Kyle XY season 4 the untold story Chapter 7 Doubt, a kyle xy fanfic

Doubt

This chapter will probably be controversial, but I felt the need to tackle the "Jessi is broken" issue head on. It is inspired on the conversation in the last episode of Kyle XY, where Jessi considers herself broken, and Kyle tells her his character traits are due to his upbringing with the Tragers. Nicole seems to be the only one convinced that "broken" theory is bogus.

I want to keep my characters as close to the show as possible, and I feel that what Nicole says this chapter is a very Nicole thing to say.

Once again, reviews are very welcome – let me know what you think, even if you do not agree with me. Any suggestions are encouraged as well.

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Hillary's house, that same day.

"Kyle are you feeling better?" Amanda asked with concern

Hillary whispered something in Kyle's ear and left to give them some space.

"I am feeling much better, thank you" Kyle said still replaying the conversation with Hillary in his mind.

Amanda approached and took his hand.

"I made you cookies. I figured they help right after you almost get kidnapped" She looked at Kyle with a questioning gaze. Clearly somebody attacked Kyle yesterday, and the 4 of them interfered. The thought that those horrible people who killed Jessi's mother were after Kyle sent shivers across her spine.

"I understand if you want to keep it a secret...." "Whatever happened cannot be normal..."

There was not much of a secret to keep. 'Normal teenagers' do not chase each other at 25 mph. 'Normal teenagers' do not have military grade surveillance equipment installed in their homes. 'Normal teenagers' do not get shot with tranquilizer guns in the middle of a quiet Seattle suburb. I suspected that Latnok was behind the attack. Unfortunately Latnok was just a name. The students we all met at the party seemed to have no knowledge of Latnok's hidden agenda. Cassidy – the only senior member I knew of, was in England. Other than that I had a list of Latnok senior membership from 15 years ago I recovered from Adam's journals. It was not much, but I told Amanda what I knew.

"Amanda, I promised Nicole that this will all be over. We cannot tell her the truth. All she wants is a normal life for her family. She deserves as much."

"Ok, lets think about what we will tell her." Amanda said simply. How could she refuse?

When I hugged her I felt butterflies in my stomach once again. When I was with Amanda a few month ago, my life, my feelings were so simple, so clear. She was the girl I fell in love with, my 'soul mate' as I told Josh. I could not deny that I felt something for Jessi, but even when I kissed her I did not know what it was. Hillary's words were still sounding in my head.

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Trager house, noon

When Kyle and Amanda drove to the house a car was driving away. Kyle managed to get a glimpse of the driver. It was Nathan.

"Kyle, thank God" Nicole hugged Kyle as he walked in. "We were worried sick"

"What happened?"

"I chased Jessi, but was too slow."

Jessi! She could be in trouble! Distraught by my thoughts of Amanda I almost forgot about her.

"I hope she is ok..."

"Jessi called and said she was fine" Nicole said "She will stay with some co-workers for a while. She said she needed some time to clear her head."

"Co-workers? I did not know she had a job" Lori asked Kyle, but he was as surprised as she was.

"Yes, she works at U Dub in a research lab. That nice young man came to pick up a few of her things." Nicole said

"Nathan?! She is staying with Nathan?!" Kyle almost yelled out

"Somebody is jealous!" Josh taunted his brother.

"Nathan is a bad person! I need to go after her!" Kyle was ready to leave

"Kyle, please wait, I need to talk to you." Nicole asked

"Kyle, Jessi said she needed some time away from you" Nicole said when they were in her former office

"She what?!" Kyle's eyes were wide with surprise "She needs me to be there for her. I need to explain..."

"And I am sure you will get a chance to. Kyle listen, what you and Jessi have, whatever it is, it is not healthy..."

Nicole was looking at her adopted son with concern. Kyle was staring at her wide-eyed without saying a word

"Kyle you are the most responsible son a mother could ever ask for, few indiscretions aside, and I know you care about Jessi a lot, but you two are just destroying each other"

"I am not just speaking as your mother, I was also the therapist for both of you"

"Destroying each other?" Kyle repeated confused

"Kyle I watched both of you develop almost since your 'birth'" "When you were here on your own, you were discovering the world and bonding with different people, finding your own unique path."

"Jessi on the other hand has always tried to emulate you, to follow in your footsteps. She tried to befriend the same people you were friends with, her ultimate fantasy, the one Madacorp was bribing her with, was to literally have your life. She never attempted to live her own life, find her own way based on who she was underneath, she was okay with being a 'damaged', or 'broken'..."

Nicole's soft look was filled with anger when she thought of the lies those scientists put in Jessi's head "...version of you."

I was listening to her every word. She did not even realize how true they were. Jessi has tried to be different from me several times, yet every time I stopped her. When she was doing all those tricks to impress her high school friends all she wanted was for the world to see her talents. I was too afraid to lose my 'normal' life, and so I convinced her to stop. I true friend would have realized that she never wanted to be 'normal'. A true friend would have shown her a productive way to use her talents – perhaps to help that architect with his building project, or find a cure for Cancer. Instead I took away the only time in her high school life she truly fit in, and replaced it with humiliation.

Nicole looked at Kyle. He was beginning to understand her point.

"Kyle when you think about your actions, whose opinion matters to you?"

"Well you, Steven, my family, my friends, Amanda and Jessi of course" Kyle tried to think of all the people who he cared about

"Well when it comes to Jessi, it is quite clear that she defines herself solely by what you think of her"

Nicole paused

"She does not even trust her own judgment. This is why she reacts so acutely, whenever you have a disagreement. If I were to define your relationship, I would say you are her older brother, who she trusts absolutely. Physically you are about the same age, but you have been in this world almost twice as long as she has. She looks up to you. Add a romantic involvement to that, and it is a dangerous mix."

