"What do you think England would like to talk to us about?" Deep concern washed onto Japan's face as they passed room through room until they reached their destination. Nervousness took over Japan and he slowly began to tremble as he walked.
"Well for obvious reasons, he'll talk about America. Other than that, I don't know. He was the one after all who told me to leave the room so he could speak to America privately, maybe he'll say something about what happened back there."
Japan nodded back as his response. Questions still rang in their heads as they turned from hallway to hallway. Who knows what England would talk to them about? It made it worse that he didn't ask for America to come speak with them, and it was even informed that it would take a long while before they could report back to the other countries about their little visit.
They took their last stop and slowed down as they approached England's door. They stared off into the plain,white door and took deep breaths before France would knock on the door.
Oh Angleterre, I hope you're still in there. You lost America, now you lost yourself.
France slowly opened the door and took a look st England.
Italy was right.
Something seemed off from him. It felt like his eyes were darker in color, and underneath them were starting to form bags. His hair was messier than usual and a glare was forced on France and Japan.
England looked so weak, but it like if they did anything wrong, he would kill them in an instant.
"England?" France took a quick breath after he could hear himself stuttering. For the first time in a while, he was greatly frightened of England. "We heard that you n-n-needed something, o-o-or wanted to t-talk to us. What do you want to tell us?"
England was shocked from the way France spoke and how he and Japan looked at him. Their eyes were widened out of fear and their bodies were shaking and could watch as they tried to stop themselves, but failed miserably.
Why are they staring at me like that? Is there something on my face?
England's blinked his eyes in realization. He hasn't looked in a mirror lately, and would never get out of his bed unless he needed to go to he restroom.
"I have to tell you something, but you have to promise me that you won't tell anyone, especially America. Understood?" his voice almost sounded like it normally was and watched as the two nations nodded and came closer to his side.
England sighed and his voice started to fill with doubt and wonder.
"I don't know how to explain this, but I'm almost starting to believe about what you've been saying of America." His eyes darted to the two nations as they let out a slight breath as relief was found in their faces.
"Don't get too excited. Something happened while I was passed out." England shuddered for a second and looked back at France.
"He asked me about the war. I didn't remember anything. I remember myself beating you after the war. Everything after that is blank. Right there I began to panic, my head was spinning so fast and it felt like I was going to stop breathing."
France stared back in shock as he grasped in everything England was saying.
"Then, I saw him."
"Saw who?" Japan said back with worry in his mouth.
"I was taking care of him. I saw myself taking care of a small child. I thought it was some kind of dream, but it wasn't. I don't remember doing that in my entire life, but it's like it belongs to me. I had a memory of America as a child. Nothing more."
France was stunned to the point where he couldn't move. The good thing about this was that he does remember America, but why did he only receive one single memory and how did he get it back?
"I was overwhelmed with shock. I felt myself drifting away and the lights started to go dim. Before I closed my eyes, I saw America again as a child. I heard him whisper my name before I passed out."
A wet tear fell down his cheek before he could start speaking again. He looked down at his hands on his lap, not wanting to see the expressions of France or Japan.
"I woke up in this strange place, everywhere you looked there was only white. It looked like there was no exit to be found, and I started to believe that I was dead. I looked everywhere to escape, and I was running out of options. That's when I saw him."
"Him? Do you mean America-san?" Japan went closer to England's side and patted his shoulder for comfort.
"No, I met myself. I know it seems strange and that it might look like a dream, but it wasn't. When we first met, he looked like someone who just woke up from the dead. He was me after the accident. He's my memories." he turned his head back to France to see a look of confusion.
"Your memories? Memories were never a person the last time I checked. Maybe that crash went a little too far in your head." Japan nudged France in the stomach for making that statement.
Does Japan believe me? He doesn't look that surprised to me...
"So, what did your memories say to you?" France said with mockery in his tone.
England sighed one last time before he explained everything. "He said that he was a part of me, but the accident did something to us. Something is blocking my past self from reminding me of my memories. That's why I've been forgetting everything about America. But just for a small moment, he was released. I was able to remember America as a child and me as his caretaker. After I remembered, my memories were blocked again." England refrained from speaking any longer.
If I told them that I'm the one who blocking America, they would all think it was my fault that all of this was happening. God, if America was listening right now...
