he could take a seat next to me. I smiled at him with my lips tightly pressed together, my mouth still full of mashed potatoes and he laughed at me lightly before planting a peck on my lips.
Did he really just do that?
"How are you feeling today Ana? I haven't seen you since last night." Andrew said and put his arm around my shoulders. It was annoying, I liked my space when I was eating, did he not understand that? I didn't want to be rude so I just shrugged and tilted my head.
"Feeling a bit run down." I answered before slipping a carrot into my mouth.
"I'll bet." He smirked at me and I swear I heard Sirius growl.
"Maybe you'd be willing to spend tonight doing something similar?" I whispered seductively in his ear while running my hand stealthily up his thigh. He laughed slightly and smiled as he leaned into my my ear.
"I'd be willing to do anything for you, beautiful." He whispered back and I could feel myself growing warm with anticipation.
I was brought out of my trance by a loud commotion coming from the Slytherin table.
"BLOODY HELL!" I heard a boy shout. I turned my head to look at who the boy was and froze when I saw a green looking Tomas. His face was covered with lime sludge and his hair sticking straight up on his head. It looked as if his food exploded on him in a green goo and I could tell by the laughter around me it had been what Sirius and James were planing in the library.
Not one of their best, I though to myself as I cringed.
Tomas was standing at the table and looking down at his goo covered robes before looking up and directing his gaze straight at the marauders, who were killing themselves laughing. Suddenly I felt his eyes land on me, and I could see the danger flash in his dark orbs. His stare burned holes through me and I abruptly felt cold and shaky. I knew the anger he held inside was not going to stay there for long. He knew I told the marauders about what happened, there was no other reason for them to directly attack him.
I thought back to what he said about not telling anyone and I knew there were going to be consequences. At first I was looking forward to whatever the marauders cooked up to embarrass Tomas but now that I've seen how angry it made him I regretted ever telling Sirius in hopes of revenge. I sank down in my seat and shrugged Andrews arm off my shoulders.
"What's the matter?" He asked, still amused with the scene at the Slytherin table.
"Nothing I'm just not feeling well, claustrophobic or something." I answered.
I looked back to my food but couldn't find it in me to finish it. Not after seeing the sludge all over Tomas and the threatening look he gave me. My blissful feeling I had when coming into the great hall had been completely replaced with fear. I swallowed the lump that was forming in my throat as I thought about what he would do.
I would just have to stay with someone at all times, that's all.
Andrew stayed for the rest of the dinner and we were the first to leave from everyone else. He walked with me up to the common room, coping a feel every so often. I was far from being in the mood now and I couldn't wait to get back to the dorm and get away from him. He was sweet and everything but all I could think about what Tomas and how it felt to have him attempt to force himself on me. I didn't want to be in the presence of a male, trying to get in my pants no matter how different Andrew was from Tomas. I felt somewhat guilty for brushing him off like this but I couldn't help it. There was something wrong with me, something telling me that I shouldn't trust this guy because in the end it would end up the same as all the others I let into my life. There was a reason I only fooled around with guys and didn't get to know them. The first boy I ever truly gave my heart to treated me horribly. He messed my life up since the day I'd met him and I was beyond surprised I was ever able to trust a boy again.
When we were back in the common room Andrew wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me close to him while we stood in the hallway that lead to the large circular room.
"So what exactly did you have in mind?" Andrew's voice was husky as he looked down at me.
"I'm feeling a bit woozy now. Do you think I could get a raincheck?" I asked, looking up at him with a puppy dog gaze that always seemed to work for Sirius. He sighed and pulled away from me and I looked down, knowing he was upset. I would be too if someone lead me to believe they'd hook up with me then turned me down a moment later.
"That's fine, some time soon though. Did you want me to take you upstairs?" He asked and I shook my head.
"No thats okay I think I'm just going to lay down, read a bit." I said.
"Okay, well I'm just going to go back to meet some friends. I'll see you." He kissed my cheek goodbye then left through the portrait. I continued into the common room and was pleased to find it nearly empty. There were a few younger students studying at one of the tables and a few others at a separate one. I smiled at the opening of my favorite couch that stood in front of the fireplace and laid down, stretching and turning to face the fire. The flames warmed my pale face as I watched the fire flicker. Time seemed to pass by quickly since I was soon greeted with the loudness of the marauders, and Lily who was holding James' hand.
James and Lily shared a large plush chair and Remus and Peter sat on the love seat next to the couch I was on. Sirius lifted my legs and sat near my feet. I turned onto my back and leaned my head against the arm of the couch to look at him.
