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"Are you kidding me?"
Lucy's lips tightened and her hands curled into fists. "Are you
kidding me?!" She
seemed as though she was going to run off or slap Jude in the face,
but she ended up doing neither, stuck between the two actions,
frozen.
Prudence's face was shocked, scared,
and sorry, and she stood behind Lucy, biting her lower lip, looking
from one man to the other. No one was speaking.
They all heard the ticking of a clock like a time bomb, and it was
easy to tell that they thought Lucy was going to be the one to blow.
They were right. "Why couldn't you just TELL me, Jude?"
"Lucy," Jude stood slowly, treating his fiancee like she
was a wild animal, ready to bite his hand at any moment.
"NO. Don't you dare 'Lucy' me." The claws were out. "All
this time you've been pretending! Dragging me along, saying you loved
me when you were really... Oh god."
She put a hand to her forehead, trying to comprehend the gravity of
the situation as she began to tear up.
"I
wasn't pretendin, Luce. I do love ye."
Max
looked down, swallowing the words he wanted to say. Prudence was the
only one who saw. She sidled slowly out of the room, but no one
noticed.
"Then why the hell,
Jude, are you kissing him again?
What, can't go a few weeks without sex? I don't put out, so you turn
to my fucking BROTHER?!"
"That's not
how it is."
"Then please,
enlighten me! Why do you keep running back to Max!?"
Jude looked down, opened his mouth, then closed it again. Max looked
at him closely, but Jude didn't say a word.
"Jesus Christ, Jude." Max's voice was an exasperated
whisper, and with a sigh, he stood. "You can be such a coward
sometimes." Lucy and Jude both stared at him and he went on,
resting a hand on Jude's shoulder and looking at his sister. "Maybe
we should talk, Luce. 'Cause you're about to rip off Jude's face, and
we both know he's too pretty for that."
Lucy wasn't done being angry, not by a long shot. "Oh, shut up,
Max. If we're going to talk, we're going to talk with Jude. He needs
to make up his mind and you know it just as well as I do." She
looked over at Jude, witnessing the guilty, worried look on his face.
"You told me," she began slowly, "that you didn't want
to hurt either of us. Well, look now, Jude. I'm in tears and Max
looks like hell."
"Love you too,
sis."
She shot him a withering glare and
Max forced down a smile. He was acting like a little kid. Jude wished
he could feel just as lighthearted about the situation. Lucy went on.
"So you're going to hurt one of us really badly, and we both
know it, but you're going to have to do it right now. I'm sick of
waiting, and I know Max feels the same damn way."
Jude shook his head, going crazy with the level of tension in the
room. "It's not that easy, Luce."
"Well, it should be! Tell us who you choose before I break it
off myself." She tore her eyes from her fiancee and shifted to
Max, who was shuffling his feet and looking nonchalantly at the
floor. "Shouldn't you be worried right now?" She snapped,
genuinely irritated.
Max looked up as though he
had just noticed her, and his eyes shifted to Jude, who was sweating
under the pressure. "No." he said simply and shrugged. "I"m
not worried at all." He ran a hand through his hair and went on,
tired of the back-and-forth games they were all playing, He had to
set things straight (in a manner of speaking) and it looked like Jude
wasn't going to be helping him. "Luce, I don't know if you're
gonna get this or not, but I'm about to tell you something you might
not want to hear." He paused for dramatic effect, enjoying the
eyes in the room fixed on him, enjoying the spotlight like he used
to. Something about Jude's confession and kiss had rejuvenated him.
Something had brought back the Max he used to be, and his heart was
light, because he knew something his sister didn't. "Just now,
before you and Prudence rudely interrupted, Jude kissed me."
"I'm aware of that, Max," Lucy snarled, but Max didn't pay
attention to her. He was watching Jude's face go red with
embarrassment. Smiling lovingly at the man, Max began to explain
himself, steadily and slowly, for once the only level head in the
room. He looked to Lucy when he spoke.