Silence filled the room and no one wanted to break it. Japan tried to think of all the explanations of why this was happening while France stood there stunned of what he had just heard.
"England, it seems like you're telling the truth, but I can't put this all together. I feel like you're forgetting to tell us something." Japan spoke out in the too-quiet room.
Damn, I think he's noticing what's going on.
"If this person is your past, wouldn't he also hold the memories of all the other countries? It would mean you wouldn't be able to recognize anybody when you woke up. And how was he able to give a memory to you until he was blocked again? I don't understand how he was able to accomplish that." Japan narrowed his eyes back at England, waiting patiently for an answer.
You're going to have to tell them sooner or later Arthur, this includes America.
England froze at what he heard inside his head. His other self was speaking to him.
But how? They would either think I'm saying nonsense or argue with me that I am practically betraying America.
True, but after all of that, they'll help you into releasing me and you remembering America once more.
How can you be so sure about that?
I am you of course. I have my doubts and so do you. You have to tell them.
"Arthur?! Are you even listening to us?"
Arthur? Why is France calling me by my human name?
Then, something clicked in England's brain.
Alfred.
Alfred F. Jones. That's his real name.
"Angleterre! What is on with you? Are you deaf or something?" France began shaking England to startle him out of his trance.
How- You were released again?
I used to be, now I'm stuck again. But that is his human name.
England looked into France's blue eyes with wide eyes.
"His name. It's Alfred. His name is Alfred F. Jones. Am I correct?"
France took his hand away from England's shoulders and backed away slowly before he bumped into a wall. Japan turned and nodded his head as a response.
"How did you figure it out? Your past self is released?" Japan stood a bit closer to England than usual. He was curious into why this was all happening in a single moment.
"He was, but now he's blocked again. He's blocked because of me." He placed a hand to his temple in confusion but in wonder to why this occurred.
"What do you mean-" Japan started but England interrupted him.
"I didn't want to tell you this, but the 'something' that is blocking my memories is me. I don't know why I am but because of me, I can't remember anything of America. My past self told me that I'm allowing my memories of the other nations into my mind, but not America. To put this all together, I forgot America by my own will and it's all my fault." England waited for the tears to fall down his face and for the shouting to begin.
All he felt was a warm hug coming from Japan.
"You remembered him twice, but you can do it again. It's not entirely your fault, and this is how America is feeling right now. He thinks that he should be to blame for all of this happening." Japan spoke with a sincere and soft voice that calmed England down.
"He thinks that this is all his fault? Why the bloody hell would he think that?" he could see that his tears were falling into the Japanese man's clothes.
"He cares for you Arthur-san," England flinched at the sound of his human name. "he's almost at the point where he could break down in complete misery."
"Let me see him. When I leave this hospital, I want to see him. I need to see him. I just have to." Tears continued to fall down and his eyes were puffy and red from his sobbing.
"You really need to see him, don't you?" France stood by the bed with a slow and soft voice that comforted England.
"I just want to remember him."
He held into Japan's arms and continued to sob until he was all out of tears.
I am now finished with the most depressing and saddest section of the story. Hopefully.
England is FINALLY going to leave the hospital and see America again in the next chapter *squeals in joy* and I could sense some yaoi in the later chapters.
Sometimes I could just be France when it comes to yaoi or anything having to do with USUK. Oh, did anyone catch a small bit of AsaKiku in there? I didn't know what else to put so... yeah.
Next week is gonna be Thanksgiving and I might post a oneshot on that day.
I have a few ideas for stories and it would help me if you could pick out which stories would be good for me to write:
-Beauty & the Beast (using Germany as the beast and Italy as Belle)
-Seven Deadly Sins (Vocaloid version using Hetalia characters)
-Hetaoni(I want it to be something with HRE and Italy in it, but who knows...)
-Alluring Secret(still with the Vocaloid song with nations)
-Fluff(just pure fluff)
-Thanksgiving/Christmas/New Years special(all the nations coming together and celebrating the holidays together...)
-(I have an idea about Prussia no longer was declared a nation and he becomes a human. He goes on the rest of his life growing old and basically how the other countries are reacting to this *looks at Germany and Hungary*)
Those are all the ideas I have to write, so please tell me which one do you guys think I should write, any would be fine!
Please review and favorite since you guys are the best!
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