"If I am, I have been a terrible brother..."

Why does everyone wants me to be Jessi's brother? I do not feel the same way towards her as I do towards Lori. But Nicole was right about one thing. Up until that day I held Cassidy's life in my hands, same day I kissed both Jessi and Amanda I was always certain I knew the right thing to do. I wanted the same for Jessi, and perhaps I have convinced her that my way was the only proper way to behave. Last few weeks have convinced me otherwise. Every action I took was to help those I love, yet I ended up hurting the people I loved the most. Does Jessi think she is broken because she acts differently from me? This thought was more painful than torture. I admired Jessi's passion, her adventurous spirit, and her desire to excel. Those were not traits to be ashamed off, just because I did not share them myself. I needed to tell her that. But maybe Nicole was right. Maybe Jessi needed some space.

"What should I do?"

"Well I cannot ask you to stop seeing Jessi" Nicole started. Part of her did want him to do it though. "But I think you need to give her some space to grow, to understand herself. If you both want to continue this relationship afterwards – so be it"

I was now even more confused than before. The thought that I was hurting Jessi instead of helping her was cutting at me like a knife. But there was another concern I had to address.

"Foss, we need to talk. I was attacked yesterday"

Kyle told Foss all the details.

"Ok, so you sure you did not see them?"

Kyle was sure, he was the one with the holographic memory after all.

"Do you think Jessi is in danger?"

Foss thought about it for a moment

"Probably not. If they wanted her, they could have clipped her too. Here is what I think: When you removed the cameras from your house you showed them you were onto them. That forced their hand. The good thing is they are not trying to kill you, but merely to capture you."

"Thats a good thing?" Kyle did not understand Foss

"You are very careless with your 'hanging out'. They could have sniped you easily by now if they wanted to. But they need you alive. And apparently they did not want to dispose of those 4 girls."

"Well thats good right?" Kyle asked full of hope "That means they are not murderers."

"Thats not necessarily true. 4 upper middle class white girls disappearing in a Seattle suburb? If that doesn't get media attention, I don't know what will. It is just excessive collateral damage."

Kyle was furious at the thought of Amanda as 'collateral damage'. "We are talking about my friends here!" He yelled

"Kyle this is not a game!" Foss yelled back "These are serious people with serious intentions! You cannot fight them by talking about your feelings." He was calming down. "Unfortunately I cannot just go blow them up either, considering I don't know who 'they' are."

Kyle wanted to intervene but Foss continued.

"While I investigate, you need to keep a low profile, do not walk around alone, and always be aware of your surroundings. Try to stay in public places and not be out after dark. Do the Tragers know?"

"No, I did not want to involve them."

"Good, I ll be in touch"

Nathan walked into Taylor's apartment carrying 2 suitcases filled with Jessi's belongings. Jessi was typing something into the computer.

"I guess I need an IQ above 200 to progress past manual labor" he joked at Jessi.

Normally Jessi would say something sarcastic, but that day she decided she needed to make friends other than Kyle. Nate was a grade A jerk, but he did apologize, and Jessi was no saint herself.

"Thanks for bringing my stuff Nate." "I did not want to face Kyle again"

"No problem, I used to fight with my brother all the time" Nate was trying to play nice, after all Jessi just transitioned from Public Enemy #1 to his boss's baby girl. "I hate Latnok politics" he thought to himself. Nathan grabbed two bottles of coke from the fridge. "Want one?"

"Brother?" Jessi looked at him confused "We are not related" as she took a bottle from Nate. "I shouldn't" she thought to herself, but she could not help it. She started concentrating...

"Will anyone ever tell me the whole truth about those 2?!" Nathan thought to himself

"Oh Cassidy told me..." at the mention of his name Jessi's eyes were filled with anger "...well I gotta say, that makes you 2 a lot less weird in my book." Cassidy was hardly trustworthy

"Weird?" Jessi was still confused

"You know, the obvious sexual tension between you two..." Nathan looked at her "we had a poll going on when you will finally make out in the middle of the Latnok student lounge"

Jessi blushed. She did not realize her feelings for Kyle were this transparent.

"A poll?"

"Yeah I have 20 bucks saying it will happen by Wednesday. We could split the bounty you know..."

Nathan's crude humor was clearly lost on her.

"Its a joke. What I mean is Kyle clearly likes you..." Nathan said as he was opening his bottle

"Nathan don't!" Jessi suddenly yelled out. It was too late, as soon as Nathan opened the bottle the liquid exploded all over his face

"How did you?..."

"I manipulated the polarity of the soda in your bottle. The turbulence pushed the carbon dioxide to the surface..."

"How?..."

"I can manipulate the polarity of the cells in my body."

"So that time my laptop got ruined?..."

"It was me" Jessi gave him her mischievous smile

"And that other time..."

"Yup"

"And the time before that when..."

"All me Nate" Jessi tilted her head and was looking at Nate curiously. She was wondering what he would do. Nathan processed the information. Jessi has been pulling pranks on him all week. He wasn't angry, a little jealous maybe – that would be a kick ass skill to have!

"Well then, you would not mind if I do this" With these words Nathan started spraying Jessi with what remained in his coke bottle. Jessi did not panic and retaliated from her own bottle. It was fun. For the first time since her fight with Kyle she was laughing.

Don't worry guys, I am not giving up on Kessi! But Kyle does have some thinking to do, and Jessi in my story will be closer to Sarah from chapter 5 rather than a helpless damsel in need of rescue. Hope you will enjoy the developing dynamics.

Next chapter will be lighter, and will include Declan and Foss's adventures in Europe and Jessi getting herself in silly trouble. Coming soon!