He stared intently to the growing bulge between Shizuo's legs. Of course, Shizuo's imagination and hormones were quickly turning him on. Very on.

Shizuo could barely think at that point. Izaya palmed his erection and it responded by throbbing painfully. Izaya smiled a bit at himself; he looked pleased. Maybe he liked Shizuo's size? Then he looked up at the blond whose heart was beating loudly against his ears while thoughts flashed through his mind. Then he freaked out.

His hands trembled and he pulled away from Izaya. It's not that he didn't want it. But not like that, he wanted to do it right. Maybe he was old-schooled or something but if this was going to be his first time with Izaya, and actually with anybody, he didn't want it to be a blowjob and even less at Shinra's bathroom while they were all outside waiting for them. It was supposed to be slow and romantic, not a quickie at Shinra's.

But his heart sunk at the hurt and rejected look Izaya gave him, even if it only lasted for a second before his eyes flared in anger. In less than a second, he got up and walked out on him. Shizuo immediately tried to hold him back.

"Izaya!"

He called and reached out, but not enough to grab his clothes as he ran away. Dammit. And he definitely couldn't run after him shirtless and with an arousal between his legs, so he focused on getting dressed as quickly as possible, muttering to himself.

"Shit, damn, fuck…"

When he finally got it over with he dashed behind the brunet but when he got to the living room, all eyes focused on him, curious, and Shinra asked.

"Hey, what happened? Izaya got his stuff, said he was going home and then left."

The blond wanted to kill him. If he had only stayed long enough to listen..! Fucking proud flea.

"Fuck."

He muttered and threw his bag over his shoulders, running out of the apartment. He could apologize to his confused friends later. Now his main focus was his boyfriend. He saw the elevator going down and there was no way he was going to wait for it to come back up, so he rushed towards the staircase, running down the steps.

It was dark and he almost tripped on his feet more than once, but all he could think about was making up to Izaya. After everything he'd been through to have Izaya, he couldn't simply let it go. When he got down the elevator was already there and he ran out, looking around. He caught a glimpse of the brunet turning around the corner. He rushed towards him and as soon as he too rounded the corner, he made his mistake; he called his name.

"Izaya!"

The brunet looked back, a bit startled, but immediately dashed away from the blond, who groaned in frustration and ran faster behind his boyfriend. Shizuo clenched his fists. Fucking flea! He tried to speed up since Izaya was almost out of reach. Dammit, he couldn't lose sight from the smaller teen. So he tried once more.

"Wait! Let's talk! Izaya!"

That only made Izaya run faster and Shizuo bared his teeth, finally snapping. Fuck, he only wanted to talk, why couldn't the louse stop for a few seconds? So annoying. Before he even noticed what was happening, he had a stop sign on his hands, letting his anger get the best of him.

...

"IZAAAAYA-KUUUUUN! Fucking stop already!"

He growled and threw the pole in his direction barely and purposely missing Izaya, who hastly made a wrong turn to a dead end alleyway. He glanced around like a stressed cat but before he could make a decision, Shizuo had time enough to catch him. Or better yet, tackled him and both boys fell on the floor. Izaya made a face and tried to get away while Shizuo tried to recover himself from the chase.

"Fuck! Izaya! Stop squirming already!"

"No! Get off me, you damn brute!" Shizuo grunted and held him tighter.

"No fucking way! Stop, dammit." And the brunet stopped, looking up at the blond with what could only be teary eyes.

"Izaya… Listen," he sighed, staring into those fierce red eyes, looking right back at him. "Please stop." He felt horrible for seeing Izaya's eyes shinning with tears. After all those years wanting him so bad, now that he finally had, knowing he made him cry was awful. Izaya looked away and Shizuo slowly held him less tightly. He was once again afraid of hurting him.

"What do you want? Let me go…" The brunet muttered even though he didn't even try to pull away anymore.

"Look. It's not that… I didn't want that. I mean… that I don't want you. I do." Izaya immediately tried to retort.