"See,
I don't think you know what you walked in on, really! I mean, Jude
kissed me like I've
never seen him kiss
you. I thought, when I told Jude to come back to New York, that I
would be giving him up for good, that you two would have a great life
together and I would be fine as long as the happy couple stayed
together. I thought that you were everything Jude wanted, and I was
going to give him to you." He laughed hollowly, shrugging and
holding out his hands. "I thought... I didn't have a goddamn
chance." Max's smile faded. "But before you came in, Jude
told me that he was happy with me. We were laughing, Lucy. Have you
ever heard of it? Laughing? Something Jude tells me he does very
little of in your majesty's presence. I used to think that given the
choice, he would take you in a moment, but after he kissed me like
that... Lucy, I know he loves me. So even if right now, he says that
he chooses you, if he agrees never to be alone with me again or
whatever stupid fucking conditions you saddle him with, I know beyond
a shadow of a DOUBT, that it's a lie. That, my dear sister, is
confidence you can't imagine." It seemed as though minutes
passed, and Max's grin reappeared on his face. "So, no. I'm not
worried."
That last little comment is what
Lucy needed to snap herself back into action. "I..." Though
it would have helped if she had any idea what to say. "Is that
true?"
Max turned to Jude, knowing that
this was the real moment of truth. Jude had to take matters into his
own hands now, and Max was certain he would do the right thing. The
Brit took in a deep, heavy breath, finally ready to say what he felt,
finally strengthened by the strength of the man beside him. "Yeah,
Luce. It's true." Her eyes welled with tears again, and Jude
began to explain himself calmly. "I love ye a lot, but we don'
belong together. It doesn' feel right, bein with ye anymore. It
doesn' feel ... I don'... " He tried to find the words, but
started over, a small, sad smile taking his lips. "When I'm with
Max, everythin feels right. Everythin's warm and I fell like I could
be with 'im forever. Let's face it, Luce. We can barely stay in the
same room for more'n five minutes these days. Let alone a
lifetime."
In the brief moment when no one
spoke, they all heard a sniffle and a choke of tears from where
Prudence was hiding in the hallway, scared to come in and ruin the
moment. It was too late though, the silence was broken, and Lucy was
the one to speak next. "So... So that's it, then?"
"Aye."
"Even though he's my
brother."
"Aye."
"And even though you're both... both men?"
"Aye."
"You know people might
not understand. They might even try to... to hurt you. You know that,
don't you?"
"Aye, Luce, but I'm
choosin Max no matter what they think. A lot o' people might not like
it, but I hope ye can accept it, at least."
"I need..." She turned, lip trembling with her held-in
sobs, hands shaking. "I need to get out of here." Making
good on her words, Lucy moved quickly out of the little apartment,
slamming the door behind her. Prudence reappeared in the doorway a
second later, eyes teary with a small, proud grin touching her
lips.
"I'm gonna go find Lucy... talk to
her a bit... but, I want you both to know..." Here, more tears
began to roll down her cheeks, and she ran forward, wrapping her arms
around them both, bringing them down in a fierce hug. They looked at
each other over her shoulders. "I want you both to know how
happy I am for you." Then she was off, chasing after Lucy out
the door.
This left the two men alone again,
and Jude immediately felt a weight lifted from his shoulders. He felt
like he could breathe again and he nearly laughed with the joy of
such relief. He looked at Max, sure for once that he had made the
right decision. "Max... Ye really saved me."
Max
shrugged and stepped a bit closer, trying not to sound too cocky when
he said, "I would think you'd be used to it by now. I'm always
covering for your stupid ass."
Jude didn't
even pay attention to the good-natured insult. All he cared about
right now was kissing that arrogant little grin off of Max's face. So
he did, resting his hands on his friend's--no, his lover's shoulders
and pulling him in close. Max wrapped his arms around Jude's waist
and they stood like that, lips interlocking, for a long time.
Finally, everything felt right, and though Jude knew there would be
hell to pay when they told their friends, when they talked to Lucy,
when they tried to get their lives going again, he wasn't scared.