"Sirius?" I asked as I placed my feet in his lap. He laughed and pulled my shoes and socks off before beginning to massage both my feet. Sirius gave the most amazing foot rubs, most times when we were up late alone in the common room I would fall asleep to the sensation it gave me.
"Did you like our little experiment with Wilkes?" James smiled widely while Lily shook her head.
"I think you guys are losing your touch, that wasn't nearly what I'd expected from you." I said to humor them.
"What does that mean?" James asked, faking offend.
"Just wasn't your best." I disregarded and James scoffed.
"So what happened to Andrew?" Sirius questioned, seeming to ignore everything that was just said as he looked at his hands running over my exposed skin.
"He left to find some friends. I told him I wanted to be alone." I admitted.
"Why'd you want to be alone?" Lily asked from the chair she shared with James.
"I just wasn't feeling well after dinner. I don't know why because I'm feeling fine now." I shrugged. It was partly the truth. I did feel better now that I was surrounded by friends but I still couldn't get over the look on Tomas' face.
"Good that you're feeling better. Are you and Andrew dating now?" Remus asked nonchalantly. Everyone turned their attention to me, waiting for an answer. I don't know how they could think I would date a boy after one outing.
"We're not together exclusively or anything." I said, looking at Sirius who seemed to be the most interested.
"Good, I don't like him." He said and turned back to my feet.
"Why don't you like him Padfoot? You seem to get along pretty well on the pitch." James responded to Sirius.
"He's a decent guy, I just don't think he's good enough for Ana."
"Awe Sirius." I smiled at him and wiggled my feet.
"I think I know why." Peter began but was silenced by Sirius' gaze.
Strange.
"I still can't believe you gave yourself to him, after all this time that you've been saving it? He must be pretty spectacular." Lily added. I didn't respond, I had no response to this accusation. It was true, I had been saving myself for the perfect guy and I knew Andrew was not the one who deserved it.
Lily yawned and James hugged her tightly as she sat on his lap.
"Tired, Lil?" He asked gently and she nodded her head. She began to stand and James followed her actions.
"I'm going to sleep Ana, I'll see you in the dorm soon?" She asked before leaving the couch area.
"Yeah I'll be up soon." I nodded
"Night guys." James added.
"I think I'm going to turn in too, all this studying has got me exhausted." Remus said and stood to follow James. Peter stood as well and said goodnight to Sirius and I who were the only two not getting up to go to bed.
Once they were all gone I leaned my head back and closed my eyes as I felt Sirius' hands expertly stroke my feet. I moaned lightly at his touch and I could feel him slow his pace. After a few moments I realized he hadn't said anything so I opened my eyes to look at him. He looked upset.
"What's the matter Sirius?" I asked.
"I just don't understand you." He admitted.
"What do you mean?"
"You say you were waiting for the perfect guy to give your virtue to, you said you were waiting for the one guy you could see yourself spending the rest of your life with because you thought it wasn't right for more than one guy to share that experience with you. Then you just give it to Andrew in a spur of the moment? What makes him so worthy of you Ana?" He asked, keeping his gaze on the fire.
I looked at him curiously as I realized this really bothered him, for a reason I didn't understand. I sat up and pulled my feet away and crawled to sit next to him. I leaned my head on his shoulder and I felt him rest the side of his head against mine.
"Can I tell you something?" I said quietly.
"Of course." He whispered.
"I did a lot with Andrew last night, he did make me feel special and wanted, something I don't usually feel with the guys I show interest in."
"Why are you telling me this?" He sighed.
"I just want you to know I didn't sleep with Andrew. I'm still a virgin and I plan to stay that way until I find the guy I'm willing to share that intimate part of my life with." I admitted. Sirius lifted his head and looked at me, relief shown on his pristine facial features.
"I know there is a guy out there just waiting for you to figure out that he's worth every second of your time and he's going to make you sure that you made the right choice in waiting." Sirius grinned at me.
"How do you know that Sirius?" I questioned playfully.
"I just do." He said and wrapped his arms around me. We sat in front of the fire a while longer before I could feel my eyelids getting heavy. We both decided it was time to turn in and I laid in my bed while looking out into the night and up at the moon that shone brightly through my window. I played that moment with Sirius over and over in my head while I thought about how sweet and gentle he was with me. I knew nothing would come of him and I, we were best friends and that's it. Besides, he already knew who he wanted to be with and I knew it couldn't be me.
Authors Note: Finally some more Sirius action in this chapter! I hope you enjoy, reviews would be much appreciated! :)