"Didn't look like y-…"

"I want to do it right. I want you. In a bed, with… condoms and whatever. Not in Shinra's bathroom. I-It's… going," Shizuo hesitated; a tad embarassed even though he was sure Izaya knew it already. "It's going to be my first time. I want to hold you just like I wish to."

The brunet had a few dark strands covering his eyes but after a few seconds, he smirked. "Shizu-chan… is such a girl." He murmured while turning his face. His eyes were still wet but he was smirking. Shizuo smiled a bit. He knew Izaya long enough to know that he was just hiding his feelings and masking his emotions, but Shizuo didn't even mind it. He was happy to even know that about Izaya and not fall for his tricks. "Fine. But I really, really want to do it soon. Don't take too long to find your moment or… whatever your girly hormones want."

Shizuo nodded and got up, letting Izaya go and helping him up with a hand, pulling him up and into his arms, hugging him close. The brunet chuckled and Shizuo too, tilting his face with his fingers and kissing the smaller man's lips. They both closed their eyes, dwelling into the pleasures that one could give to each other. Shizuo always felt a bit nervous kissing him, because it felt so good and unreal. He may never know, but Izaya always felt his stomach flipping when kissing the blond.

With their eyes closed, Izaya moved his hands to caress Shizuo's shoulders while the blond explored all corners of the wet mouth he was kissing, figuring every detail of it. He licked his teeth but soon Izaya's tongue was around his, hungrily sucking on him. Slowly, Shizuo pulled away, putting his forehead against Izaya's, while staring on his eyes.

"You know… before going to Shinra's yesterday, I almost bought… condoms and lube." He felt his cheeks warming up while Izaya's face split into laughter.

"Ahaha! Shizu-chan, I can just see you deciding if you should buy it or not, embarassed and all, and then deciding not to." The blond blushed harder.

"Agh… It's true. I felt embarassed even before going into the pharmacy."

Izaya let go of him and put his hands on his waist looking all confident. "Fear not, Shizu-chan. I'll buy it, then."

Shizuo felt relieved. "Really? I would gladly let you." Izaya nodded happily.

"Alright, let's go! I still have time before heading home." And he smiled. Shizuo felt great seeing his smile again, and slowly moved his hand to hold Izaya's once again.

"You look so pretty smiling…" Then he felt even better when Izaya blushed and turned his face away.

"That was… random." Then Shizuo leaned in, very aware that he wouldn't see this shy Izaya for long, and kissed his head, right over his ear whispering.

"But you are."

Izaya soon got back to his senses. "I know I'm awesome, the best you've ever seen." Shizuo chuckled.

"Oi, don't get too convinced."

"What can I do, Shizu-chan, if you randomly kiss me and call me wonderfully sexy."

"I didn't say that..."

Izaya feignted an offended expression. "Hey, are you saying I'm not?"

"Nah, you are. I just didn't say it out loud".

"Yeah, right. Let's go to the pharmacy and get this over with."

Shizuo nodded and letting his hand go, they walked side by side to the nearest pharmacy. They got in together but Shizuo left Izaya alone; he did want to see Izaya asking for it, but he'd rather pretend he had nothing to do with this. The brunet laughed at that and walked around, going to the cashier with the objects in hand.

"Hello! I want those today." He put on an innocent smile and put some condoms and lube over the balcony. The vendor looked surprised and a bit embarrassed but acted normally. Shizuo figured he was probably used to this kind of akward situation. In the end, Izaya payed, got his plastic bag and walked away, meeting Shizuo who was already outside.

"See? That was easy."

"For you…"

"Yeah, alright." They walked together for a few minutes until Shizuo asked.

"So you're going home?" Izaya checked his mobile phone.

"I should…" The brunet looked a bit down at that but soon smiled again, giving the bag to Shizuo. "Bye, then."

"Bye." Izaya backed two steps before asking.

"So that…" He pointed to the bag. "Means you'll be calling me as soon as you have an opportunity, right?"

Shizuo felt his blood rushing to his face and looked down. "Y-yeah, I guess." Before he even looked up, Izaya kissed his cheek and walked away.

"Bye Shizu-chaaan! See you soon!" Then he blinked, leaving an embarassed Shizuo alone.