A/N: Thanks for all the reviews to the previous chapter... I know that its been a while since I've updated this story but here you are... Enjoy!
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Jax felt a hand on his shoulder and he swung around quickly knocking the person behind him over. He saw that it was Tara and quickly stopped her from falling to the ground. "Oh God I'm sorry Tara."
Tara shook her head and smiled ruefully at Jax. "Nothing to be sorry about Jax. How is she doing?"
Jax shook his head. "She doesn't look like herself at all. My God Tara seeing her like that ate me up. I can't believe how pale and lifeless she looks lying there. I want nothing more than for her to wake up even if she yells at me."
Tara slightly smiled. "Oh believe me Jax she will probably yell at you but if I know one thing it is that my sister loves you. She has always loved you and she always will. No matter if you two are together or apart her heart belongs to you. Plus it wouldn't be Marissa if she wasn't yelling at you."
Jax chuckled a little. "God I've missed her so much Tara. No matter how many sweet butts I was with I only saw her face. No matter how much she hurt me or I hurt her I love her and I always have. I just wish that I could go back in time and change everything. I need her Tara. I need her in order for me to feel alive."
Tara looked at Jax and sighed. "You really do love her don't you Jax? God I didn't know how much you loved her until just now. I'm sorry for everything in the past Jax."
Jax sighed. "The past is in the past Tara. Neither of us can go back and change the past. The only thing we can do is learn from it and move forward. I have always loved Marissa and no matter what I will always love Marissa. There isn't a damn thing in this world that could make me stop loving her. Believe me I've tried everything in the last couple of years to get her out of my system and out of my mind. There hasn't been a day that goes by that I don't think of your little sister Tara. I fell in love with Marissa the first day I met her and I never fell out of love with her and I won't. I really don't think that it is possible for me to stop loving her. But I do have one question for you Tara. Why did you warn her about me all those years ago? I thought you were my best friend."
Tara closed her eyes and sighed and then leaned back up against the wall like Jax was. "I'm not proud of that time in my life Jax. I really didn't mean to warn her off of you like I did but I was scared. I was scared that she would get what I wouldn't and that was the guy she loved. I have loved Opie since High School Jax but he didn't give me the time of day. I saw how much both you and Marissa loved one another and it made me very jealous. I loved you as a best friend Jax and even back then I knew that you and my sister were made to be together. Damn it Jax she fell in love with you when she met you when she was fourteen years old!"
Jax's mouth dropped open in shock. "You mean to tell me Marissa fell in love with me at first sight? Damn it Tara! As much as I loved you as a friend back then didn't you stop to think why I kept coming around day after day to your house? I fell in love with your sister at first sight! Although I didn't realize that it was love until we actually got together. The whole time I was with her I had everything I ever needed or wanted in my life. When she broke up with me because her best friend tried screwing me I didn't do anything. I tried to fight for her but she ran! Then when I run into her at a bar a couple years ago I tried to set things right but once again she ripped my fucking hear out and stomped on it! Hell tonight was the first I even knew of her being back around Charming. Why didn't you tell me she was back?"
Tara sighed and shook her head. "I didn't know how to tell you Jax. I swear I would have told you but in the last couple of years anytime anyone mentioned Marissa's name you clammed up. Besides she made me swear not to tell you that she was back until she was ready to deal with you."
Jax rubbed a hand across his face and leaned his head back onto the wall. "It hurt too fucking much to hear her name being mentioned. Hell anytime I heard someone say the name Marissa my heart would break into a million tiny pieces. Have you ever stopped to think why I didn't go and see Wendy much after she had Abel? It was because I knew that it should have been Marissa that was the mother of my son. It's always been Marissa for me Tara and it always will be Marissa for me. There is no other woman out there for me. There is nobody out there that could compare to Marissa and what I feel for her. God Tara all I want for her to do is wake up."
Tara wrapped her arms around Jax in a tight hug. "She will wake up Jax. You just have to believe that. You have to remember that Marissa always has been and always will be a fighter. She'll keep fighting Jax and she won't give up. You can't give up on her. You have to keep yourself together and be strong because she's going to need you now more than ever."
Jax nodded and hugged Tara back. "Thank you Tara."
Tara smiled and said "You're welcome Jax and thank you. Are you okay to go back out to the waiting room for now?"
Jax nodded and put his hand on Tara's back and guided her down the hallway but not before taking one more look at the recovery room that Marissa was in. He sent up a quick silent prayer to God that he would let Marissa live.